#I love when he’s sick and in pain
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what was the point of lila thinking home was a feeling she didn't deserve and could never earn until she found diego. what was the point of them finding deep, meaningful love in each other. what was the point of lila opening her heart and confessing that all she really wanted was a family with him.
what was the point of developing diego and lila over two seasons, creating such a beautiful, chaotic bond, just to destroy it for no reason.
#the umbrella academy#diego x lila#lila pitts#diego hargreeves#what was the point!!!!!!#isn't it great when there's no character resolution and everyone just gets erased from existence#instead of giving us emotional closure they just added more pain and trauma and called it a day#what was it all for exactly. to give the handler a peaceful happy life of all people#don't even get me started on the bracelet or that awful pointless love triangle#steve blackman is gross and so is the way he talks about lila like she's not even a character in her own right but just an afterthought#someone who was there to pair with five while diminishing all that she is#five needed a love story so they just shoved lila into that role as if she were some random accessory to five's story#rather than her own character with thoughts and feelings#a woman's entire character arc is ruined just to give a guy a love interest#i feel sick#i've already mentioned some of this on twitter but whatever#as you can probably guess i'm not going to gif this so-called new season#lila deserved better. diego deserved better. we deserved better
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the rendering here accurately reflects my post-round 7 mental state: a mess
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#alien stage#ivan#till#mizi#alnst#fanart#myart#doodle#round 7 destroyed me and this scene especially sent chills down my spine#i was crying to at least 3 diff ppl earlier today when i watched the mv#vivinos quite literally owes me therapy#something about this scene and ivan looking at till and till not looking at ivan even after round 6#sick and twisted and evil#copypasting my exact live reactions: the way till snapped out of it bc of mizi and how he immediately went to her despite the situation#at that point idt his mind was on the competition it was almost like he was seeking relief?? to me at least??#and yes i saw the post that pointed out how each of them died smiling bc they were seen by the person they cared about most#i am devastated#also shoutout to a certain someone bc now i'm on the ivantill unrealized rather than unrequited love train#it's so painful
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Wyll breaking up with the player character if Ulder dies so Wyll must become the Duke makes me wanna throw up sobbing because he actually thinks that just because his father's first duty being to Baldur's Gate made him a Bad Father that Wyll himself will inevitably be a Bad Lover because surely no one could match love with duty if his father couldn't, unknowing he has more love in one hand than his father had in his entire body. fuck
#More in my reblog#“my father taught me more lessons than I can count” yeah dog they were called CAUTIONARY TALES 😭😭😭#“pull me too close and I'm destined to hurt you” FUCKIGN. BITING YOU#“a champion's heart is as sharp as a new blade” SO CRAZY I GOT THIS SICK ASS ARMOUR. TRY ME.#I'm actually in physical pain over this. Wyll my love.#I need to rip ulder in two with my bare hands right now.#sorry I JUST saw the breakup scene for the first time today and I haven't stopped thinking about it it's making me ill with sadness#he didn't even break up with ME but it fucking feels like it goddamn#bg3#Wyll Ravengard#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#bg3 analysis#oh my GOD and the fact that he offers one last dance. I'mgoing to ufckingexplode#and he spends five whole seconds just. holding the character. not even dancing.#I watched the version with him and astarion ofc I don't romance wyll myself (lesbianism)#makes me wanna write a fucking fic (derogatory)#why the fuck is everyone so ill over astarion when mr insane mental health issues is RIGHT here (i know why. but still)
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I want to read about Jamie courting the hell out of Roy, wining and dining him, bringing him coffee in the morning, leaving him pastries on his desk with a sweet post it note, buying him flowers, making him hella flustered and panicky at the lack of control because that's always been Roy's role when dating someone
