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[skibasyndrome]

Oooh could you try "This was a bad idea." "Then why are you still kissing me?" 👀

Thank you :)

Hi Helen! Thank you so so so much for sending me one of these!!! 💜💜💜 This was a lot of fun <3

Whatever song is playing right now, Simon couldn’t possibly muster the brain capacity to recognize it. He’s gone, nothing else matters, he’s 50% butterflies and 50% wobbly knees. Simon doesn’t know how they ended up like this. He doesn’t know how he ended up with Wille crowding him against the wall in the most closed off corner of Felice’s living room they could find. How he ended up with his fingers threaded through Wille’s hair, with his lips moving against Wille’s. But, god, Wille’s kissing him. Wille’s lips are so soft, feel even softer than they look, and whatever Simon has spent the past months imagining doesn’t even compare to the real thing, to having Wille close like this. Closer than they’ve ever been before.

When Simon feels Wille’s tongue gentle nudging against his bottom lip, his breath hitches. No day-dreaming about his best friend could’ve prepared him for the feeling of them deepening their kiss. It’s- everything about it is so very Wille, that Simon feels like his heart is going to burst out of his chest. He’s gentle, he’s soft, but there’s an underlying urgency there, there’s Wille leaning into Simon, Wille cradling the side of Simon’s neck. Wille is kissing him like Wille does all things, with care and attention to detail, but with a determination that Simon has always found unfairly attractive. When Wille pulls away, Simon wants to whine. Thankfully, he seems to muster a last shred of self-respect, keeps his eyes shut firmly to stay in the moment for longer and oh, oh. Wille isn’t leaving. He nuzzles his nose against Simon’s, his breath tickles Simon’s lip and. Well. How is Simon supposed to resist. He tugs Wille closer, blindly finds his lips again, feels his pulse hammering loudly in his ears when he gets another taste of Wille. Just… Wille. And some mint from his chewing gum, and- sweet and fruity like the shots Maddie was handing out earlier. A knot of dread lodges itself between Simon’s ribs. This isn’t- this isn’t how any of this was supposed to go. Fuck. Right. He’s an idiot. He’s an idiot who got impatient and who might’ve just blown his one chance at doing this the right way. He’s fighting his every instinct when he pulls back, immediately misses Wille’s mouth on his. “This was a bad idea." His voice wavers, shaky, unsure. God, he can’t even convince himself. Wille’s hand on his neck stills, and Simon immediately thinks he’s made a mistake.

And because he’s an idiot, because he can’t help himself, because it’s been too long and because now he might never have the real thing, he lurches forward again. Desperate and needy and acting like he’s gonna find the air that’s suddenly gone from his lungs on Wille’s lips. But this time it’s Wille who stops him, who gently pushes Simon away after a brief touch of their lips. Just far enough for Wille to rest his forehead against Simon’s. "Then why are you still kissing me?" Wille sounds more sober than he’s done all evening, sounds… Simon can’t place the tone, and he suddenly feels like he’s going to cry.  He’s kissed his best friend. His drunk best friend. His drunk best friend who does this. Casually, from time to time. Who he’s seen kissing Maddie and Felice and Nils and who always ends up a giggly, beautiful mess afterwards, only to never kiss them again. Only to go back to being their friend. And now Simon is going to be another friend he’s kissed while drunk at a party and will never kiss again. It takes everything inside of him not to let out a pathetic little noise of frustration. “You’re drunk,” he forces out instead, saying nothing at all. He shakes his head.  “We’re drunk,” he corrects himself and suddenly curses every decision that’s lead him here and curses his earlier self for ever thinking those shots would be a good idea. Maybe without them, he wouldn’t have- All thoughts desert Simon’s brain at once when Wille lifts a hand up to his cheek. Every fingertip is warm and comforting, and yet Simon feels like he’s breaking apart under the touch. But Wille is still close, so close, his breath is everything Simon hears, his cologne everything he smells, and a silly, silly part of him is still clinging to the illusion. “Did you not want to kiss me?”

Something about the way he asks it, nothing but earnestness, is so very Wille that it cracks Simon’s chest right open. He doesn’t think he could lie to Wille, ever, but especially not now. So he nods, accidentally brushing the tip of his nose against Wille’s. “I did,” he breathes. But, because that’s not quite right, he tries again, with his heart beating so fast he thinks he might have to sit down.  “I do. Do wanna kiss you.” For a beat, there’s nothing. Just Simon, suspended in a vacuum, one second from falling to his death. But then he’s back, Wille is back, is somehow closer, is pressing small kisses against Simon’s lips, his nose, his cheek, and Simon can breathe again, sucks in the air that smells like Wille. “Then kiss me again,” Wille says, lips somewhere near Simon’s ear, then on his cheek. “Please.” Simon thinks he can taste the single syllable on his tongue when he pulls Wille in again.

[ghost-of-you]

#5sos5 is about one very intense relationship falling apart and I will write that post one day -> can that day please be today 🥺

i would love to hear your thoughts on how all the little album threads fit together!

Okay, sure, let's do this msksoakaala

Here's a Spotify playlist with songs in this order because I'm extra.

I will be using only the standard version of the album and considering that this is about a romantic relationship, I will be ignoring the 3 songs that are not about romantic relationships, best friends, take my hand and carousel. I will also be ignoring older, since it doesn't fit the narrative of the rest of the songs. For the sake of clarity I will also be using he for the narrator and she for the subject.

So, the album is about a relationship that's going in circles "we go around again we jump back in bed", "another glass until we come around", "we're going around again in the emotional blender" and we catch that relationship in the middle, since we don't have a song about falling in love, they're already there.

But it all starts in haze. They're still in that good in love, well, haze. The world only feels right when they're together. And there's no reference to the divide that's making them go around and around yet. The relationship is that easy thing that he'll keep chasing until the end. The love that made him feel human again after he's been through bad times, the person that makes him feel alright whenever they're around. Is chasing that high that keeps him coming back.

Then we go into complete mess. The relationship is no longer easy, she makes him complete, but she also makes him a mess. There are also beginnings of the divide between them "call it a lesson when I feel you slide away" and "I learned my lesson when I felt you slip away" and the relationship is no longer the easy "and I am human once again" from haze, he's questioning because he's "caught up in heaven but your heaven ain't the same", he's hanging on to the good moments through the confusion, because he loves her and she makes him complete but the relationship is not just the beautiful things anymore.

Then we have me, myself and i. The beauty of mm&i is that she fits in any of the off moments of the relationship. It's that desperation of trying to believe he did the right thing letting the phone ring. The song is a loop and lyrically it ends without really ending. He's alone, it's his fault and he's trying to convince himself he's fine with it. "I guess I got what I wanted" but at the same time "I never knew what I needed" and he has the same words running around and around and around. I did put this in the beginning over the "i know you wish me well" because the belief that she's still in it with him fades with time.

Then we go into easy for you to say. This song could be an attempt to make it right once they come back. She was someone who saw him through bad times and he's trying to explain how he got caught up in that bad side. But they're already stuck in a cycle. He lies then comes back to explain it and he promises that "each and every time I'll try and change my ways" but it's easier for her to make demands than it is for him to actually comply. Ultimately he's trying to get her to understand the darkness in him that makes him do stubborn things that might end up with him doing something to jeopardize the relationship but he will keep trying anyway.

Then we go into blender. Like mm&i, blender fits in the beginnings of any on period. But he's already tired. The song starts with him watching her across the room, so they aren't in the best place but "we just can't keep away" so it's starting again. I think the blender metaphor here is great because a blender spins things around while chopping them up, so no cycle is without consequence. Being trapped in this is bad for both of them and they know it but he can't stay away. He's still trying like he promised "I tried for you" but at this point he's questioning if all they're doing is hurting each other while going around "but all a hear is..."

Then we go into bad omens and caramel. I think they are the same cycle, the last cycle, from both points of view. I wrote this back when the album came out, you can read that if you want something more elaborate on why i feel like these two songs go hand in hand. But both songs are about holding on to something that's clearly beyond saving, but while bad omens is desperately fighting to keep it together, caramel is going through the motions in that failure. In bad omens he knows he's chasing something that's hurting him, but he needs to keep trying because that's what you do when you love somebody. There's also the "we go around again we jump back in bed" that goes with "all the things you said in my head ricocheting off the bed" in blender because they jump into bed just to ricochet right of off it and it's just creating more of a mess. And caramel he's chasing that easy, being in love and being known and being with that person that makes everything better he had with her in the beginning, but he can't find it, it's right there and he can't reach it but he's hanging on anyway because "it used to be easy" so why can't it be easy again? So he just can't let go.

Then we go into bleach. Bleach is the realization that maybe he's fighting for something he can't save. It ties back to bad omens and the "I'm still making sense of having nothing left to save" he's literally trying to make sense of watching "everything i want and everything i was spinning down the drain". "Brought a knife to a gunfight" he's not equipped for the fight that he's in. And he knows it's not easy and "it takes time to let go but i can't take it no more" it's the realization he needs to step out of the cycle to figure out a way to live with her.

Then we end it all with red line and you don't go to parties. Why am I grouping them together? They're both waiting for something to happen. They're both waiting for her to walk in. But red line is in that hopeless how many times can I come back if you keep pushing me out feeling and ydgtp is accepting the fact that she just doesn't fit in anymore, since "everyone I ever knew is standing in my house" but she's not there. Red line is actually him finally accepting that he has nothing left to save, going back to bad omens, and he did lose who he was while falling out of love, going back to bleach. And ydgtp is him contemplating all the times he intentionally lost his mind in the name of being passionate about something. I also like ydgtp as the last song for the relationship because it's the one where he accepts she's not there anymore. And that also ties back to blender because he was watching her across the room in blender and in ydgtp he's scanning the room for her even though he knows she's not coming back this time.

