#I do actually love the flavor of Mt. dew but I only drink it when I'm staying up well past when my REM cycle would kick in to work on smth

[countdown-til-sanders-take-over]

question actually.. do you drink coffee and if so what kind of coffee do you like. if naur what beverages do you prefer

I'm just like this unaided by any form of stimulants

[v0mpire]

Tag game: 50 Qs

Tagged by @hartigays forever ago and I forgot about it in my drafts lol

1. what is the color of your hairbrush? I don't actually brush my hair... but the brush in my bathroom is a wooden boar bristle one.

2. name a food you never eat: Sushi

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? I'm always cold. I run hot so my heat is always escaping me.

4. what were you doing 45 mins ago?  Reading a fic

5. what’s your favorite candy bar? I'm not really a candy person. But I like chocolate and caramel together.

6. have you ever been to a professional sports game? uhh nope.

7. what is the last thing you said out loud? “Fuck"

8. what is your favorite ice cream? Mint chocolate chip

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? Soda

10. do you like your wallet? Yeah. It's black leather and I painted Anarchy shit on it

11. what is the last thing you ate? My momma's pasta and sauce

12. did you buy any new clothes last weekend? Nope. I'm trying to cut down.

13. what’s the last sporting event you watched?  I never watch sports tbh.

13. what is your favorite flavor of popcorn? I hate popcorn lmao

14. who is the last person you sent a text message to? My mom

15. ever been camping? only once or twice

16. do you take vitamins? sometimes

17. do you regularly attend a place of worship? if the forest counts then yes.

18. do you have a tan? Yeah, from Cali. But it's fading and I'm sad..

19. do you prefer chinese food or pizza? I only like Chinese food from this one place I've been going to since I was a kid. So pizza?

20. do you drink your soda through a straw? only when I go to restaurants or fast food places

21. what color socks do you usually wear? Uh usually black but lately I wear my green wool mountain socks!

22. do you ever drive above the speed limit? Wtf is a speed limit? I thought those things were suggestions.

23. what terrifies you? My loved ones dying.

24. look to your left, what do you see? A T.V

25. what chore do you hate most? I don't have chores lol I mean like... general necessities putting groceries away always annoys me for some reason.

26. what do you think of when you hear an australian accent? Sexy... but also Jay (one of my headmates)

27. what’s your favorite soda? Mt. Dew

28. do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Drive thru... duh.

29. what’s your favorite number? 23

30. who’s the last person you talked to? My mom (I'm a momma's boy if you haven't noticed)

31. favorite cut of beef? T-bone 🐺👅💦

32. last song you listened to? hmm I don't remember. Something on my sleep playlist on Spotify

33. last book you read? haha! I don't read books, nerd. Only fanfics.

34. favorite day of the week? I mean they're all the same tbh 🤷🏼‍♂️

35. can you say the alphabet backwards? Yeah right!

36. how do you like your coffee? Not a coffee person.

37. favorite pair of shoes? My combats

38. time you normally get up? Uhh currently, between 9am and 11am

39. what do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? Sunsets. But both really. I just hate being tired in the am to see the sunrise.

40. how many blankets on your bed? currently 3. My heating blanket, my quilt and my duvet.

41. describe your kitchen plates. Plain white ceramic.

42. describe your kitchen at the moment. Slightly cluttered from all the cooking I did yesterday for the Halloween party. But cozy cause we have all the winter throws on the couches and pillows.

43. do you have a favorite alcoholic drink? Almost anything with Vodka in it. But there green tea shots and these sweedish fish shot from my local gay club are BOMB!

44. do you play cards? Yep

45. what color is your car? White

47. can you change a tire? Technically, theoretically, but I haven't had to actually do it yet so I don't knkw LMAO!

