#I fucking love nieyao they've had me in a chokehold for So Damn Long

[eleanorfenyxwrites]

The Bridge is Crossed (rambling)

It's almost 3am and I'm having Feelings™ about the line "Wildly my mind beats against you (you resist) // yet the soul obeys!" from Wandering Child in Phantom of the Opera. Like on its own it's a great fuckin line anyway and delivered with so much feeling, but in the Nieyao context of my 3zun Phantom AU??????

I NEED FEWER WIPS SO I CAN HAVE THE BRAIN SPACE TO WRITE THIS FIC!!!

I just UGH

The fucking. The post-divorce Nieyao energy!!!

"Angel o speak, what endless longings // echo in this whisper"

"Wildly my mind beats against you (you resist) // yet the soul obeys!"

"Angel of music I denied you, turning from true beauty // Angel of music my protector (do not shirk me), come to me strange Angel!"

It's the doubting everything you've ever known about yourself and the love that you desire. It's about leaving the (albeit dubious) safety of your home and your very safe and righteous lover keeping watch outside your door to instead put yourself in the hands of a man whose devotion to you you know is absolute, to the point of endangering everyone who may come into contact with you and get in his way. It's about being afraid of what all of this will mean in the end, but still giving into the way you crave that obsession, and letting your soul take what it wants without concern (for the moment) for what's Right and what's Proper.

It's the rapturous joy of giving into something sharp-edged and buried deep in your soul and finding yourself welcomed into it with open arms, because where else would this man ever be but by your side when you know he'll do any right or wrong thing under the sun to make sure that's always so?