[busyfish]

i'm just journaling here so i'm going to just talk a lot under the cut

i cleaned the bird area and the cages and stuff tonight.

it's legitimately interesting to me to see like the areas of the cages where the birds are the most.

i know that ori's old cage is now the social area. they can all fit on the same perch in there. so like allll the poop is there. and the food area has some poop and obvi the food the falls to the floor.

the second cage is truly like the food area though. it seems to have near zero poops on the right side and only really a little poop near the food bowls. it is nearly just food that fell to the ground.

it's neat to be able to see the social habits of my birds just by cleaning after them.

-

it's a weird time for me.

it's 9 degrees right now and it's noticable that days are less bright too.

i feel like it's some-what better for me and i feel just a little lighter today even though i was so low energy i mostly just did bed all day.

i have been strongly and consistently depressed since June.

and when Ori died it made things so much worse.

and just July being July and me feeling like that was a time when my eyes got opened to something so hurtful, it just seems to like be "oh yeah it's time for that".

and of course being in the hospital recently.

right now i feel like i should be happier but i'm not.

the madoka movie trailer sort of got me off track of my like cycle i guess?

it's really like not something i want anymore.

it's not exactly just that i don't want to get over them or whatever.

i just feel like i can't.

i feel like i don't have much else to focus on when i feel lonely or i feel like i need some comfort and love and kind words or just someone telling me i'm cute and look pretty.

and it's not that i need the words. the words themselves are meaningless.

it's just having so much in common and feeling like we were kind of just meant for each and to be friends and on top of that having the words.

it's hard to replace that but also it's just hard knowing no one even really wants to replace that.

i'm not upset at anyone or anything like that but like no one really has time for me. we're at this point in life where everyone has their friends already, they have their busy lives, people work, most people function correctly.

i'm too much work and a hassle anyway.

-

i've really gotten into Kelly Moran lately.

she did a split with Prurient and i knew of her but didn't actually like look her up and like immerse myself into her works until very recently.

her regular piano stuff is cool but i wasn't aware she's a huge prepared paino composer.

which is juts amazing to me.

John Cage has always been a huge influence on me and when i heard that aphex twin album with all the prepared pieces on it i was like just in love in love.

it's something i've always wanted to do but never have had a lot of access to.

i've played prepared intrustments a bit but pianos are just so expensive and it takes a lot of work to prepare one properly.

one of these days maybe?

-

i have felt a lot of creativity inside of me lately.

there are things i want to express and perform and just geto ut of me.

but this depression i've been going through has juyst sucked the soul out of me and i find it hatrd.

i also just have gotten so fare rom like i guess, everything? i'm losing track of so many things now.

i forget to eat (because i don't get hungry) and i just don't take care as muic h as i should.

lately too my dyslexia has goten a lot worse nad also like dyspraxia has been hard to deal with,

there's also ust me having issues with words and stuff

there's just a huge like uh

i give up a lot of "necessary" congitive function to just pure survival but also i guess my mind sees and hears a lot of things that are expressive and creative instead.

and also just focusing on the liek special interest stuff.

so i feel like i am losing hte ability to keep myself like tangible to most people and it feels hard to me feral but also be like "please i need someone in my life"

i really do.

if only for a little bit.

just someone who can be there for me most days for just a little while.

keeup up with me and help me remember i am not lost.

i want to feel warmth and interest from someone.

i want to feel like i am a priorty and i matter al ot to them.

i don't know. it's asking a lot i guess.

people are either married or in romantic relationshops for that.

i'm never going to be married or have a romantic partner.

so i guess it's just not for me. i don't deserve those things.

but maybe once i get out of this depression i'll finish writing this thing i like a lot.

maybe i can draw it well enough too.

[monster0sinful]

I want to vent here again about my online ex friend and I know I posted about it before but I felt that it wasn't consistent or maybe I'm just not good at typing very long posts at all. I'll try to be straightforward here about what I'm about to say precisely.

You see, I once had an online friend (before I made new ones recently from Reddit) on Twitter whom I personally knew for 4 years during the pandemic before we moved to Discord to chat there comfortably. In the beginning, I think we role played as our ocs in the Villainous fandom (I'm no longer in it) but we eventually started to text more as time went on. I remember that he initially didn't let me say anything while he was sharing his interests to me like he would just ignore what I said and keep rambling on until I called him out because I wanted to share my interests too rather than to listen to him, I wanted to engage in a conversation.

A few things that you need to know about my former online friend is that he was autistic and he suffered from CPTSD, he was a bit younger than me (we're both adults, don't worry), a trans man, a goth/metalhead and a Satanist. I really didn't mind that he's a Satanist unless he uses his beliefs to harm others or seems like a cult is when I'll have a problem with it.

As the years went by, he would tell me about his trauma in a venting manner but he would occasionally trauma dump on me without any warning whatsoever even when I greeted him, I think he took that as an invitation to do so. I should've called him out on that but I didn't want to seem rude and uncaring in his time of need. The other problem I had with him is that he wouldn't take some things I say very lightly as if I'm personally attacking him when all I'm doing is giving him advice on bettering himself on his mental health.

I actually did called him out for lashing out at me at times and he would apologize. I don't condone the things I said and done to trigger his trauma in our almost frequent arguments a few times, my close friend did say that it sounded more like we're both emotionally incompatible as friends, it does explain my questioning of our friendship despite we seemed "close" to the point where he admitted to see me as a big sister figure to him.

I also noticed that he acts very child-like all the time 24/7. My other close friend said that his autism really doesn't define him, it's his personality that does and that's coming from someone who is diagnosed with aspergers when I brought that up about him. I remember that one time I had to give him a heads up if I seemed really moody due to my menstrual cycle and he told me that he was uncomfortable of me saying that to him, I shit you not, I really got annoyed that he was uneasy with a natural normal thing of women that is something we can't control whether you're uncomfortable or not.

The most ironic thing is that not only is he a trans man, he's also bisexual and yet he's uncomfortable with something that happens naturally in women, to me that shows his maturity level but I have no explanation why I glossed that over back then. I now noticed how immature he is because I made a new online friend who is a guy and takes about the menstrual cycle very maturely (he's a bit older than me).

My former online friend really has an misfortune in having a few shitty friends yet stays with them. I remember that one of them ditched him and the other (although online) had a fall out with him for stupid reasons. I tried to warn him about them but he never listens to me and I can't do anything plus that he doesn't have a spine to stand up for himself against them for treating him badly nor telling them how he feels.

My online ex friend really doesn't have an excuse to have an attitude with me sometimes, his autism nor his trauma is never an excuse, those are reasons. I was starting to become distant with him, I didn't want to talk to him a lot and gave him short answers because his unresolved emotional baggage was really starting to take its toll on me...I was overwhelmed and frustrated. I tried suggesting him to go seek professional help but he refused due to his one bad experience with a therapist years ago.

The final straw is that he acted a bit rude during his drunken stupor and I lost it. I grilled on him about his occasional shitty behavior so badly to the point where he had a mental breakdown through text admitting that he's a selfish prick, that was what I needed to hear. It's good that he admits his poor mental health although he doesn't do anything about it.

I now have complicated views about him in the aftermath and I'm doing fine without him, he really needs to seek help in order for him to be in a functional friendship with others. I have second thoughts if I was the asshole to leave him because of his unresolved emotional baggage and trauma, am I?

[casspurrjoybell-33]

Wreckless - It's been a Rough Week

*Warning Adult Content*

Emmett

Finnegan has woken up twice.

That may not be accurate.

He's gotten out of bed twice.

Once he went to the bathroom and this time he went downstairs.

I hope he's been sleeping in between but I'm starting to worry he's not.

"Darling?"

He's standing in front of the window and jumps a bit when I speak even though I said it softly.

"Sorry, didn't mean to wake you up."

"Not worried about it. Can't sleep?"

"No."

"The alarm is on and I'm here, Finnegan."

I'm not stupid though... I know that's now how sleep or fear works.

"Come here and snuggle."

He does, thankfully and I wrap him up.

He smells so good... it's his cologne.

He has fancy shit that wears forever but luckily he doesn't overdo it.

I can only smell it now because we're practically molded together.

I have to kick the sheet off, the window AC can't keep up with this much shared body heat but I'm fine with that.

"Thanks. I'll sleep better tomorrow night."

I'm not sure if he's reassuring me or convincing himself.

"Probably. It's Sunday, maybe you can sneak a nap in."

"Yeah, after Mass I should. Sounds decadent. Thought about working but I'm not sure I have enough brain."

"No, I draw the line at working. Cartoon, snack, snuggle, all good."

Twenty minutes later I'm back asleep.

It's been a rough week.

Finnegan is busy.

He's only left the house with me one morning... he's been gone when I woke up every other day.

On Wednesday he was home for dinner but he's starting to worry me... there's working hard and then working yourself to death.

He's not sleeping great.

I'm not either.

The more I worry about him, the less sleep I get.

It's a vicious cycle.

Friday night and finally, he sleeps well.

He falls asleep before me and practically doesn't move all night.

No wonder, he's got to be exhausted.

Luckily I got dinner and some lovies into him before then and I don't have to work this Saturday so it's all good.

Maybe we're over the hump.. hump... I'm awful.

I spend most of Saturday trying to woo 'Little Finn' out.

I make little pancakes, we play Lego Harry Potter and I offer to take him to play mini-golf or go bowling and hit the arcade but he turns me down.

Mostly, I spend the day ignoring my birthday.

I don't have some sob story about not celebrating... I just don't.

It seems pointless to me.

All I've done is breathe for another year and that doesn't seem cake and balloon worthy.

At least Finnegan sleeps well even if there's no appearance of 'Little Finn'.

I miss that kid.

Finnegan can't be happy without him... he can't be.

********

Finnegan is at Mass which is good... he always seems a bit calmer when he comes back and this week he definitely needs some peace and calm.

Just before he's due home, Andy rings the bell.

I know it's Andy because his face pops up on my damn cell-phone.

