#I HAD TO GET SAD AT THE END im sorry hahaha

[crepuscularious]

gentleman

im back, bitches! apparently not a lot of you know that im a swiftie lmfaoaoaoa, so heres something cause slut is my absolute favorite its a fuckin' masterpiece

also, am i the only one who thinks that "in a world of boys hes a gentleman" means something else, lol. cause like this dude is in a group of boys, within those group of boys, but if he's in a group of men its a complete different story?!!??! if that makes enough sense.

one more thing, my short stories arent based on the song itself, its based on one line of the song. a lot of you were confused with my mad one and that it was different from what ne-yo was trying to say in the song. i hope this clarifies it :>

just a quickie for tonight, i feel so lonely hahaha... i should probably get a life

miguel x reader (mostly fem)

"everyone wants him, that was my crime. wrong place at the right time and i break down, then he's pulling me in"

youve been dating miguel for some time now, lets just say your relationship wasnt exactly... perfect

who were you to judge!? he was spiderman, so many females with different ages have looked up to him not only because of his heroicness, but as well as his physique, i mean have you seen that domino chip build?

you didnt mind at first, its not like you werent one of his fangirls before meeting him too, right? but no, you were starting to get pissed, no lie.

this caused a bit of a ruckus between the relationship of the two. a little screaming and shouting at the middle of the night when miguel forgot to tell her that he'd might need to patrol late at night again, or when she saw a girl with blonde hair and blue eyes kissing the masked man on the cheek on t.v! it didnt help when miguel had both his thumbs up and showing it to the camera before swinging away.

"mi vida, please! i told you im sorry. it was only for show, you know that!" miguel said, wrapping his arms around her waist as he places his chin on her shoulder while she was cooking dinner

"i didnt know that i dated a celebrity and not a hero then" you coldly said, turning off the stove and getting only one plate "i already ate dinner, eat without me" you said

but she hates it when someone is eating by themselves miguel thought to himself with a pout. he messed up, big time.

"mi vida, por favor" miguel said, shooting a web at her wrist to prevent her from leaving "im sorry, its my fault. i should have known better than to enjoy the kiss" miguel said, hugging his girlfriend tight

"i only like your kisses" miguel said as he snuck a quick peck on her cheek "maybe this isnt going to work, miguel. between the two of us" she said

this made miguel look at her with sad and torn eyes, "mi amor? im sorry if i was a bit overboard today, i understand my mistakes and i promise to correct them." miguel said, looking into your eyes with nothing but honesty as he holds both of your hands in his

"i know what i did was an ass mistake, and i understand if youre mad. but mi corazon, dont give up on us. i promise ill be better next time, ill know my limits" he said, his hands releasing from yours as he transfers then into your face, cupping it with his huge hands.

he gives you a quick peck on the nose and smiled "i love you, 3000" he said "please forgive me, lets work this out, i dont want us to end'

"you know, miguel. in a world of boys, youre a gentleman"

[d1gnan]

here's a little deep dive on the fight club necklace / my process in general hehe

i put like way too much thought into all my jewelry and this is about to be the most in depth ive actually ever gone about my process so sorry in advance 4 how long winded i am

(and if ur new to my jewelry i get everything secondhand and i upcycle so i source from places like estate sales/thrift stores/antique malls/ebay/shop frum peoples personal collections etc )

i think the necklace and the original paper street bracelet i made speak the same visual language as the paper street house pretty well because i sourced most of it from some of my oldest and most visually ornate jewelry finds.

a lot of the beads from this one are actually from this really dope older lady i knows collection/more specifically from a costuming warehouse in nyc and the jewelry is just so ornate and crazy and out of style, i imagine they were once worn by the kind of people that wouldve gotten their soup peed in so its kind of fun to reclaim them for something like this

when i went to go look thru my stash i was specifically thinking of chipping wallpaper and pulling anything that evoked that to me-kind of corny for a second, but i love beat up old houses visually and theres something so cool about the juxtaposition of ornate/destroyed. layerS and layers of beautiful print made sad and irrelevant by its surroundings. these (the houses and the jewelry) were luxurious and cool and trendy at one point and now theyre completely obsolete and funny. i honestly think the whole thing screams tyler durdens philosophy also

( a beautiful thing destroyed, the performance of put-togetherness+ wealth, putting stake in material goods+trends only for them to be completely stripped away by time )

but anyway yeah when u put these glamorous old things together with stuff like keys and charms that don't match and mix gold/silver, you get this really lived in and sick junk drawer effect, and when you pair pale whites with pale greens it can kind of give a souring/moldy/aged look

little more specific callouts tho for references (left to right)

golf club charms r pretty obvious

the green engraved stone i grabbed immediately because it gives the old wallpaper feeling i was going for

theres this golden charm that's kinda like a kitschy grandma charm, it says "1 minute/1 hour/1day/1week/1year/1leapyear/1century" and i put that as a reference to "this is your life and its ending one minute at a time"/"i am jacks wasted life" and i also think it works on another level/kindamatches with fight clubs irony since its like supposed to be a cutie love commitment idk at least 2 me hahaha

the little step ladder charm and the key i added so that it would read as yeah a dirty old unfinished house/kinda a visual junk drawer..the key i got at an estate sale (i got a bunch and had to make key soup to clean them all)it opens something somewhere

the dog vaccination tag is there both as a reference to the guy that they threaten but then also slightly as a nod to the narrators wacked self esteem the whole like puppy dog obsession aspect IDK

theres a little P and S charm for paper street

the freshwater pearl at the end and the plastic bone shaped bead are kind of supposed to give teeth/bones like subconsciously, i tried a kind of similar thing when i made jewelry based off of pearl from X and tried to make like a rotting looking necklace

theres a little coke bottle cracker jack toy on there too, if ur trying to condense fight club into symbols, glass bottles pop up in my brain so i wanted to find something like that and i got lucky. theres also a little green telescope cracker jack toy thats kind of rusty and i picked it up for how well it matched what i was going for visually but i feel like it could also be a space monkeys thing

any way thanks for looking at this, like i said this is the deepest ive ever gone into depth about my process, but this is why im so drawn to creating jewelry it feels like taking a picture or finishing a puzzle i just do it in a really specific way and it always feels fresh and new when i start a new project, (i definitely dont always have this much to say i promise) but any way hope this was cool

[jils-things]

Jil I'm so sorry but everytime u mention tnmn I have to Hold Back The Urge to ask u if u saw my husband. You know who this is and ur free to laugh /pos I'M SO EHJRHAJDHAJFHSH🚶🚶🚶

OH MAN I SHOULD'VE TOLD YOU SOONER - DUDE - THERE'S HILARIOUS EVENTS WHERE WE ENCOUNTERED HIM AND IT WAS SO FUNNY. you have every right to go hehehe husband that's ur funne tired man i aint judging brotha 👐👐 im gonna put my encounters under read more because this post is literally me talkin to you HAHAAH

nic and i have been playing for quite some time the moment we bought it and we couldn't fucking find francis no matter what!! him and mia stone were the hardest to look for actually - we only encountered her once!

