#I know gore isn't ace but man did it make me think of my partner

[knight-of-moths]

---Heartfire, 10th, 4E 201---

We went to the spot Gore wanted to go, one of them anyway. A gorgeous cliffside, overlooking a vast amount of Skyrim. He wanted to talk about what we could be.

He says he isn't ready for that, he's got a lot of complex trauma and history that gets in this way.

But, gods. I'd wait. I told him, I'll wait.

I'd do that for him.

We went to the other spot he wanted to go, somewhere overlooking the waterfalls. We were ambushed, and some rather interesting things came from his mouth, though nothing more than usual. I inquired about it, and it lead to quite a bit of, well. Interesting history with him.

A killer, by the will of those with more power than him. Who killed to get any peace.

Didn't matter who. Adult and child.

I can't say I'm surprised, though I was in the moment. Given what he's told me about the Ravens, of Jo-Lee, it tracks perfectly.

He probably wouldn't be shocked to learn I've been told to do the same. I'm a knight, formerly anyway, and much like being a Raven, us soldiers would do anything just for a moment of peace, of privacy.

The blood on both of our hands could fill a river. A waterfall, as it were.

I told him I don't love him any less, I don't think less of him because of it. I was in similar, yet different shoes. Maybe I'll get a chance to tell him the truth someday.

Talked to him more tonight. He was expecting me to hate him, so he could end it on his terms. I told him I don't. Regardless of if he's done those things, he's different now. I don't care for him any less.

He thanked me.

I talked to Talley too, about his father, his home. He misses it, but not the people. His things, cats. His body image issues. It makes sense to me why he puts so much into his appearance, given how he's been degraded and demasculinized for it.

Me too.