I swear, there absolutely is such a thing as too much technology.

I let him in and he has pizza and beer and a Styrofoam container holding a piece of cake.

It's nice of him, really.

It's also weird.

I text Finnegan that Andy is over so he's not surprised when he gets home and ten minutes later he walks in the door.

"Hey Emmett, Andy. Ooh, is there any pizza left?"

"Yeah."

He beelines for the kitchen while my brain screams at me that you can't eat pizza in good clothes.

"Hey, is it your birthday, Andy?"

He's leaning against the door frame, pizza folded.

He's so cute but his question is gonna cause trouble.

He must have seen the cake... shit.

Andy just laughs.

"Nah. It's just this ass-hole's," he teases, tapping my beer.

Shit, now I drink.

At least it gives me a minute although it's really hard to think while chugging.

Finnegan waits until I'm finished and then very slowly, like he's trying not to yell, says...

"It's your birthday?"

Now I have to make it worse.

This is not how I wanted today to go.

"Yesterday."

Andy's eyes are wide, he realizes the severity of what's going on and just puts his bottle down.

"I just remembered, I've gotta.. uh.."

"I'd leave too, Andy... if I was you and after just dropping that bomb-shell," I joke.

"But thanks.... it was nice of you to think of me."

"You should have come by the alley last night like you said you would... then I wouldn't have had to cart this crap over here. Uh, see you later Finnegan."

I don't know where to start but as soon as the door closes I work on limiting the most recent damage.

"He asked me to and I said I might."

He's put his pizza down, shit.

His arms are crossed over his chest and he's mad.

"Look, some people make a big deal out of birthdays but I don't. I didn't want to do anything."

He's still quiet and it's somehow worse than him yelling.

I give him a minute but no, nothing.

Eventually he just walks past me and heads upstairs.

[the-firebird69]

There's definitely been more oxygen and there's a cycle because of Greenland and it is revving up and also the ships are coming out of the Southwest up to probably South Tampa and all the way to the tip of Florida on the West Coast it kind of slowed down on the East Coast it looks like one crew but it's not and they are pulling them out of the big tunnels and up to the blockage and once they finish there they might move inland but they should they've been going all day long for like 12 hours or more he says and it's true and that should be emptying for real it's been going on for quite a few months it's also rain and water from the ships and it's cover and there's tons of we counted like 45 1 mile ships between both rivers and 35 half mile and 70 that are half a half mile but they're going in and out all day long from all the way to the upper Midwest and to the South and to the West and different ones go to the islands but they go out there too and all they want is traffic up and down and not a bit of rain which is kind of weird but they're not that big when the big ones go by it rains so with that going on these people are really rowdy they say they're taking tons of stuff when really they're taking people a lot of people are evacuating and it's fear they're leaving because the clones are attacking and the max are attacking them the max cleared out another 15% and we're crushing them. They don't like it in their pain and they're left with about 23% of their bunkers which is a lot less it's still way too much and they are attacking steadily and they are losing ground topside and we went from Georgia and 20 mi south of the South Carolina border to half way up. And their areas in the coast that we couldn't get to but Appalachia is pretty much off limits is still trying to go there and they were mining out there and they're not anymore and yeah this is a real situation huge armies are attacking them not just clones so it's a tenuous meeting but we don't know what to do we want to know what they're going to do and they are sitting there there in lakes crossed they said but and North South Carolina that is is going to leave tonight and will be below and people say they like it but we're taking over the top portion and we're leaving the cities and outskirts suburbs we are clearing out and we're going to wall off the cities and he says that's amazing it's the East Coast and what we say is they're falling and there they have their ships up and the foreigners are there and says I don't think this is happening that much and it's not really we're in Georgia and those other places but this is fiction other areas where they are leaving and they can't do much about it and foreigners want them out and it's an infight but within reason okay and it says I'm the one saying I do get that. We're in for a joy tonight there's a lot of stuff happening and we're going to keep you informed

Thor Freya

We expect the bus thing to clear up tomorrow hopefully

We know it's going to clear up because they're talking about it and they're saying it too you're cutting them off from the bus and it shows and you're the idiots doing the bus and we have to beat you up and that's happening now and bja was saying it and you got one of my people trying you're trying to have him take the blame for what you're doing and it's going on they're fighting over DC

Frank Castle hardcastle

We can't go there I'd like to go somewhere else I just hear what you're saying you don't want to go to Gators and tired of it and I do understand that and bowling would be fun and we can always use the diaper shot and no pun intended because of my character says it wouldn't look like a diaper shot maybe like sleepy but really sweet pea but really the pizza there and I know about that and it's pretty good so we might have to do that

Ken

We approved that too

Olympus this latest car edition has taken off faster than anything they want those cars now we have demand for the firebird and the regular one it's through the roof they want to see what it looks like they want to drive it and they want the kit and they want to put it on their old fire burns even the ones from the 2000 era except for the 2002 and some of the in 2001 they look like that it's going to go off and that's one of the big reasons why and our son was very impressed he said that is a cool car where did you get it and he kept saying I got it from the dealer and he says which dealer I had so I thought it was funny but I look back at it and a lot of people are looking at it intensely and they're trying to find out where and they're finding some of these things and he says the backend to look better the tires will be better The wider lower profile and it's going to look really cool it's going to be more like super car front handle modified a little bit the rear end more so is very nice we can't wait but there's a lot of demand probably three trillion in a serious and we can tell the other cars are good and they're in the hundreds of millions the Grand Am is about 500 million but three trillion is different

Olympus

We're going to have to use robots and we still use people to control the robots with RC and we're going to get moving on it now

Thor Freya we need those factories now that are in the Midwest and upper Midwest

I'm going to get on this we have way too much demand and this is the car for us and we know it

Frank Castle hardcastle

We're going to use this too Garth and company keeps poking in saying we take stuff from space and it's a car on Earth but okay we're going to take from you that's why we're doing it

Duke nukem Blockbuster

We're going to have to have these cars and the max are saying it too

Mac Daddy

[soulrph]

𝙁𝙄𝙍𝙎𝙏-𝙏𝙄𝙈𝙀 𝙋𝘼𝙍𝙀𝙉𝙏𝙎 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎 (𝙋𝙏. 1)

as requested by a powerfully patient and endlessly lovely nonnie!! there will be more lists like this, because frankly, parenthood is a whole theme park of roller coasters with unique challenges and milestones in each of them! but these are for parents who have recently become parents to a newborn! i also have requests for prompts based on foster families and adopted children, but i'd like to do my own research before i dive too deeply into those, because obviously the rules vary from country to country, but i digress! i sincerely hope you all enjoy these! unclench your jaw, drink some water, roll back your shoulders! DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST PLEASE!!

" if you waken that baby, so help me god, there won't be a corner of the universe that will protect you from my wrath. "

" do you wanna hold him/her/them? here, it's okay! just support the neck like... yeah, there you go! you got it! "

" no, no, it's okay, i'm not going anywhere. the baby spit up on everything i own except this sparkly little number, so i'm waiting for the washing cycle to end until i can change out of this! come on in. "

" i don't think i've had a full night's sleep since the baby came along. "

" i'm gonna train this kid, night and day, until they say my name before yours. that's my goal. my name is gonna be their first word. "

" i love my baby. more than i ever dreamed possible! but they've kept me awake since the second they were born! i seriously need a nap... could you keep an eye on them until i wake up? just twenty minutes, i promise you! "

" it kinda feels like every single person in the world suddenly has a PhD in parenting to make me feel incompetent with. "

" i think our sweet angel's gonna be a rock star with that set of lungs! "

" we need a new babysitter. preferably one who won't read rosemary's baby to our newborn. "

" god, they're so precious when they're asleep... can you believe we're that kid's parents?! "

" how can something so tiny go through a billion diapers every single day?! "

" they smiled at me today! actually smiled, i swear! that baby is a genius! and no, it wasn't trapped gas, before you say it. "

" that darling child ripped a fistful of my hair out today, so if you see a bald spot, now you know why it's there. "

" shh... shh, honey, it's okay. the baby woke up, but i'm handling it. you just go back to sleep now, okay? "

" i was thinking... if, for whatever reason, i'm not able to take care of the baby, i was wondering if you might be okay with being their legal guardian? "

" so pre-schools aren't only super competitive, they've also got some insanely high standards now, too! one of them won't even let me bring my car in unless it's completely emission-free! "

" the baby has a remarkably dark sense of humour. they only seem to laugh when i stub my damn toe on the crib at 4 in the morning. "

" we had a somewhat violent reaction at the diaper station this morning. so that meant i had to bathe and change the little cherub twice in ten minutes, and then go take another shower and find new clothes unscathed by infant vandals again. "

" he/she/they have your eyes. and your batshit insane sleep schedule. "

" you know what really pisses me off? when people act as though new parents have it easy. like a newborn is the easiest thing in the world to handle. i'd like to see them make coffee, change a diaper and fold a onesie one-handed! "

" isn't it so crazy that this tiny little human, who can't even hold their own head up yet, might be like, a president or something one day? "

" i'm really sorry, i know we had plans tonight, but i literally just got the baby to sleep and all i wanna do is lie down and eat the leftovers of a bag of potato chips until i fall asleep. i haven't showered all week, i can't remember the last time i wore clean clothes, and... it's just not gonna work out tonight. "

" i figured you wouldn't have much time to cook, what with the baby and all. so i decided i'd bring a lasagna and some groceries over to you, and i can keep an eye on the little one while you take a nice hot shower and eat your dinner in peace! "

" hey... relax. i promise you, the babysitter can handle it for a few hours! and if they need you, they've got your phone number, right? so just... take a night off. sit back. enjoy yourself. the baby is fine, i promise you! "

" you know, if you guys wanted a date night, i could mind the baby for you? "

" i swear, this baby is the freaking jackpot of excuses to not attend all those events! all the times i wanted to throw sharon's awful hummus at her face during those dinner parties, and now i don't even have to go anymore, all because of this beautiful, wonderful little baby! "