#he also brings him soup and medicine when he's sick of course#and sometimes he'll carry his bag or the groceries bags#the first time Roy stays over at Jamies and Jamie makes sure he's got ice packs for his knee and the right freeze cream to give him a massa#he'll bump hips with him while walking and look him with those big smiley eyes#he lets Roy borrow his hoodie one day and then proceeds to be unable to stop starting at him cause he loves him so much in his clothes#he wants to do all the domestic shit with Roy#he smiles so big every time they brush their teeth together or go grocery shopping or hold hands in the car#I have this obsession with picturing Roy having a very shitty day with chronic pain and Jamie just finds him curled up on the couch facing#the back of it grimacing in pain wrapped up in a blanket#and he knees on the floor right by his head and wraps his arms around him like one going over Roy side but under Roy's arm then holding his#their hands over Roy's chest#slowly nuzzling his neck giving little temple kisses whispering soothing words#roy jamie#royjamie#jamieroy#jamie x roy#roy x jamie
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sometimes i listen to 'the view between villages' and i wonder if oikawa feels resentment when he goes home to japan
#he steps foot in miyagi and all the sudden he's 17 again#he feels the phantom ache of the growing pains he used to get when he hit his growth spurt in first year#remembers the way his uniform blazer smelled when his mom had just washed it#can hear the sound of the bell at seijoh that rang between classes#and he gets a terrible sick feeling in his stomach#because more than anything he remembers the optimism he had about the future and what was in store for him#and he's happy now in argentina. he is. genuinely.#but he also loves his home more than anything#and there will always be a part of him that can never forgive the fact that he had to leave it just to follow his dream#basically i encourage you to listen to 01:47 onward of the view between villages and suffer with me
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i’m so sorry if i seem a bit off or post less in the next week or so — i just found out my beloved 17 years old soulmate cat got diagnosed with bone cancer and he doesn’t have much time left. he lives in my family home with my parents still whilst i’m abroad so it’s double tough because i can’t be with him. i just need some time to calm down and make my peace with everything
#vic.txt#i’m just so damn sad he’s my most beloved boy i got him when i was fucking 7#we grew up together i cried with him i laughed with him he’s been my companion my number one boy for my entire life#i know it’s silly like yeah it’s a cat not a human being but we formed such a strong bond#when i had c0vid last year he lied with me all day all night#i love him i love him i’m so fucking mad at the universe he does not deserve this fate#and he’s so old the treatment isn’t really an option#he’s fine now he isn’t in pain but as soon as his cancer progresses he will have to be put down so he doesn’t suffer for nothing#i just want to be with him when that happens i want him to know he’s not alone and that i love him very much#txt#tw: animal death#tw: animal sickness
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IM SSOOOO SSIIIIIICCKKKKKKKDKSKSKAMAKSX
#NATHANS SUCH A LOSER IN NEFORE THE STORM FUUCUCCKVKKKK#HES SO BABY HES LIKE FOURTEEN#THATS SO CRAZY#omg hes so fuckinggggg . tiny#so tiny and full of pure rage and mental illness and nobody to see that#kate marsh and nathan prescott when theyre two different cases of ignored until its too late#im sick in the cucking head#nathans so#WHY IS HE SO#why am i so GODDAMN PREDICTABLE LIKE OF COURSE ITS NATHAN FUCKASS PRESCOTTTRTFTMTKEKWKSKSJXMCMDS#i love him. i unapolgetically defend him#love me some fucked up characters who do fucked up things#like yeah man.#godddddd#but god i may be fixating i him but I LITERALLY LOVE EVER Y CHARACTER IN THIS FUCKING GAME#MAX AND CHLOE MAKE ME WANT TO KMS SO BAD .POS#MY GGOODD#CHLOE AND RACHEL AAAHHH#CHLOE IN BTS 😭😭😭#SHE US IN SO KUCHC FUCKING PAIN#IM SO SAD#god#this game and GRIEF#minnie post
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curse these wretched organs vro what the Fuck man !!!!!!!
