#I don't say anything further I ended up crying while writing this letter idk if I even did proven proofreading

[faceglitchsworld]

It's the 17th of August here, which means that the best leader was born today.

Happy birthday Yonghoon 🥳

Have the collage I made for him 🥹

The P A I N I went through for finding the pics you have no idea 😭

Google tricked me idk how many times with Kanghyun, believe me. I searched his name and the Pingu fanboy came instead, I don't trust my eyes anymore 😭

Anyway, despite my official blindness, I'll leave the letter for him now.

Dear Yonghoon,

It's been a while since your last update from the military. I must confess, even though I know that next year you'll be back to us, it seems like it's been an eternity since you enlisted.

I remember the shock I had when I heard the news. It was inevitable at the time, I knew that at some point you should have gone but still, it looked like sudden news regardless. Onewe are incomplete without your voice, Yonghoon.

But I also remember how you cheered us and told us that you'll manage to keep in touch with us in a way or another. And you did it. You really did it, Yonghoon.

I remember how my eyes were on the merge of tears when I saw you singing for your colleagues at the training camp. Your hair was freaking short at the time, a true bald scalp 🤣 But despite that, seeing you singing Universe_ in front of your colleagues, receiving applauses and love for your talent made me relieved a little.

Then I saw some group pictures from the training camp and I saw how happy you looked and how you got along with your colleagues so easily. Honestly, I'm not surprised by that, you've always been Onewe's social butterfly to me and I will not be surprised if you made a new friend there.

And I remember how, when "Still Here" came out, you called Giuk during the live and you sang a little bit of the song. It was another moment where I really felt how much I missed you. And I thought I would have been strong enough to endure your missing.

I look up every message and post you left on the fancafé, every time you perform with the military band, I'm searching every clip just to hear your voice again. I even listen to the little audio bits you left almost every month. I don't even check up the translations anymore, I just listen to your voice and that's it because I really missed you and I want you back.

Almost a year ago I decided to give you the title of Best Leader because of these actions. Since then I have met other amazing leaders who work hard for their role and keep the group together. But you...you're always the best one for me. I can't wait to see you with Onewe once again.

2024 is very near and when I see you being discharged I think I'll be the happiest Weve in the world. This is my birthday wish for you today. I wish to see you healthy and strong when you'll be back.

I hope this day will be bright and you'll spend the best time ever with your colleagues. And eat a lot of food.

Happy birthday, Best Leader ❤️

[becomingbts]

Hey the latest chapter of time heals (chapter 7) made me cry . I have been in a similar situation .

I am going to rant and I am so sorry for it but it means a lot to me that I could connect in some way to your character ...

Me and this certain guy called 'A' are from the same hometown and read in the same kindergarten (back then I didn't get close to him) after that I changed schools at the age of 6 . Then at the age of 11 he transferred to my school too . Then at the age of 12 he asked me out after liking me for a while . We dated for 2 years until my family and teachers found out and we had to separate . Then we reconnected again at the age of 15 ( mind you all this while we were at the same school ) then we were in the same school till 16 .

We went our different ways for high school but we kept talking . I went to a different city and he went to a different one .

And then I saw the mask fall ..

Idk what it was but he was distant . Not like just physically . He was just unreachable . He would ask me to stay up late to talk to him till 4 in the morning .I used to have classes at 7 in the morning but still made the efforts to talk to him . The friends in my highschool time were of no use too . They too gave me anxiety .( That's a story for a different time )

Then I left that town (not my home town but the one where I was studying for my first year of highschool)

And went to the city he was at

Now the last year of highschool

He had promised me to be loving and caring once we were together .

But.... As destiny would have it

He slipped even further . He even denied talking to me at times . By the month of October if I called him one too many times he would pick up the phone and shout at me 'dont you fucking understand if someone is not picking up calls he or she is busy ?' . We were supposed to meet that day . And I had been waiting for him outside our spot . I went back to my hostel and cried a lot it wasn't the first instant . He would only call me at nights if he need to 'relieve' himself . But If I did the same he would just say he is tired .

One day I sat him down to ask seriously what he wants and he said 'just leave me alone . Don't you understand priorities change and ppl change ???' 'i don't feel anything for you anymore' ' I don't love you'

My whole world shattered . With those words .

New year of 2020:-

Then I met him on his birthday made it the best birthday in the world ever . Gift , letters , even some private time .and then I left that town.

And it's just a fraction of the whole story . This all is up till 2019 the things that happen in 2020 and 2021 are even worse. But I guess I ranted a lot .

Thanks for reading . If you even read it through .

But I wish I was half as strong as TIME HEALS character to pull myself through . But I still have to deal with untreated anxiety . The lockdown and virus are also just making it difficult to get any help .

But anyways I would love to write to you the whole story . But I bored you by the end for one ask .🥺 M sorry .

Love you and your writing 💗.

Muha muha muha .... Hope you keep writing !!!!! Love you a lottttt!!!!!!!! You don't know how much your writing can effect !!! Lots of love from this end of the the screen . 💗💗💞

oh no please never! feel! sorry! for! ranting! to me! My blog is a safe space for everyone and I'm so happy that you felt comfortable enough to rant and put your thoughts out there, that's already a courageous thing to do.

I hope that when you say that you left that town, you also mean that you left him because he does not deserve you. Sure, people change, priorities change. But you don't use someone to your own benefit whenever you want, disregard their feelings KNOWINGLY, because he knows you were waiting for him, and then makes you feel guilty about his disrespect. What he *was* (because I truly hope that you either left, or that he changed, but I doubted someone with such a despicable behavior can change like that) doing was plainly rude and manipulative.

I know my words are not much, but you're doing amazing love. I hope that you'll find a way to overcome your anxiety with time. It takes time, ofc, but it will get easier with time, at least, I truly hope that it will for you. Lockdown and virus definitely suck. I've been on the waiting list for therapy for like, 4 months lmao. So I totally get that, getting help is a hardship in itself, accepting that you need help is a whole step, but then getting that help is even another story. I truly hope that you are okay and will get help soon if you are looking for it. Always feel free to message me or anything, truly. I'd be more than happy to talk if you need to (though I might take time to answer lol, I'm just a slow person TT)

You didn't bore me at all love, if anything, I'm really moved that I was able to reach you and maybe bring you a little piece of comfort. I truly hope life will be kinder with you because you didn't deserve to be treated this way. I also hope that my opinion about that person you spoke about didn't hurt you, I don't mean to potentially slander someone that you might still love, but this was really an asshole move. I have strong opinion about people like, but still, I apologize if I crossed the line.

Just know that you are loved, I support you with all my heart. You're worth way more than what this person gave you. I hope you'll find comfort and love soon.

Please stay healthy and take well care! Thank you so, so much for taking the time to share your story. It really means a lot. I totally don't realize how my writing may affect people; though I do hope it will always be positively with only positive outcome.

Take well care love! I love you too !

Dolly