" i mean, sure, sometimes i'm crying 24/7 and i don't know what the hell i'm doing! but then i'll tickle the baby's little foot and they'll laugh for thirty minutes, and it just makes me so insanely, immeasurably happy! "

" what do you think? will we try for baby number two? make this little angel a big brother/sister/sibling? "

" i need a night out. please. i'm begging you. i cannot sing another single note of baby shark! please, even a trip to the grocery store would do! "

" god, couldn't you just sit and watch them sleep forever? "

" oh god, he/she/they're crying! the baby's crying! oh man, is that a hungry cry or a diaper cry?! talk to me, little baby! "

" i cannot believe we just paid four figures for a cradle when the baby won't even sleep unless they're in our arms... "

" you know, that little baby is so freaking lucky to have you as their mom/dad/parent. "

" a-actually, maybe you better keep holding them. i mean, what if i hurt them by accident? or what if i scare them? babies don't like me, they never have! "

" you know, i always thought newborn babies looked like potatoes. but this kid is pretty darn cute! "

" i believe congratulations are in order. where's the new addition? "

" i never realized how expensive diapers were until now... "

" mm... honey, the baby... the baby's crying. wake up, baby, go help the baby... "

" nice try, but i got the baby the last time. it's your turn now. probably a diaper change, too, by the sound of it. "

" how can someone so tiny drink so much freaking milk?! "

" i wish people would quit acting like parenting experts every single time they see me. believe it or not, i do know what i'm doing! "

" some stranger on the bus decided to let me know i was a terrible mother/father/parent for not choosing to raise the baby on a vegan diet. "

" did you think of any baby names yet? or is this sweet little angel still anonymous? "

" i'm thinking we should decorate the nursery while the baby's still napping. i got the paint in my car; what do you think? "

" this baby is officially more extroverted than me! every single person we met in the park, this socializing star was waving and smiling at them like crazy! "

" oh my god, remember that little blanket you gave us when the baby was born? yeah! they refuse to go to sleep without it now, it's the cutest thing ever! "

" oh, i took the most adorable photo of the baby yesterday while they were sleeping! wanna see? "

" i don't think you need to worry about your parenting skills. 'cause that little baby in there is the happiest, luckiest kid in the whole world just by having you in their life. they might not know it yet. but they are. "

" well, according to the principal at the last pre-school, we should have been booking placements before the baby was even conceived. "

" i wonder what kind of life this baby will grow up to live? "

" you're such a natural with the baby! he/she/they love you so much already; look how they're gazing up at you! "

" i'm so sorry, but we're gonna have to leave early; the bottle leaked all over my bag, and it's feeding time now, so it's either leave early or unleash a screaming infant on you! "

" would you mind holding the baby for a minute while i go grab my stuff? "

" don't judge, but we were out of clean onesies, so i dressed the baby in that huge old t-shirt you got at that concert five years ago. if i'm being honest, it suits them! "

" listen. i know i complain and i struggle. i honestly think my mistakes outnumber my triumphs, as far as parenting is concerned. but i have never loved anything nor anyone nearly as much as i love this baby. never. "

[firstumcschenectady]

"God, Stress, and Abundant Lives” based on 1 Kings 19:4-8

I'm mad. Mad that we – the big collective we – might have beaten this virus if we trusted our experts and prioritized collective well-being. Mad that we “can't have nice things” still, EVEN THOUGH science provided amazing vaccines in an unbelievably short time. Mad that I have to make decisions no one– including me – likes because the first rule of John Wesley is “first do no harm” and I really believe we have to do that.

But, a friend sent an article this week that pointed out that I'm not mad. I just think I'm mad. Or, more so, that anger is a secondary emotion that works well to mask primary emotions. The article said the emotion that I'm actually feeling is fear. (Note: do not try this at home. Do not tell someone what they're “really feeling” when they tell you what they ARE feeling. Really, truly. DO NOT DO THIS. The article got away with it by taking about generic people and I personalized.) The article speaks about people choosing not to be vaccinated and vaccinated people's anger responses:

Though this new flavor of outrage might look and sound like righteous indignation, mental health professionals say that what’s behind it is fear.

“It’s scary to admit that somebody else has power over you and you’re at their mercy and you’re afraid of them, but showing that is not a very American ideal,” said David Rosmarin, an associate professor of psychiatry at Harvard Medical School and a clinician at McLean Hospital. “Instead of expressing that fear, it’s a lot more comfortable to blame somebody else.”

Anger is what people in his profession refer to as a “secondary emotion.” It’s a feeling that arises in response to a more primal emotion, like fear and anxiety over having some aspect of your life threatened. “The reality is that there are millions of people who are miseducated about something, they’re making a big mistake that will have massive consequences that might affect you and your family and that makes you scared,” Rosmarin said. “But nobody is saying that.”1

That article also says that part of what people are struggling with is that this was always going to be a “long war” but we didn't get that message from the outset. That fits for me too, I deal better when I have my expectations set correctly.

Two years ago I preached on this passage from 1 Kings 19, and afterwards several of you mentioned that you could hear in it my yearning for a break. (It was fairly soon before my renewal leave.) I hadn't meant to be that transparent then, and it makes me want to be a little bit cautious now, but....the story hasn't changed.

This remains a story of Elijah, prophet of God who has worked diligently for what he believed God wanted him to do. The response to his faithfulness has been a threat of murder that came directly from the palace.

Elijah is too tired to fight anymore. He fled for his life, but in the midst of the flight he lost even the will to live.

He prays, asking God to let him die, which would at least be less violent than the death otherwise planned for him. He'd walked into the desert for a day, and when he prayed he sat under a single broom tree, the only bit of respite he could find. The Bible seems to suggest this is a particularly sad story, it is the same one told of Hagar, having walked into the desert, exhausted her provisions, sat under a broom, and prepared to die. Just like with Hagar though, God meets Elijah there.

You may already know how much I love this story. He falls asleep, and wakes up when provisions have arrived. He eats, he drinks, he falls back asleep. When he awakes, provisions have arrived. He eats, he drinks, AND THEN he was able to go on.

I really love that he needs to sleep, eat, drink, sleep, eat, and drink before he can rouse himself. He has gone far beyond the “have a cup of coffee and keep going” point. He is exhausted. He is out of will power. He is out of a will to LIVE. If I were writing this story though, I'd add in some breathing. “He took intentional deep breathes until he was able to slow his body enough to sleep...” and then the rest of the story. It would make it just a smidge better.

Probably because of the book I just read, I'm noticing that the story as written (and more so as adapted), Elijah is given the chance to “complete the stress cycle” in this story. The book is “Burnout: The Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle” written by Emily and Amelia Nagoski. In their opening chapter, they distinguish between stressors and stress. They point out that we need to complete the stress cycle, no matter what is happening with the stressors. And they name, concretely, how to do that. The first and best option is to “do literally anything to move your body enough to get you breathing deeply” for 20-60 minutes a day.2 Elijah walking into the desert for an entire day seems to qualify.

The Nagoski sisters offer 6 other ways to complete the cycle though: 1. “deep, slow breaths down regulate the stress response”3, 2. positive social encounters (even causal ones), 3. laughter – but the real deep belly laughter kind, 4. physical affection from someone you trust (they suggest a 6 second kiss between partners or a 20 second hug with someone you like, snuggling a pet), 5. crying, and 6. creative expression. In other chapters they also talk about meditation and spiritual connection, so I'm going to add a #7 – whatever prayer practices work for you. They're suggesting that we do at least one of these, and better many of these, every day. Because the stressors keep coming at us. And their book was written in 2019, so it is WAY MORE TRUE today.

So Elijah. He took a long walk (check), I'm all for pretending he took some slow breaths, he maybe had a positive encounter with the angel? (does that count??), and I'm quite sure he cried a lot, the Bible just forgot to mention it. He also took care of his bodily needs for rest, nourishment, and hydration. (Chapter 7 of their book is all about rest.) He also named his despair to God, and naming emotions has a lot of power too.

This little story has a lot of good responses to despair and burnout. Which is good, because many of us are in despair and/or burnout in at least some aspects of our lives.

The pandemic has challenged all of us. The challenges have differed, because we're different, but we've all been challenged. Having another wave is definitely not helping anybody. We're mad, whether or not that's a primary emotion, sad, fearful, and maybe even detached. We're exhausted.

And most of us are comfort seeking. We want things to be easier. We NEED things to be easier. We're looking for things that sooth, ease, comfort, and console. Often, we're looking for things to be “back to normal,” familiar, and make sense like we're used to. We're human. That's how we work.

Another facet of how we work is that when we're in high stress, we revert to earlier and lower levels of emotional functioning. We blame. We over react. We fight. We flee. We gossip. We triangulate. We take all our anxiety and we try to get rid of it by sharing it with others or throwing it at them. This too is human. It is how we work.

No one I know is operating at their best right now. We can't.

What we can do is seek to complete the stress cycles – we can't change most of the stressors, but we can give ourselves the best possible chance to change the stress. Our bodies, minds, and spirits are all connected, they're all “us.” When we care for each of them, we give all of them a chance to do better.

I believe that God calls us all to life abundant. To full, meaningful, connected lives. To spiritual depth and work that matters and relationships that give life. Elijah went from that broom tree to the Mount of Horeb where he deepened his relationship with God, and then on to meet his protege Elisha and started to pass on his labor to the next generation. It wasn't God's intention that Elijah struggle alone, or burn himself out. It isn't God's will that we struggle alone nor burn ourselves out either. God wishes for full, abundant lives for us all. That's part of why we take care of each other, and share love in the world. So, dear ones, I encourage you to complete your stress cycles, name your emotions, connect with your dear ones, engage in prayer, and live life as abundantly as you can. God wants it for us, we want it for each other, and the world needs us as healthy as we can be! May God help us. Amen

1 https://www.statnews.com/2021/08/02/belated-realization-that-covid-will-be-a-long-war-sparks-anger-denial/

2 Emily Nagoski and Amelia Nagoski Burnout: The Secret to Unlokcing the Stress Cycle (New York: Ballantine Books, 2019) p. 14.

