#Haru's having his own It's Not My Fault moment lmao

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I'm going to sound like such a smartass but I'm glad I'm seeing more people express that "Huh, maybe this girl who has an entire song repeating to herself over and over again that her murder was not her fault meanwhile she-

portrays herself as a giant grotesque bug in her headspace with her victim, who she clearly still holds a high opinion of, being the only human in said headspace looking at her with visible disgust and fear,

Making this expression upon realizing what she just did

These being the lyrics that follow right after, having a moment of reconsideration

Before jumping back to trying to convince herself that she was in the right, because she put her trust in us to tell her if what she did was right or not, and the answer that came out was yes... That maybe, just maybe. She thinks that what she did...

Might have been her fault."

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I'm surprised people see Tadashi as the victim in his relationship with Ainosuke, when it's Tadashi the one who time and time again takes away Ainosuke's agency, without being able to see that he is throwing him unto unhappiness. I can't help but think that if Tadashi was not working at Shindo's house, Ainosuke would have maybe left or broke with the family. But he can't do that if he wants the relationship with Tadashi going on, seing how Tadashi is set on enforcing the family rules...

Hmm.. I def agree with the fact that Tadashi is not what most fandom makes out of him, my man (I mean, Adam’s man) is a 100% Slytherin. But I disagree with blaming him for this, after all the revealed info. The environment they were both raised in made their situation complicated.

I like Tadashi a lot, he’s probably my fav thing about this anime, bc he’s a dark horse, and I’m once again surprised, that so little ppl see him for who he really is, portraying him as an innocent puppy, which he is definitely not.

Now to why I think both Tadashi and Adam are victims of the dad and aunties in this situation. 

We can of course say “if only they told each other how they really feel...”, but like we can say it about any love story really. Every author knows it’s no fun. The truth is that yes, they both hurt each other, and yes, if they were honest about their feelings things would’ve been different, but as I’ve already wrote under that “toxic” commentary on YT, lets look at the whole situation from both of their point of views:

We know that Adam when he was little always treated Tadashi as an equal, he never ever thought of him as someone lower than him and after their fall out, the only reason for this “harsh” treatment (well, besides their confirmed kink) was that Adam tried to get a reaction out of him, so Tadashi would stand up for himself, bc Ainosuke got mad about Tadashi caving to his dad’s wishes and abandoning him, when he needed him the most. 

But now, knowing the fact that Tadashi was his dad’s secretary and was under his control, let’s see it from his perspective: Tadashi wanted to stay by Adam’s side, Adam’s dad implied that if Tadashi did say smth, he’s gonna be.. well, dismissed and they won’t see each other ever again. That’s what caused Tadashi to stay silent in that moment. Ainosuke instead saw this as a “he’s not on my side” thing, well, because. Tadashi won’t tell him his problem, bc dad and aunties control everything, so even if he does tell him, what a teen would do really? He didn’t have any powers back then to make his dad do anything. 

And that’s when it all gone to shit, since they both were hurt for their own reasons. It’s easy to say leave the family, but 1stly nobody explained to Adam still that he’s physically and psychologically abused by his family, he sees it as them “loving him” and sadly also loves them, bc nobody told him, that love wasn’t supposed to be like that really. He definitely feels that smth is not right and feels emotionally exhausted there bc of this treatment, but did he ever consider leaving? I really don’t think so. He feels obligated to be worthy of a family, who “loves” him.

Do you think, for example, that Akashi Seijuro hates his dad for what he did to him? No. Does he understand that he wasn’t at fault for what happened to him and that his dad instead of comforting his child after his mother’s death, who was his only safe haven, made everything worse? I don’t think he does. Like his mom gave him basketball, an escape from all that family’s obligations and strictness. After her death, it was the only thing left that brought him joy, but his dad ruined even that, saying that if he’s gonna be bad at it/lose, he’d take it away from him too. Does Akashi see this as emotional abuse? No, he sees it like “well, I have to be the best bc I was born in such powerful family, so if my dad says that I must be best at everything, then I must.”

I personally hate such parents a lot. To me it doesn’t matter if Adam’s dad didn’t know about aunties hitting his child. Like if he was too busy to notice this and have no time for his kid and made his childhood miserable, it doesn’t make it any better really. 

Same as with Akashi’s dad. Some are like “he was probably also grieving about his wife”. Emm? He was like this from the beginning, bc he treated Akashi not as his son, but as his heir. And yes, that’s different things. Same with Endeavor and Todoroki. Your child is not your post production thing.

2ndly they were too young, even if they knew about each others feelings and he didn’t feel obligated and told everyone to fuck off, they’d be on the streets now, but also Adam’s dad doesn’t seem like a guy who’d leave them alone really. Also eloping seems very romantic, but I don’t think it is, esp when you’re teens. Did you want him to sell some expensive watch and go live on Hawaii or smth? Bc finding a decent job there would be difficult at this age, esp with everyone knowing who your dad is. Chen Ke from “Antidote” survived bc he was 27 and had connections and some great friends. Adam was in high school, where would he go exactly?

Now let’s go back to now. Obviously all this time it didn’t even cross Tadashi’s mind that for Ainosuke he comes first and that he would throw everyone under the bus to make Tadashi stay with him. As we see at the end, he legit believed that Adam was planning to send him to jail and didn’t get that he said it just to shaken he up and that he knew who he’d set up for this from the beginning. 

