#I never made a connection because... admittedly Vardem is such a ''it seemed like he was trying to design a place for Bloodborne 2

[blackvahana]

Never... uh... never drew the connection between the names Ananyavarda and Vardem before now and I'm not sure if I'm supposed to...

I sort of. huh. That's. Eerily taking up quite a lot of my thought power at the moment

I sort of realised earlier... My god there's so much context to the presence of Bloodborne in my life, summarised now by "I'm pretty sure the game is about family, and regardless of whether it is or not, when I was a bloodborne pc pagan Bloodborne covered up an immense amount of things, from the identities of my sons and their school-cult being mapped to characters, memories being turned into false memories, energies and places being turned into bloodborne-related imagery and places, and so on"... Emphasis on that second part, because I've been trying to dig up what I felt that was attributed to Bloodborne. I felt things so vividly, and I realised last time Lev came over to play that uh bloodborne the game is not actually indivisible from the energies I felt, it was a case that it was reminding me of and stirring up specific energies and so on

I sort of realised earlier, to start that sentence a third (haha it's always three=manifesting with bloodborne) time, that... ANVD funnily enough is heading in the direction of being like the Dreams/Nightmares in our spiritual view of them back then. I quickly tried to bury the thought because I'm admittedly sick of fictional shit, but

Vardem... Vardem's been a mystery. Vardem was... a new Dream that Lull was being called on to help shape and create, effectively I believe he was starting to create not a mindspace but a realm - and by that I don't even mean he was creating it. I mean that I think he was miming creating something, and what exactly he was miming creating is the question

Do I think it is ANVD? No, I actually really don't. But there's some kind of... something... There's some kind of... Well, look, what I can say because speech is hard holding all these eggs is it's weirding me out that Lev knows what Vardem is because my tf asked him about it years ago and he got all uncomfortable, Lev knows ANVD, Lev gave ANVD the name Ananyavarda (Ananya-Varda), that's interesting