3 Nagoski, 15.

[riverrootstarot]

💫🔮🖤Wednesday Pick-A-Card Reveals🖤🔮💫

If you haven't had a chance to yet, take a moment to quiet your mind, maybe make some tea, take a breath, and choose a card that calls to you. (Original post is linked here.)

[ Image Description: Three stacks of tarot cards laid face down on a black cloth. Each stack is a pair with one card from two different decks. The bottom card is slightly larger and the backs depict a tree with sun rays on water, the Earth Magic Oracle, and the card on top, placed over the lpwer right quarter of the bottom card, has a light blue back with a white rose emblem in the center, a Smithe-Waite deck. The stacks are labeled 1, 2, and 3 left to right, and above each of the three stacks is a tumble crystal, a red jasper, serpentine, and fluorite, respectively. End ID. ]

And when you're ready...

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Here are your messages...

1 | Waterfall - Effortless and Ten of Swords, reversed: This pairing insists that we find radical acceptance in our lives and surrender to the flow. Allow yourself to try new things, to let go of old pain and worry, to look honestly at what's transpired and what of that past trauma is weight you've chosen to carry. Sometimes we are so hurt that our wounds become part of our identity and as much as we would like to heal, it is difficult to separate from what we are healing from. Take this opportunity to practice coming down out of your frantic mind and breathing into your heart space, relaxing the tension there and letting it go. You may be apprehensive that you can't see what's at the bottom of this waterfall, but trust that whatever rests beyond is better than staying in the familiar, stuck and slowly worn away by life's flow like rocks in a river. It is not easy, and it is often not something you must face only once, but it is best you begin from where you are now. Trust in this place of knowing that something has to change (almost definitely an internal change, with the fluid emotion of water and the swords of the mind) and allowing yourself to do so. The ten of swords reversed can also signal relapse. It's easy to fall back into old habits, but do not let the complexity and effort of your healing drive you back into the simplicity of your sickness. If the relapse has already occurred, know that you can keep moving forward, you haven't lost all your incredible progress, and this, too, can teach you so much healing.

[ Image Description: Two tarot cards laid on a black cloth with a  tumbled red jasper stone next to them. The card on the left is larger and depicts a tall waterfall crashing down a mountainside. The card to the right is upside down and depicts a figure lying facedown before a still body of water, their back pierced by swords. End ID. ]

2 | Shaman - Ancient Healing Wisdom and King of Pentacles, reversed: You think you've got it all together, that your material successes are proof that everything in your life is going fantastic, but some little piece of you is warning you, has been warning you for quite a while, that it's time to reevaluate and reprioritize. How do you define success? Happiness? Accomplishment? Do you find yourself overindulging in material goods and luxuries? Just because you can doesn't mean you should. There's a deep imbalance in your spiritual being, and the shine of being able to treat yourself to things you thought once unattainable is wearing off. Perhaps you even overestimated your abundance and are watching bills pile up. What are you chasing with the purchases? What do you keep hoping to acquire or feel with these luxuries? Because you're not getting that satisfaction and, spoiler, the next purchase won't be The One. It's time to stop bullshitting yourself and cut the attitude, get real with yourself and figure out what you really want. Not possessions or even necessarily experiences. What do you want to feel? Peace? Fulfillment? Purpose? This exploration is going to feel very uncomfortable, you haven't been truly vulnerable in a long time, but if you ever hope to stay out of debt and free of the nagging sensation for more, you need to figure out, deeply and honestly, what you actually want out of life. 

[ Image Description: Two tarot cards laid on a black cloth with a  tumbled serpentine stone next to them. The card on the left is larger and depicts a tight portrait of an elder shaman. The card to the right is upside down and depicts a figure seated on a throne, surrounded by grape vines which also decorate their robes, and looking down at the pentacle they hold on their knee. There are carvings of bulls on the throne. End ID. ]

3 | Spring Equinox - Rebirth and Nine of Pentacles: How timely! Though for me here in the northern hemisphere, it will soon be autumn, the southern hemisphere is getting ready to welcome spring. Wherever you are, this shift is one of assessing all your work and letting the next phase take over. For some of you this is a job change or a move, for others, you've finished a big project and are on to the next. For those of you welcoming spring, this rebirth will feel in alignment with nature blossoming all around you, but for those of us in the north coming into dreary weather and falling leaves, part of rebirth is first falling into decline. It's all part of the same cycle. We're harvesting, both literally and metaphorically, and most importantly this moment of equilibrium gives us all an opportunity to step back and take in where we are right now. Feel the flow and balance of this season and celebrate that, whichever part of the cycle you're in, rebirth is in motion. For some it's coming out of a long stretch of hard work or rough times with new energy and opportunity, and for others it's finally getting to rest and step back, but your rewards will be coming all the same. This rest, too, can be a harvest. 

[ Image Description: Two tarot cards laid on a black cloth with a  tumbled fluorite stone next to them. The card on the left is larger and depicts a goddess of spring, hair tangled with vines and surrounded by animals. The card to the right depicts a figure standing in a lush garden, ripe and ready for harvest, and holding aloft and falcon. End ID. ]

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I hope this finds whoever needs it. 🖤🔮

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🚫 this post, blog, and message are not for transphobes, homophobes, or racists 🚫

[paulatoo]

This may not seem political but I bet it is. (and why I'm wishing I was using a perpetually powered device to write it on)

Why aren't all the electrical vehicles being produced today being fitted with small or mini wind turbines, or in the case of boats hydro turbines perhaps, as generators? Once the vehicles are in motion they could be used to power or perpetually charge their batteries. This has been a source of frustration for me for years.

Thankfully we're moving past it, and progress is being made in the smaller scale power generator sector, but I believe part of the problem comes from many people believing that power generators needed to be huge. However, when you're generating power for very localized use to the item that you're powering, you don't need such scale. Especially when you're tailoring it to individual items instead of multiple items in multiple households.

Another name for a car's alternator is generator and they're using the rotations of the engine to spin the generator that sends the power to keep your battery charged and to provide power to the vehicle. So why can't we use similar sized items that have fan style turbine blades to capture the wind or water to turn them? You could even connect them in series if needed, utilizing the exhaust from one turbine to power others. Once the vehicles are in motion you have a plentiful, even if variable speed, supply of wind or water to power these turbines. The speed variability could be controlled by clutches and/or baffling systems.

The challenges inherent with trying to use and charge a battery at the same time could be overcome by dividing the battery into three segments, or three smaller batteries. Then one could be charging, one could be cooling, and one could be in use. As the battery in use becomes depleted, the system could change over to the cool charged battery and allow that battery previously in use to begin cooling, so it will be ready for its charging then cooling cycle. You're not actually using 100% of the battery at any given moment anyway.

In the case of boats you could even capture churn created by the boat to use as your power source if you decided to go the hydro route versus the wind route. Perhaps just mount something like a Volturnos vpod generator to the hull, or mounting a tube to the bottom to place turbines within.

Side note: Speaking of hydro and batteries, why can't you use an enclosed system to recapture some of the water used at Lake Mead, for example, and pump it back up to fall back on the turbines?

If you're using an electrical vehicle but you're not charging it through a renewable source, or clean energy source we're not getting the full benefit. Until we can find a way to better utilize the waste created by nuclear power generators I question how green they are. I know they're deadly from the mining process through the meltdown, but the other industries are also lethal to varying degrees.

I believe even if this technology is developed it would be blocked, or bought up and shelved because the major electric energy producers, as well as the carbon-based fuel industries don't want a loss of revenue. Although instead of just fear it and work to oppose or shut it down, they could diversify and be the leading edge of this new technology. Do you hear me coal? Petroleum? Also I do admit I've got some more research to be done as far as who's diversifying into what, but that information is not always as easy to find as I would hope, and some companies are making strides.

(Coal is a dying industry and has been for quite a while, and I'm not just referring to what happens to the workers, or environment around the mines and utilization areas. As far as the workers go they have been automating as much as possible, implementing robots instead of harming people directly (where most of the jobs in coal are really going is to automation.))

If you look into what happened at the local level regarding solar power generation, and the legislation has been implemented to prevent individual homes from using their own solar generated power, without selling it to and buying it back from the local power grid in many places, you might be in for a rude awakening. I worry that the same influences are at play when it comes to perpetually charging electric vehicles.

As always there's more facts to be checked and more research to be done. But I fully and firmly believe that these perpetually charging vehicles are definitely a possibility and have been for a while now. Maybe I'm being overly optimistic since apparently they haven't figured out how to encapsulate the batteries in some sort of Halon sleeve or some other gaseous substance that would automatically extinguish fire, but as for the charging it can happen.

And about an hour ago I had just about finished a perhaps more eloquent version of this blog post when a sudden battery death destroyed it. Sigh. Yeah I should have been saving it as a draft, but Tumblr that's not as convenient as you think it is perhaps a floating save option would be better?

As always please remember to do your homework, to research, to fact check, especially when it comes to politics and even more than you may think at the local level. Granted it can be harder at the local level because there's so much less available publicly about the candidates, but that can be a place for your local press and local news to help provide information to better inform your decisions.

Since a computer failure had me off Facebook for a while, and I found out that I'm a little bit happier without the stream of misinformation, I'm going to post my political sentiments more frequently on this blog. There's a difference between spreading misinformation intentionally, or because you're that misinformed, and politics. (I still think Facebook and other sites would be better off to fact check and watermark posts as false or misleading instead of removing them, or blocking people, that way people can see what doesn't check and think twice about posting it.)