we played the game and ended the day like 4 times? (we took turns being doorman) and since it was getting late (4am i think) we told each other "this would be the last game" and we agreed. so on the last game - i just kept crying to myself broo where the fucken mil.kman dude (i kept complaining i did not see francis each playthrough HAHAHA)

and FUNNILY ENOUGH, AFTER CLEARING OUT THE LAST NEIGHBOR ON THE LIST (the one where you should expect their arrival) - i was like "pipipipi wheres the damn guy" AND FUCKEN FRANCIS APPEARS OUT OF NOWHERE and i celebrated so loudly i was fucking cackling to myself. unfortunately that was a doppelganger, a really good one actually - we had to dial the real francis to confirm it

and the other time, it was just today and we took turns playing. i was playing doorman and told myself ok last game and we're done. ON THE LAST FUCKIN GAME FRANCIS APPEARS ON THE LIST LIKE GOTDAMN DUDE DOES HE NOT WANT TO APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME AT ALL LMAO??? i played this game TWICE + MY SISTER'S TURN HE DID NOT FUCKING APPEAR ONLY UNTIL I SAY "LAST GAME" I THINK THIS GUY HATES ME YALL 💀💀💀💀

THIS PRICK DOESN'T WANNA SEE ME tho then again he's probably visiting YOUR house rather smh smh 😔😔 a little too biased . wants to see FIANCE or sumth 😔😔😔😔 so sad

AKDKSJAJSHJAA YEAH THAGS ALL. I LITERALLY ENCOUNTERED HIM TWICE OUT OF THE MANY TIMES I REPLAYED IT DHFHFBFBD

[orangeheliophile]

hey mootie <3 so this isnt a ask for anything (well technially it is but it isnt in the way you think) and if you feel comfortable answering!!! but how do you deal with like idk losing people you care about and have to deal with them moving on? Im having a really hard time right now with that and i have almost nobody to reach out to :( sorry again for barging into asks!! ^^"

Hey, mootie!! <33

I may not know much about you personally, but I understand your situation.

Tbh, it's difficult depending on how close u were to the person. I've had to let go of a lot of people, including family, because they were pretty toxic, and it just made me feel numb and alone for a while.

Breathe. Breathing is super important because it can help you calm down when u get inside your own head. I know it can be hard but you also have to put yourself first. I'm still working on this, hahaha.

I honestly understand where ur coming from cuz it feels like the person just forgot abt your entire existence. And it hurts.

But if they were quick to move on than that means they don't deserve u. Cuz a real friend would stick by u no matter what.

Life will give, and it will take. But it always happens for a reason. U just have to believe there will be future days that are gonna be better.

Something that helps me is expressing gratitude, but u have to look inside yourself and really feel grateful for the things u do have!

Sometimes, we take the smallest things for granted. I always loved looking at the nature and scenes around me because it reminds me that I'm here. I'm actually alive and a breathing human being.

Connecting with nature always helps me! And it's important to connect with yourself, too. U gotta know what u really want in life and that's the first step in healing. U gotta accept and love yourself no matter what. People come and go, but in the end, you will always have yourself!

The right people will come to u when u start to put yourself first, whatever it takes to heal and start your journey on self-love. My mom taught me that, and she's also been through so so much.

If they moved on, then they don't deserve to be with you. And I know that's something really hard to say. If they don't love u, then u should love yourself more. This is also a way of helping u become stronger because knowing that u will be your best friend will change your perspective of life!

Think of the true, genuine part of u as your inner self, future self, inner child, etc. Whatever u choose it to be. Think of the things u don't like about yourself, and say that u love and accept those parts of u. Knowing that someone loves u no matter what helps so much, it helps more knowing that you love yourself, too.

Getting into hobbies helps, painting, yoga, gardening, knowing that u created something or taking care of yourself, and can help u feel better. Even if it's just a smidge!

Remember, cutie mootie, that this is YOUR life. And time passes by in the blink of an eye. I've lived in sadness for months where I could have been healing and being at peace. What matters the most is how you feel. Protect your energy and your inner child.

Nothing is perfect, and healing is messy. But remember that the people who do stick around will always help you and help u learn how to love yourself!

I know I sound like a hippie probably, but meditation and breath work helps. Think of yourself as an alien who is observing humans living their lives. Everyone is stressed out about something, but think of what really matters.

We're gonna feel upset, depressed, angry, stressed, etc. U just have to remember how much time u wanna spend in those certain feelings.

Take deep breaths and think of smth that makes u happy. Can be a memory, scene from a show, whatever. Hold that thought for 20 seconds, and if u want, keep thinking of happy moments until u feel more relaxed. It helps change your mindset and take it as a challenge to see how many moments you can make feel good and happy!

Humans are not perfect. The word "perfect" isn't real. But that's the beauty of life, too. It's in all shapes and colors, with different feelings and smiles. Just know that I love you and that I'm here in case u need me 🫶🏼

(I know this is a lot, lmao, but fr. If u don't love yourself yet, then maybe u can love yourself through me. Or a fictional character that I will definitely write fics about to make u feel a lil bit better!<333)

Sorry if this doesn't make sense, hahaha. I tried. But if you wanna talk, I'm gonna be right here for you🩷

Love you so much, @real-hot-grl-shi !!!

[djarinova]

em my beloved bestie !! 3, 16, 20 + 25 for the soft ask game please (˶ ˘ ³˘)ˆᵕ ˆ˶)

aaah my sweet ada :3 thank you so much for sending theseeeee

for this soft asks game!! <3

3. Reading or writing? Why?

oh GOD how am i meant to choose only one??? this is the meanest thing ever..... but if im doing one for the rest of life then i think id have to pick reading!! even though i have been truly truly slacking with reading books this year, like ive barely read one... its absolutely ridiculous. but there are just some stories that i would absolutely not want to be rid of, if i could never read the internal devices again or if i was never able to read FIC AGAIN??? i would truly become so weird and sad hahaha

16. What’s something you want to create soon?

the easiest (and most obvious) answer is fic!!! i want to write more and gush about my little fictional characters and work more on my reputation event (that i started 10 months ago) but. I'd love to paint something soon:( i rrly rrly miss painting, and it's so nice to take the time and just create something. sigh. i fear this will not be happening soon:'(((

20. Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart.

first one that came to mind was honestly the first time me and my boyfriend held hands ..... <3 as previously mentioned somewhere we were at a local festival with my then best friends big friend group-this included her fiancee, my now boyfriend and lots of their friends from school. about 12 ish in total. it was the end of the first night of music, scouting for girls had just finished and every one was heading back to the tents, but i kinda felt like loitering a little around the field so my not-then boyfriend offered to keep me company so my friend could go get some sleep. we ended up wandering around very slowly, sort of people watching, sort of chatting, and i was keeping track of the time because it was almost midnight and i wanted to be the first one to wish him a happy birthday 🥺 and just after the clock struck twelve he asked to hold my hand and offered his hand palm up, but me being me, knew exactly which way i wanted to hold his hand and so i, instead of taking his hand, held my hand out palm up and waited for him to interlace his fingers with mine. which he did. and then when we got back to our tents afew of our friends were hanging around on the camping chairs and clocked our hands being linked, and although they didnt rrly say anything because they weren't sure how I'd feel about the teasing, there were definitely some very obvious glances given towards us hehe

25. If your soul was a color, what would it be?

oh god, how do i even choose this omggg..... i think, as much as I'd adoreeeeee my soul to be a shade of green, i truly think it could be a light blue colour... because beach and ocean and summer and these are all things that are very me hahah (but also im lying if i dont say that i also think my soul could be similar to 3f7050)

sorry i talked so much hehehe but i was just very much enjoying answering these questions bestie!!