48. your favorite country? Uh... Italy or Scotland

49. favorite job you’ve had? Florist

Tagging: @pretty-bratty @prettyboyporter @harringrovetrashh @daggers---drawn @hoegrove @catharrington @memes-saved-me (sorry if you've already been tagged)

[pineapplebaby1243]

What I can't tell you without crying

A few days ago I felt like I had lost a part of me. I felt like my world just went black and I was lost. The words "we need a break" echo in my head over and over and honestly it's driving me crazy. The feeling in my heart when I heard that still lingers today. I can't say I'm handling it as well as you. Cause now I just feel lost. I mean that was my only home id ever had. Where I felt safe. And I knew I could be myself. I know I done something wrong and I know it's my fault cause you told me that you were still hurt. But now I realize I ended up hurting myself more. But this isn't a please come back to me letter or a guilt trip it's only a way I can express myself and really say how I feel and I'm sorry if you see it any other way. But you. It was always only you. Nobody but you. You were and still are all I want and need. 24/7 it was always you. On my mind. Everywhere I looked and things I heard and seen. It all reminded me of you. When we met I was lost and scared of literally everything and you changed me. The way we met was crazy and I didn't expect it to go any farther than it did but I fell in love. I remember the first phone call. We were to nervous to actually turn the camera on, on Skype so we just talked until 3 in the morning east coast time. You were at your friends and you guys played Xbox and talked about cars and you made corny jokes just so I'd laugh because you told me I should smile more because it was beautiful and I laughed one time and you told me " I hear the smile in that laugh". You used to tell me not to cover my smile cause it was beautiful. We used to watch movies together. We made playlists together. You used to send me corny pick up line just one after the other just trying to make me laugh and smile but it only made me fall for you more. I was yours and you didn't know it yet. I loved the way you were just so smart. You impressed me. We had the same common Interests. Such as cars music movies even philosophy. I remember how I asked you to send me a photo to see what you looked like and you told me not to stop talking to you because that's what most people done and all I could think after seeing you was omg they are fucking idiots he's adorable. I remember the foods you ate and how you didn't like flavorful foods. I thought you were crazy because I live in the south and all we eat is flavorful food. I remember how interesting it was to meet someone from the west coast. I remember you used to drink mt dew all the time. And we talked about the future and you wanted to be a rally racer and own a Subaru. Favorite car a nova. Loved anime. we used to have arguments about football and the panthers and Seahawks. We talked about dream date ideas and hell we even got "married". We went and looked at wedding rings and all that. It was fun. It made me happy. It got me away from my pain and I never put my wall up with you cause I knew I could trust you and you'd always care for me. I was me. For 7 months I was me. I found myself with you. You promised me you'd get me outta this little piss poor town and get me away from everything that hurt me cause you seen the damage it done to me. You knew my fears and my goals and dreams. I knew yours. We talked about our childhood. Hell we talked about our own kids and our own little life. But now all it's so blurry. I used to be afraid of people and I told myself before I met you that I'd never trust again and I'd never do the whole relationship thing again then you just came into my life and all that went away. I fell harder and deeper in love with you than anyone else. You meant more to me than anything I'd ever had in my life. You are my world and my one and only and now I feel like I lost that. You bring out the best in me. You taught me how to love myself. I mean all I ever wanted was to run through the airport and jump in your arms. I love you so much and my biggest fear was losing you and it came true. I haven't slept much lately cause all I've ever done since I met you was dream of you. And I know I'm difficult and I'm such a girl sometimes but I try my best and I'm sorry for anything and everything I done. I just love you so much. I know you say it's for the best and that you need time to work on yourself and I understand that, it's just hard on me because my biggest fear is that while you work on yourself is that you realize that you don't need me or want me anymore. And If that happens I honestly wouldn't blame you because of how I am. I mean I've never been wanted by anyone before I met you. Not even family wise. I only wanna be goofy with you and make you happy. I don't care about one else. I wanna do all those things we had planned like watch Disney movies and go on long night drives and just be stupid with you. That one lake date I had planned. And the lake is like the only other place I could be myself other than when I was with you. And it was where I escaped to before I had you and now I can't go back there without wishing I could just jump off the bridge and disappear forever. There's no one I wanna spend the rest of my life with but you. I know we've had rough times already but I just wanna get better. I want us to get better. You made me get over my fears and you made me a better person. I will never forget the morning you fell in love with me. I'll never forget those long phone calls. I'll never forget that you knew my favorite car and you built my dream car on forza. I'll never forget how I was the first one to say I love you by saying "I love you more than dolphins love water". I'll never forget the promises and the way we said we will always find our way back home and I cried because I knew I'd really found my home with you. I will always remember the little things. Like your favorite colors are red and black. I opened up to you more than anyone in my family. I always came to you about my problems and when I was hurt because you were the only one to help me and was really there. I knew I could rely on you. Even though we were long distant and everyone was like oh they never work out I was so determined to prove them wrong because we were so strong. You made me who I am and without you I'm lost. I can't look in the mirror and see the same person I did 2 weeks ago. I guess all I'm really trying to say is that your the love of my life and I don't want to lose you for good. Even if we are on a break I still miss you and it hurts like hell and I really want you. But for its for the best I guess I'll have to deal with the pain. I just wish I could know the outcome. If we are really gonna be able to come back together and this be okay or if we are gonna grow apart? I just want it to be okay again. We made it 7 months and they were some of the most amazing exciting and perfect because I had you.We were always on the same page. We had the same opinions. The only thing we ended up disagreeing on was what color to paint your truck. And it wasn't even really a disagreement. We joked around all the time. We had "arguments" and "fights" (he knows what I'm talking about) You may not see it but you are still my man and are my baby. your my soul mate. And it hurts that your so far away and now it feels like your even farther away now that we are on a break. I just don't wanna go through this life without you by my side. But like I said I don't want this to seem like I'm trying to guilt trip you into coming back because I'm not. I just love you and there's no way I can just let you walk away for a while without knowing how I felt and where I stand. I just don't wanna lose myself while I wait for you to find you. I poisoned myself in the love you gave me. I drowned in your eyes and suffocated myself with the sweet words you told me. I froze at the thought of a touch of your skin. It's crazy how you could give me chills and never even touch me. You could make me smile and not say a word. I could fall in love with you a million times over and never be bored because it's you and I'm my eyes your the most amazing and interesting thing ever. I'm just so sorry @c