To Adam obviously it doesn’t matter whether they’re in a quarrel or not, he would never him go. Yes, he’s mad at him, he’s angry and hurt, but Tadashi’s still the person he needs the most, he’s still the person who brightens his days, even tho he deliberately behaves like he annoys him. He always looks at him and looks at him and looks at him, but then hisses smth to hurt him. Bc he knows that he needs him, but he also hates that he needs him, bc he thinks it’s unrequited.

And that’s how their classic romance goes in hellish circles. No one wants to talk as usual. Adam is mad Tadashi is like that bc his dad turned him into a slave with no opinion, while Tadashi is scared that Adam would be taken away from him bc of his ugly family. 

Now I still think that no one and I mean no one can take Tadashi from Adam now, he is his precious. So my plan is... if Tadashi made aunties do smth against him or to get rid of him, aunties will go for sure. The problem is Tadashi still doesn’t get that he comes first, so we’re stuck in this hell still.

So anyways, my point is Adam’s heart basically sings “you got a hold of me, don’t even know your power” to Tadashi, but he doesn’t hear it, bc of his insecurities, the way he was raised and his status. But yes, he holds all the power. He’s both Adam’s sanity and insanity. No matter how cheesy it sounds he was basically his only ray of sunshine in the darkness, if you take it away, that’s what it leads to, that’s why Ainosuke-sama needs more ppl who care for him. I don’t want anyone to die next time, just cause Tadashi and Adam fought about where to put their new couch lmao. I’m kidding, but you know what I mean. And kill the aunties, pls seriously, we need to be free.

Also ppl need to remember that like lots of animes/characters are parcially inspired by some other animes/characters, also the chosen seiyuus are also very important, there are lots of stuff like jokes and references, that creators use, from characters being fully inspired by smth like “Assassination classroom” characters based on KNB, to little stuff like Levi dressed in Akashi’s uniform in chibi AOT bc Hiroshi Kamiya. Utsumi already said before stuff like she sometimes think of a perfect voice for the character and then fully forms him, we also know her clear love for sports animes. So yes, I doubt Tadashi/Kuroko thing is a coincidence and even tho someone was like “zone? is this knb or smth?” I was like no, zone is actually a common thing in sports, even tho most associate it with KNB including me, it’s not like its their invention, but there were things inspired by this for sure, and from other sports animes too and no, I don’t mean the basic sports anime tropes, I mean, like way too specific things, some character designes, too. And yes, Langa appearence and personality wise is a rinharu child for real, I can literally split his scenes in “that’s Haru”, “that’s Rin”.

That’s why I’ve said that this situation in fandom reminds me of Kuroko/Akashi situation a lot, bc same as here in KNB ppl for some reason automatically thought that Kuroko is this innocent sheep and Akashi is the wolf (but also like it was Akashi who chose to dress as red riding hood, while Kuroko was a wolf lmao), not even seeing who is in reality more dangerous and who can easily control who. It just buffles me bc it’s not some deep analisys really. I mean once again there’s a reason for the saying that the sub holds all the power over the dom. 

And like just bc someone yells or threatens ppl constantly doesn’t necessarily mean he is a psycopatic killer, and just bc someone is quiet and doe-eyed, doesn’t mean he isn’t. I didn’t think we needed to explain this to someone, but aparently we do?

And it honestly kills me just how superficially ppl are watching things these days. It really gives me war flashbacks to stuff like the last mdzs s1 episode, where ppl started to comment things like “how LZ can be so heartless” lmao. Or that anonymous ask “do you think haru misses rin?”. Like you don’t see thing at all? Grey substance no needed, while watching things?

P.S. I also would die to see Adam vs Tadashi race just bc I for some reason can bet all my money, that it’s the same situation as with Akashi refusing to ankle break Kuroko, no matter how mad he is. I just can’t imagine Ainosuke hitting Tadashi in the face with a board. Like 100% sure he wouldn’t even try tbh.

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fb manga lb - chs 90-95

I’m only going to be reading the manga up until this point for now, assuming that this is where s2 will end. I want to leave the rest of the manga for after the season ends so I still have something to look forward to during the break between seasons 2 and 3. With Covid, I’m assuming it’s going to be quite a while before we get the last season. So I want to enjoy this journey for as long as possible. If they end up going beyond this chapter, I’ll make sure to read further, but for right now I think this is a good stopping point, unless you guys think they’re going to adapt more or leave off somewhere else? O: 

We going into Kyoko’s backstory now apparently!

“I feel like imprinting all of her images into my brain, and forgetting everything else not related to her.” OH MY GOD. MY HEART?? This is peak romance. Kyo only wants to hold onto his memories of Tohru while he’s in confinement. 

Poor Kyo getting messed with lmao leave the boy alone

No, but... imagine how Kyo feels right now in this moment? Tohru has the DVD, the memories of Kyo in the play tangible right in front of her. I’m sure that Kyo is thinking of his future, of the fact that once he’s confined Tohru will never see him again, and having these DVDs will be a comfort to her. He doesn’t know that she’s trying to pursue a way to break the curse. So having this DVD, for Tohru, in Kyo’s eyes, is the best possible way for him to stay with her. I’m reaching, yeah, but that’s just how I’m choosing to view it rofl. 

He’s thinking about Kyoko I’m upset.

