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dbphantom · 2 years ago

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I am so fucking glad this actually returned what I was trying to say while writing tags about Law's kickass outfits because the unhelpful instamash mix I disrespectfully call a brain was supplementing all the wrong words and I didn't feel like finding that one writing thesaurus site on mobile

#My brain does this ALL THE TIME ITS SO ANNOYING #Like no buddy!!! Those are the wrong words stop it!!!#Today I forgot the word for syllable. My brain would not stop saying 'consonant' when that's not what I wanted and I knew that wasn't it #It's so frustrating #Because like. I *know* the words. I*know* I know the words. So Why. Why. Why. Can't you just remember them correctly. Ever.#It makes writing so difficult because once I'm knocked out of that flow state by searching stuff I'm never getting back #It's the same with like CS stuff. I *KNOW* these things. So Why can my brain just decide to conveniently forget the instant #I actually NEED to remember the information. Like 'whoops teehee'#'yeah those documents u wanted that were taking up space on my desk forever and ever? I JUST shredded them'#So I spend 48 hours stomping around rewriting all the paperwork and then when the task is done and over with #THEN ITS LIKE 'oh so I found a copy on one drive because it made an automatic backup but nobody uses or likes onedrive so I didn't see it'#WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS BRAIN #Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa-#Anyway. I thought this was mildly humorous I'm not actually That Frustrated about what just happened #It's more of just a general frustration with how my brain functions bc like. Come on #I put so much work in to learn and memorize all this stuff and it just takes it throws it out the window #It's very much a 'why should I even bother trying at this point' scenario for me #Cruddy rambles #Obviously apathy will get me nowhere. But it's extremely hard to stay positive when I legit just forget I need to do that :/

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