[surveysbygracelynn]

Do you like meatball subs? I do. The meatball marinara used to be my favorite thing to get at subway. I just don’t get them because they’re high calorie. 

Are you severely sleep deprived? I think so, though last night was a pretty good night of sleep. 

What music are you listening to? nothing intently, and the radio is on commercial. 

What is your favorite smell on earth? idk what my top thing is. but i do like the smell of freshly baked cookies. 

What are you doing tomorrow morning? maybe helping recycle some bottles. 

What are you supposed to be doing right now? honestly? i dont think theres anything I should be doing. 

Have you ever killed your elbows on an inflatable obstacle course? no..

Ever gone a whole day without eating? no, though i think last year when I was working I came close to. 

Do you feel that you need to improve your spiritual life? I could always be better.

Can you curse fluently in Spanish? Nope.

If you go to school (HS or college) does your school have a rival? -

What’s your school’s mascot? -

Do the numbers 44 and 53 mean anything to you? no. 

Ever had banana pudding flavored ice cream? no. 

If you have a sib, do you call him/her “brother” or “sister” sometimes? no. 

Has the weather been odd lately where you live? For January, it is a bit warm. 

Remember “Kenan and Kel”? Yes.

Does the mere mention of that show make you crave orange soda? not really. 

Are you *this* close to falling asleep? yes, except if i laid down I wouldn’t be. 

Do you own a Wii? yeah

If not, do you want one? -

Did you ever collect stickers? yes, those 50 cent ones from the machines at the store. 

Isn’t Hello Kitty just the cutest thing ever? it’s cute but not the cutest thing ever. 

Are there any songs you could just listen to over and over and over? Yes.

Do you have a favorite basketball team (NBA or college?) no

Ever had chicken curry and basmati rice? i dont think so. 

Do you have a weird obsession with numbers? not really. 

Does your job (if you have one) involve sitting at a computer for hours? yes. 

Do you get major shoulder/upper back pain from that? Or think you would? no. 

Do you have someone who will give you a massage when you need one? Brandon except idon’t see him.

Ever seen Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas? Nope.

Do you own any diamond jewelry? no. 

Do you have an American-made car? nope.

Have you been baptized in any religious tradition? Yes.

