#I can at least take it as exposure therapy. I won't be immediately incinerated if I do something wrong. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

asinglesock · 24 days ago

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sometimes the horrible feeling in your stomach is anxiety but sometimes the horrible feeling in your stomach is because you are hungry. and sometimes you are both anxious and hungry. if you eat you might still be anxious but you will no longer be hungry.

#a sock speaks #local construction #it feels like I'm at a stage of making serious mistakes and having to work through the consequences #sometimes the mistakes are my fault through negligence. sometimes I don't have control of the situation but can't escape being implicated #sometimes I'm misunderstood. the mistakes aren't similar except that they were all serious and caused me a lot of shame #I could be seeing patterns that aren't really there #but it feels like I have to go through this again and again until I learn my lesson. sure wish I could learn the lesson and be done with it #I can at least take it as exposure therapy. I won't be immediately incinerated if I do something wrong.#seldom are the consequences so unthinkable as I thought they'd be #but the flip side is that I don't have the blessed relief of being crushed by a giant boulder or yanked offstage by a vaudeville hook #as long as I'm alive I have to live with myself #I have to remind myself that if I believe in restorative justice for others I should also apply it to myself #the point is not to be certain I receive punishment for my every wrongdoing but that I work to do better

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