#I just saw sonic 3 I'm already emotional HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?!

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Comic 7 has me in SHAMBLES I can't imagine a better ending to tf2

And that last bit with Saxton? Perfectly tying the major themes together in one last little knot? Perfection. I am crying and I couldn't be happier.

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ok enough time has passed. short n sweet song rating

taste - I like it! it's kinda of overproduced and ditzy (like, sonically? I don't know how to describe it. hollow ig) but it's fun petty a little bit gay it helps that the mv is really good 8/10

please please please - like. whatever. I'm honestly over it. 5/10

good graces - 2/10 I do not like this song as soon as I heard this song I knew it was over for us I'm serious. melody is good but the lyrics and vibe is garbage and it DOES NOTTTTT FIT ON THIS FUCKING ALBUMMMMMM

sharpest tool - this is the closest song we have that could be an eics song. but crucially it's not so it's not as good. but I still like it <3 the "we never talk about it" end to the chorus and its repetition is really lame and underwhelming though idk. 7/10

coincidence - I really like this one I like the aggressive guitar I like the whispery adlibs. doesn't feel like it fits the album much (though truly what does fit the album the album is nothing!) and it NEEDS a better longer bridge.... why are these songs so fucking shortttt SABRINA. ANSWER MY CALLS. 8/10

bed chem - I kinda like this one sorry beth... in a sense this is everything wrong with new sabrina but well I think we'd have really good come right on me I mean camaraderie said you're not in my time zone but you wanna be where art thou why not uponeth me see it in my mind let's fulfil the prophecy. bridge is ass though 6/10

espresso - I am still not sick of that's that me espresso... that's literally that me espresso. 10/10 yes it ushered in a horrible era but it's a banger I'm sorry. I'm sorry you can't accept when a song is catchy and fun. what I hate though is it should have been an individual single song like honeymoon fades. the vintage beach vibes stand out so heavily against the production of literally every other song I know I already said loads of songs don't fit (BECAUSE. NOTHING FITS IT'S REALLY BAD GUYS) but it's true of this song most of all. you're literally listening to an entirely different sound and album for three minutes... 10/10 but she shouldn't even be here. or alternatively maybe if the whole album gave this sound and energy it would've been good 🤷

dumb and poetic - I LOVED this on first listen now I don't really care. her voice on "jack off to lyrics by leonard cohen" and the kinda reverb is so good as well as you're so empathetic you'd make a great wife and I promise the mushrooms aren't changing your life... also this seriously happened to rachel mcguire I can't emphasise that enough! 6/10

slim pickins - god. YAWN. I liked this when I saw the live version before the album drop but the production sucked all the life out of it lol. it's repetitive and the gay awakening line pisses me off. that one tiktok voice I'll break your heart just as bad!!!! but I do love the line lord knows he isn't living large... 4/10

juno - I literally switch between loving and hating this. "you make me wanna make you fall in love" is SO fun... but wowie it does not resonate... and using juno as the vehicle to describing wanting to get pregnant is so weird idk she was a teen and she should've aborted that thing... whatever. it's definitely one of the best sounding on the album 6/10

lie to girls - boring but pretty good. the how many things of short n sweet perhaps. 5/10 ok actually I'm listening now and I'm not fucking with it at all. 3/10

don't smile - I tune out by this point. sounds nice 5/10 but makes no sense as a closer for an album that's ENTIRE deal is I'm confident and sexy and silly!!! like girl where is the silly. this is such an abrupt serious end to a bunch of nonsense. excuse my phrasing. juno should've been the last song DUH end on a HIGH not a phony moment of emotion

AS AN ALBUM. literally none of this coheres it's all over the place even though all of the songs are also kinda about the same things and it gets really repetitive? I don't know how she did that but she did. that's some sort of accomplishment. it's so bad. sorry I really hate it. 2/10

[ugliestdiary]

4:17 𝙋𝙈

OKAY OKAY I CAN FINALLY WRITE. basically today at school we only stayed in the building for about 3 hours until recess and then we headed to the auditorium for the drugs prevention thing. it was super boring istg, but i mean i did actually pay attention to the first bits and shit because this guy literally smoked 20 joints a DAY. not even week a DAY. 20 fucking joints☠️

// 4:49 eww im eating too much sugar fuck

im gonna update again when i can

// 4:57 ok i washed my teeth. but im super angry at ray lol wtf is he even doing to Yuu istg im killing him.

on another note, today yeah was boring. probably gonna do nothing all day at the very least. just gonna listen to my queue songs in shuffle or joyriding in loop.

i wanna be frank so much

i dont wanna be me anymore

:/

dysphoria is killing me and i'm starting to sh and binge eat again

i wish i could just get super high and forget it all for even just a few hours.. i won't give it a shot though.

i'm still not afraid to keep on living and i'll keep it that way ♡︎

i'll update tonight.

"yeah, it's cool, i'll be okay"

10:41 SOO he just drifted off to sleep so i can write now!

i miss them though :/ i'm using he and they on them now because i think he's feeling uncomfy with she?... i mean, he put some statuses and on one he write "iwannabeaboyiwannabeaboy" soo :/ also he didnt use she for the whole day i think?

well, i just hope they're fine :(.

on another note we were just in call, yeah, but it was rly cute <3

got them more stuff for presents <333

ALSO ALSO WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO GO TO AN MCR CONCERT!!! I MEAN WE MIGHT BUT WE'LL BOTH LISTEN TO A SUB TO MAKE THE CHANCE HIGHER!!!

it's still 42 euros though! i mean it's a fair price, it's mychem, but still,

also it's at bologna i think (sonic park) I hope we're gonna be able to because i really really wanna see them perform <3

still, we didnt do much today... in general. apart from some relapse thinking, i was fine.

i'll probably update later or on another note, for now, bye <3

12:16 AM: currently listening to random songs in my liked and some are just <333 TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF IS JUST SO GOOD WTFF

i'd be a scene queen 100% if i wanted to

come as you are is on even though i dont listen to it as much... still, <ku/rt3

i was crying to songs before

but i cried of happiness after because i saw a photo of gerard genuinely smiling. it made me happy. he's giving me hope. and its okay to be a little messed up at first but we'll keep on living <3

I WANNA LOOK LIKE FRANK SO MUCH </3 HE'S A SUPER GENDER ENVY ISTG WJWKWMWDB IM GOING CRAZY I WANNA BE HIM. i fucking swear. I'm him I'm him I'm him

watch me starting to use frank as a name because of this mf. but i dont think i'm gonna honestly...maybe

WAHTEVRR

also <murderdolls3 i love those men ♡︎

I'LL MAYBE UPDATE LATER AGAIN FKWHSJWJ

MURDER TO THE LEFT, MURDER TO THE RIGHT, HELLO, GOODBYE, DIE DIE DIE ! ! !

12:29 AM / FAST EDIT: oh my god.

fuck. i realized i already developed a strong emotional attachment towards gerard. shit.

i really need to stop with the attachments towards people like gee or frank or whatever. i'm really upset for him.

"and you don't know how long i could stare into your picture, and wish that it was me." fuck

who am i?

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