Do you drink alcohol at all? yeah

If not, do you like the smell?  idk. jack daniels smells better than it tastes to me. that’s about it. i guess fireball because cinnamon .

Are you in a chair, on a couch, in bed, on the floor, what? chair. 

If your best male friend got a mohawk, would he look good or ridiculous? He wanted a fauxhawk and I told him no. lol Do you love the smell of sunblock? in a sense because it smells like summer.  Internet Explorer or Firefox: which do you prefer?

firefox

What are you going to do now? chill

Have you ever fallen asleep thinking about a boy/girl? Yes.

Do you have a favorite pair of jeans? yes.  Have you ever just felt like you could cry an ocean? sure. 

Have you ever woken up to wonder why you even bother? Yes.

How long do you spend on your hair each day? nope. 

Describe what you would call the perfect weather. sunny with a high of 75.. and a cool breeze.

Do you have Twitter? yeah

Do you eat cereal? nope. 

What is your favorite meal of the day? i guess dinner. 

Do you have bangs? yes

When was the last time you got your hair done? done?? wow. idk. lol danielles sweet 16?? 

Do you like the dentist? no

Would you rather study a foreign language or history? language.

Do you wear house shoes/slippers? no. 

Is there a person in your life that you know you’ll never forget? Yes.

Do you like to draw? Nope.

What is on your bedroom walls? nothing. 

What kind of cell phone do you have? galaxy s4.

Do you own a lot of hairbrushes? no

What’s the first line of the last song you listened to? i don’t remember the last song i listened to.

Who did you first talk to this morning? uh... my mom, i think. 

How many email accounts do you have? that i actively check? one for leisure. one at work. lol 

Do you still watch movies on a VCR? No.

Have you ever known someone online, then met them in real life? nope. 

Do you believe in a God? yeah

Do you like windy days? only when its warm. 

Do you have a deep, dark secret? dont we all

What’s in your pocket? nothing.

Have you ever wanted to be on TV? sure, who hasn’t. 

Have you ever been pushed into a pool? Yeah. 

Do you have birthday parties? I suppose.

Have you ever attended a costume party? Yes.

Do you still drink Mt. Dew even though it’s bad for you? Yes

Have you ever cried over another person? yeah

Are you listening to music right now? [If yes, what song?] Q1043 is on in the background. Refugee - by tom petty and the heartbreakers. 

Do you like classical music? ehhh

Do you believe in forever? eeeeeeeeeeeeh. I think things on earth are too volatile for that. 

When did you last eat Cheetos? i don’t remember :( 

Have you ever talked on the phone more than an hour? Yes.

Do you take a lot of pictures of yourself? I guess because of snapchat. I don’t save a lot though. 

Do you know anybody who is afraid of clowns? probably.

What time did you wake up this morning? I think I actually woke up at like 6:40. 

Were you ever afraid of the dark? when I was little.

Do you have a mirror in your bedroom? Yes.

What type of computer do you have? Dell. 

Do you put pepper on mostly everything you eat? no.

Have you ever seen a zebra? yeah

When was the last time you had hiccups? idk. 

Have you ever had toe cramps? yeah

What’s your middle name? Lynn

How tall are you? 5′

What grade are you in? -

Do you like the taste of burnt popcorn? Yes.

Are you a forgiving person? not as of late. When was the last time you brushed your teeth?

last night.

Have you ever touched a snake? yeah

Do you wear make-up? Not really. 

Have you ever had a rolling back pack? Yeah. 

Are you cold at the moment? yeah actually. 

What season were you born in? spring.

Do you have a person you could tell everything to? I suppose.

What colour is the soap in your bathroom? Does it have a specific scent? green. ehh.

Do you have a favourite towel? What colour is it? i like the fluffier ones. they’re all different colors. 

Have you seen any films with Judy Garland in them? wizard of oz! lol 

How did you feel when you woke up today? Why? tired. because i’m always tired

Do you have a friend named Nick? What’s his favourite food? yes. ugh. idk lol. i think ive seen him eat too many different things. 

Have you ever been to the cinema to watch a film, and found that you disliked it? AVATAR ! 

What do you plan to do tomorrow? recycle some bottles and thats about it lol