[seekandsekkle]

Blessed New Moon Family. Happy Gemini Season Whoo Hoo!!!! We've got a Sun, Moon and Eclipse in Gemini. What a Birthday Gift (6-14, 51 Summers Baby) I'm grateful to be here. Excited for what life is bringing me these days and excited for all of you who took a chance on ya girl and let me fill your inboxes up with Pots, Cups and Sips of Tea. The energy of this moon is bringing the new as all new moons do but its coming in slow due to the retrograde of Mercury and Neptune. Technology has not been allowing us to shine with glitches and freezes, shut downs, zap outs and malfunctions of every kind. The universe really wants us all to have several seats and read a damn book or take a long walk or something. She really aint feeling us having all this screen time and is asking us to reflect, plot and plan our next moves so we're ready when the Summer Equinox comes sauntering in. (June 21st) This Moon/Eclipse energy will have you having epiphanies and revelations and such. You will be communicating with the seen and unseen forces. Dreams will be prophetic and deep af. Pay close attention to what they are showing you, get a dream interpreter if you need one ( I'll do it for you) so you are clean and clear with what Muvah Moon is trying to tell you. This Eclipse of the sun will cast a fire ring around the moon asking you to do a once over on your shadow side. This ain't a time to be marinating where the low vibrations reside. Check your privilege, check your attitude and get back in alignment with your higher self. This double double energy is a set up for some fuck shit, resist at all cost. You will be so sorry you fell for it when it's all over. Take the high road in all things, stay low, pray high is what I always say. Some of us will feel like lead is in our shoes. You really don't wanna do nothing and I'd listen to that somewhat. Take care of the major things in your life as much as you can but don't be surprised when you do try shit aint working right. I'm learning to just wait it out cause it beats trying to break through a brick wall with my tender head meat. The blessing of this moon cycle is that we get to call things into existence. Be clear about what you are asking for, make sure secure housing, coins and good health are on your list. Due to things opening up people are everywhere doing everything, acting as if the pandemic is over. Tread lightly in these streets and keep that hand washing and face covering going on around people. Spirit has spoken and we need to keep our protection game strong especially for those of us who are anti-vaxin and relaxin. 

Ritual: Sit in your sacred space with the scented candle or incense, vase of fresh flowers, and a list of your intentions. Use the power of the word and speak your peace out loud. Not in a shout but with conviction. We want it known that what we want, we deserve. Muvah is listening with a keen ear. She will flush out the superficial and give you exactly what you need, not always what we want. Be grateful because we don't always know what we need until it lands in our laps. That don't mean you can't ask...ijs I'd burn that lil' piece of paper and let the ashes blow in the wind. This double double air energy is sure to send your message right up to Muvah herself and that's a blessing.

Big O'pot of Tea (read your sun, moon and rising for a full cup of tea)

Aries - Getcha coins right. Investments, budgets, piggy bank, rainy day fund. Do any or all of this and thank me later. All the cards talk about the bag, getting it and keeping it. Think long term money, retirement money and generational wealth. The universe is on your side while taking these steps so get into it. Call in the Money Gawds and ask them for help with your stock portfolio...invest in something good...think of what we always need and putcha money on that. Your song for this moon cycle is "Money don't matter 2 nite" - Prince. It matters for you right now fa sho

Taurus - This new moon is giving you all the goodies baby. Things are stacking up on the luxe level, the coins and the bae. Enjoy all this goodness and be grateful for it. Call in support to stay in a good mood and trust the process. You don't want to spoil your pot of gold before you even have a chance to spend some of it. Stay tuned into the light and spread that love on the people who support you since they may not be as abundant as you are these days. Your song for this moon cycle is "D.M.S.R."  - Prince. Because you want it and need it .

Gemini - It's your time baby!!! Your sun, your moon, your eclipse. One would think its a good time to throw a big ass party and invite all 10,000 of your fans but no. You get to have a seat...a Royal seat, a luxurious birthday seat but a seat nonetheless. This is a quiet time, a relaxing time an alone time. Yeah I know this don't sound like a fun birthday but your body and soul is begging and pleading for it. Listen for once cause the fuck shit is lueming in the background waiting for you to step out. We want you safe, hydrated and refreshed this trip around the sun. Call in peace this moon cycle and allow it to be just that. Your song this moon cycle is "Shhhhhh" - Prince. For encouragement to lay around in luxury and quiet.

Cancer - You've been on the receiving end for the last few moon cycles in some way now it's time to give back. Make sure the people who show up and show out for you know that you love them. Do something special to brighten their day. They will be shocked that you even care and that makes this even more special. You are very good at receiving now lets see you give where it counts. Call in abundance in all its forms so you never feel like you are lacking in anything. This will keep your spirits up when this moon fuck your emotions up. Your song this moon cycle is "I Wish You Heaven" - Prince.  So you feel prayed on when you get sad

Leo - The sun might be setting on your old job/career and the Black moon might be rising on a new opportunity. If you like what you're doing great but if you don't this is a good time to start looking. Call in work that is in alignment with your heart. You should be working smarter, not harder. Make sure your intentions reflect something better than what you currently got going on. Your moon song this cycle is "Let's Work" - Prince

Virgo - Be excited about life dear one. Life is worth living. You can tend to stay on the brooding side of things and aint no fun over there. I dare you to take a walk on the wildside...just pack up and go. I feel the grin on your face now. There is a whole world out there waiting on you, go see it while you can still fully enjoy it. Call in Adventure Time, alone, with bae or with some friends. Your song this moon cycle is " Party Up" - Prince

Libra - You deserve to have your needs met. This comes up in a real way this cycle. Make sure your boundaries are known with the people close to you so they can avoid your explosive outburst when you reach your limit. Call in the support you need to make your dreams come true, ask for the help to stop procrastinating and actually get some shit done. Your song this moon cycle is " Good Love" - Prince. It's clear you need some.

Scorpio - Have a clear-the-air day with bae, or housemates or the kids. This ain't a time to bite your tongue. Ion mean pop off, just don't let small irritants pile up. Speak to your beloveds and get back to having fun cause that what hot human summer is all about.  Call in cooperation with the fam so all this talking you gotta do is worth it. Your song this moon cycle is "Gett Off" cause why not since you're so good at it *wink*

Sagittarius - You're coming in Hot to new and old flames and that's dope. You workin workin working day and night and that's securing the bag. But where is selfcare on the list? You can't forget you in all this. Call in a break and body work so you don't blow a flat tire on the side of the road within ya self. ya dig? May your care be just as important and the people you take care of. If you are ok they will be ok...okay. Your song for this moon cycle is "Forever In My Life"- Prince. So you make sure you are forever on the got damn schedule umkay!

Capricorn - Love is calling your name Capricorn. Stay open to the possibilities of love or at the very least tenderness and sweetness. You act like a hard ass but your creamy center is showing. This will let the ones who like but are a lil scared of you come out of the closet and make a move. Try not to be too awkward and allow some goodness to pour over on you. Call in the courage to say what you need in these new interactions. If a muthalova baulks when you speak your truth it ain't the end of the damn world this just ain't your person. Just move on and dont make it mean nothing. Your song for this moon is "Somebody's Somebody" - Prince

Aquarius - Your emo flag is flying high. It's ok to wanna be with family, it's ok to reminisce on the good times. It's ok to wanna feel loved and appreciated, It's also ok to stop doing too much so you don't get sick or hurt. Sit down somewhere and relax. The streets will wait for you. Call in spa treatments or long dead sea salt soaks at home. Your song this moon cycle is "I Feel For You" because we love you!

Pisces - Life got you wide open. You workin, you socializing, you doing all the things. Life is lifin' and you're making the best of it. At the end of the day it feels good to be in the flow of it all. Call in the inner knowing and innerstanding so you don't get distracted and fall off. Trust the process and enjoy the journey. Your song this cycle is "Trust" - Prince. Trust you know what you're doing even if you never did it before. The creator brought you this far trust that she is taking you to the next level too.

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Extra Sips of Tea -

Crystal

Blue Kyanite is perfect for this New Moon and Eclipse energy because it helps you make sense of the unstable transmission of communication due to the retrogrades, You can tap into hidden potential in yourself and spiritually you can use this to really connect with the positive unseen forces around you to help you manifest greatness in your life. Use this stone with your ritual to call in your needs and wants with clean clarity. 

Herb

Make a pot of fresh Mint Tea before bed to relax your muscles, to aid in your digestion and get rid of headaches. This tea will be extra soothing to your mind and body. We all need this balm soul calming tea to deal with the double air energy brewing right now. Have extra cups this week.

 

Yes Gemini Tea. PRINCE songs. I had too

[cyberpunkmia]

# 002 . ] When The Party's Over

There's always been this sad feeling to the end of a night alive. You would think it'd end the same way it began the next morning you wake up, but the feeling is far from it, actually. You would think I'd enjoy speaking of it, but the conclusion becomes heart wrenching. It's the truth, after all. As humans we tend to chase after the feeling of being alive, feeling something, anything at that. As we grow older, we seek that in the sensation of feeling numb to the pain that's chased us since the beginning to our lives on this earth. It's not our fault, but feeling low can have its own consequences. We'd rather drink the night away, smoke until there's not a single trace left. The natural instinct is to bury what buried us. Really, there is no end to the obstacles in this life; but we make the most of it. We make our failures, our downs, and our mistakes something beautiful, something unbreakable. It's a strength within, it never stops getting stronger through time. Perhaps time may be the killer, but we revive ourselves through our very own battle scars of our youth. Like throwing fine china at the barren wall to disperse anger, like listening to an angrily punk rock tune in order to get rid of anger within a different breed, we rage against the dying of our light. There's strength in it, refusing to cave.

