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panic attacks are so fun <3 especially when you can't calm yourself down from them <3333
#my whole chest feels cold and my hands are shaky#I can feel the adrenaline and its making me dizzy#hard to control my breathing even when I'm trying to#I know exactly what's causing it but can't do shit about it so <3333#I said it before I'll say it again#promised myself I wouldn't let myself get in this position again and yet here I am#at the end all I can do is hope it was worth it or feel beyond stupid if it wasn't#why do I insist on hurting and torturing myself in these ways I do not know
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Hey babes! First of all, let me just say that I ADORE your writing <3333 I can tell you have a lot of passion for what you do!
If it’s alright with you, I’d like to request a Blitzø x fem! reader story. Preferably how he navigates a shy, sweet imp. I was thinking that they could have been childhood friends or something like that. Whatever you decide to do I’ll read (and love) it <3333
Thank you so much!!
aahww thank you sm lovebug🥹💞 I appreciate the kindness !
also,, really hope I got your request right?? I lowkey wasn’t exactly sure on what you wanted LMAO but I hope you like it regardless <3
Blitzo x fem! imp reader | navigate
The sound of your breath in a humid environment was all you could really focus on. Or, more so, trying to control it.
Blitzo insisted taking you on some stupid 'adventure', —if thats what he called it— and of course, it turned into a mission.
Why the hell wouldn't it! You didn't expect much less from him.
You particularly didn't care much for his mission work. Sure, okay, it seemed kinda cool sometimes- - but the,, almost double-dying part, was intimidating as fuck.
Keeping all your limbs attached to your body was really your biggest goal living down in Hell. It was easy enough to end up getting stabbed, maybe break a horn or two, or even end up in a shitty situation with some demon lords that rule rings trying to chase you down. Especially as an imp!
Maybe it was because you actually valued your death-life, and Blitz,, .. just didnt? But, regardless, you didn't wanna be here, doing this today.
A heavy hand rests on your shoulder abruptly, causing a small flinch to react from your figure.
Blitz leans in close, a crazy little smirky smile on his face. If the space between you got any smaller, you thought your oxygen levels would've been completely cut.
He managed to drag you into some hide out, a gun in his hand, army crawl position beside you in a long vent you two crawled inside of together. Shoulders harshly bumping against each other's to prover just how little space there actually was inside.
It was hot in here, and he was hotter, which only added to the uneasiness you felt in your chest.
"Don't tell me you're bitchin' out on me, y/n." He whispers to you, eyes focusing on your nerves. Blitz knew you better than just about anyone. And to be fair, he should. You two have been friends since childhood, so nothing goes unseen around him.
Your frown lightens, vision trailing to look back at him. "Nooo? I'm totally fine," you flash a cheesy smile back.
Blitzo's eyes roll, "Yea- ok, I'm teaching you combat, whether you like it or not, bitch. If youre gonna be working with us, you can't just sit around at the desk looking all cute and shit, everyday." He reminds you, "I need you to learn how to be more assertive!"
He thought you were cute? Ayee, score for you.
Your lips curl into a smirk over at him.
"As cute as I am, I can still be assertive." Now it was your turn to remind him.
It didnt look like he believed that statement. Actually, you knew he didnt.
"What happens when some dick fucker tries being an asshole to you? Pulls out a gun? One day I'm not gonna be able to get there quick enough to save your sorry ass." He frowns, some annoyance clear in his tone.
Your eyes widen, and your lips sound a gasp as you face him. "Oh my god- - is that the sound of you caring about someone other than yourself~?" You tease sarcastically, eyelids lowering casually again. Blitz turns away with a scoff.
"I didn't know that was even possible," you add onto the teasing, obviously getting some sort of rise out of him.
"Listen!" He narrows his vision. "Oka- you know damn well that I—"
His words get cut off. The sound of a door opening, and footsteps entering the room catch both of your attentions. You flinch when the door slams shut behind the figure. It was a short demon. Big horns, and an even bigger snout. He sort of looked like a dead pig. You cringe.
"Oh, fuck." Blitz smirks, raising up his gun. "This is too easy. You comin' or what?" His shoulder nudges yours. You give a dull look in reply. "Do I have a choice?"