Kyo, sweetie... stop punishing yourself, please. You are allowed to be happy, you are allowed to wish to be with Tohru. You are allowed to think of her mother. Fuck what Akito told you. :( 

I can’t wait until Tohru learns that Kyo knew her mom. I don’t think she’d be the type to blame him for what happened to her. As it is, I don’t feel that Kyo had a ‘role’ in her death, anyway. He didn’t outright kill her. Perhaps he saw it, maybe he could’ve stopped it, I don’t know. But I don’t think it was his fault. Kyo has a massive inferiority and guilt complex (which is understandable after all of the abuse he’s suffered) and he’d blame himself no matter what, though.

Young Kyoko is something else rofl. But of course, she had a terrible past too. What awful parents. I think I can count on one hand the number of actual good or decent parents that this series has. 

Oooh is this Katsuya? He definitely looks like an older version of Kyo lmao.

This age gap though is kinda... yikes? I wonder if the anime will try and lessen it a bit. I don’t think they will, though, since it was mentioned that Kyoko never went to high school. 

Kyoko’s parents fucking S U C K.

GO OFF KATSUYA!!

I meaannn... marriage is so odd for a young girl Kyoko’s age, and it has a big “:/” factor, but...at the same time, if he marries her, she’’s no longer under her parents, and he can provide for her. 

Wow, she’s already pregnant with Tohru! O: 

omg baby Tohru is the CUTEST!

Katsuya was such a good dad though I’m upset.

Tohru was gonna have a sibling sfjsjfsjfjsfj she’d be the best big sister!

Oh this is just depressing. T__T

Poor Kyoko. She’s still so young, and is trying to grieve and raise a daughter.

omg she really was about to kill herself to be with Katsuya. T__T

Tohru is just the purest girl and I love her so much.

I love it so much that Kyoko told Kyo this story. 

Oh, Kyo, honey that isn’t what she was trying to say at all. :(

omg is he remembering?!

Oh, great, now Kyo’s hallucinating and suffering from ptsd. I hate it!

HE’S IMAGINING SOMETHING BAD HAPPENING TO TOHRU BECAUSE OF HIM IM OUT IM DONE ;A;

“Tohru, she.... she wouldn’t... to me... like me...” YES SHE DOES YOU ADORABLE IDIOT.

 “After seeing that dream, it means I can’t go near her anymore.” stop. Stop right there, bby. 

This hurts.

omg is Yuki involving himself in them cooking now too? I love it!

YUKI AND MACHIII YESSSS. I’m excited to see where they go!

Poor Machi. </3

Machi sees through Yuki’s walls in the same way that Kyo sees through Tohru’s. <333 And Yuki brings Machi out of her shell. 

omg she’s embarrassed lol 

lmao Kakeru getting protective + supportive at the same time hahahha

OMG KYO AND TOHRU ARE SLEEPING OVER AT KAZUMAS SJFJSFJSJF

Yuki is... going to the main house? I’m shocked tbh and nervous

LMAO YUKI AND SHIGURE ARE REALLY OUT HERE BEING KYORU SHIPPERS

KDGKDKG RIN IS HERE TOO!

hahahaha Kyo and Rin were jealous of each other’s relationship with Kazuma. XDDD

Poor Hatori XD

I don’t like that Yuki is visiting Akito. :/ Something bad is gonna happen. 

“I forgive Akito too!” .... uh...??? Yuki, honey, I really respect that. But I’m confused? 

AKITO JUST THREW A FUCKING VASE AT YUKI

“I definitely will not come back to your side.” Oooh. Was Yuki giving Akito one last indulgence? 

I love Yuki’s growth so much. Maybe it’s because of my own abuse, but while I am proud of Yuki’s capability to forgive, I know I couldn’t - because I still haven’t. And Akito hasn’t done anything to try and deserve that forgiveness yet. Also, Yuki is just shedding off the blame others had and taking it all upon himself which is... wrong. How he was treated by others, as a child, was not his fault. I hate that he feels he has to forgive Akito because he thinks he’s the one at fault. It’s okay to be angry and hateful of your abusers? 

OMG that scene between Hatori and Yuki was cute af though. 

“Kyo, you’re so cute!” IM

“Do you have any wishes for the new year?” I’m sad af.

Tohru’s wish is for them to break the curse!

Awww Rin and Haru are soo cute!

[cherubchoirs]

(anon idk WHAT happened to the formatting of this ask when i drafted it, it got...WEIRD...so i had to answer this way lmao)

MAJOR P5R SPOILERS UNDER THE READ MORE!

