#I fucking hate my life if you can't give kids a good life please abort them

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

[digenerate-trash]

Yelllow your friendly neighbor hood [RETRACTED] here

Just to take over the anon with the pregnant PC ask (also cuz I saw it and just wanted to do something in life for once.. I swear I feel my skin rotting and feel the bugs crawling)

Anyways Yan bailey finds a positive pregnancy sounds good just make Yan robin find out too mkay? That dumb little shit deserves trauma or at least feel depressed for not being the father and find out that the caretaker is the father

(Damn baby we hate Robin on my blog???? At least yan robin. That's wild. Please read the tags!!!!)

AMAB Bailey | AMAB Robin | AFAB PC

TW abortion mention | TW somno | TW pregnancy

It's been sitting on his desk for a week now. He found it during one of his infamous "visits" with you and his heart nearly stopped.

God must be playing some kind of cruel joke because wasn't he sterile? Wasn't that why he never thought to use protection- why would he? Why would he even think that this was a possibility?

But here was the proof. A little pink plus on a stick. Such a little thing that would ruin his life.

He wasn't sure if he was thinking of you, the test. Or the little "bundle of joy" but whatever he was thinking of his plan was simple. Get rid of it.

Maybe he could salvage you. But the kid couldn't stay. And neither could evidence of him viciously attacking you. Maybe his plan to make you vanish would have to move up a bit. After this whole.... pregnancy thing was dealt with.

He still... cares for you. In a strange way. But he can't have you telling the whole town that the newest orphan is Bailey's.

But when he goes to confront you the padlock key in hand there's Robin outside your door. They're a little disheveled they must have been here all night.

"Move," Bailey commands it startles the little brat and when they look up at Bailey they glare at him.

"No! You're not gonna hurt them!" Robin shouts. It's almost loud enough for the whole hall to hear. Bailey's a bit surprised the little brat has gained so much confidence but that's not what's important.

Bailey reaches out and grabs Robin by the scruff and throws them to the side. Grabbing the padlock and shoving the key in

Robin still tries to tear Bailey away from the door making it harder and harder to focus on what he's supposed to do.

"You're not gonna hurt my baby!"

Now this... gives Bailey some pause. Robin knows. But he's under some strange impression that it's theirs? You and Robin can't even get near each other in the orphanage. You go to school together but that's hardly a safe place to.... unless you were as much of a slut as the whole town condemned you to be...

Bailey shook that thought off before he looked at Robin "What makes you think it's yours?" He asks. Bailey is desperate for more details. You are his after all you shouldn't have even touched the boy but now he wants every sick detail so he can decide what to do with Robin.

"The d-door was unlocked o-once..." Robin stutters out. He knows he's been caught pregnancy doesn't just "happen" and as far as Robin knows the padlock is just to keep you trapped.

"So what? They invited you in?" Bailey snarls. Maybe after this whole pregnancy thing is dealt with he really will make you disappear.

"They... they were asleep. And It was just one time! I didn't mean to. I wanted to- but I lost control a bit and...." Robin tries to explain but tears start to form.

Bailey doesn't know what to say. He left the door unlocked once and this little ungrateful monster decided to fuck you- did you even know?

Bailey decided it was better to ease Robin's mind in the worst way he could think. The brat deserves to be punished for thinking he's entitled to something that's Bailey's.

"The baby isn't yours," Bailey says patting Robin on the shoulder in a deceptively kind gesture robin seems kind of relieved if puzzled

"it's mine," Bailey explains and the orphan goes pale. He looks like he's about to pass out or cry or something in between.

"It's not- you... you haven't-" Robin tries to muddy the water and rationalize why that couldn't be.

"Three times a week for about a year now. Maybe you should check my odds against your one-time violation."

Bailey unlocks the padlock leaving Robinn outside your room to come to terms with this new info. Telling Robin probablyy wasn't smart. But it's not like anyone in this town will believe him.

Besides. You have a doctor's appointment to get to.

[mark-19]

Bill Hicks - Rant in E-Minor (recorded November 1992 - December 1993)

"Boy, I've never seen an issue so divisive. You ever see it, it's like a civil war, isn't it? Even amongst my friends, who are all very intelligent! They are totally divided on abortion! It's unbelievable! Some of my friends, for instance, think these pro-life people are annoying idiots. Other of my friends think these pro-life people are evil fucks. How are we going to come to a consensus? You ought to hear the arguments around my house; "they're annoying, they're idiots, they're evil, they're fucks!" Brothers, sisters, come together! Can't we once just join hands and think of them as evil annoying idiot fucks?

