#I CANT BELIEB

[theriverbeyond]

Eat Your Young - Hozier // John 1:20 - Tamsyn Muir // Through Me (The Flood) - Hozier

[00lettuxe00]

Episode 10 got me like

[nyupuun]

in space :)

[pinkpogiclub]

AND HERE COMES KASIA NIEWIADOMA WITH A STEEL CHAIR

[ikkosu]

Before I head off to beddddd, switching it up real quick👀. How does PHARMA evil doctor man fall in love.

OuhGHH !! Good night compy!!

I've been thinking about this a lot !! woohee a little ramble down below (a little bit gore-ish at the end!!)

(have you seen that one panel of pharma asking if CD was okay??? Oh gosh his expression melts me he's so soft)

(In my SSAU ehee )

Pre Delphi pharma would have a stable relationship with his human. It starts off a bit rocky because human doesn't like him that much. (His personality and all) and after a while they adjust to his disposition and boom colleagues. He's an ass because of his ego but he means well, like hes an actual sweetheart

But when he begins to spiral down. Most of the doctors kind of avoid him : (eh, pharma's having another cold day, he'll get through it) but human doesn't think that way.

Human is the only one who notices his mental state and he's kind of, well, flattered?. Because human is nice, they banter win him as usual (especially leeches the praise from human like blood)

But eventually their friendship becomes a little not normal and turns into a love-hate thing

Becaus when he starts spiralling down, extracting t-cogs and all, he's not always able to perform the crucial surgeries, so human is the one to take his place, and gets all the praise

He's impressed, but at the same time he wants to clock human with a beam rod. Pharma resents human taking all of his spotlight but what is he to do? If he stops, the hospital will burn down so he'll have to suppress that envy

Eventually that envy becomes infatuation when he realizes human is reading his medical thesis, following his footsteps, using his techniques (praising him alsthiugh he's never the one doing the surgeries!??!)

and he thinks 'more like delude' himself into thinking the human IS THE ONE infatuated with him,,,so yeah,,,,

Human doesn't even know what their relationship is. Pharma's always staring at them like he wants to gut them, and sometimes staring at them like he wants to devour them (in a,,,yk know 🌚 way)

Cue unhealthy pining that borders between I want to carve your insides out with my chainsaw, hang your organs on the wall and I'm going to lock you up in my habsuite and you are NEVER going out.

[nomadic-star]

10 amazing years of wandering! + a celebratory bonus oc x canon doodle below

[vrieseasees]

Move over Shimazaki... I'm giving Joseph's jacket to Mrs. Suzuki and she'll kindly give it back too! If you take it from her I'll murder your ass (ง •̀_•́)ง

[ttaibhse]

no way fr?

[pokeattorney]

ZINNIA FANS HOW WE FEELING

[curltee]

I will hyperventilate if Vox and Alastor duet will come up on-screen :`)

[silentalltheseyearsnomore]

I don't really want to tag this as I feel like I don't trust a whole lot of what is on this little app but a few follow me who I feel are authentic and relate to me so maybe I'll get lucky and you'll relate or have any idea wtaf happens with us lol

I am too exhausted to explain properly but... we have this thing where we get stuck writing. non stop. through an entire day, entire night, not allowed to stop for water or food or rest. only ever to our therapist of the time.

usually, in the past, it was always triggered by "confessing" (every single reason we are evil, that DID doesnt exist, that our history never happened.. every single thought we have.. etc, it was terrifying, we couldnt even stop to reach a hand out.) and we did a lot of work with our longterm therapist back then to understand what parts were at play, that it seemed very linked to some programming, but we never untangled it all. we saw the similarities of not being allowed water, not being allowed food, going insane, the feeling of spinning in circles, losing all realities, confessing, insanity.. etc... and it was always like breaking a spell. The second we managed to stop it, we saw it all clearly and couldn't understand how we were under such a spell. But trying to stop it felt like death. Because to stop it we had to believe it was a program and STOP. And believing, meant being even more evil, because it's not real. But once we did...we were okay. It was fucking terrifying.

But today we had similar in a different way. It wasn't about confessing but more.... trying to get every reality from every part on paper or not being allowed to send to our therapist. It would be a lie. And spinning in circles trying to explain and add another reality and another and another. And we thought eh this is just the product of a lot of fear, and a lot of parts all at once. But.... again we ended up a few seconds away from being unconscious from a faint from not drinking or eating, in the dark in a carpark after not stopping all day.

We also think we identified old sabotaging programs a past therapist noticed activate in us very often during therapy. But I just..

It's so hard to believe any of it is true.

Is this... does this sound at all not insane to someone?

[00lettuxe00]

Playing mouthwashing and they keep calling Daisuke an idiot… God…

[frogblab]

My hands were shaking the whole time i bought my tickets and VIP passes.

I can’t believe I actually have them and that he’s going on tour!!!!! And I will see him!!!! And get to say hi!!!!!!!!!

[bouquetofalliums]

something seems different....

[kawaiiers]

three out of five planned tofu week content done

[originemesis]

'it's a tough pill 💊 to swallow'

"SWALLOW DEEZ NUTS!!"

"-bAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-" Got'em.