"No, you don't." He smirks over his shoulder at you.
You follow close behind his army crawl towards the end of the vent. It wasn't far away at all, just totally felt uncomfortable being on your hands and knees in such a small space for so long.
Blitz quickly kicks out the vent door, and jumps down to the floor with his gun tightly in hand. Your eyes watch his figure as he lands perfectly in the room, alerting the demon who was on Blitz' kill list.
Damn.
It was kind of crazy how good his combat is. You know he has a lot of practice- - which does make you slightly worry from time to time about just how much trouble this job really gets him into. (And how much more it'll get you into if he continues to drag you along for the ride.)
With a small push, you slip yourself out of the vent, and land on two feet with a practiced swiftness. You've gotten enough rehearsal time to do small, crafty things, but you weren't perfect- - nothing like how Blitz was, anyway.
But at least you still looked good doing it.
The listed demon looks quickly between the both of you, Blitz ready with a crazed grin on his face while holding the gun, and you, with your knife strapped to your side, looking nothing as intimidating.
"Y/N! Grab him!" Blitz commands from you.
You hesitate for a second, "Blitz, do we really hav—"
"Cmon!" Blitz tosses his head back and groans, quickly rebounding and aiming the gun to the guys head before he got any bright ideas. "Lets dance, bitch!"
The demon, though all three of you were trapped in a very small room, does his absolute best to dodge each and every bullet. For a porky lookin dude, he was quick on his hooves. He managed to miss most if not all, bullets aimed his way.
You lunge forward, and tackle him to the ground like a tiger pouncing its prey. Blitz cheers you on, fist pumped up in the air as he watches with excitement down at you. "Thats what im talkin about, y/n! Now tie his ass up, we gotta use him as bait for the rest of them."
"The rest of them?" You glare in question.
His hand tosses you down a rope, which you had no idea where he kept it hidden all this time, but look up to Blitz anyway, as you struggled a little, straddling to keep the demon down beneath you.
Your hands desperately grab the rope, and you begin tying. Blitz insisted no helping, as this was his way of teaching you proper ways to hustle- - but you'd gladly accept it if he offered any.
First, you wrap up the struggling mans hands, then, you move down to his kicking feet. He managed to give your shoulder a good hit with his foot, but that only resulted in Blitz raising his own foot, and forcefully bringing the tip of his boot into the guys side. The demon lets out a groan.
"Damn, what the hell, asshole." You glare down at the demon who only glares back up at you through his groans. Your hands take the bandana from around his neck, and retie it around his mouth to prevent any sounds coming out of him.
"Great, now lets get the fuck out of here!" Blitz grins, picking up the hostage and throwing him over his shoulder with a small struggle. You follow along close behind, eyes checking both sides of you with some slight paranoia. It already came to the point in the day where you were very much over this job. Why the fuck couldn't you guys have just stayed in the circus business?
"Y/N! Take out those assholes up on the catwalks!" Blitz points to a few more demons that were going to be next on your list for the day.
While the two of you ran for the far exit, your eyes follow up to where Blitz was looking.
You spot them. "Got it!" Your voice beams, and pulling out your gun, you aim for the straps that kept the walk attached to the ceiling. One shot, you took the one side of the catwalks down, which results in the demons falling and tumbling down to the floor of the warehouse.
"Fuck yeah!" Blitz laughs as he uses the tied hostage as a punching bag for other demons that try to stop the two of you. He swings the hostage demon around, using him as his own personal weapon, causing some slight laughter out of you, to which both you and blitz were surprised about.
The demons you caused to fall, start charging your way. With a quick thought, you take out the knife strapped to your side, and get ready to use it. Blitz grins over at you. "Remember to aim for the neck!" He calls out from ahead of you.
Your smile brightens at the teamwork you both have. "Thanks!"
A hand reaches for you, but with a stealthy slide to the side, you duck under the arms and push the torso of a demon down to the ground.
This was getting . . oddly easy.
You hop over the demon on the floor, and smile brightly over at Blitz.
With you catching up to his side, your lips stretch into a grin as you open the door to the warehouse for him. “Did you see?” Your question was almost eager sounding. Breaking out of the shyness of the situation, you’ve actually gained a bit more combat knowledge.