[earlysunshines]

🌹🤵‍♀️....i feel u omg when i was 15 i was madly in love with this girl and we were constantly flirting and even went on a first date after like 9 months of talking.. at the time i thought i was being delusional but noo omg the things she said were NOT casual lmfao lots of gifts and love letters later i found out she's been hiding a man from me the whole entire time 😭 just sick and evil,,she is FULLY straight might i add

and the next girl i talked to got back with her ex bf after we ended LMFAO! ! but then me n this girl also got back together last summer and we ended so messy ndncncjd hahah hahaha..

anyways im so sad tacos arent popular here where i livei really want to eat them nyam nyam nyansndnamm yummy..i want...mm burritos too im so curious about them....

STOP GIRL ME TOO😭😭well i got into the relationship when i was 14 and it ended like over half a year after i turned 15 but ANWYAYS.

GIRLS ARW WVILLLLLLL IM TELLING UI HTAE DAYING. So Bad. i can only accept friends to lovers or a miracle i swear. also i hate men they’re always at the crime scene and always the CRIMINAL. fuck men.

MO GIRL WHY ARE WE LOWK THE SAME PERSON😭😭😭my first gf the one i was talking ab i recently found out that she’s with a man now and i literally could care less now bc girl that was YEARS ago idfc and she’s a terrible perosn but like😭😭😭WOW. a MAN? girl she told me she was a lesbian and shit but like things change over years and i’m ngl i know the guy she’s with and he’s acc really sweet😭AND ALSO my valentine this year apparently kissed a man TWICE over the summer but idc she’s lowk irrelevant in my mind but still it’s jsut always men. okay sorry for the long ass rant bye that’s kinda embarassing on myend.

girl GET THOSE TACOS!! i fear i cannot be eating out as much i rly need to lock in. i just had taiwanese chicken tho … but like im still locked in bc i didn’t eat enough during work😭😭😭

[topazy]

i’m sorry i just saw you responded my thing 😭😭, but right now im episode 9 i think of season 3 and even though im now supposed to i really like troy, idk maybe that’s cause ik him from teen wolf and isaac has my heart but i digress, for me it was the other way around i got right into ftwd but it was harder for me to get into twd, idk maybe its cause i already have an obsession with twd and i only started it to get over my fear of zombies but idk, so far i really like ftwd but ngl kinda stopped watching it for a bit, but him defo gonna start again so i can watch all the seasons, so far i have mixed feelings about maddison im ngl, like i get why she does what she does but at the same time i feel like she needs to take a step back sometimes, and tbh i don’t like luciana but i think her and nick are cute, but i don’t like that she just left him like that. i think jake is annoying tbh but i think it’s nice that alicia is like having something with someone after matt, at first i didn’t believe travis was actually dead and it took me like 2 hours to actually realize it. tbh i didn’t like chris and was happy when he left travis alone but was sad for travis, but when i found out he died i was kinda sad cause travis lost his son. ophelia (idk if i spelled her name right) not only leaving them at the hotel but also taking their truck made me bit like her ngl but finding out her dad was alive was a shocker cause i thought he died in the fire. and then him and strand going back to the hotel and it being over run again, but with strand lying i get why daniel left him there. and i lowkey like jeremiah and nicks like friendship but i don’t like jeremiah himself yk? and i was lowkey happy when nick killed him, but ngl not saying i agree with jeremiah but walker lowkey a bitch im ngl and then that dude joking about the coffee pissed me off ngl cause wasn’t yall literally just fighting to get it in and game it over but couldn’t do that before the world ended or after 🤨, but yeah that’s all i got right now i’m hope you’re having or had a good day!!!

I actually forgot all about Travis😭🤣 like I just forget he’s a character hahaha I’m just about to restart season three and he’s been invisible to me

I think Troy was one of the best characters on the show, he done a lot of messed up things but he’s interesting to watch

Hope your having a good day/night lovely 💕

[reddrakebird]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN!

Fill in this form to let your RP partners know your preferences in terms of writing. Knowing your partners better makes figuring out the kind of interaction you can have with each other easier! Repost, don't reblog.

name: Sev

preference of communication: tumblr ims, inbox, I am selective on who gets my discord. 

name of muse(s): Timothy Drake

best experience: Getting asked and venturing into trying a new muse was an honor. I had seen Tim being played by a few others and admired him from afar, but I have always been more drawn to darker muses, so this was a bit of a challenge for me since I did not know a lot about him when I started out. Everyone was patient. @prettysuper has been there to support me when I felt I was not grasping him well, and we ended up creating a pretty amazing story of our own that I just adore and am always excited to explore <3. The community is pretty awesome and I am so grateful for them accepting a newb like me to tumblr play! Dash games when everyone gets into it is the best thing I have ever seen here.

rp pet peeves/deal breakers: Ignoring my character unless it was talked about as part of the dynamic. If my character took the time to address yours so they could invest in the conversation and there is no response back, it irks me as a writer who also took the time to think about that post and how to insert them into the scene. I do not have many deal breakers, but I am not a fan of someone assuming that my character is a sure way purely by Comics. I get it, this is a character that is not an original and was established, but the point of us being here is to write our own versions where DC has numerously fucked up stories for their own cowardness. Ask, I love answering. Or simply interact and learn! 

fluff, angst, or smut: All, fucking BONUS if you can mingle all three into a scene -sips tea- I am a heavy investor in realism when it comes to playing, and shit gets messy in real life; it should in rp too. Fluff should have some interruptions, angst should have a teary smile or ignorance, smut should have failure to actually have sex after trying or a good time turning sad because of a trigger or insecurity. Real people go through this, so should characters. It really adds layers to them that start to make a uniqueness. 

plots or memes: memes. I love plots, but sometimes I am a bit burned out. Memes are something I always enjoy and throw around on Dash!

long or short replies: Long are favored. I enjoy having a lot to work with and do not mind the rambling of another writer so long as it is viable things and not bullshit for the sake of length. Short are great for days when our brains go ‘wut’ but we want interaction or a distraction. It was really hard to come to Tumblr from an RPG form where people wrote seven paragraphs to see people doing one-liners here. I am used to it now, even do it myself but it was def an adjustment!

best time to write: Any. Seriously, I am always around. Now my favorite time to write is at 2am when everyone in the house is quiet, I can put my headphones on and turn the music up loud as hell to just vanish into the scene. 

are you like your muse: HAHAHA no. Absolutely not. Well, we share Autism aspects, but this version ended up sensitive and sad in a way due to putting the background of therapy heavily on him. My characters have a funny way of taking the wheel and developing themselves after I give them snippets of myself to have a connection so I can move them around. Tim is nothing like me. HOWEVER, his boyfriend, Kon, is a good deal like me. Shameless, loud, no fucks to give, protective. So it is hella wild to try and play a character who dates someone with a lot of similar traits like myself. (I am so sorry to all my exs but you all knew what you were getting into)

Tagged:  @1mpulsee

Tagging: any!!

