#I don't want them to feel anything likd I did when they told me to kill myself
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the-ellia-west · 9 hours ago
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I want to be honest but I'm not sure I know how
I want to be confident but I feel like a horrible person when I don't apologize for something that wasn't my fault
I have a great time every Sunday when I'm not at home
When I don't have to hear my family yelling at each other
When I don't have to worry about having no friends
Because Church is my real home, where all my friends are, where everything I really love is
But then I go back to my house, and I don't want to be real anymore
I'm happy some moments but I know it never lasts, so I've slowly begun to wonder why is matters
Why should I be happy when I know it won't stay?
I love all of you I really do, but every time I see something you make, I love it, but it reminds me I'm leagues behind you, and no matter how much I grow, you'll always be higher
I want to support you
But everything you make makes me want to cry because I'll never be your equal. And I know that.
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