god yea that would have been such a good point to split over as well, given the different dreams and motivations of the characters because i mean…futaba, makoto, and haru ALL had parents brought back to be with them…not to get into It on main but i’ve lost a parent, very traumatically, and…that would be so hard to say no to, because it would be like you’re losing them all over again and it’s your fault. it would feel like they don’t matter to you, that your strength or growth or morals or WHATEVER is more important than their life, and even if you’re giving up some sense of justice, that feels so abstract compared to someone being alive again. like. it’s not for you in a way, it’s for them…and ann has the same dilemma, but in a different sense. shiho could be safe, completely unharmed by that monster, and so it’s not about ann and her morals or ethics, it’s about protecting shiho and taking that pain away from her. central to their wish is another living, breathing human being, someone that could be saved from a life cut short or from one of the most horrible traumas a person can endure. compare that to ryuji, yusuke, and morgana - i don’t say their wishes are lesser or should be downplayed in ANY way, nothing like that as they’re just as important, but they are more centered on themselves, making the decisions perhaps easier for them. ryuji has his mom to consider - if he gives up his track scholarship for reality, it could harm her in that sense, but she will live and ryuji is already determined to keep working hard for her in whatever way he can. for yusuke, his mom is also a factor because with madarame as he is in the dream reality, she truly did die in an accident and her work is recognized…but yusuke stated his mother wouldn’t have wanted fame or glory like that, and madarame will atone for what he did to her. the biggest weight would most likely be the other students though - if he returns to the true reality, those students will have been harmed once again, including the student that took his own life. that would be a heavy choice for yusuke, but they aren’t people central to his wish, unlike futaba, haru, makoto, and ann, and i think in yusuke’s eyes, he would view it as denying their own struggles and strength of character without their consent. finally, morgana’s is totally centered on himself, not in a bad way but it just means he has no one else to consider when he decides to return to reality. he’ll lose his humanity, but he’s already looking for a way to change on his own and nothing about this is life or death for him or anyone he cares for. (also i want to say again that i’m not minimizing the choice any of them have to make here, as all of their dreams represent how they can be happiest and they’re all severely traumatized kids that deserve that happiness, i just think what they have to weigh and consider are different between the two groups. it was heartbreaking watching all of them lose their dreams, no matter what that dream was because it truly was what was most important to them and all of their pain is just as real and just as terrible giving that up)

and it’s perfect that akira is the one that needs to bring the group back together - his wish was also for someone he lost to come back, but he stands firm in his conviction to return to the way things were, no matter that cost. i…really loved how this played out in game because i found that with the way i play and characterize akira, he always sided with goro and agreed with every point he made, including the point that he needed to go. akira loves him, but this reality isn’t right, it’s an insult to what they’ve all suffered, and he would never let it stand. this along with the fact too that he would never want to suffer the same fate that goro is, brought back as a part of someone else’s schemes to be used as some kind of bargaining chip, and so he totally understands and agrees with goro’s sentiments on the matter. but he would acknowledge how much that hurts, how shitty it is that they’re being forced to make this choice and honestly, it’s just some emotional blackmail on maruki’s part to make them feel as though they’re now responsible for losing their parents or making others suffer. what happened in reality wasn’t fair…but what happened happened, and it’s not their place to decide for the whole reality how they will live. because if they choose that world, yes they save their parents or their friends, but everyone will be under maruki’s rule, everyone’s struggles and everyone’s growth is robbed of them, and humanity remains stagnant, spied on, intruded on to the point that no one’s life is their own, and that’s the exact reason they fought against yaldabaoth. it’s not the world they promised the public or each other, and they cannot accept a future for themselves or anyone else crafted by a single person that would control all of their fates. because life is messy, life is hard, life is unfair, but that is life, and so without all of those things, they’re not really living. it would hurt him incredibly to fight against his friends and i think he would do everything he could to impress on them why they need to let this reality go (of course this is all from how my akira chooses, but i would also LOVE the desperation he would have fighting against the team that’s choosing the good ending. an akira broken down by grief and the unfair burden of leadership is always interesting to me, and i think the tenacity and the brutality he’d be capable of in those moments would be terrifying).

BUT OOF bad end for shuake here really does hurt…just the idea of akira becoming the one to betray goro is painful. to have goro place his trust in him like that, have him believe he’s going to follow through, and then to have akira turn on him just like he once did…i can only imagine what they might say to each other in that moment skdfdhg and as a little bit of a tangent on that, it just made me think of how i find it interesting that in the bad end where akira chooses to maintain maruki’s reality, goro seems…fine? happy? like he wants to be there and be a part of the group. it makes me wonder how that turn around happened since he is so sure of what he wants and it seems as though he would truly hate akira for choosing that path, but it’s probably that maruki changed his cognition just like all the others to not see anything wrong with this reality. it seems likely that goro’s wish is to be accepted and find people that love and care about him for who he truly is and, without his memory of how he came to be there, goro probably would actually be happy with the thieves. it gives him everything he’s ever wanted, to be surrounded by support and not having to hide who he is, but i feel that treads such a fine line of morality with maruki’s reality, more than many other parts of it. it is partly to grant goro’s wish, if i’m correct about what it is (i could definitely be wrong, since goro’s wish could just as easily be full autonomy given his character arc in the third semester), but it’s also so self-serving for maruki and for akira.

[murasaki-murasame]

Thoughts on Fruits Basket 2019 Episode 12: “You Look Like You’re Having Fun”

My brain’s still kinda fried from the Sarazanmai finale, so my thoughts might not be super coherent or detailed this week, but I still wanna write up my thoughts on this new Fruits Basket episode, especially since it was even better than I expected it to be.

Thoughts under the cut. [Spoiler warning for the whole manga]

I think I’ve said before that by this point we’re in the midst of a fairly good stretch of episodes where the reboot is going to be very similar to the 2001 anime in what material it covers in each episode, and that continues in this one, as I figured.

This episode covers chapters 19 and 20 of the manga, which is the same as what episode 13 of the 2001 anime covered, and from what I remember of that version, the two versions are pretty identical in how they just adapt the manga 1:1, so there’s nothing particularly noteworthy there. I think episode 13 of the 2001 anime was one of the relatively few times where I think they actually did a good job of preserving the emotional depth and darkness of the manga, but I still think this episode did an even better job.

