#I got recently diagnosed with 'hypomania' and iykyk what that is a symptom of. well.

[astramachina]

every time markiplier talks about his creative process I feel a sense of deep-rooted relief alongside a dose of debilitating grief because yeah. YEAH. that's exactly how it is for me. Sure I'm 10+ years late and my brain struggles to work on the things that consume my soul to the point where I cannot afford to rely on a single project to keep me psychologically afloat, but every lesson learned is a lesson I want to carry over onto my next, bigger project and the cycle continues on and on bcs it feels like I must outdo myself every time or else I'll stagnate and I enjoy that. I hate it, but I fucking love it.

Is it awful for my health? Hell yeah it is. But fuck it. We're doing it anyway. outta my way I gotta severely overshoot my skill set and force myself to learn by doing.