[ellecdc]

🧺 hi lovie!! ive been going back and forth on sending this for like a month bc i didnt wanna be a bother but i just wanna say congratulations??!?? on 2k!?!? all the love!! and support!! 💖💝!!

first off, im a quiet reader but when i tell u i have deleted absolutely deranged comments crying over your writing. i actually love u sm i cant even go to sleep w/o one of ur fics anymore.... a lil treat to end the day 😞💌 but seriously tho i feel like you genuinely help our mental sanity and stability and i wanna thank you for being here <3

i'd love to request matchmaker 💘💘:

favorite colors would definitely be dark green and black (funny bc im a slytherin too 😭)

i love love love reading, listening to music, sleeping (also funny bc i get like none 🤩⁉️) and i play the electric guitar!!

i dont watch a lot of things bc im always just rewatching comfort stuff so erm im just gonna ramble a lot abt my favorite music instead ☠️? here's some music recs 😭? i like a wide range of stuff so one extreme we got like soul crunchingly sad music?? ⁽ᵇᶦˡˡᶦᵉ, ʰᵒᶻᶦᵉʳ, ᵐᶦᵗˢᵏᶦ, ˢᵘᶠʲᵃⁿ ˢᵗᵉᵛᵉⁿˢ ᶠᵗʷ!!⁾. then we have the parasites in me (girlypop music!! taylor, bts, the weeknd and lana!!). then theres the really old and really white man in me (nirvana, rolling stones, beatles, kiss, queen, metallica). then we have the Oldest White Man in me (tchaikovsky, debuss-ing ⁽ᵖˡˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʷᵃˢ ʰᵒʳʳᶦᵇˡᵉ⁾ ⁽ᶦ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈⁿᵗ ʰᵉˡᵖ ᶦᵗ⁾ and einaudi). also only one im a lil ashamed of but that Younger White Boy in me... (cant believe im admitting this but like. travis scott, jack harlow, lil nas x and metro boomin are lowkey fire...) (im an afab girl btw mdsjksjds i feel like i should mention that with all these white male jokes help) (sorry for this genuine brick wall of text help)

PLS i didnt mean to rambfl so much im sorry. but erm. favorite animal. cats!! and wolves!! i feel like the internet's ruined it with all the jokes but oh i was born to be a lil wolf frolicking with the gang getting up to shenanigans in the woods :(

again, not to be a bother pls feel free to skip over this one if you have too many asks to get through!! i rambled way too much xmksdjjk 😭 (bonus question + reverse matchmaker but im curious abt who you would ship yourself with?!?!! (i'd guess barty or james!?!)) sending so much love 🎀💖

"because you didn't want to be a bother" BESTIE......you don't bother me please for the love of god send the asks and the comments, I'm begging you [especially if you're gonna be a cutie pie]

the parasites in you hahahaha ok so I want to say Sirius because of the slytherin/opposites attract kind of thing but I also think you guys have a lot in common re: music lovers. also he would love to frolic in the woods with you.

It also gives me Barty vibes? Because your music is so all-over the place [in the best way] which is so Barty-core tbh. I think he too would like to frolic in the woods with you <3

-> as for your question; I've always considered myself a Remus girlie. but I was asked this earlier on in my celebration and people had me answer the questions and they also shipped me with James and Lily!! so that's fun you're adding Barty hahaha

thanks for playing xx

[celestie0]

IT’S CELESTIEFAN3000 i have to say i like tumblr way more than ao3 so i’ll be using this to comment from now on 😋 But i would like to personally thank you for writing chapter 9, your author voice is genuinely so appealing and HONESTLY you could pass off as a literal professional author if I didn’t know this was fanfiction!

Now for the uglier feelings: (please ignore typos or other mistakes i wrote a lot. I am very normal about kickoff, obviously)

I SOBBED LIKE A BABY MIDWAY AND BECAME A CRYING SOUND EFFECT AT THE END OK OK OKAYYYYYYY 😭😭💫💫 I’m still dizzy and lightheaded from the effect ur writing gives me (THIS IS A GOOD THING) it’s so addicting i need more😭‼️ UGHHHH the way you build that exact RIGHT amount of comfort to compensate for the suffering you’ve but us through but still managed to EDGE US AT THE END . I WISH YOU WEREN’T SO GOOD AT THIS FANFICTION THING, BECAUSE DAMN! 😭😭😭😭

The scenes were so fucking beautiful, I love the peaceful atmosphere that rain gives and how you were able to contrast that as an escape from that horrible loud and noisy bar to just a horrible man!!!!! You really know how to direct scenes and i can not express in words how much they mean to me 🥹🥹😭😭😭

I feel like I’ve overused the crying face emoji too much in my ask BUT I ACTUALLY MEAN IT HERE EVERY TIME I can fill an entire glass up of my tears that kickoff caused me to shed alone 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Everything was just great vegetables, this chapter will definitely be haunting me while I sleep but it ended with an amazing scenario to build off of and dream about RIGHT?☺️ Anyway, my last words here are that I admire how you’ve been working on this project for around a couple months now nonstop, but the quality has not dropped and has instead improved despite it getting really tiring the more you carry on with it! Maybe that’s just how I feel about finishing what I’ve started LMAO but it’s so impressive every time I see someone able to pull that off, I’ve seen some fics succumb to the tragedy of “i-just-want-to-get-this-over-with-because-the-concept-no-longer-interests-me-anymore”-ness 😔 BUT WITH KICKOFF! I’m so happy that the author is as passionate about the characters and plot in their fanfiction as I am, and hard work really does pay off! (for the reader, hard work is waiting 3 weeks for a new fic— but the read’s always better the longer you wait 😉)

My ADHD really came out here I deeply apologize but my ACTUAL final words are: I wish I had a bf like gojo, Oh My God You Are A Legend Ellie, You are most deserving person of meeting Gojo Satoru FIRST if he ever comes to life, it is 1am haha so i’m sleeping now ☺️🤍 Celestiefan300 out!

MY SWEET ANGEL BB CELESTIEFAN3000 😭🫶🏼💕💕 HI DEAR

UMM CAN I JUST SAY IM AB TO SOB ALR JUST FROM HOW LONG THIS ASK IS ??? PLS FORGIVE MY URGE TO RESPOND TO EVERY ASPECT OF IT

thank you sm for the compliments on the writinf omg i rly feel comin into my own now n finding my voice as i continue to write more so seeing u say that esp as a long term reader is just ssooo dhddldfk 🥺💕 brb gonna cry

PLS IM SO SORRY FOR THE SAD EMOTIONSS aaa yes the baby steps to build their relationship has been……baby stepping indeed LOL but it was so nice to write the scene at rhe end where gojo comforts her 😭💕 so excited to write lovey dovey gojo now

OMG STOPPP w the nice words i will literally eat u for breakfast🧍🏻‍♀️the contrast w the soothing rain & hectic bar scene 😭 u pointing that out just made me soooo freaking happyy and wahh im so glad the scenes resonate w you :””) <33

ME TOO I FEEL IM HOLDING BACK ALL THE 😭😭😭 WMOJIS I COULD USE READING THIS ASK

awhh thanks darling im so happy kickoff has ur continued interest and AW to hear its improving means sm to me 🥺💕 im so passionate ab it, it has been so cathartic to write, and although its also hard to write sometimes bc of the personal aspects, it’s so joyous to me and i look forward to seeing it thru to the end w the same amt of passion. HAHAHA its hard work to read tho damn 😮‍💨 ur not wrong!! and also yes i too will be daydreaming of what happens next 🤣

my final words: i love u sm, YOU deserve a satoru (but i will gladly have him too if u say so🙈), so blessed to have u as a reader, and please get some good sleep my love <33

eeeeeee 🫶🏼💕

[sukunasun]

on the topic of mma/divorce au!sukuna, i dont know how much you listen to post-hardcore punk but theres this song called roses by awaken i am that reminds me of the dynamic you wrote between them in the divorce au. I feel like the lyrics and tone of the song describe the sadness/turmoil of a relationship ending which you perfectly captured in your divorce au drabbles as well. im not sure if it'd be your thing but either way, i love your writing and felt like the song fit along with it well!

