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#I can barely hold a characterisation together while writing fic cause I don't know how to know someone!
ferociouslycreativemystery
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I'll be fine and then I'll make any attempt at genuine connection and run headlong into a fucking wall
#just a ramble I needed to expel to get on with my evening take no note of this
#I've lived under this roof with the same people all my life
#they want to understand me and I want to make myself understood
#and yet it never fucking works
#cause I'm doing fine inside and the world is doing fine outside but I have no idea how to make the two meaningfully connect
#I don't know anyone and no one knows me
#I can barely hold a characterisation together while writing fic cause I don't know how to know someone!
#and I'm fucking sick of it!
#there.
#coming out as queer is whatever to me
#coming out as a friendless unworldly loser feels like putting a knife through my fucking chest
#cause there is no established narrative for that process. people have no idea what that means or how to respond
#me included
#when I say I haven't aged socially since I was 14 and probably regressed a fair bit since then too I mean it
#covid was a fucking relief cause finally the world at large was a little bit more like me
#the void shrank by a fraction
#but I'm falling behind again and I HATE it!!
#but like. it's no one else's problem and by its very nature only I can solve it
#at least I'm doing marginally better now than a year ago. so there's that
#maddie debrief
#and online I can pick my moments of existing and connecting
#but real life is just relentless
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