I’m kinda meh about the whole first half [since I’ve never really been the biggest fan of the part of the manga to begin with, which I’ll get into in a minute], but the whole second half with Akito was fantastic. It had been heavily teased at in some of the PVs we’ve gotten, but it still managed to be even more disturbing than I was expecting. It’s not like they added in anything that wasn’t in the manga [aside from a short flashback to that one time Akito had a mental breakdown and painted Yuki’s room black, which I don’t think had been hinted at this early in the manga], but it just executed the material really perfectly. [Though I think the bit at the start of the episode with Tohru seeing Akito’s car pull up at the school might have been a new scene]

The improved voice acting and animation really help drive home the extent of Yuki’s trauma in particular. Even though this is like the billionth time I’ve seen this scene in some form or another, it still kinda shook me, lol.

This whole part also really goes to show how important Tohru is as a person to Yuki, and also to all the other zodiac members in general. She’s someone that’s willing to stand up for him, and to give him happy memories to help outweigh his bad ones. Especially with his whole monologue near the end, I think the badminton scene is probably where he first becomes at least subconsciously aware of how he’s seeking out a mother’s love from her.

Come to think of it, it’s kinda funny how recently we’ve been in a bit of a pattern of going from a fun episode to a more dark one, and so on. It’s not a complaint or anything. I think it does a nice job of not spending too much time in a row on a particular emotional tone. And that sorta pattern should hold up with how the next episode is gonna be Ayame’s introduction, and after that we should get Momiji’s backstory and the grave visit.

And on the note of Ayame’s intro being the focus of the next episode, I’m still curious to see if they incorporate the part where Tohru and Yuki visit his shop in chapter 36 into it, or if they’ll just stick to adapting chapters 21-22 alone, and leave that other chapter for later. I don’t think it’d change much one way or another, but still.

Anyway I guess I gotta address the elephant in the room and say that I’m just not really a big fan of the material covered in the first half of this episode. I don’t hate it, but I just don’t like it as much as like 99% of the fandom seems to.

For one thing, that one Tohru-Kyo scene has always stuck out to me as being a little too . . . generic shojo romance-y for my tastes. It’s one of those few moments where the series unironically indulges in Kyo’s Bad Boy Aesthetic [tm] and it just doesn’t work for me. But I obviously get why lots of people love it.

The part that I’m more annoyed at is the whole sequence with Haru and Momiji’s outfits, and I feel like it’s something that I need to add a whole list of disclaimers to so that people don’t misunderstand me, lol. I just feel like it’s a really good example of how Takaya’s heart is genuinely in the right place when it comes to some of the more progressive sentiments in the series, but the specific angle she approaches certain things at leaves a really bad taste in my mouth, especially when you think about the story as a whole and how things end up.

Specifically I just have issues with how Momiji’s cross-dressing is handled. The part with Haru is fine and I definitely appreciate the whole point of how whether or not someone wears jewelry and piercings and stuff has no inherent bearing on their personality, though the whole bit with him dragging Makoto off to the bathroom, uh . . . maybe hasn’t aged well, lmao. But anyway, I feel like the whole thing with Momiji seems perfectly fine on the surface, but the more you think about it in the context of the whole story, the more it feels uncomfortable.

The message that he should wear whatever he feels comfortable wearing is completely valid, but I just dislike how the story goes about it by saying that ‘it’s fine because he looks good in it, and he’s going to dress normally when he grows up anyway’. There’s a lot going on between the lines here, but I just think it’s really shitty and deceptively regressive that they justify it by pretty much saying ‘don’t worry, it’s just a phase, he’ll grow out of it and dress like a “normal man” later on anyway’. Which is bad enough on it’s own, but then we actually get to see him grow up later in the manga and he definitely does seem to unceremoniously switch to more conventionally masculine fashion because . . . it’s what’s expected of him, I guess? It’s not like he ever seemed to lose interest in wearing feminine clothing, he just stops wearing it after he hits his growth spurt, and it’s framed as something natural and inevitable.

Even the sentiment of ‘he looks good in it, though :)’, in the context of the series as a whole, carries this uncomfortable undertone of ‘it’s fine because for the moment he’s short and looks sort of “like a girl” but once he gets taller and looks more “like a man” he’ll obviously start dressing like one’. It’s the sort of thing that seems like a genuinely progressive and accepting message about how we shouldn’t judge people for the clothes they like to wear, but if you look closely there’s an asterisk and a whole paragraph of fine text at the bottom of the page about how it’s actually only acceptable to cross-dress as a man if your body type, height, etc, make you look ‘like a girl’ in the first place, and that once you hit puberty you should dress like a man because feminine clothing ‘doesn’t fit you anymore’.

In general this series has some weird recurring hang-ups about the specific idea of ‘men wearing girl’s clothing’, to the point where it comes up in different ways with at least three different characters. I know it’s something that a lot of people in the fandom don’t like hearing negativity and complaints about, but I’m not gonna shut up about this, lmao. Y’all just have to deal with the fact that this series isn’t perfect and that I’m allowed to criticize it while also really liking other parts of it.