I beseech you, but that's me, Libra Rising, the scales! And, strangely enough, Shiva, The Destroyer (laughs). Who would have thunk it?

"We're pro-life." "Ooh, you look it! You look like you're filled with life." All the little kids: "Please don't adopt me, please don't adopt me, please don't adopt me!" "We're your new Christian pro-life parents!" "Oh, where's the tower, where's the gun? Where's the tower, where's the gun? I was adopted by pro-life Christians when I was a kid (gun noises). Does my penis make me a bad boy? That's what they told me (gun noises)!"

Please, give me the Satan-worshipping family down the block. The ones who have the good albums. Suddenly I'm adopted by the Flanders, you know? "Hi Bill, isn't it another beautiful God-created morning?" (weird noise). "We're pro-life." It's like, well what does that make me? You know what I mean? You're so pro-life! You're so pro-life, do me a fucking favor. Don't block med clinics, okay? Lock arms, and block cemeteries. Let's see how fucking committed you are to this premise. "She can't come in." "She's ninety-six, she was hit by a bus!" "There's options!" "What, do we got to have her stuffed? What are you talking about, she's dead!" "We're pro-life, get her out of that casket! Get her out! She's not going, we're pro-life people. There'll be no death on this planet."

Pro-life... and I always say, see, my theory, here's my actual theory beyond, uh, the huge, hilarious jokes I have. Here's my real theory, though: if you're so pro-life and you're so pro-child, then adopt one that's already here that's very unwanted and very alone and needs someone to take care of it to get it out of a horrible situation, okay? People say, "well why don't you do that?" And I say because I hate fucking kids and couldn't care less. Couldn't give a fuck. Don't care at all about abortion. It's your choice. Case closed, the end, bottom line; and by the way, a three-month old kid in your belly is not a fucking human being, okay? It's a bunch of little congregate of cells. You're not a human until you're in my phonebook (laughs).

There, my hat is now in the political ring."

[a-writer-on-elm-street]

Negan x Reader Imagine (Request)

can you do a negan imagine where the reader is one of his wives and gets pregnant and when she tells negan, he gets angry and tells her to get an abortion. But the reader wants to keep the baby and leaves the sanctuary in the middle of the night. Later negan regrets what he said and tries to go to apologize and finds out that she left. then (about 10 months) after negan meets the reader and the baby when he comes to Alexandria.

Warning: Some strong language.

Your heart was hammering in your chest as you stared blankly at the wall. And as you glanced down at your shaky hands, you thought your heart might even explode. How would you tell him? How would you tell him you were pregnant? You continued to listen to your heart thumping against your chest as you decided what to do. You were one of his wives. You didn't want to screw that up. But the news of a baby would certainly screw your agreement up. He wouldn't want you anymore. And as twisted as it was, you wanted him to want you. But after a few more minutes of debating things in your head, you found yourself heading towards his room to tell him the news.

"What the fuck did you just say?!"

You watched as his face twisted in anger. "I-I'm pregnant."

"Pregnant! You're fucking pregnant! Tell me you're getting rid of it!"

That was when you realised; you hadn't actually decided if you were keeping it yet. You weren't even sure if you wanted a child. You were dragged away from your thoughts when you heard Negan's loud voice again. "Well?!"

"I-I'm keeping it." You hadn't even had time to think it over, yet you found yourself giving him an answer anyway. And as you blurted out those dreaded words, you finally realised that you did want a child, even if it meant sacrificing your life with Negan.

"I don't think so. I'm taking you to the doctor. You're getting rid of the damn thing." He growled, roughly wrapping his fingers around your wrist.

"No! I want to keep it. It's my kid, and I choose to keep it." You quickly jerked your hand away from his grasp and made your way over to the door.

"Well if you keep it, you can't be my wife anymore. You understand that right?"

"Yeah, I understand just fine." You spat, hurrying out of the room, making sure to slam the door behind you. You knew he wouldn't like the idea that you were pregnant, but you would've never imagined that he would be so quick to decide to get rid of it. He disgusted you. And you didn't want to continue living under the same roof as someone as spiteful as him.

Later that night, you decided to pack up your things. You couldn't stay here in The Sanctuary anymore. This was no place to raise a child, especially if the kid's father ran the place. Once you were all packed up, you proceeded to sneak out of The Sanctuary. There were people on watch so you had to make sure you weren't spotted. Negan might not have cared for you, but he'd be furious if he caught you leaving in the middle of the night. Besides, he still owned you, didn't he?