#hes on his boyeriod#no one look at him#i love 3rd personing myself hhaha#YEEOWTCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#if i stop posting for a week uhhh tell mick thomson i love her cause i probably died#bro thought i was newgen to escape woodstock 99 🤫🧏♂️#fuck my stupid baka life#this is so sick and twisted#sick and twisted#my entire spinal cord is in excruciatingly agonizing pain but that's nothin compared to literally everything else#fuck it we ball#i justr. gotta keep on roulen.....ough..#slipknot yuri save me#stanley is a crazy insane butch and stanford is just a transgender acearo autism man#the oeriod it's making me see things more clearly this shtits makin me hsve a fuckimg EPIPHANY got DAMN IS IT PAINFUL BRO AAAUGHHGJ#should I just post the words instead of putting everything in the tags am i tumblring wrong#oh my jod vro#oh.my glizzy#Dave I am so litty off this fire zaza you gave me#<==quote from a Dirk Strider ms doodle thing by someone else I literally JUST saw it I'll make sure you see the post too#FUCK#ok byebye gang#i love you vro. ❤️#I should prooobably make a tag for when I do shit like this ok fuck wai t#hmmm yapper tag what do i name it hrmm thinks really really hard#st3r1l3s YAPPIN..#Sssssssigan viendo...#ok bye fo rilly this time vro. ❤️
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mmm billyswag angst panel. billy is venting about the guest war... (click for quality lawl)
#brickbattler#swagman#billybloxxer#william billy bloxxer#billyswag#roblox#roblox fanart#roblox art#fanart#artists on tumblr#illustration#crowart#crowpost#anyways uhm. took . two days. wowwie#anyways i think its funny that its bathed in warm colors when billy is talking about. the horrors. and the war and stuff#that its bathed in red with swagman. and red is associated with love.... who is absolutely miserable here.#uhm. billy is full of scars from the war. and training and battles. somewhere imagine that he also has burn scars from coolmans telamonster#someone please give billy a haircut and a new fit. or even stitch it. his shirt is probably torn under there#also fire bones emoji refers to mal's headcanon that. coolman was forced to burn the bodies in the guest war ahhh#tears in my eyes. mal paining me with miserable angst thoughts with this one#also thinking that. if swagman does find out that coolman was directly involved in the guest war from billy#swagman looking to the side could mean that hes also. thinking about coolman at that moment#eugh. making me sick. that coolman would have never told swagman that he. did all these things in the war.#when swag and cool both want to do good but this is possibly the worst thing that cool has done and he prob didnt know the scale of it all#aaaaaaaaaaaa im gonna scream and cry and jump off the walls i cant!!!!!!!!#oh!. yea. and also billys hair is getting lighter a little due to stress and things... (thanks mal)
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Does it hurt my feelings that my cat sleeps on my partner's side of the bed? Maybe. Do I love that my cat who is notorious for only really liking me loves and trusts him? Yes. 🥹
#when he scoops her up and she looks up at him with so much love i DIE#i love them so much heck#not chronic pain related#im just sick and she's hanging out with me#(but she's still in her spot that's on his side hehe)#rei
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i really could never be a zamid shipper
#THEIR STRAINED RELATIONSHIP IS EVERYTHING TO ME <333#also i just. i just realized. that zolf refers to wilde as his oldest friend in a few episodes.#when he HAS known hamid longer.#it's probably a result of ben/zolf struggling to find the right words to say how much wilde means to him but.#I FEEL SICK ABOUT IT.#the only way i could ship zamid is like one sided and NEVER together#i only like zamid in the context of THEY KEEP JUST MISSING EACH OTHER AOIYHHHHH#rqg#bluebird.txt#i love it. it's so painful.
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tbf the most fascinating part of radahn as a boss and character to me isn't even the horsegirl\war general aspect of him. it's the fact that he uses spears people stabbed him with as arrows. that's metal as fuck.
#like ok not to expose myself here w shitty analytics but when the cleanrot knight stabs radahn in that one cinematic#it reminds me a little of that one scene in beauty and the beast where beast's hide is stabbed with an arrow#this is. most certainly not intentional but the imagery.#the concept of being in pain for a long time and fighting through it#have you noticed his back is a pincushion already by the time he fights malenia? goddamn#also i supposed at one point it would have been interesting if the spears caused rot buildup but i realize now that wouldn't fit#as his rune states his body constantly burns to try fight off the rot#that AND#the fact the spears are infused w gravity magic#like. bro. talk about turning the enemy's power against them#idk basically i see why his troops loved him the way they did if my military superior got shanked and 1. tore ut out of their body#and 2. chucked it back at the enemy#that is so fucking sick!!!!