oooh i love music reccs, thank you so much! divorce sukuna is that hurdle i can't seem to overcome, i keep staring at the 10K piece in my drafts like 'why can't it just write itself!!' i feel im going nowhere with it, like i just write these bits of conversation but i don't know how the fic should find its resolution...and what is the resolution even meant to be...is a happy ending even about getting back together or is it about two individuals finding their own way and just appreciating the time they had together...

it's so angsty and torrid too, the way two people just sorta .... change and the way sukuna is in denial, then grieving the end of his marriage, then wanting to do everything he can to change that but knowing it's kinda too late, and even so, to actually save a marriage is difficult, it requires effort and a lot of opening up, restructuring life, learning and re learning communication, well, even the thought making amends and just saying im sorry is too much...and maybe he's who he is and all he'll ever be, maybe this version of himself is not the man you married and that's okay too.

anyways, i want him and reader to be happy but i haven't got a clue what that is yet...i wished it was as easy as you love me and i love you so lets be together but then they wouldn't have thought of divorce in the first place...give or take it's a whole lot more complicated. i for one, am not the best at relationships, i think im honestly made to be alone, which is why its hard to write about things i don't know about hahaha

[oddinary4bts]

Oh my god the sob i let out when yoongi broke up with oc oh my god its the ugliest loudest sob i had this year THIS IS THE SADDEST ANGST IVE READ THIS 2023 WHAT A WAY TO END THE YEAR !! 🥺💜 i can still remember sending an ask asking u to hurt me more and you delivered!! i am literally shaking while crying all through out (even when im reading the smut i am still crying lmao) anyway, i dont know why but when yoongi cried too i felt like i forgive him for everything and im like nooo baby pls 😭😭 and it really hurt because the way oc said " i forgive you" girl i really felt the same :< but it just hurts 😭😭 everything hurts (but i am happy) i am so sad for jungkook and oc and yoongi i dont want them to suffer anymore pls give them a happy ( even not happy just them in a better place) ending AND I LOVE YOU ALWAYS I AM STILL CRYING OH MY GOD happy holidays!!! 💜💜💜

Oh I’m sorry it made you cry so much🥺😭 and the best angst of 2023??? You’re too kind🥺 I’m happy you were able to forgive Yoongi! I found it hard to forgive him as I’m really iffy about cheaters but I’m glad his redemption arc worked with you hahaha

I promise everyone does have a happy ending!! Or the happiest they can get with the situation, you know??🥹

I love you and happy holidays to you too✨✨

[windamp]

okay my actual thoughts about mha you're next beyond mr mater quirk:

mha you're next spoilers

I enjoyed it! It was pretty predictable, but fun. I was surprised how neatly it fit into continuity but hori is good at that. Dark Might was such a loser, the #1 most toxic all might stan, even beating Stain lmfao. Where is the rumble between S&S bs quirk and his???

i loved deborah (? i think that was her name) she's such a bitch. wonderful vibes. probably my favorite family member. loved how her dreams worked (though momo was like...girl u do that anyway...unless that tea is like extinct??? idk fuck all about tea)

the other class members had less of a chance to shine than in two heroes which was kinda sad but for the best bc my main crit of the movie is the latter half where the pacing seems to slow intolerably for a little bit.

i think it's just cause the fight was stuck in a bit of a loop of dark might hits deku guilo does smth deku does smth dark might hits deku etc then replace with todo & baku. wouldve appreciated a bit of trimming tbh.

also yoichiiiiii as soon as i saw deb's quirk i knew 100% his ass would be showing up whooooohoooooo!!!! thats him!!!1

also oof ochako going to guilo and giving him that pic of anna and being like we'll save her :) and then i think of what is currently happening in the anime and what will happen in the manga :( oof.

the dark might magical girl transformation was fun. also when mirio appeared everyone hooted!! thats the boy!!

guilo was great, an a+ character. i liked his banter w/ deku. his arm gun made me think he was like nagant at first but then the support stuff came in. liked the use of his eye vs illusions. truly i would just get arm guns if i were quirkless but i supposed that takes mafia money rip

anna was kinda blah, which i hate to say, but she was brainwashed for 90% of the runtime. i wish we couldve seen more of the real her. the dream sequence helped but yknow.

more on dark might: it was funny that he was mafia too, weaboo ass mfer. i wish someone couldve called him cringe to his face. monologued more than afo somehow. the brief flashback to him killing his dad was cool but then he just came back as that shitty monster guy which was hmm. i wouldve maybe put that at the end ig? and not right before it. felt weird idk

fun facts my mom went to see cause i had an extra ticket and she was like oh i liked deku & the goku blonde (katsuki) but then she said her third favorite was the lady who got big (mt lady) which is funny simply bc mt lady is one of my faves so im glad her brief showing impressed my mom hahaha

she also hated endeavor on sight which was funny as well. she said it so bashfully too like 'oh i didnt like endeavor sorry' and im just like mom its okay he has a whole haterdom youre good. lol

she also liked the mouth villain at the beg. which was good taste cause that design fucked unlike the guy who had a quirk that made him into a cars character. lightening mcqueen ass im glad deku smashed u.

the after credits scene was like okay.jpeg. i guess it orientates u to the timeline. but the credit song is good so thats worth staying enough for imo.

all in all probably my least favorite movie but it was still fun and i had a good time!

[1d1195]

HIIII IM BACK ahh ive missed you, the wedding is over im soooo tired, i danced sooo much my feet are KILLING me but its whtvr it was fun, and i met a lot on new people who were just so sweet ! summertime is soooo ughh to me tho the days are too long and its wayyyy to hot😭

I READ SUNFLOWER, HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS the part where she asked for his business card and he was like ‘i’d give her my whole wallet fr’ HAHAHA I LOVE HIM

Harry wanted to tell her that he would give her whatever she wanted for as long as they lived and then in their next life too. But instead, he simply nodded and tucked her card safely into his wallet. OH MY GODDDD you write the yearning so well i’m about to pass away

He wanted to call her Miss Sunflower or something similar, but he had one neuron still keeping him sane and decided ‘love’ was more neutral than not. this is the sweetest thing in the whole world omggggg😭😭🤍🤍🤍🤍 jealousrry is a cult fav and you do him so well

i saw you said you went to see niall ? THATS SO AWESOME i actually met a niall stan at the wedding, they played a 1d song (what makes you beautiful, basic but classic) and ofc i was going CRAZYYYY HAHAHA and we got to talking abt our favs ahhh it’s so nice to bond over something like that and we were talking abt how awesome it would be if the band decided to do a reunion tour🥹🤍✨

i have a new song !! “i love you, im sorry” by gracie abrams she had a whole new album come out and i love it (there’s another one called ‘blowing smoke’ SOO GOOD) but something abt that song it’s just sooooo amazing. i adore the bridge.

how are you !! missed you so much let me know what’s new with you love youuu <3333

~🎶

Hiiii! I've missed you too! Sounds like you had lots of fun with the wedding! Nice you met new people! IT'S WAY TOO HOT. It's just starting to turn to rain where I am and it's FINALLY bearable being 20 degrees cooler than it was the rest of this week!

I truly think Harry would only make money so he could give it to his gf. Like he's just so whipped in my head. I pray that's true.

