#I don't want to throw shade on my man but he does give red flag

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Being Fade's significant other, headcanons.

Where you made the cold and aloof King of Poisons fall in love with you.

Fade x GN!Reader

Warnings: spoilers from latest chapters and with a side dish of creative liberties, probably OOC, toxic behaviours, mention of attachment issues, writer who's bad at writing.

Author's note: my problem with writing my favourite characters, is that what I write about them is extremely biased. I had a draft of this that was pure self indulgence. While I LOVE self indulgence, I cringe when I'm the one who wrote it. So in this one he's the actual jerk that he is. A jerk in love, but still a jerk.

Was getting close to him easy? Hell no.

Was it all absolutely worth it? Hell yes.

After Persephone was destroyed, you found him and took care of him, nursing him back to health. Don't use the word "nursing" with him though, it makes him feel like a stray dog you took in. (Which I mean... it's not too far off from the truth).

After you proved that you had no hidden motive to help him, he started to slowly trust you.

He wouldn't admit it then, but you grew on him.

Even after he recovered, he stuck around for a while. Even tried to consider staying with you and giving up his revenge. He couldn't of course, but he tried thinking about it.

Around this time is when he realised you had done more than "grow on him", he was falling in love with you.

Telling you would have been a waste of time, he had to track down the one who destroyed Persephone, he couldn't possibly- aaaand there you go, confessing first and convincing him to give your relationship a shot.

As he couldn't just stay with you but needed to also have his revenge, he had you start traveling with him.

He's really protective of you. It never gets too much, he is still a very rational person, but... he kinda treats you like a defenseless kitten sometimes.

Which can be hilarious if you're actually a strong person. Even if you're a scary and experienced mercenary, he'll still try to shield you and protect you.

Walking in front of you when you guys don't know what you're exactly facing, or staying by your side when talking to someone, or always making sure you're well equipped with everything you need.

Be understanding, he lost his organisation already, he might act like a jerk now and then but he's actually trying to not lose you as well.

If you're someone that doesn't like to be protected... well sorry, he doesn't care. He's forcing you to wear your protective gear whether you like it or not. He's staying ahead of you no matter how much you try to run faster and surpass him.

When you two have some alone time in between traveling and missions... I wouldn't say he's soft. There's still that serious aura about him. But he does melt a little when you cuddle him.

He doesn't care if you're the one on his lap or he's the one on yours; he likes embracing you and he will embrace you. He'll keep his arms around you, even if you're so big that he doesn't even get around you.

Also also also give him back neck scratches. He likes those.

Until he doesn't. There are times where he just needs time to himself alone and almost can't stand your presence. Nothing personal, he can't stand anyone else either.

And often if he just doesn't feel very up for it he won't put much effort into doing what you like.

It's mostly him deciding when you guys cuddle or not. Kiss or not. That's one downside, if he doesn't feel like it he just won't do something.

And it gets a bit beyond the normal "boundaries" of a relationship.

Sometimes he seems fully uninterested in you and often dismisses your feelings.

It can seem paradoxical with his protective behaviour, but that's how things are.

Yes he does have attachment issues. Yes he needs to work on it. In the meantime, take the grumpy cat and love him.

No but seriously, don't try to defend him, there's only one way to describe this: toxic.

Don't get me wrong, he does love you, he really does, and he sees you as a person and respects your autonomy; he doesn't know how to be in a relationship though. There's a lot to unpack and a lot to fix.

But if you can do that, he does become one of the best lovers.

He may keep old habits of avoiding you when he doesn't feel like it, but he can push through it if you need him.

He listens to you and actually hears you out about your feelings.

He gets a bit more clingy, holding you in your sleep for example.

Still not a big fan of public displays of affection. He can push through if you're unwell and need it, but he doesn't enjoy it.

Pet names? Not great at them either. Although he did start calling you "Nightshade" after you almost accidentally killed yourself with one. You were trying to make medicine, but used some dosages wrong... Lucky for you he noticed in time and you didn't actually ingest it.

Overall he's just in love with you, but needs you to teach him about it. It'll take time and effort from both of you.

Is it worth it?

He thinks so. And you do too, if you got to this point.