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Currently feverish and sick, so this may not make any sense to anyone but me. But in the movie, keatlejuice makes a quip about how he was there during the black death - in my mind this means he's intimately familiar with how illness and disease affect breathers. And while before it was funny at best and kind of annoying at worst, he now actually has a breather he doesn't want to be sick, especially if it could possibly end with them no longer breathing. Add this to the fact that this loser has the emotional maturity of a rotting cabbage, and you have the perfect recipe for disaster whenever you get sick.
He's trying to play it cool, but he's hovering like crazy and jerking his head up every time you cough or sneeze. He's burning through cigarettes faster than you can keep track of, though between your chest cold and your asthma you have to remind him to keep it as far away from you as possible (which he definitely doesn't like but after triggering more than one coughing fit it seems to get through his thick head that it's necessary). He won't sit still either, pacing around your house and trying to find something to distract him from this annoying bubble of worry in his chest. He hates feeling this way, hates that some stupid breather has managed to worm their way under his skin and lodge themselves in his unbeating heart, but he can't seem to pull himself away from you.
He definitely won't be the attentive loving type when you're sick, at least not at first. Maybe with time and a wearing down of the mask he's built up all these centuries he'll be better about it, but for now he's trapped between the uncaring jackass persona he's perfected and the desire to mold himself along your body and make sure your heart keeps beating beneath his ear. So you get this weird in-between: intense hovering and vigilance with a bitchy attitude and crappy bedside manner that almost makes you want to kill him. But it never escapes your notice that the blankets stay up around your shoulders and your cold water never goes room temperature no matter how long you sleep, and that's enough for now.
#my stuff#beetlejuice x reader#keatlejuice x reader#can y'all tell I'd like a stinky bug man to hover over me rn#idk what it is about when i get sick that i have so many keatlejuice thoughts specifically#bc i feel like he'd be arguably the worst of the 'juices to have around when you're sick or in pain because he's allergic to vulnerability#but i still love him ♡
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one of the pieces of anakin's fall that everyone always misses is his use of the clones. anakin skywalker, who at 9 wanted to become a jedi. who was so haunted by guilt that he left his mother a slave. who violated the jedi code because he couldnt bear to spend another night not knowing his mother was safe. that anakin. that anakin was ok leading the clones to war. the clones who were made for this, made to work and toil and die without end, so the natborns could live peacefully.
i think if anakin wasnt reeling from the death of his mother and hadnt started slipping to the dark side already he wouldn't have agreed with the use of the clones. i think he would see himself in them - forever scorned, subhuman for the circumstances of their birth, desperately trying to rise above the fact that everyone they've ever met only has an interest in leashing them. so anakin being a general and agreeing to lead the clones is much more sinister than it seems at first blush.