***

[10 months later]

"Look, (y/n). I have to let him in. He's threatening to kill people." You stared up at Rick, who was standing awkwardly in your doorway. A couple months back, you'd found a group of people who brought you to this place. Alexandria. And now Negan was here. And much to your dismay, he'd spotted you on his little tour around the place. And now, he was insisting that you sit down and speak to him, after leaving so suddenly all those months ago. You let out a heavy sigh. “Fine.”

Within seconds, Negan was already strolling into the room. “I tried to apologise ya know.”

“What?”

“The night you left. I went to your room to apologise, but you weren’t there.”

“I had to leave, Negan.”

He just began slowly walking around the room, a small grin appearing on his face. “So did you keep it?”

“Him. And yeah, I kept him.”

All of a sudden, you noticed his eyes light up slightly. “It’s a boy?”

“Yeah.”

“Can I see him?”

“Are you serious right now?”

He just nodded. “Yeah. Now that I know you’re both alive, I gotta see my kid.”

“Wow, you’re such an asshole.”

“Oh come on. It’s my kid too.”

“Well the last time we spoke, you wanted me to get rid of him. So I’m sorry if I don’t trust you to be near him.” As you watched him pace around the room, it was clear that he obviously wanted to meet his son. But you couldn’t stand the thought of Negan even being in the same room as your child. Negan was toxic, and you didn’t want your child anywhere near the trail of destruction that was hemorrhaging in his wake.

“Please, (y/n). You gotta let me see him. I’m sorry, okay?”

“How do I know I can trust you?”

He sighed. “You don’t. But do you really think I’d hurt my own kid?”

“I’m not worried you’re gonna hurt him.”

“Then why can’t I see him?”

“Because I’m worried you’re gonna want him.”

A quiet laugh fell from his lips as he spoke. “Why’s that a bad thing?”

“Because I don’t want my child anywhere near you. All you do is cause pain.”

“Oh come on. Stop being a little bitch and let me see my damn kid!”

As you stared up at him, memories from the night you left came flooding back. And in this moment, all you wanted to do was hate him. You wanted to yell and scream after all the hurt he’d caused you in the past. But you couldn’t. You’d always cared for Negan, but you could never bring yourself to accept your feelings. And now, you were forced to confront your feelings for him, as he was standing before you, asking to see your child. His child. There was a permanent connection between the two of you now, and there was no way of erasing it. You had no choice but to allow him to meet his son. “Fine! You can see him. But don’t you dare try anything, or I swear to god I will end you.”

He laughed. “Okay, Mommy.”

“Just shut up.”

You led Negan into the neighbouring room, and the second he spotted the crib in the corner, he smiled slightly. He was clearly pleased to see his son, but you were still wary. “So this is him huh?” He smiled, staring into the small structure.

“Yeah. Now get out.”

“What?”

“You’ve seen him. Now leave.”

“What’s his name?”

“Why do you care? It’s not like you’re ever gonna see him again.”

“You think I’m just gonna abandon my kid?”

“We don’t need you, Negan.”

He turned to face you, a small grin playing at his lips. “Can I at least hold him?”

“Fine, but then you’re gone.”

He smirked. “Okay.”

You stepped back slightly, as Negan carefully lifted him out of the crib. At first, you were cautious, and with good reason. But the longer you watched him staring into his son’s eyes, you felt yourself warming to the idea of Negan becoming a father. You’d never really seen this side of him before, and it was nice to see him so gentle and tender. Maybe there was a chance Negan could remain a part of your life after all.

Hope this is okay. ✌️

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Love Like This

Bill Skarsgård x Reader

Word Count: 2194

Warnings: Abortion

(A/N: If you do not believe a woman should have a choice on her body then you can fuck off thank you vm. On another note I hope you enjoy this angsty fic. I just had this idea lingering in my mind so it’s here now..)

As I sat in the waiting room dreading my name being called, I looked at the other women that look terrified to go into one of the rooms. Some of them came alone as myself and others came with their significant others or friends. A nurse had brought over a clipboard with some paper I had to sign. I was so nervous I couldn't keep my hands from shaking, I felt like I was going to pass out. Someone took my hand in theirs, I look up to see my best friend Maia. She took me in her arms as I silently cried.

"It's okay, I'm here."

"I thought I was gonna have to go through this alone."

