#I also figured out that I get visual migraines when I'm stressed—too bad just the idea of them make me incredibly stressed

[nerendus]

I think...I'm beginning to understand why I am getting increasingly more visual migraines in these past few years.

I rarely ever got them before the pandemic. And after school was brought back into session, almost everything was on our school-owned computers. Then I would go home, and get on my own computer. And not get off said computer until I go nappy nap.

Most of the triggers I face is from me going from a darker screen to a lighter screen (such as: looking up from my TV to check my phone), so there's definitely the added light factor. It doesn't exactly help my poor eyes that much of my childhood was, embarrassingly, spent looking up at the sun because my grandfather is blind and little me wanted to prove that I was stronger than that old man. (Note: he did not lose his eyesight from staring at the sun, he is severely diabetic) Now I can't even breathe within the direction of the sun without black holes burning through my retinas for the next half hour.

There's definitely some ways that I can try and limit this from happening so so often, but I don't exactly have many hobbies that exist outside of a screen. I like to read books, but physical copies mess with my eyes and digitals do not.

Maybe I should get into roleplaying and pretend that I am an 18th century princess with tuberculosis locked in her bedchamber and sigh dreamily while looking outside her window. Maybe if I do that enough times I will be healed.