#I also just booked a trip to go visit my bf and I'm so excited AAAAAAAAA

[kkami-writes]

hey guys!! long time no talk......here's a little life update!

so as you remember I got a job at the beginning of novemeber! while kinda stressful and hectic I really enjoyed working with the dogs and was happy even if i didn't have as much time for other things. December took a bit of a rough turn with seasonal depression and just feeling no motivation for really much of anything. For context for years I've never really had amazing birthdays, I've been disappointed, upset or just alone on my birthdays and I've long lost the excitement of my birthday. This year, I took a trip to Orange County/LA to visit family. We had planned on doing an escape room (something I've only done once but enjoyed but with my anxiety the thought of being locked in a room freaks me out). my cousins bf however booked a saw themed room. for those of you who don't know. I hate horror. ok, I digress. sometimes I can watch horror. but i mostly more enjoy horror video games but even then I do NOT play them for the most part. And if I do I usually have to take a break bc my anxiety spikes. In years I have gotten better at dealing with it, but in general horror movies specifically trigger me pretty badly. And prior to this, my anxiety had been out of control, constant anxiety and panic attacks that I didn't think I was even going to make it on my trip. So needless to say I was upset. Because I was looking forward to doing an escape room, I enjoy puzzles and thinking but that being said I would never ever do a horror themed escape room. I felt bad because I couldn't do it and they had already paid and it was about an hour before we had to leave. (thank god I asked what the theme of the room was before we got there). anyway, with all my emotions that I had been piling up in me, I just had a bad breakdown and cried. They all ended up going bc again, didn't want to waste money and I just wanted to be alone at that point anyway. Regardless, I still had a good time on the trip, "minor" bump aside. We went to little tokyo and I got to go to designer con for a bit. ALSO I love my cousins bf, he's a really nice guy. He did not know I don't do horror so it's not his fault. In his defense it was more supposed to be horror comedy / parody but I was already very highly anxious that even that would freak me out.

With my job, the original owners of the daycare had sold it, due to personal circumstances so we were getting a whole new owner. Except that a lot of us did not agree with things they were going to be adding or the way they interacted with the dogs. They have "nap time" which is literally just them crating all the dogs for almost 2 whole hours. Not all the dogs are crate trained and needless to say, did not enjoy it. When we tried it a few times it was just non stop barking for 2 hours. It was heartbreaking and sad. Literally everyone but two people have quit and decided they would not be working with these new people who clearly don't really care about the dogs. It's all about how to make the most money. The new owners don't even HAVE a dog. It's kinda crazy. So that being said...I have also decided to leave as I just don't feel comfortable there anymore. Which is heartbreaking because even though it's been two months, I've really bonded with these dogs and love them and it feels like I've left them to fend for themselves :/ anyway, I don't want to keep rambling on and on. but basically! i'm on the hunt for a new job and still struggling a bit with motivation and my mood, but i'm still hoping to return back to writing in january. I miss you guys a lot and have missed writing. I'm gonna answer all my asks soon. Thanks <3

[laceghost]

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I'm so late but ty for the ask!! <33 1. Song of the year? That's so fucking hard to answer?? I think it's a tie between Spillways and Griftwood

2. Album of the year? Legally obligated to say Impera. cmon

3. Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? Very end of the year find but House of Harm is becoming a favorite of mine really quickly

8. Game of the year? I barely played anything this year tbh :/ I'll say Omori bc I finally finished it and it was super good!!

9. Best month for you this year? So glad that I had such a good year that it's hard to choose lol my whole summer of july to september were the absolute best, I got to spend a lot of time with my best friends, traveled to visit some amazing places and saw some really cool bands! I can't just choose one bc these three months felt like a whole year to themselves

11. Something you want to do again next year? I went to a very cool underground bar/venue in my town for the first time and I really hope I get to go more often!! I really want to see more little shows this year basically

12. Talk about a new friend you made this year HI HIIIIII @niimuue !! Ok so technically we've known each other since before this year. BUT. I didn't meet anyone new and I feel like we really got to know each other this year!! I'm so glad we started talking more,, not to be sappy but you're a literal ray of sunshine in my days when I talk to you. ok i love you

13. How was your birthday this year? Pretty fun! We had a picinc at the park with my friends and I got to eat some good cake :) Didn't cry this year wich is an achievement (yipee)

14. Favorite book you read this year? Oh Gideon The Ninth hands down. I jumped head first into tlt and I don't regret anything (currently working on a Harrow cosplay too!!)

18. A memorable meal this year? Oh I got a real stupid one for this. My bf and I went on a trip to Italy this summer and on our last day we were eating outside and we had?? a french youtuber stumble and almost fall RIGHT beside our table it was such a weird moment of recognition I was stunned because?? is this who I think it is that almost ate shit right beside me?? in Italy of all places???? And when I asked my bf if he recognized the guy bc I wanted to be sure of who I saw, he didn't even know him.