😭 you're so sweet. I def am a female writer writing a man but it's so fun to imagine him so GONE for his lady

"He wanted to call her Miss Sunflower..." that was ME who wanted to call her Miss Sunflower but I thought it was too close to Miss Wildflower and I didn't want to take away from that 😭🙄 very irritated with myself about it tbh hahahahahahaha

I'm glad you think I do jealousrry Harry well because I don't think I do. Or I think I do a really understated one and I never know/feel it's enough

I think it should be a law you have to play WMYB at a wedding. My bff that I go to all my 1D related events with and send all my 1D related tiktoks to have discussed that i would simply play all their albums as a band and solo at my wedding and everyone would just have to enjoy. It's so nice you got to bond over it! I think it's amazing how music and artists can bring people together! I actually dread them doing a reunion tour in some ways. Of course I would be ecstatic but with the way concert ticket prices are, I really don't know if I could do it :/ And I'm sure it would be INSANE to get them anyway. I would LOVE to see them together again, don't get me wrong. I think there were a lot of things they didn't get to have closure on from their abrupt-ish ending. I also think it's CRIMINAL that the Made in the AM album wasn't toured. But I don't think I would be financially able to see them and that makes me really sad tbh 😭

I'm loving "I love you, I'm sorry" !!! It's def got a vision in my head 👀 You were the best, but you were the worst. Relatable 😭 I love it! It's def gonna be repeated for a few days! 🤭

IF SHE'S GOT A PULSE SHE MEETS YOUR STANDARDS NOW. GO OFF QUEEN. I would go off the grid if I knew that song was about me. I love it! I'm going to make a summer playlist for sure with it on there!

Nothing new here. I went for walks this week and just relaxed a lot. I'm hoping to not stress myself out too much this summer. Other than that 🤷‍♀️ nothing much here. I should reach out to a lot of my friends that I don't see often. The one thing that's hard as a teacher is I have a lot more free time in the summer (for which I'm very grateful) but my nonteacher friends don't want to hang out on a weeknight to get dinner 😂 it takes up like every weekend! But that's a me problem hahahaha

LOVE YOU!!!! 💕

xoxo

[maybank-lover]

Too late

"Travis you have to get up you need to get ready for your game." I say and shake him awake. I've been living with him for a year. He thought it was easier for me to just move in with him. Then I started sharing a room with him for about a week.

I had taken him to dinner after winning his first game (not preseason). We had just gone to a little pizzeria. And while we were there we ended up confessing our feelings for each other.

He grabs my waist and flips over so that he's laying on top of me. "I don't wanna." He says like a child.

"but you have to" i say. I start to play with his hair and rub his back. He groans but after a couple he gets up.

"i'm gonna go take a shower." he says.

"I'll go make breakfast." I reply and get up heading to the kitchen.

I make him a some toast and eggs. After he was done with his shower he comes to the kitchen. 

"It looks delicious baby." He tells me.

"Thank you." I say and then my phone goes off. "Hello? Yes this is she. What? Ok I'll be there as soon as I can." 

"Whats wrong?" Travis asks me. 

"My brother broke his leg." I say grabbing my purse. "I don't think I be able to make it to your game, but I will try as hard as I can."

"Hey just make sure your brother is ok. His health is more important then coming to another one of my games." He tells me. 

"Ok Thank you Trav." I reply and then go to the hospital. That idiot is always doing something to get him hurt. 

I ask the front desk lady what room he was in and go to it. He's sitting on the bed and football is on. 

"I thought if you were going to miss Travis game you might as well watch it here." Micheal tells me. 

"Thanks bro." I sit down in the chair next to his bed and we watch the game. As we are watching we see Taylor pop up on screen in Travis booth. "Wtf?" I say. 

"Maybe she just really wanted to go and Travis let her come." Micheal says hopefully. 

"Yeah maybe." We continue to watch the game. I can tell that his mom was a little upset and so was I. As the game progressed I notice him looking at Taylor a lot.

"Maybe he doenst actually like me." I say a little sad.

"Im sorry sis. I can turn off the game if you want to." He says. I shake my head.

"Its ok." I say. "I might start job hunting. I dont know if I could see him again. Especially if he is with her. It would hurt too much."

The doctor finally comes in and examines him. He gets put in a cast.

After I take him back to his house I go to Travis’s. When I get in there and I see Travis pacing around the room. "Y/n thank god your here there is a reasonable explanation to why she was there." Travis tells me. "She really wanted to come to a game and all of my ticket were full and then your brother got hurt and I thought it would be a good opportunity to make sure she went."

"You didn't tell me though." I reply " I would've been less upset if I knew she was going to be there. Plus why were you looking at her like that." 

"Like what?" Travis asks.

"Like your in love with her." I say clearly upset.

"Baby the only way i look at her is with admiration. But you I look at you with love." He tells me. I blush a little bit.

"I'm still upset." I say. 

"I'm guessing you are so that's why I'm taking you out go change into something nice my treat." He says and I do as I'm told. I change into a red dress and do my makeup. As I'm about to curl my hair Travis comes in.

"You're taking forever." he complains.

"It takes me a while to get ready. I'm almost done though I just need to finish my hair, get my purse, and put on some shoes." I tell him. 

"I'll pick out some shoes for you." he tells me.

"Make sure they match." I say.

"Yeah yeah i know." travis says and picks me out some black heels. "So that you wont be that much shorter than me." 

"hahaha your so funny" i tell him with sarcasm. I finish getting ready and then we go to dinner celebrating his win.

[faretheeoscar]

Alondra!! sorry for taking long into answering!!

First of all I'm okay, I'm totally alive after that angsty dream, it just shook me and tear me up from the inside for like a whole week without being able to concentrate, but I think I'm fine... (?) Maybe my soul left the building (?) who knows!/j

Second of all you already asked me by message but I confirm it again here that of course you have my permission to add to your masterlist all the FanArt I send you for NVC! It's my honor really!

Third:

PETEEEEEEEEER MY SWEET BOY, IS THIS NON STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM EVER GONNA END?! I DON'T THINK SO JUST LOOK AT HIM!!!

Okay sorry for screaming lol

On the brief Miguel side of things because I'm gonna scream about Peter again i just gotta say girl... it killed me when I thought about Miguel noticing the small little details about reader in general, the scrunch on the nose it's definitely a self insert thing lol (and I'm gonna spoil that maybe and just maybe I've been doodling about that).

It gives me a sense of peace the fact that Miguel has found his place finally with someone, although I'm not saying that reader is just his whole world, I thought of her as his lifeline does that make sense(?) brings him to the ground and gives him comfort and that's why he's suddenly shaken up by the fact that he's feeling more and he doesn't wanna loose her and stops sleeping 🥺🥺🥺

Aaaand back to Peter...

PETER IS #1 FAN+SHIPPER+SUPPORTER+SIMP of Miguel+Reader I picture him like this meme trying to ease Miguel's nerves and tease him a bit lol.

No but seriously he's so supportive 😫😫😫😫He just wants what's best for her and her happiness and if Miguel can bring her that he's a thousand percent on board with them, also I don't think I included it on my writing but I remember Peter being nostalgic about the looks reader gives to Miguel, like she used to give to him similar looks and although he knows she still loves him even though he's gone, it brings memories to him about how he wishes he was the receiving end of those gazes, but he knows his time ended and now it's Miguel's turn to get that privilege.... (let me just go ahead and cry over this for a second)

SORRY IF I KILLED YOU WITH ALL MY PETER ANGST BUT AAAA!

I told you he was the main thing on my dream and he was going to lead everything and it was so freaking sweet, like just everything was perfect, i don't know how my brain managed to think of all that and doesn't even remembers what I had for breakfast, it's ridiculous insert sad trumpet.