And on the general note of how the series kinda drops the ball when it comes to pretty much everything to do with gender presentation, this episode brings us another round of the fun game known as ‘the Fruits Basket fandom is in shocked-pikachu.jpg mode at the fact that pretty much every new fan immediately “““figures out”““ that Akito’s a woman’. I wonder what gave it away? Was it that unavoidably female voice? The feminine/androgynous character design that’s explicitly compared to Yuki who’s already meant to look like a girl [apparently]? The fact that we’ve only ever seen Akito wearing either the sort of kimono that at least from a Western perspective would seem very feminine, or this tight-fitting turtleneck sweater? The fact that she’s had romantically/sexually charged moments with at least one or two dudes, which for better or worse ends up making most people view her as being feminine? The fact that like 90% of the dialogue referencing Akito ends up not even using gendered pronouns in the first place? I wonder what could have possibly lead to people naturally assuming that Akito’s a girl and glossing over the, like, five lines of dialogue thus far that even use he/him pronouns toward her, lmao.

One way or another, Akito being a girl has always been the biggest non-twist of the entire series, and the fact that it’s so obvious and that the only reaction new fans have to it is pretty much just ‘oh ok I didn’t really think it was meant to be some kind of shocking surprise or anything’ really just spells out how it’s not even meaningful or interesting as a twist anyway, and that knowing about it from the start does absolutely nothing to hinder anyone’s enjoyment of the series. It’s honestly hard to even tell for new fans that we’re even meant to feel convinced that Akito’s a man, with how little effort the series ever puts into ‘hiding’ her true gender.

I probably sound angrier about this than I am, but mostly I’m just baffled that even though the manga’s been over for like 15 years, people still don’t realize how incredibly lame and shallow this whole plot point is. Like seriously, y’all, what could the reboot have even DONE to actually lead to it not being super obvious that Akito’s a woman? Unless they outright changed her character design to be a lot more masculine, the only thing they could have done would have been to give her a male voice actor, which was almost certainly never going to happen for obvious reasons. I guess what I’m saying is that it’s not like it’s the reboot’s fault that things turned out this way. There’s only so much they reasonably could have done. And even though I haven’t heard much of Akito’s new dub voice, I think Maaya Sakamoto actually does a very good job at sounding androgynous/masculine, and in general her voice work in this episode was really effective and disturbing. I think she’s one of the most masculine-sounding female VAs they could have gone for [aside from maybe someone like Romi Park or Megumi Ogata, but I don’t know if they would have fit Akito very well]. I guess it mostly just bugs me that people are blaming the reboot for something that’s 90% just them following the manga.

Anyway, in spite of my gripes [which are more about the fandom and the series as a whole], this episode was still super good in and of itself, and had some of the most effective voice acting and music that the entire reboot’s had thus far. It’s very obvious why new fans in particular would really really like this one, and for the most part, I do too.

Also, Haru t-posing when he sees Yuki and running over to tug on his shirt is still the most Iconic [tm] thing ever, don’t @ me.

[mujehan-a]

talk about the relations of your muses with other muses ( brotps, otps, fwb, anything included! ), which you love to death!

— i assume you mean with other people’s muses and not other muses of my blog ( tho i have a lot of canons abt those too ) lmao okay lisTEN THERE IS...QUITE A BIT. these are just so brief tho...so if any interests you, feel free to ask about them more. under the cut bc there’s so much. i don’t want to constantly mention ppl in the post so if anyone interests you let me know

the ones you’ll notice a lot is ships i have with @plvnetarium​ ( lmao a majority is with her uvu check her out ).

daehyun/wonho

started as fwb but daehyun developed feelings he was unwilling to admit to

daehyun is REALLY afraid of feelings because he doesn’t like the feeling of commitment

but he fell in love with wonho and he’s really scared that he’s gonna fuck it up

he wants to be able to love but he isn’t sure how....asjnsdfhb

jongin/caelus

oh my fucking god

listen

caelus almost killed kai then didn’t and kai wasn’t happy so he hunted caelus down

and it was just hot fucks

until FUCK emotions....then they just got really emotional over each other

a criminal and a cop, okay???

hot office sex....in dark corners; kai looks like he’s been brutalized but really, just hickies and caelus is just a really PASSIONATE lover

they broke up and jongin cried his eyes out...

they also have a lot of personal issues....lmao

rowan/luna

okay, these two...are so bros

they love to taunt caleb together or at least, rowan thinks luna likes to watch him taunt caleb

caleb fucking hates rowan

wonho/haru

shit

wonho hATES IT WHEN HARU IS STANDING

bc he’s short af and haru is tall af....want to fucking smack haru

makes him sit and it’s hilarious but cute???

wonho just has a height complex

taewon/hyuk

maknaes on top bros

taewon is learning how to be an evil maknae from hyuk ( lol )

if given the chance, the hyungs stand no chance against these two

taewon ( despite being victim to a lot of wonho’s pranks ) can be a force to be reckoned with

archer/hyuk

it’s been a while since i visited this ship lol

it happened spontaneously

but it’s cute??

lol sex in the locker room, mundane things !!

like...

just spending time with each other on down times uvu

shiori/pluto

shiori cried over pluto’s injuries and pluto made fun of him lol

jk, but like wow

it’s so cute??? like shiori’s just so scared of catching feelings but he caught feelings for pluto

and was like “i can’t” and left pluto

then regretted it for-fucking-ever

came back...

pluto would get hurt to get shiori’s attention lmao, shiori hates it

not anymore

pluto always has 100% of shiori’s attention

they’re always trying to get the other turned on...pluto wins a lot

jisoo/jae

the TRAVELING PAIR !! i think

a pilot and an immortal who’s traveled the world

arranged marriage that may not turn out so bad??