Blitz grins over at you, throwing the hostage to the ground as the both of you make it out, and find a safer area to catch your breaths.
“Hell yeah bitch!” Blitz looked so happy, giddy, even. It was so freaking cute.
“I knew teaching you my way would pay off.” He crosses his arms, a soft smirk on his face.
Your face flushed lightly, the shyness beginning to take over just a bit. Your shoulders shrug upward, and the smile on your face was light. “Thanks,”
“I’m proud of you.” Blitz’s voice is quieter than his usual loud and obnoxious form, but you still catch it. Your eyes widen a bit, and staring at him in a small shock is all you could do for a second. “Really?”
Blitz looks flustered, so you decide to let any teasing go. It wasn’t often he would give real compliments. Even if he did know you long enough, to.
“Of course, fuck face.” He replies, rolling his eyes with a smile still stuck to his face.
You bump his shoulder, grinning just a little harder than before. “Learned from the best.”
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really sorry its not my best work,, just allot goin on in life rn but I still hope you liked it anyway ! <3
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cat smiling smugly surrounded by knives.jpg :333
>closed casket funeral for the damascuses babey!! : ) + CHRIST. i hadn't even thought about it somehow but like-- yeah. yeah he WOULD be agony beam attacked!! he *just* triggered he has no clue how to control his power. he probably can't even see anything he's too short just like. legs and flashes of the fight through gaps in the crowd. but he could feel all of it. at least one hero probably kicked it in that fight. he felt that!! bro is 9 years old & knows how it feels to be gutted!!!! & also leading question maybe but u should. think abt the parallels btwn scenarios for first & second triggers for dakota at least. its been causing me so much damage & also i'm really satisfied with how well it fits into how they work in canon :]]]
>I KNOW. I KNOWW IM SO SORRY MRS SOL. I LOVE U MRS SOL. but there's like literally no way his whole thing Works if any of them are. still alive, really. u know she wouldn't let him do the shit he's been up to!!!!! + the identity issues literally baked into him yeaaayyaayya :]]]] (speaking of which. ohhh he still literally has to be osdd in this au. physically incapable of thinking abt vyncent virion sol not being a system in any universe. but also the nhw are so unutterably bad at mental health i dont think he even knows it) ive honestly been thinking about, like, how he. realizes what his power is?? because he doesn't know, when he triggers. it's only gonna make a little sense once he touches another cape. what r ur thoughts...?
>WILLIAM WISP-BELL SMALL TOWN HORROR WIN!!!! & I CAN TELL U EXACTLY WHY HE ONLY TRIGGERED WHEN THEY FOUND HIM <3333 for him the breaking point is not the town that hates you is trying to kill you and finally succeeding. for him the breaking point is not having nobody. for him that's all the buildup, but it is the horrifying shame of being found, being seen in the most vulnerable awful way by people who don't fucking get it or give much of a shit about him. there's some sympathy there, but it's not real. it's oh the weird emo kid finally tried to off himself :((( its oh no oh william honey are you okay??? what happened?? you know you can talk to me when did things get this bad?? and knowing-- they don't fucking get it!! they'll think you're crazy!! they'll put you away regardless of how fake or real sympathetic they are because there's no way they'll listen to or believe you and you need to get away, the overwhelming frustration and need to run away and lock your door and never be seen again or just *show* them, make them understand. etc etc etc :o)
anyway augh i think he does think about it!!!!!! i think he does get sleep paralysis about it!!!!! all of the new have mad nightmares regularly but they're all different flavors.....
@stuck-in-the-ghost-zone WOE. NHW TRIGGER EVENTS BE UPON YOU.
-dakota was young-- maybe a bit older than in canon-- & out in the city with his parents when they all got caught in the collateral of an attack by some member of the slaughterhouse 9 (my impulse is siberian or one of the other messy ones) & dakota got lost and separated from them. the emotional state associated with his trigger isn't really even the horror of finding what was left of them. it was before that-- the sudden terror and panic and desperation of losing them and searching for them and not being able to find them in the crowded, violent packed rush to get away. he was up close to the fight when the heroes got there because he wouldn't leave without his parents (he's like. nine years old!! of course he won't :( ), close enough to be sprayed with hot blood, & saw firsthand the wanton violence and gore of it all & was half terrified because of it & also because he just saw her gut someone like cutting through soft butter. and he can't find his parents. that bone deep terror of oh, i'm *alone* & knowing that something dreadful is happening and you're not there and you don't even know where it is or where to be but you feel it in your gut. there isn't a thing in the world he could do to find them or help anyone. that was it. & also the other big part of it is how fucking sudden and out of nowhere it was. one minute you're having an awesome afternoon n the next minute it's a waking nightmare.