And to answer this:

YES!! Exactly my thoughts, it's like his own little version of heaven, his projection of what was his love and his home while he was alive, so it doesn't changes, it doesn't need to change cause that was the moment he left, that was his own point of view, the renovations and layout is all part of reader moving on and sadly it doesn't involve him anymore...

IM GONNA CRYYYYYY

I'm sorry for being so angsty hahaha but I do think he sits there and does the usual things he used to do with reader, let me venture me saying that he even tries to celebrate her birthdays his own way there, or just imagine him baking alongside her on his paradise universe and blowing his own candles on his own birthday (?) AAAAHHHHHH

He keeps the traditions of the record player, the readings, everything.

BTW Alondra can I tell you that I developed an addition to Billie Holliday songs because of you? hahaha I swear you reconnected my brain in mysterious ways with this fic!!!

I'm so happy that you liked the art and enjoyed the little writing AU I did cause it means a lot to me too🥺🥺🥺 I'm so glad we bond by sharing this love and hiperfixation about this men (Peter and Miguel) and I can't wait for what's gonna come next!!!!🫶🫶🫶🫶

PROMISE ME MIGUEL…

*Warnings this is long just for being an explanation to my fan art drawing for Non Violent Communication fic of @greensagephase *

Apologies for any mistakes I might have made,I wrote this on a plane hehehe

So a couple of days ago I had this dream about Peter and Miguel meeting each other, keeping the to the canon of NVC in mind that Peter is gone (my heart aches for Peter and I’m having a full brainrot rn)

I can’t remember the full details about it so I’m gonna improvise a bit, but I’m general this is how it went. (in general the premise was that Miguel got to talk to Peter, it was in a dream, the same dreams he has with his family when Gabriel, his mom or Gaby come to visit him in his dreams.)

Cue the dream and the brain rot!

——————

Miguel have been tossing around all night, he have been getting conflicted about his feelings about you, how they started to develop which each passing day, at the beginning he was rely grant to even acknowledge you as his friend cause he was afraid of loosing you, but then everything changed, it’s been 2 wonderful years of what he thinks it’s the most amazing friendship of his life, there’s no one like you, he feels comfort around you, something he had only had with his family, and nowadays it’s not an unfamiliar feeling for him to consider you as the closest person he has in his life.

The thing is that recently his thoughts have been diverted in another direction, you both have been in certain situations that made his heart beat faster than normal, he has been noticing your smile, the way your eyes sparkle every time you look up at him, the way you do a little scrunch on your nose when you think and stick out the tip of your tongue when you are concentrating, his thoughts have led him to think to you in other ways more than a friendship, made him crave to be closer to you, to be more…

But Miguel is conflicted, he doesn’t want to risk the only thing that is a constant in his life, specially not knowing if you are maybe feeling the same thing that he is feeling, he knows something in the air has changed, he can sense it, but still he doesn’t want to put anything in line, that’s why Miguel has been distancing himself from you for a little, he has stopped pairing you up with him on the team missions cause he gets nervous that he’ll screw up and say something he wouldn’t, hell today he was so nervous to be around you that he has cancelled his Saturday dinner with you, and he’s not only nervous about how you might feel about him, there’s other thing that bothers him deeply… and it’s your past, he knows you have had your own hard journey to heal, and he has helped you in what he can first as a boss, then as a friend and now… he wants to help you with your heart, the thing is that, he has never ever wanted to insult Peter’s memory, and that’s what scares him the most about this situation, that’s why he has gotten in an anxious state when he is trying to rest, he tosses and turns on his bed, he has been like this for two weeks now, not even being able to sleep with your hoodie cause it causes him an amount of fear and guilt that he doesn’t know where it comes from, maybe it’s also the same insecurities he has also about thinking… no, not thinking, wanting to be in a relationship again.

Miguel is in front of his monitors this being another night when he tries to get this thoughts away from his head and as he distracts himself with job, but tonight his head is pumping, he hears a slight beep on his ears, the sleep depravation is getting to him, and he even feels that he eventually will pass out with exhaustion, think that doesn’t take long to happen as he suddenly feels his knees weakening, his brain quickly responds to it in a flight or fight situation and he hangs on to the closes surface attempting not to fall, but suddenly everything goes black for him.

Miguel opens his eyes and blinks but he’s not in his lab, somehow he’s now at your house, spread out on the couch, his head still hurts anymore and he feels heavy, there’s a soft hum on the living room, billie holiday plays in a very soft volume, the scratch of the record it’s soothing and helps him with the head ache, he feels his heart warming at the thought of being at your place again, but as he regains his senses he feels the couch, it isn’t the same couch that is now at your apartment, it’s the old one…

Miguel looks at the soft old fabric and touches it with his fingertips wondering what the old couch is doing there, he tries to sit down on the couch and he notices your apartment is also on the same configuration you used to have it, the old bookshelves are there, almost breaking by the weight of the books in them, your old pictures and not the new ones… something weird is happening, and it’s when he curses that he doesn’t have a spider sense to sense of he’s in imminent danger or to be able to read the room he’s in, all his worries get answered then a soft masculine voice comes from behind him.

“Oh hey there, you’re finally awake” Peter says as he looks at him smiling leaning on the pilar next to the kitchen.

That’s the answer he’s dreaming.

It’s a very vivid dream and he starts to be a bit insecure that something might happened to him just like when he saw his family, but this couldn’t be like that, cause why on earth would he be seeing Peter on his dream.

“Relax Miguel, you’re safe, you just passed from exhaustion, but you’re fine” Peter chuckles as he offers him some coffee and sits down next to him in the couch maintaining a safe distance.

“You…know me?” Miguel’s eyebrows furrows as he looks at Peter, he’s still not sure how he is in his dream or why does Peter knows him if it’s really a sort of apparition like the one he saw of his family.

“Of course I know you Miguel, you might think I don’t know you, but you’ll be surprised of how much I actually know about you” Peter chuckles and relaxes on the couch as he says that, as if he was talking to an old friend.

Miguel’s mind starts working a million miles per hour, if this is really Peter, if somehow he is really talking to him those that means that, have you really been talking about him to Peter? Of course maybe he could see you as he took care of you, just like his family did for him, just like Gabriel, his mom and Gabriela were in his dreams, perhaps he was in your dreams too. Miguel was pretty sure Peter was always looking out for you.

“Really?”

Peter nods his head and smiles softly at him.

“Yeah, you see, I look down to her, I protect her from here, take this as my own HQ and my monitors are that old tv over there” Peter jokes as he motions at the exact copy of his old apartment he shared with you.

“No, but in all seriousness, she has told me everything about you, she always talks to me when she gets the chance, when she leaves flowers at the cemetery, when she feels alone, when she dances in the living room…” Peter can’t help but chuckle as a wide and tender smile appears on his face, he of course has never stopped loving you, you were… are his everything and will always be,before he gets distracted more by the thought of you he shakes his head and continues talking to Miguel, after all he is here with him for something important.

“She always talks to me about your friendship with her, about everything you do together from the small little things like the morning coffees, to the big things like Christmas or new years celebrations, your missions, she is always so happy when she talks about you…”

Peter gives Miguel a knowing look that makes Miguel a bit uncomfortable for a second, it’s not his plan to intimidate him or anything, but he can’t help his playful nature.

