#I can't help that my sense of self-worth has become inextricably tied to whether or not I have an income I can't | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

onrainynights · 3 months ago

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I'm not even asking for much literally I just need a job like that's it just a job that won't literally kill me would solve like 70% of my problems and well the other 30% I can't do anything about anyway so let me fix what I can fix and give me a job PLEASE

#I am literally begging someone. anyone #I can't help that my sense of self-worth has become inextricably tied to whether or not I have an income I can't #so please just let me not feel worthless and give me something to DO #I am so tired. so FUCKING tired of this cycle. why is it so bad right now what is even happening #YOU HAVE 10 OPEN POSITIONS AND I'VE WORKED FOR YOU BEFORE. YOU BEGGED ME TO STAY WHEN I QUIT. WTF #literally like I am so. augh #things are so bad right now like in general but also for my family specifically. we have not been this bad financially since I was a kid #except it's 5 adults in the house living on like 1 and a quarter incomes #and the 1 stable income is $18/hr #for five people #FUCK. what the hell #like I know I made the right choice quitting my last job because I WOULD have killed myself if I didn't but now I'm just a burden #I hate everything #it took so fucking long and so much work to get that shitty horrible job and now I'm back where I started #god #fucking yanks 18-year-old me's shoulders and shakes him until he decides to get his shit together and stay at college #like god please just get some fucking adderall and you'll be fine I promise #sorry this is just. I'm not okay. haven't been okay in a while. and I don't know how I'm ever going to get to a point where I'm okay again

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