the jedi order agreeing to lead the clones is its own egregious violation of the jedi code. theyre peacekeepers, not generals. they fight individually or in pairs, not in coordinated attacks (see geonosis). everything about them is not meant for violence, but for protection. but for the jedi to lead the clones to be anakin - it's even worse. the jedi know slavery is bad, but they do not expend resources trying to end it - for political reasons ofc, they themselves are at the whims of the republic - but anakin has Lived it. he is more like the clones than any other jedi, which makes his leading them all the more painful and heartwrenching and sick
#like. it makes me sick im going bonkers !!!!!!! anakin looks at rex and his inability to leave and sees himself !!!!!#granted. anakin has cptsd and is groomed by palpatine and im not saying he doesnt have his own complexes about what he does#nor am i saying anakin didnt do what he could to get on with his troopers and try his best to keep them alive. but i Am saying that anakins#fall started when palpatine first met him and planted those seeds of doubt and fear. and that his unquestioning leadership of the clones is#just another thing he lost to his desperation to keep those he loves safe.#he just makes me bark yknow. many thoughts.#i want to do like a fixit where rex and anakin actually like. talk abt the clones and their status and how they were made#and maybe ahsoka and obiwan hunt down exactly the circumstances in which the clones were made. and they maybe realize just how much of#anakin is grief and pain and things they could never understand. but that rex knows intimately.#and then palpatine explodes or trips and falls and dies or fox gets sick of palpatine giving him endless paperwork and beheads him. idk.#canis speaks#starwar#starwar.anakinskywalker#anakin skywalker#<- risking it w a canon tag. dont kill me guys👍
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I know some people are talking about Sally and Barry attempting to emulate their mentors in certain situations, which backfires on them, but I don’t think Barry gave up on trying to be Fuches halfway through. Actually, it was a perfect impression. When he started screaming down the line at Hank, it’s because that’s what Fuches does. Whenever Barry tells him firmly that it’s over and he’s not going to help Fuches anymore, Fuches loses his shit; he yells at Barry that he’s pathetic, he won’t survive without him, when I find you motherfucker! Barry’s mistake was failing to recognise that Hank isn’t him. Hank respects himself, genuinely cares about other people and, most importantly, won’t degrade himself just to feel like somebody loves him. But Barry absolutely would and, with all his other damage, that’s why he’s furious that Hank somehow says no to him.
#barry will always walk on his knees for a hundred miles through the desert#but Hank will let the soft animal of his body love what it loves#and he would never ever do himself damage for somebody to use him. Barry always does#I’m not defending Barry btw I’m not that vein of Barry fan I hope he explodes in an explosion and fuches and maybe gene comes with <3#but Barry has never been loved unselfishly. never been loved by somebody not using him. so he understands love as sacrifice and pain ONLY#love is not gentle. love is a thousand tiny needles. love is their teeth embedded in your heart#so when Hank - who knows love can be both sacrifice and tenderness that you expose the worst of you and have it kissed and not cut open -#when he doesn’t adhere to this system Barry has in his head (when he basically says ‘no. this not how love or the world really works.’)#Barry fucking loses it. The way Fuches loses it. because to them love is pain and if they don’t hurt you they don’t love you#and if they hurt you (no matter how awfully) then you forgive them in the end. you get to be a little upset. but you always go back. always#but Hank won’t and he doesn’t need to! he is loved openly and honestly and any pain comes from having to grow and understand not from abuse#and Barry loathes him for it. he hates it. and he’s never going to get out and he’ll never be free. he is sick sick sick#and there’s not a cure in the world for it anymore#not when he let it fester and get worse and worse and worse. and now it’s over before it’s over.#ANYWAYYYYT#barry#barry hbo#monroe fuches#noho hank#barry berkman#edit: yeah turns out Hank will also kill it though. oops!
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we have a client at work whose "type" is like black pitty mixes (she keeps getting them) and she came in w one the other day and my coworker was like "that's great cause there's that black dog syndrome" and the client was like "oh yeah i have that i love these black dogs" and my coworker was like "no it's about how black dogs are way less likely to get adopted in general" (i added "black cats too") and the client was like ??? WHAT???? FOR REAL??? i love that she's so obsessed w her (gorgeous, well behaved) dogs that she couldn't even conceive of a world where people didn't like them
#Work#Vet med is like. You really do see the WORST of humanity sometimes#Neglect abuse disinterest. You argue w some clients over 'does this dog need pain relief' or 'should you spay your dog w mammary tumors'#And it's super discouraging. Tons of burnout. BUT#You also get people like our client who exclusively rescues old/sick/unadoptable cats#She has like 10 at any given point in her huge immaculate house. All cared for perfectly. Clean. Amazing#You get people digging in their pockets for change for vaccines#Helps I work in a wealthy area too but god damn the love I see every day is genuinely healing#I do want to leave the field still (broke af) but there is so much joy and wonder and love and beauty in it#Also it's funny sometimes. One client used to bring her last dog in a lot (heart issues; now deceased)#And when she dropped him off for echoes or whatever she would say 'he loves large breasted women' AND HE DID????#Charlie I miss you. Your mom is fucking crazy but she loved you and I loved you. And you did love stacked women
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