--virion saw his father betray the rest of his team in cold blood. he grew up around capes-- his parents both headed the independent team the greats, & the rest of them were always around the house n helped raise virion his whole life. he had so many cool aunts and uncles who did awesome hero work with his parents!! think new wave if it wasn't a torment nexus. he was never allowed out with them, except on patrol sometimes, but he never really had a burning desire to be a cape? he enjoyed being on the other side of it-- they all taught him how to shoot and fight hand-to-hand and resist mind shit & all of the unpowered parahuman response type shit, everything they knew so he could take care of himself. it was good. eventually he started sneaking out to watch their fights & shit, see what they do and how they do it. as much as he didn't want to be a cape, he couldn't just sit and do nothing! the last fight he snuck out to watch was the final confrontation between them and the real, dangerous warlord embedded deep into their city-- the lich. he shouldn't have come. it was so dangerous. they'd have been so mad. he saw their big confrontation and all the bluster and everything. saw his dad shrug and apologize to their family and toss down his weapons. it was a trap, of course, and the first time virion ever wished he had powers, realized how fucking useless his pistol and taser and flares were useless in this situation. he watch, helpless, as they all were quickly and brutally and unceremoniously killed, so efficient that the lich must have studied them for a very long time. or had inside information. he triggered from the bubbling cocktail of visceral betrayal and horror and wanting, above all, to have the power to do something, anything to help his family-- wishing, for the first time, that he was like them, and being frozen powerless.
--william is a bit more complicated (partly bc i want to learn more about deadwood and double check that all my assumptions r correct) but he triggered from the isolation. living somewhere that hated him, where it felt like there were threats in every tree, every aisle of the ancient grocery store, always something awful and malevolent behind him. & the social isolation too, especially. being alone and mostly friendless and wanting to get out, not sure if the awful things he's seeing are real or not, if he's just irreparably fucked in the head or he's living in hell, or what. everyone thinking he's fucking crazy. that always being the only thing he's ever known. anyway. he fell. i still have ambiguous thoughts as to the intentionality of it, as in canon. he didn't die, here, though. just-- mostly died. landed fucked up, bone poking out where it shouldn't and stuff, couldn't move. lay there for hours, knowing that no one would come, knowing that deadwood was still fucking toying with him even as he lay numb and in excruciating pain and bleeding out. anyway he triggered when they found him. <3 & yes it is extremely important that it was when they found him, not before. do u get what i mean?
#THINKING ABT. THEM. YAYAYAYY.#new haven wards#mac tag!#ALSO. honestly. the long version of this shit will. probably end up in the tranches. i think its some tranch material im literally incapabl#of being normal abt them.
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Do you have any thoughts on Domestic SaneGiyuu. Any cute fluff or dirty sexc shit?
((hi! thank you for requesting <3333))
MINORS DNI
Domestic SaneGiyuu Headcanons
(I did moden au for this I hope you don't mind)
Fluff
Sanemi wakes up early in the morning and Giyuu is a heavy sleeper, so it's always Sanemi who cooks the food. Sanemi says Giyuu's cooking is shit but in reality he just really likes cooking for Giyuu.
They're really good at delegating chores to each other. Sanemi knows Giyuu can't be trusted in the kitchen so he lets him do the yardwork. Sometimes when Giyuu is cleaning with the hose he'd "accidentally" turn and spray Sanemi.
Giyuu doesn't like getting into fights even if he knows it'll pass. So, whenever they get into arguments Sanemi tries to hold onto Giyuu's hand sooner or later even if he's still grumpy.