She shook her head taking the clipboard from me, "I would never let you do this alone. Now you sit and calm down and I'll fill this for you okay?" I nodded taking a drink from my water.

Once she finished filling out the forms she handed them back to the nurse and we waited to be called over.

"Y/n L/n"

I got up quickly as did Maia, "You'll be alright, I'll wait here." She gave me a hug and a quick kiss on the head."

"Alright hun lets get you prepped." The nurse said as she took me to one of the operating rooms.

After 15 mins the procedure was finally done, they took me to the recovery room where Maia sat on the couch waiting for me. The nurse, Stella, handed me a cup of water and some pain meds before she went back to her office.

"You okay?" I nodded laying on the bed, Maia took my hand in hers. "He called." I stayed quiet not carrying what he had to say. "He called me too, I didn't pick up."

"Maia, I don't care anymore. I needed him here more than anything and he left me." My eyes started watering once again. "We'd been together for two years and he couldn't respect my one difficult decision. He can go to hell for all I care."

We stayed quiet for a while until the doctor came back and discharged me. Maia took drove us home, I thanked her for being there for me, "I'm going to sleep early today, goodnight Maia." She nodded.

I went into my room shutting the door quickly, taking a seat on my bed and letting myself cry. Maybe if we had gone through this conversation differently then maybe he would've respected my decision.

[Flashback]

I looked at the pregnancy test that read PREGNANT in its bold letters. What the hell was I gonna do? I'm only 19, I'm still enrolled in the uni. I have so much ahead of me. I can't put it aside, I've worked too hard for it.

"Hey babe!" Bill spoke as he walked into my room. "So my parents are having a celebratory dinner for Alexander- hey what's wrong?" He turned me around and I handed him the test. "Hey its alright, we'll figure this out."

I shook my head, "I'm not ready."

He pulled me into a hug sighing, "Neither am I but we can do this. You have me.. till the end."

"No you don't understand.. I'm not ready, I can't have a baby right now, Bill."

"So what you're going to give it up?" I nodded. "You're kidding right?"

"Bill, we aren't ready. Do you not get it?" I threw the pregancy test in the trash brushing past him and taking a seat on my bed. "Your body isn't going to go through the entire change. I am not you. You get to walk around and continue to do your shit while I go to class carrying the child and getting called a whore for opening my legs at a young age. So yes I am going to give it up because I'm too fucking young to have a child."

"Fuck them, you shouldn't give a fuck of what other people say about you. God knows I don't so neither should you."

I chuckled, "My parents sacrificed so much so they can send me here to study at the uni of my choice, I'm not messing it up because of our fuck up."

"So what our child is a fuck up now?" He was red with anger.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way but if you loved me you would respect my decision."

"I love you (Y/n but I'm sorry, I don't agree with it. So whatever you're thinking of doing to our 'fuck up' you can do it alone." He left slamming the door loudly leaving me completely alone.

[End of flashback]

I sat up turning the tv on to have some sort of background noise. There was a knock at my door I groaned not wanting to see Maia or anyone at the moment. "Maia I'm okay, I just want to sleep."

The door was opened and a tall figure had walked in.

"Hey."

"Get out."

"I'm sorry."

"Get the fuck out." He didn't listen and instead kept coming closer. "Bill seriously get the fuck out."

"I need to talk to you."

I chuckled, "Well if it's to try and change my mind you can kindly fuck off cause the procedures done and so are we."

"I know it's done and I should've been there." I finally looked up at him his eyes sunken and red. "I'm sorry, I should have respected your decision because it's your body. I was just happy that we were gonna have a baby. I thought you wanted one."

"I did, I do, just not now. Not till I was settled." He nodded both our eyes brimming with tears. "Bill I need a break, a really long break. You fucked up and I-I don't know anymore. Look I'm 19 you're 26, I don't want kids till I'm like 30 or maybe never I don't know. And well with the way you reacted it's evident you want kids now. I knew this relationship wasn't gonna last."

"Hey, hey, I do want kids but I can wait. Just don't-don't leave, please." He took my hand in his but I quickly moved it away.

I sighed now full on crying, "I'm sorry Bill but this isn't gonna work out. You can find someone your age that you can settle down with now. I still have years before I'll even remotely be sure if I want kids. By then you'll be in your mid 30s, which is besides the point but what if I don't want kids what will you do then?" He shrugged his shoulders crying silently. "I love you Bill but we can't be together anymore."

He got up pressing a lingering kiss on my forehead, "I'm sorry."