“She has told me about your dinner weekly traditions, about the food you prepare for each other, the evenings talking and listening to records while enjoying cafe de olla and pan dulce”

This makes Miguel think, the fact that you talked to Peter about everything you two always do, from biggest things like the missions to the smallest things like your traditions of cafe de olla and pan de dulce shouldn’t really surprise him, cause he also tells his family all about them, when he speaks to Gabriel before going to sleep or when his mind drifts and he pictures another reality with his family there, where you are in there too, when he pictures a big family dinner and you two talking about the smallest of things as everybody gathers on the table to eat; in his fantasies he talks to Gabriela about the music and movies you show him from your universe, he talks to his mom about the recipes you share together, and lately he confides to Gabriel about his confusing feelings towards you. Miguel knows the sentiment of speaking to his loved ones about the important things in life even when they are not there anymore, so that makes him sure that you talk to Peter like he talks to his family, but the fact that you eagerly talk about him with Peter makes a small blush comes to his cheeks that he hides drinking some of the coffee Peter offered him earlier.

“I hope you don’t mind that I seem to know a lot about you” Peter smiles softly at Miguel and he shakes his head giving him a soft smile in return.

“Of course not Peter, and same goes to you, that I do hope you don’t mind I also know a lot of things about you either”

Miguel starts thinking about all the times you have shared information with him about Peter, when you have shared memories of your time with him while he was still with you.

Peter nods at him,.”It’s alright” he looks at Miguel as he sees that his mind goes somewhere else, he’s worried about being there with him alone, he knows why Miguel is here with him, he knows the purpose of his brief visit, Miguel is scared of feeling, scared of opening himself to love again, slowly lifting his walls up again, cause even though he has a lot of fears mainly about how you feel and how he doesn’t want to compete with your memory of Peter, what Miguel fears the most is that he doesn’t think he might be good enough for you, that he might be better keeping a distance between the two of you again, building up his walls regarding physical touch that he let slowly crumbled with every spark of electricity and comfort he felt when he got to touch your hand or feel the warmth of your embrace, even though you have showed him and told him that he’s everything and more you could ask to be better, to be happy, he doesn’t think he’s good enough even as a friend, specially cause of his latest actions on keeping distance from you.

“Listen, we are both here to talk about something important, I know how you feel, I know what conflicts your mind and let me tell you, despite what you think of yourself…You’re a good man Miguel”

Peter puts his hand on Miguel’s shoulder and let’s it stay there, his touch only wanting to give Miguel confort letting him know that is was a valid thing to feel, he sometimes felt when he was alive that maybe he wasn’t enough, but that was a thing that you always reminded him an absurd concept, you always told him, that it was enough for you two to be together, that what you only needed for happiness was to see him smile, same thought that always came to him, your smile, your happiness was the most important thing in the world for him.

“I couldn’t be happier with what you have done for her, how you have help her get through, how you changed her world upside down when you let her in the Spiderverse, im happy that you care for her, that you protect her and even more happier because she’s happy when she’s with you, she’s free, she has a confident, a friend to rely on, Im happy Miguel by the fact that she chose you…”

Miguel looked at Peter with big wide eyes, he couldn’t believe how kind he was being with him, but he couldn’t believe either that he told him that you chose him.

“What do you mean?” Miguel asks Peter hesitantly, and it only

“Come on man, don’t tell me you haven’t noticed that she also fell over heels for you,like you did for her”

Peter pats his palm again on Miguel’s shoulder in a friendly way to try to ease his nerves when he sees him getting tense, letting him know with that gesture that it was totally okay with him.

“The other day… she prayed… she was so confused about everything she was feeling and she reached out to me, at first she was scared when she realised what she felt about you, she was unsure about telling me, she felt a lot of guilt, she… well she prayed for hours, prayed for my forgiveness cause her heart aches to move on, although her head keeps on telling her it’s wrong, but her wants to open, wants to get a second chance to love, and she wants you Miguel, she wants to love you”

That statement gives Peter a small heart ache, not by the fact that you fell for someone else, cause he never wanted that, it was the last thing he thought about when it came to you, he knew your heart, how it could love so much and how you can be passionate, caring, sincere, your love is the purest thing he has ever felt and he’s happy that Miguel is probably going to experience it if you two stop playing and let yourselves feel, and that’s what makes his heart ache, the fact that you aren’t letting yourself feel again, that you think you need to ask for his forgiveness, it’s what troubles him, and that’s why he is also with Miguel right now, cause he knows that if he pushes him into the right direction and you see the man that is in front of you and how he cares for you that you’ll understand that is okay to love again.

“All of this talk Miguel, its for me to tell you that, I trust you, I’ve seen how you’ve helped her through the good and the bad, I’ve seen your relationship mix, morph and transform, how you both changed, and how you get the best out of each other” Peter keeps smiling softly at him, getting and immense amount of proud when he thinks how you have changed with Miguel’s help.

“Miguel I want to ask you a favour, remind her? Remind her it’s okay to love, remind her how it feels, how to open her heart to love again, stop dreading what you feel for each other and try”

“I don’t want you to feel guilty about insulting my memory, or to think you’re taking my place, it’s really not the case, I have never want anything more than to see her happy, to see her smile and finally move on, I trust her heart with you, and that’s why I need you to make me the promise to try, to let her know that feeling butterflies in his stomach again is valid, to feel the illusion of love and that her heart is gonna be safe”

Miguel smiles softly at Peter and nods his head, there’s been a weight lifted up his shoulders, he was so unsure of letting out his feelings for you because he feared to insult Peter’s memory, but now that he got his reassurance from the man himself, he could even start to feel butterflies in his stomach as Peter mentioned them, a small blush creeped towards his cheeks when he basically got Peter’s blessing to be with you.

“I promise I’ll take care of her Peter, take care of her heart”

That’s a promise that Miguel makes to Peter with all his heart, a sentence that he was afraid of saying out loud before, a statement he takes pride in now and wants to fulfil.

“I know you will…”

Peter gets interrupted by a soft voice, your voice calling for him, he can clearly hear it, as he looks around your living room.

“Seems like it’s time for me to go, cause your lady awaits” Peter smiles at the sound of your voice, a slight tone of sadness in his voice as he wishes he could go back like Miguel is going to be doing in a few moments.

“It was very nice to finally get to talk to you Miguel, I admire everything you do” Peter offers his hand to Miguel and shakes it gets up from the couch walking towards the bedroom of the apartment living Miguel alone but before he disappears he looks back at Miguel and adds something else.

“You both have a heart and a lot in your future, I can’t wait to see you…happy. Now, go get her”

When he opens his eyes again, he’s back in the lab, his head stopped buzzing but his eyes take time to get adjusted to the lights as he blinks, he’s on the floor and a soft warm hand is holding his face as you cradle his head on your lap trying to wake him up, your eyebrows furrowed and a concerned look in your eyes.

“Miguel, Miguel! Are you okay?” You sigh at the sign of him waking up, your nose scrunches and you try to get his attention to you. “Hey, Miguel, look at me, everything is fine…”

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And… scene! Hahaha

In my dream I just remember him explaining to me that he passed out from exhaustion and then everything got blurry as everything everything led somehow to a romantic confession and me finally getting to kiss him hehehe. 🙈🙈🙈

But yeah, how does this turned into me writing almost 3k words?! idk,my mind went wild, guess this is what happens when the brainrot goes hard.

Anyways Alondra @greensagephase this is just my AU, what happened in my dream, not pressuring or anything with his sort of spin off story of mine lol, hope you enjoy what my brain cooked about Pete and Miguel, but this is all thanks to you and your writing that I got to imagine this scenario 🫶🏼

Ps. I’m including as a bonus the silly expressions I was trying to do of Peter that led me to dream about this and then fully sketch him with Miguel.