Speaking of being grumpy, Sanemi gets extra grumpy when other people are giving Giyuu a hard time. Sanemi knows Giyuu ain't no baby but if people are being unecessarily rude to Giyuu then it's a sucker punch to the face no cap
They sit in bed at night sometimes with Giyuu just laying on Sanemi's chest or tummy. He slowly falls asleep there while Sanemi reads a book or watches a movie. He lowers the volume when he notices that Giyuu's falling asleep.
NS(F)W
Sanemi tops. I don't make the rules. People make him out to be a rough fuck but I think he fucks Giyuu real sweet and slow to tease him too sometimes.
Sanemi likes receiving head and Giyuu knows this so when Sanemi comes home grumpier than usual he'd know exactly what to do.
Sanemi likes to fuck Giyuu in more adventurous places like inside a closet, on a wall, or on a kitchen counterop. Giyuu prefers to be fucked in a private space like a bedroom or a comfortable place like a couch. He doesn't mind the rough fucking though.
Giyuu has good resolve and doesn't want to get noisy cause he's insecure about the way he sounds and he doesn't want the neighbours to hear. Sanemi ain't having none of that. He wants to hear him so he does everything to have that happen from tugging on his hair, clawing on his sides, or even saying that he'll stop if Giyuu doesn't beg for it.
He doesn't say it but Sanemi knows by heart that Giyuu loves being kissed while being fucked. His favourite places to be kissed are on his lips, neck, and his inner thighs.
#sanegiyuu#sanegiyu#shinazugawa sanemi#kny smut#kny imagines#kny scenarios#kny headcanons#kimetsu no yaiba#kimetsu no yaiba smut#kimetsu no yaiba imagines#kimetsu no yaiba scenarios#kimetsu no yaiba headcanons#anime#anime smut#anime imagines#anime scenarios#anime headcanons#tomioka giyuu#tomioka giyu#anon#answered
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hi! i'm v interested in knowing what you like about trans girl yoin,,, please tell us the headcanons im so curious
HI thank u for sending this ask in i'm sorry i didn't get to it now <3 but yes trans girl yoin...
god idk kakyoin is so very gnc and as a trans* person myself i love any hc where he's not cis like look at that fucking guy and tell me he's cis. he's not holy shit the way he even talks about himself is so gnc but anyway
idk if i could describe why i like the hc so much exactly..i just think kakyoin. it makes more serotonin molecules float in my brain soup than trans man kakyoin
AS for thoughts about specific scenarios i think she'd like skirts a lot...like she'd like skirts anyway even if she wasnt trans cause she got long dancer legs so they look good on her no matter what but combined w the gender euphoria whew. she likes long flowy skirts the best. the Drama if u will of long flowy airy cloth...
other than that idk if kakyoin would care All that much about passing in terms of . society at large. but her body type is fairly ambiguous so that helps. she might have hierophant steal some estrogen packages just so she can get a Little more curves but i can't see her going all that far re medically transitioning. she's mostly focused on the social transition me thinks
when she comes out to polnareff polnareff is like "i have a little sister again (:" and kakyoin is like "my coming out is not abt u" "oh...right..sorry" "...but thanks i guess" ":)"
t4t jotakak: trans girl kakyoin and trans boy jotaro flavored also does a lot to my brain. soooo many serotonin molecules. also, in the words of my friend jade, "here's how jotaro can still be straight" HAHAHAHAHA
joseph would treat her a lot like he treated holly as a kid and it kinda disgruntles kakyoin at first cause she is Not holly but also she's really pleased at the same time that joseph could make that mental switch so fast and so easily even if it means she's gotta be associated with holly for a bit
omgggggg ryoko being like "omg ur girl? so we can do girl things (:" cause shes like ten and kakyoin is like "...yes (:" and ryoko paints her nails like pink and stuff and it's SOOO STEROTYPICALY but kakyoin is just so happy her baby cousin is so cool and excited about it...
avdol and her relationship dont rlly change all that much but they'd def get closer as a result of him being so lax abt it. avdol would say some sweet philosophical thing abt "how wonderful, that u exhibit what it means to live in a dynamic world so perfectly kakyoin" and kakyoin's like "yeah. anyway i want tits" ;DJWN;J;SKD
also kakyoin would do this no matter what but when trans girl flavored, she really hones in on calling hierophant/herself "girlie"
okay that's all for now thank u for sending this in <3333
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