***

3 years later

Today was finally moving day. I had finished my studies in New York and I was moving back down to LA. My parents were a bit against it since we had lived there years ago but they hated it there but I loved it. I was moving down by the beach areas. Maia was staying here with her fiancé.

"Well Ms. those are the last of your boxes." I handed the movers a decent tip and they went on their way.

I turned to Maia as she was already getting emotional, "Hey no crying, it's bad for the baby."

She chuckled pulling me in for a tight hug, "Hey me and Rosalie are gonna miss you."

I pulled away immediately in shock, "it's a girl?" She nodded causing me to shriek in excitement. Tyler came into the room and I jumped on him. "Congrats!"

"We were actually wondering if you would like to organize the baby shower for us." Tyler spoke.

"Yes of course!"

"We wanted to do it in 4 months. Closer to her due date."

"Once I get everything situated in LA I'll get things prepped and fly back here to organize everything!"

There was a honk outside of our house.

"Well guys I will see you in 4 months!" I hugged them both goodbye and grabbed my suitcase getting into the taxi.

***

2 weeks later

I was finally getting the finishing touches to my new house down. I still had a bit of work left but everything was mostly good to go. Now I currently sat in my living room going through a couple of designs for tomorrow's meeting. With the help of one of my close celebrity friends he got me a job with Leah Valderia a famous singer from London. She wanted help with her house and of course I said yes. This could be a great opportunity for my interior design career.

It was getting late and I decided to call it a night. I would show her the designs I had and maybe go shopping with her for some of the things.

The next morning I made sure to wake up early. I took a quick shower to calm my nerves. For my outfit I decided on a corduroy skirt that was a creamy chocolate color and a black turtle neck that fit perfectly. I also went with a dark grey oversized blazer that was just an inch longer than my skirt, for shoes I went with some heeled ankle boots. I did some light makeup and left my hair in its regular straight style. I added just some thin gold necklaces just to bring the whole outfit together. I looked at the time and grabbed my purse and work folders quickly heading out of my house. Before leaving the lot I sent a quick text to Leah letting her know I was on my way.

The traffic to her mansion was horrible to say the least. Luckily I made it on time, I parked my car on the curb and jogged to her door. "Great you're here, please come in!"

Looking around I could definitely see some potential for this beautiful home, "So Y/n I'm so excited you're here. I'm hoping you can bring my vision to life!" We took a seat in her office and she opened her laptop sliding it towards me. She had quite the vision. "I will sure try."

We were in her office for two hours, let's just say she is completely indecisive about what she wants to do with this place. So beautiful and so much potential only her vision was nothing like mine. "So we can definitely do what you want to do and we can also add some color maybe open up these curtains here as well just to get some light and more open space."

"Great! Let me show you the nursery so you can kind of get an idea of what we can with it. This baby will be here in 3 months need to have it done before anything else."

"What are you having?"

"A girl! I'm so excited, I hope one day you get to experience how beautiful it is to carry a life."

I smiled not really knowing what to say I just nodded, "Hey honey, I'm home, brought the- Y/n?"

"Bill?"

"You guys know each other?"

"We-"

"I-"

"We dated years ago."

"Oh?" Leah looked down. "Is she?" Bill only nodded.

"I'm sorry, I'm gonna go. I can send you an email of other designers if-"

Leah shook her head, "No I love your work, that's why I called in for you. This thing you and Bill had is in the past so I would still like to work with you if that's alright."

I nodded, "Well I'll email you some of the ideas I have then we can get started immediately. I'll be back in a week?"

"Perfect."

"Well I'll see you Leah, beautiful house you have here."

Bill set his things down, "I'll walk her out." Leah only nodded.

My car was only a block away but as we walked it felt like it was miles away. "Congratulations." I broke the silence.

"Thank you." He smiled.

"I told you, you would find someone to make you happy. Look at you, you're gonna have a baby."

"Yeah, I'm really happy, but I'm still really sorry about what happened between you and I. I'm sorry we didn't work out and I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most. I should have been there for you."

I sighed trying not to cry, "It was a bit traumatizing, having the procedure done is weird and horrible but it had to be done. I don't think I would've been happy if we went through with the pregnancy. I never want to be resentful towards a kid that wasn't at fault you know." He nodded. "I went to therapy after we broke up, got back on my feet and now I'm okay with it. I'm happy for you and happy that you're with someone that can give you the life you deserve."

He pulled me in for a hug giving me a kiss on the forehead, "I love you Bill Skarsgård."

"I love you too Y/n L/n and I wish you nothing but the best."