jisoo thinks jae’s v interesting and cute uvu

luhan/yifan

so this may have been a bit of a crackship lol

it hasn’t really carried over from @scapegoatisms

but it was a...really interesting one

that luhan actually caught feelings for yifan in their little fwb relationship

dabin/yukwon

yukwon loves the dog more, dabin just stopped giving a fuck

but really, he’s hurt by it

he won’t say anything tho...

he can’t hate the dog

he doesn’t want to blame yukwon

this was probably his own fault tbh

dabin/teno

ANGST

on both their parts bc they hate sharing and so they all suffer alone

and everyone around them can see it

teno almost died and dabin’s angry abt it...

dabin and teno are parents for x-out tbh

carina/titan

supersoldier power couple

the two would kill for each other ( and the team )

titan lost carina once ;; and carina would rather she die than watch her friends die

they love each other so much?????

they were also v chicken about confessing so when she ‘died’, it only confirmed their feelings for each other.

carina/janus/titan

best friends uvu

three musketeers of the alpha team

they’re v close with one another

without janus, carina probably wouldn’t have ever confessed tbh

riley/janus

the persistent one vs the stubborn one

riley is afraid of getting hurt so he shoves janus aside at the beginning

but janus is persistent and knocks down riley’s walls

btw - janus breaks riley’s heart...

what’s it with breaking hearts with me and angel and our ships...

almost all our ships have broken up at some point in their relationship....

hyesung/hanbin

fell in love with her idol

an unlikely relationship lol

hanbin ended up in front of hyesung’s apartment ( she was a stranger at the time ) and passed out in her bed...

they exchanged mixtapes and are only just confessing to each other

barry/shin/takuto

SCIENCE BROS

okay but takuto ( shin’s son ) savages barry at any time possible

shin does it too

save barry

but they care for each other A FUCKING LOT

sachi/astra

they hated each other -- more like sachi hated astra’s guts bc he’s annoying and distracting

but she starts to realize her kitchen is just so EMPTY without him

like it doesn’t feel complete without him around???

asksdfjh

yongho/aries

another ship that broke up then got back together

lol

at first, it was v abusive and yongho was just being used

so when yongho finally woke tf up and dumped aries, aries also woke up

yongho couldn’t really leave aries behind?? like aries was the only person he’s been with seriously

and like, he’s seen aries at his SOFT moments when he wasn’t being struck...

aries changed for the better and went to ask yongho to give him a second chance uvu

they both needed the time to heal and come to terms with themselves

aldus/johnny

so cute?

idek how to really describe this

there was a special connection, albeit i haven’t written much of it

for them, silence is golden but it was better for each other

bc when johnny became a vamp, his hearing got really sharp ( as he was deaf before )

and aldus’ voice was v soothing??

andy/europa

princely couple / rich couple

scared the waiters / waitresses a few times fighting for the bill

honestly, that’s the only thing they fight about

but also love issues???

andy doesn’t want to get hurt but he gives and gives and gives

europa on the other hand is distrustful...ish

but andy is willing to just give his everything to europa???

visual couple, okay?? have you seen europa’s fc ( sf9′s rowoon )

casper/wren

ATLA AU

THEY BOTH LOVE ANIMALS???

haven’t written much but like wren and casper are just so in love with animals and they’ve developed this bond over them

uvu

even in atla au, they have an animal shelter together

victoria/briggs

kingsman bros

they also complain to each other about their idiot coworkers who make their lives harder

drinking buddies

honestly, they can be so badass together

rollo/hyperion

he bribed her with food lol

actually, it started with a fight; like he tried to kill her employer

then SHOCK !!  she can feel his toUCH???

their relationship is just so intimate and based on touch?

they’re also super in tune with each other, they always know what’s going on with each other, even when apart???

julian/briggs

merlin was a douche

put the two people who can’t really do emotions together

told briggs to teach julian emotions and social etiquette

and told julian to teach briggs how to shoot

bonded over the fact that they hate their new ‘mission’

intak/shinwoo/jun

poly!!

stared with just jun and intak’s denseness / refusal for emotions

actually, the entire thread that started it was v cute and i loved it

intak’s slow discovery that maybe it’s okay to open up to jun and shinwoo

so he’s this emotional and vulnerable person with them???

but also like...he’s discovering all these new things

so like a kid in an amusement park, his eyes just sparkles whenever jun and shinwoo brings him to places he’s never been

there are so many more..

aldus/corvus ( i think i have a lot more ships with angel than i’ve listed here tbqh )

taewoo/siwon

taewon/seongwoo

esther/mingun

junha/myou, odessa/myou, daehyun/myou ( lol )

vita/briggs, vita/hiro ( i might have gotten the name wrong )

[aiimaginesbts]

Top Ten Bias Tag

I got tagged by @whoatheresparkie to do the top ten biases challenge. Although I listen to a variety of groups, I really only stan two at the moment cause when I stan, all my money, time and energy goes into loving them - so I can’t afford to stan too many groups. The groups that I stan are BTS and Arashi, but since this is supposed to be a kpop blog I’m keeping Arashi out of this and include members of some other groups that I like :) 

Before I get to it, I’m gonna tag @lycanhaejin, @sunshinehobi7, @kook-tae, @angustdissin, @baxngtan, @bangtaninspired, @baebae-goodnight as well as anyone who wants to share their biases with me!

10. Dong Young Bae (Taeyang)

Big Bang was the first group that got me into kpop during Haru Haru and Lies. I don’t follow them much but one of my roommies is a VIP so I hear about them once in a while from her hehe. What I like about Taeyang from the get go is his sweet face and great voice. He seems to really love his girlfriend too, and I find that really cute!