At the time when partying became something of a two week rebound was around the age of eighteen, going on to nineteen. At the same time as well, I remained faithful to someone I knew I loved deeply. Supposedly, as a woman if you'd go out dressed beautifully in hopes of a magical night, it'd be distasteful. Though arguably, intent means everything. You hold onto your sole intentions, and that's how you levitate about a neon lit room. Anyone who wishes to jeopardize that doesn't know their place, and fails to see yours. There's nothing wrong with it though, souls don't align the same all the time. It's the variety of things we've been through, our stories that differ. Thus being what's at fault, bad timing. That wouldn't be the stop to fighting for mine; my very own story. Like an A24 movie, or an edgy episode short on a Norwegian coming of age tv show, I felt I deserved the right to live it, experience a setting like so. It was for experience with friends, yet at the same time it was also the smell of a perfectly rolled blunt silently calling out to my deadbeat conscience.

Truth be told though, loving wasn't easy at the time, but what was worse was that I was in love deeply. We fight for love, wherever we can find it, because without it, we are ghosts. Similar to fighting for a love that has had one too many blows from an entity of lost hope, no. Loving was never made easy. It makes us feel alive though, and maybe that's what we always tend to chase after. Life. Maybe love inspired me to chase after life, after all. The moments that gave me reason. Anxiety had been what made me afraid to approach the spontaneous moments in life, and strength came from my hope in love. So maybe the man I loved did make me stronger, highlighted and bold-ed me like a statement. Because when the party's over, it'll be my faith in love that saves me from an empty morning. The statement that is me, expands with no end in the depths of glowing brown irises, and a tongue that speaks the same language of love. At a party, the nostalgic feeling never really tends to last, in exchange is the feeling of freedom ultimately, though. The shackles of this life can feel like four walls threatening claustrophobia, and the urge to prowl and rigorously shake this feeling off strengthens. We drink until our eyes will hang low, until the room sways to the beat of the bass. We'll smoke until clouds fill our atmosphere. It all begins with an endeavor, a lust for life. Bring it with you on a night out, and in my opinion you're all set.

There are different endeavors of course, are you searching for love? Or just the feeling of it? Maybe it isn't love you're looking for, maybe it's a drink you unfortunately can't have because you aren't of legal age yet. At the age of nineteen, I came to accept the fact I've found love completely, the endeavor's purpose wasn't to feel love at a party; it was to numb the painful memories that were brought onto me by luck that went rotten, the pieces of glass that threatened to burn out love in my life. There comes rage again, the urge that rolls in. Violence? Never. Beauty in rage is the fact that it can be radiated abundantly through art, through literature, through beautiful photos, most importantly through emotion whether it be newfound, or emotions that has become everlasting. Rage for positivity, for the beautiful moments in life. It's a constant battle, fortunately. If it's an ego you tend to, watch out in all honesty. Dangerous waters, it is you really paddle. As Kendrick Lamar preaches in an iconic track, staying humble in a setting that can sometimes be a shark tank is vitality, so cling onto it until dawn calls.

In the midst, you're in the matrix, dodging temptation back and forth. It's what I ended up doing every time, clinging onto faith, clinging onto love. Intentions I simply had were to dance, to feel excitement. The doldrums of an everyday routine can definitely wear your soul out, so to keep the light lit is what's got to be done. Anyone who falsely accuses me of any intention besides the purest simply doesn't deserve the energy I give. Another obstacle often battled is the fight for happiness itself, yet every time it's washed away we crave for it more- we yearn for it. Partying can manifest itself into a cycle that way, yet I can say for myself that this place never felt like home to me for that reason. Having the highest high be taken away from you in exchange for the daylight repeatedly is sheer robbery, a crime unassigned. The consequence of living through the night is the way people perceive you sober, thus manifesting the temptation to rage and feel alive yet again.

Later on, I realized the night life wasn't for me after all, because of the mess that's brought upon from wanting to fulfill the similar feeling to slammed fine china, or screaming at the top of my lungs. Though at the same time, I'll remember these experiences for life, and I'll smile at my youth the way youth intends to simper as well. We're better in solace, not in rage. I no longer drink heavy liquor the same in present day, so I see the difference of how I perceive emotions that whelm me. It all really depends, I can feel deeply when I drink, but there are times when I feel absolutely nothing but a sinking feeling. It's simply a game of rolling dice, really.

I don't feel this way about love, the act of falling in love. It's bigger, than this feeling of a hungover morning, it's what made me stronger without knowing at such a young age, actually. Conclusion being, I'd trade moments at parties for a conversation with... Let's call my first love, Mr. Cassanova. Perhaps to have experienced the night life would've been better with Cassanova, that way I wouldn't have felt like I missed out on moments with him, but I've gotta carry on. Life stops for nobody, so hold onto you're Cassanova if you've got him, and never make him feel like he's any less because of this temptation of nights alive. Intention is your truth, I'd have to say, so move with gratitude, with love, and turn perceived negativity into redemption for yourself, for future's past- because a party isn't even the beginning to survival, more like a temporary fix to life. Indefinitely.

- 2:53 P.M.

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written by: Mia Rose Sarmiento

5/20/21

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[the-firebird69]

Just let a criticism going on with Tony s of him and it's everywhere and they're going after him and they're figuring out it's all true and it's going to be a big break for our son and daughter a huge break

Phew they both say they'll be nice you need some bad blood you can sleep on better and the cherry doesn't fall out of all sorts of things this idiot Tony is doing.

Weather report though be more like who are laid off for causing trouble everywhere and they're dispatching sheriff about 10,000 thus far and they'll dispatch the rest shortly and they'll probably call in the paramilitary police. It's a huge crowd and clones are amongst them and getting nabbed.

There's a lot of other things happening it's a huge day today is massive and it is because it's silly of the reduction in the morlock number reaching 7% now and defining Stanley they're going to leave for empty holes for power to grab lasers and they are going after land bases now that Mac was. And they are also trying for the ships above them on Australia New Zealand and elsewhere they're trying to take shifts in order to infiltrate The shield array it is quite big and effective it is probably twice the size of Australia extending into the South Pacific all the way to Malaysia at this time it reach the mainland of India shortly and the other array is twice the size of the full island chain of New Zealand and in about half a day it will reach South Africa and it would start extending up the continent and they will concentrate on the continent and surrounding Waters out to around 300 miles and it is growing because they're building ships it is a massive massive array at this time and we were warned it will burn off more ozone than we thought and we are producing vehicles and we're producing trucks and power generation is up and we are making ozone and we're sending it up there and we made towers and they are for protection as well we will be keeping up with the requirements yes and adding to it due to the poles being completed already. Right now we have about 70% of the world's Auto production and we are cranking them out and our son and daughters and The conjuring and me of course and Freya we have this new car company in a several others knowada Ariana's wife and Poseidon's wife goddess wife and they have an interest too and it is the lead automobile and truck manufacturer on Earth right now it's number one in sales for this year 2023 it's twice the sales of Ford and Chevy combined. And that's the new models too they're presales they included and it's going on gangbusters and we should fill all the orders by Monday that have been placed up today but tomorrow we're having a show and it's going to go through the roof. The electric motorcycle company move to Canada and since they did sales are completely out of control we have probably 2/3 of the motorcycle sales on Earth coming from that company all electric and they saw that it's a company that makes a real life cycle and astonished and chills and hairs stood still up on people's necks and people still gawking it was amazing even our son feels the energy from such a creation even though most of it is and he says he got the idea from a toy of his grandfather and grandmother and his father and mother Giuseppe from Italy and it's true the first one he made he sent over to him he said it's the first one and I can't have him they have a whole bunch of them the first run he says you have to protect them and I think you should use them and you said no way and that's how it is. But wow this is amazing this company that's producing so many vehicles it's ridiculous. They also have other news they're going after minority morlock too with gusto and especially people who are rude obnoxious and they're bringing them in and they're putting them in prison and they don't try very hard and they're very rude most often and it cost them. And their little scams are always found out but really they're pissed off at them concerned the way and they're small and it's frustrating them and it's causing a lot of damage it counted 450,000 Alden from Southwest Florida this morning and that's why they're here trying stupid crap and they're making it worse they've got about a million more and it's getting worse.

Thor Freya

We published now to get it out Hera

Olympus

[marknoonan]

"It is enforced because enforcing language norms is a way of enforcing power structures."

This is something that I believe is true, but it's a hard sell as an argument, because people do not buy that their use of language does this. People who worked hard to learn all the conventions of their language seem to get defensive about it, maybe because what we teach kids is that there are two kinds of English: a narrowly prescribed correct kind, and a broad, messy, nonstandard wrong kind. And maybe we teach them a little bit about formal/informal within "correct" English.

This in and of itself helps create and reinforce the overall power structure of the society those kids grow up in. They learn to distinguish (falsely) between who speaks properly according to their parents and teachers, and who doesn't. They have no way to know that much of the grammar and convention they learned and got graded on in school is just a group of arbitrary rubrics that are pretty good at having the kids end up with the right usage in most situations, but not the actual rules of the language, which do exist but are fewer than we might think, and far more fluid.

I've talked to many full grown adults over the years who have internalized these rules from when they were kids and believe they are rules of the language, not just pretty-good-reminders-so-you-can-pass-a-test.

Which is kind of how we also teach gender. We take something complicated that young kids can't necessarily understand, give them the tiny bit of knowledge they are are ready for at a young age, and then fail to revisit the topic throughout the person's childhood to increase the complexity of their understanding and get closer and closer to reality.

We don't have this problem with more concrete things like the water cycle, volcanic activity, or the structure of the atom. We keep a growing kid informed about the water cycle. But we are content with ideas of gender stopping at the level a 3-year-old can understand, and a severely limited understanding of the richness of language itself.

Anyhow so you tell somebody they are reinforcing power structures by how they use English and they are going to look at you like you are crazy, because they think there's only one way to use English and also there are only 2 genders, and this is a lot to unpack all at once. The cumulative effect of how we teach language, gender, sexuality, and history topics to kids is huge for society as a whole. Really huge. It disadvantages and hurts people who don't fall in the right categories. But by the time we teach about these things in a meaningful way (which was in college for me), we're speaking to a tiny audience.