19. What’re you excited about for next year? Seeing Ghost again lmao. Also getting more tattoos!

20. What’s something you learned this year? Kinda learned to set better boundaries! It's helped a lot to be able to protect myself and not let people walk all over me, and being able to communicate in a healthier way when ppl I care about are hurting me and not realizing it

21. What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year? Umm acquired more trinkets and Miku figures lmao,, Oh I also reorganized my print wall but other than that not much has changed!

22. Favorite place you visited this year? Edinburgh for suuuure I really fell in love with the whole city but the castle was especially beautiful

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one Yeah I made a few new characters for my graduation portfolio :^) I don't want to spoil too much so I'll briefly talk abt Josué! He's a member of my main cast of monsters and he's a cool guy with 4 arms ans that's all you'll get for now!! I'll post about them all when I make full illustrations hehe

[remcycl333]

hi again really stupid q but it's been bugging me- I get into the state of being in my dream life but I also make plans for going on holiday because I'm so excited to see my bf and it's happening soon. Where I get tripped up is that living in this country that I'm flying to is basically where I'd be living in my dream life so should I keep planning for this holiday and also persist in having my dr or disregard the holiday and focus on fulfilling the inner man by already living there?

well, i wouldn't plan for the holiday 24/7. if you need to book flights, or talk about it with your bf or someone else, do it! take care of business in the 3d. you can even act (in oyur mind) as though you live there and you're planning on going back bc currently you're on a trip in your current country.

if you want to imagine this holiday, you can imagine your bf and you spending time together in this country, but in your imagination you can give it the context that you already live there together, not that you're just visiting there. if that makes sense?

[cafalla]

Diary Entry - 02/03/2024

February is going to be a slow yet busy month for me.

My bf will be away for most of this month to visit family and go on a work trip. His birthday and Valentine's Day are this month, so I'm planning to use that time he is away to figure out a gift for both occasions to give him when he returns.

I made him a cake from scratch last year, and I'm thinking of doing the same again this year. Last year was blackberry lavender, which was soooo yummy. I'm thinking of doing some kind of strawberry cake this year, since that's his favorite. I've already gotten him a laptop case as an early birthday present to take on his trip, but I want to find something else nice to go with his birthday cake.

I'll probably get a little gift box of chocolates, small items, and a card for Valentine's Day.

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I also have started listing and selling stuff on eBay and Mercari. I forgot how time consuming listing and selling stuff is! But it's been fun, every new sale makes you just want to sell more!

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I feel I have been slacking lately on uploading to the internet archive, as well as posting to my photoblog. Both of which I love uploading to, but I have been so slow to scan.

While my bf is away, I'll probably try to crank out a ton of scans...I have way too many magazines and books sitting in my closet waiting to be uploaded.

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With my reading challenge, I also have reached the end of my to-read pile. I have one more book which I'm starting tonight, and then I have nothing waiting to be read. A thrifting trip is in order to get some books!

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So yeah, alongside work, I need to get gifts, get more books, list/sell/ship items, and scan. It's a lot, but I'm excited for all of it! Time always feels like it slows down when I'm living alone, but at least I have a lot of things to keep me occupied until my bf comes back home. x

[pinklily7749]

New changes coming

Just got back from the gym. Still love starting my weekends off with Body Step and Body Pump as I feel extra pumped for the weekend ahead. It was also raining today, so it's perfect. I also wore my new periwinkle coloured Nike shoes today that I bought last weekend, they're so comfortable. AND they match my periwinkle coloured watch. Ah the little things!

It's been a long week of testing at work. From memory, I completed 29 tests on Monday, 40 on Tuesday, 28 on Wednesday, 24 on Thursday and then 19 tests on Friday. That's 140 tests this week! When I compete against myself, I can push myself really far. I'm so proud of this week's achievement.

Aside from the fact I got my period on Friday so I was quite moody yesterday, it's been a great week. And yes, I'm crazy for going to the gym on my period this morning...

On another note, my boyfriend recently got offered a job in the field he wanted. So happy for him! He's moving interstate.

Despite feeling a bit sad at times that we may not see each other as often in 2020, I'm kinda excited to spend some time visiting him and road tripping around NSW and maybe even Australia. I've grown up in Victoria, got educated in Victoria and worked for the last 3 years in Victoria so... I'm definitely looking for a change. Despite having a dream to buy a house soon, I'm okay with buying three years or more from now (already proud that I already have the deposit for the house saved).

I think for now, I definitely need this new experience. I have more time to work on myself next year (hopefully not Body Stepping everyday! :P) Or catch up with a friend or two more often in the year. So my 2020 has definitely taken a turn. It'll now include road tripping around Australia and more time to work on myself when he isn't here.

Speaking of 2020 goals and a great way to finish this post, I've been making them slowly. Here is a list of them...

2020 New Year's Resolutions:

1. Read one book per month

2. Fitness classes 2 days a week

3. Buy a car

4. Go see bf and road trip around NSW often

5. Go to Taiwan

6. No coffees in Sunday

7. Hike the Werribee Gorge 2 times a year

8. Catch up with at least one friend often.

9. Be more conscious about where money is going.

10. Save X amounts of money.

Until next time.