“Language evolves, and no amount of fulminating, or imposition of rules, can stop it. But more importantly, justice demands that we make the effort to accept ‘they’, ‘themself’ or any new gender-neutral pronouns that achieve widespread use. A language that collapses male and female into ‘man’ reflects a society that strips women of their separate being. And a language that collapses the spectrum of gender identities into male and female reflects a society that refuses to acknowledge the identity and very existence of a significant segment of its population. In the Trans Allyship Workbook (2017), Davey Shlasko writes: The rule against using singular they is enforced neither because it preserves some consistent, objective grammatical standard, nor because it serves our communication needs. It is enforced because enforcing language norms is a way of enforcing power structures. This issue of power is central to all three of these usage shifts. In each case, the shift gave a voice to a marginalised group­: the non-educated non-elite; women; and those with non-binary gender identities. ‘They’ might not be particularly felicitous, but until we find something better, we need it. After years of working with ‘he or she’, I don’t think it’s clunky if used well, but I believe that we must drop it now, simply because it leaves out other gender identities. Macdonald accused Webster’s third edition of impoverishing the language, coarsening it, and destroying its beauty. But people still write beautiful prose, and we will get comfortable with singular ‘they’, much as, centuries ago, people adapted to singular ‘you’ as ‘thee’ fell out of use. Once a copyeditor, always a grammar nerd, and I confess that ‘Carey makes themself coffee every morning’ makes me wince. But I’m willing to wince for as long as it takes – most likely, not very long.”

— | Stephanie Golden, We need the singular ‘they’ – and it won’t seem wrong for long (via stoweboyd)

[the-firebird69]

Had enough of Dan in my face he asked me out and support and went down I'm not disappointed I heard you your son say this is a day and infamy we have seen and recognized the two criminals for what they are they're trying to start a war so let us write it down and try not to forget and get out of things back in our money a lot of us can't get back was really important I can partly. They heard it and said Tommy f is getting rid of so many people it's not funny but it seems like this idiot influenced him to do it each time. Stan said let's cut the chatter and get this done we'll talk after and I said we shall is he coming about it's hitting hitting and hitting the guy and he's getting weaker and weaker and one of his guy says we have to fall back every group and the other one said there's nowhere to fall back to that area is closed and they were lyinge so we checked the back and there are more prepping. Fired on them, tons of them fell we hit the rest they calling groups all over and we're hitting those groups also they said they're going global and we're firing on them all over the world and we're hitting them everywhere. Someone yelled out let's go get all of them and we know it was it was Jason just keep going instead of find something Yellowstone Park will be living there in a freaking VW so so we here a few times all of them and here's stan we just met we discussed it but we didn't come to a conclusion knowing you need to come to a conclusion on the sky he's very evil and he's ruining our day everyday when we try and surmount the most evil and perhaps even more evil group not the kid so they say this we certainly see we have a problem and they're unwilling to deal with anyone and Mac is so they're asking Max they say and Max is we need

To develop some common sense and consensus as to what to do we waste our resources and properly we're in trouble Trump is actually attacking him thinks we set him up a lot of people said so we didn't and you can't convince them otherwise so I hear a friend he says you got to keep on getting him to go in there and really it's probably a really good idea but it doesn't seem to be working in numbers that are significant enough and I see that you get back stamps all the time and he's ruining your game and Jason get some stuff and he's helping in a project and the a****** comes in ruins it and it's a project that works for me and you same with bja along comes the a****** so I was trying to take your stuff and do the project they're doing and ruins it having so many times that the only thing that's working is having the s*** head himself go after the bases and other stuff to tell me f has and is doing it's a matter of fact he went after the light cycle things so he gets on the radio and he says I want everybody on this puke I want him out of our way he's going after everything first so Trump started running after stuff that Tommy f has and he's going after the light cycle glass places they filled up again and he says where did you hear that 200,000 of your generals heads are still in there cuz you guys didn't take them back home and their data 600,000 regiants. And more and out of your son squad there was 300,000 regions why hasn't any who knows and $400,000 generals that's going to be all alone though and they said that's probably all so you fight like a little girl you fight oh it's awful all in those glass places and Jeffries is probably still laughing at you cuz you're but you do go back in for the movie we think so I might save your.... So my kids on the radio goes face face you idiot you go back there right through but see your face so so he is stopping you might rooted and that goes I'm not going to f****** ruin it this m*********** is so stupid he took all your stuff and you saw the proof you saw the stuff that's probably true so how much stuff did it take that you can't remember we'll send you your report we'll just have Sarah send you your report the report every time you start trying to ball Mac or trying to ball me or trying to ball stand ard it's cracked it's gross it's disgusting but holy s*** ain't going the wrong way is he threatening you or something now what do I do with that now you know you use it like a Tootsie roll pop that s***'s good these are blowing bubbles with it in my direction trying to get a little bit of the tootsie on me it looks around and says this I'm being made fun of because these people took such advantage of me no they're serious other I get on the right track or they're going to f****** up is thinking it it's on the radio and says I'm going after him now I thank you for the advice he saw the setup he told everybody so you set you up because you're easy to set up cuz he f***** you up everyone can see that it's not embarrassing it's a horror show you like some you like a dog on rabies that no one can stop you know like drink a little coke with some mentos and that's what you look like thank you for the analogy you're welcome. They hear part of it on on the radio I'm thinking some mentos drink some coke and I'll look like I am rabbit now we need to understand something people are saying that I'm out of control and bite anyone

I need to stand I need you to go on the radio and say it's this stand we want you to take a stab at the comet Empire ships get the f*** out of our face forever and go try you stupid fat slob

So you accidentally laughing at I hear the reaction is stupendous

Zues

Directions like this you either go get that thing cuz we give you first gifts or we get you some people say it

Hera

And he took all your s*** to make those f****** things and you're sitting here looking at us like we're supposed to do something and you just f****** around with us

Stan said on that air

And I heard this from everybody a little bit of laughter they all started chiming in we're going to f*** you up if you don't get it right you always take first dance go take first dibs get out of our f****** face or were going to f*** you up

No he said for me and thanks and thought about it and he told everybody we're going after this flavino guy and it's simply not going to announce it and he decided something cuz people have a song. He started playing on the radio and said everybody on me and he said Tommy f we're coming to f*** you up for what you did to us you took more of us out than anybody else it's ever existed and you're playing one little guy is doing nothing but trying to survive us and a horrible way of having to say that he did it everyday for a year before it even happened. So he had a little smile on his face and said we're going to come get you we do take first steps another demanding it cuz I can't wait anymore I'm going to sit here and gyren enough to get motivated. And I hear what he's saying it's kind of true and like no legs is flood everywhere they ticking balls are dragging on the floor and I'm bouncing my way over to them when my ass cheeks he said this on the air... That means our whole pack I'm tired of the embarrassment I'm tired of this guy Tommy f making fun of me I'm tired of people tell me to f*** off cuz I'm so God damn annoying that they're going to rip my face off is that such the ass face I'm tired of them reading it it's just terrible I'm going to strike we're going to strike now I know why you can't remember it because you forgot to steal the Intel. So I guess I send you the idiots in and we follow them in I get it but now I get a little soften them up and call the idiots tell him to run down the highway area we have dryer because of those glasses get this idiot the Intel how many is a lot of those like 600 trillion people you're this huge flock of things up there waiting for you if you just give me $2,500 Mr winners that's all it says hello and it's real time for like less some kind of messenger and he went there Tommy f went to that arcade and they figured it out and they did that this afternoon no they do it tonight and he went there and we have images of it and we saw what he did he changed one of the machines programs she can't tell what he's doing and they're going after him now and VGA found the gift it's all change driven in the past 400 miles an hour and fast enough to catch the clothes they usually ride at 380 top speed you get 20 miles I can call you service you left exactly 100 bottles of McGillicuddy's whiskey which we now produce on the top level light cycle which is one above the SYM that we left same company Jesus. Then he vanished Captain McGillicuddy said it a million times that's my name Captain McGillicuddy Captain McGillicuddy McGill I cuddy Tommy from the Blue room oh s*** oh that's not you I'm sorry Brad... You're stupid you know that I know I don't get any respect but I share those Captain McGillicuddy I've seen the bottle and I don't believe it it looks like you. And some bottles of Captain McGillicuddy's you'll find a small old fashioned video and selling partially explain your dilemma it is of someone looking at a particular area in space time it says I'm nuts but I'm the captain and my wife she's a captain too and she's also a McGillicuddy... Of the clan McGillicuddy.

Zues Hera

Am I supposed to be impressed amused saddened feel clear angry or mean hateful humorous I feel all that Captain McGillicuddy says I should go see a shrink or have a nice bottle and it's fine whiskey he's left over at your place and you have now because drinking enough will make you forget that this stupid conversation happened so I agree I'm going to do that now thank you very much then I'll probably get on my light cycle and go to the job that these people can't do cuz I'll be on Captain McGillicuddy's fine whiskey

Bg

You can find at least one bottle in the stores around here cuz we put one there

Hera Zues

What the f*** is you what are you doing you idiot

Qe

Uh-oh it's time to thumb I went to Tampa and try and hide and comic Con steal someone's cosplay cuz it was too hot room the streets trying to sleep in a bar after everyone's gone

Captain McGillicuddy

I went to all the bars and they gave them free samples about five bottles each they said what are we supposed to do with this I said drink it if you want but you should probably sell it by the shot they started laughing and said do you know who Captain is I said yes I do it's my husband this is laughing their asses off we've heard this name forever it sounds like this McGill I cuddy like in a very small pirate ship it might have a cuddy cabin... And it's named cuddy Kevin because that's where they kept it I was in the front so it wouldn't get wet. We do have fine rum too and we gave him five bottles of that too each poor BG drinks a bottle before he realized it's too late

Captain McGillicuddy female