9. Jung Yong Hwa

I got into CNBLUE when I’m a Loner came out, and I listen to some of their more popular songs but that’s about it. I really like watching Yong Hwa in Running Man, he seems like someone I’d enjoy hanging out with!

8. Kang Daesung

Although I’ve always thought Daesung has a nice voice and all, he caught my attention when I watched Family Outing. Jaesuk is my favourite member, of course (I love that man, if I can include him here I’d put him at #1 haha) but Daesung is definitely the second. Their dumb and dumber routine never gets old for me!

7. Kim Taehyung

Taehyung is the only member of BTS that I’ve never crushed on. I don’t know why. However, I’ve always found him cute and his antics never fails to make me laugh! And let’s not even start with his deep voice... it gives me goosebumps (in a good way of course).

6. Park Jimin

Confession time: Jimin is actually my first bias back when I didn’t know anything about them. He’s just so hot, especially when he dances! Then I watched a bunch of Bangtan Bombs, discovered that he’s an adorable mochi, is way too young for me, and the hyungline with their macho-ness marched in and demoted him to the rank he is now... sorry Jimin, but you were my first!

5. Jeon Jungkook

Okay, so I am currently in a love-hate relationship with myself over the growing amount of feelings I have towards this not-so-fetus-anymore. Why does he have to be so good at everything, become so handsome and hot, and to top that, still be goofy and laughter-inducing?! You’re the same age as my younger brother! Although my brother is pretty good-looking and also good at most things, so... Just damn you, Jeon Jungkook.

4. Min Yoongi

I suppose I have a thing for guys who are tsundere? I don’t know. Yeah, I do. Yoongi’s I-don’t-give-a-fuck mirrors mine, although he’s more hardworking and driven than I will ever be, a trait that I admire a lot. There’s also something about a rapper’s hand movements that weakens me, and although he can’t beat Sho Sakurai’s mesmerising hands, he comes pretty close!

3. Kim Namjoon

Okay, let’s see... what do I love about this man? Let’s try everything. To his smile, cute dimples, towering height (I love me a tall man)... but the reason why he’s so high on the list is definitely because of his intelligence. Not just the fact that his IQ is like 10 whole points higher than mine either. It’s the way he reflects upon things, accepts his flaws and mistakes to improve himself, which is something that I try my best to do myself, so I relate to him a lot in this sense. I have friends like this and we can spend hours just talking about the meaning of life (instead of empty gossips and complaining about our lot in life, although we do that once in a while), so I can imagine Namjoon being that sort of person and I hope he has friends he can talk to like that too :)

2. Kim Seokjin

Jin! Despite his good looks that I noticed right away (who can miss the 3rd guy from the left lmao), it was only after watching many of their videos that I started to like him. He’s handsome, and he knows it, but unlike many good-looking people, he is forthcoming with his faults and doesn’t shy away from consciously making a fool of himself. The trait that I admire most about him is that he is able to laugh at himself - something that I struggle to do. He really makes me want to make sure that he is loved.

1. Jung Hoseok

My sunshine! I am extremely drawn to happy, bright people. Although I can never be sure how much of his cheerful demeanor is put on for our sake, the fact that he is happy and upbeat most of the time makes my heart go out for him. I hope that off-camera he is able to be as happy as anyone can be and I never want him to experience any sadness (but that’s inevitable). Usually people like Hobi prioritises others’ happiness above his own so I hope that people around him takes care of him well. A man who is sensitive to others’ feelings is so freaking rare. Also, he’s my second favourite dancer ever (after Ohno Satoshi, that man can move faster than a machine, so quick that his backup dancers can’t keep up) and I watch his Hope on the Street so many times, I really hope there will be more in the future! There are many other reasons why I love this man but I’m aware that this is starting to turn into an essay, it’s past midnight and I should stop. I love him so much though!

[bigbrothermatsuoka]

Ina-chan~ Can you do the love love asks about you and Rin and your relationship? I wanna know more! :D

E-Eh?! M-Me with Rin? W-Well I can try! Considering how some of the asks doesn’t have relationships. Since you require all of the questions, I’ll try my best to answer all of them!

Me: Instead, I’ll just having him next to me as I answer the questions

Rin: hello, my name is Matsuoka Rin, my name has a girly name but I’m actually a boy–

Me: I didn’t say to do your intro, buT SINCE YOU ASK I’LL LET YOU DO YOU

Jokes aside, some of the answers can be very personal so I’m leaving them under the cut to let ya’ll read.

Blush : What do you do when you have a crush on someone?

Me: I usually stay quiet when I do. the reason why I stay quiet, mainly because I wouldn’t be so sure if I really do have a crush on someone or not. So if I can hang out with them or get to know them a little better, the feelings vary from there on out.

when I’m alone with my crush, I can be very talkative. I would feel extremely awkward if the two of us remained quiet, so I usually try to maintain a good conversation, just in case if things start to die down.

Rin:…so that’s why you couldn’t stop talking that one time.

Me: Y-Yes…. >////

Kiss : What’s the sweetest thing someone has done for you? 

Me: Sweetest thing? Probably someone buying me anything really! or treating me as well. I don’t get a lot of affection or special stuff so yeah!

for Rin, I think just being an inspiration in my life is the most sweetest thing that he would do. No one in real life was able to make me stand like I am now so I would really thank him for that. .////.

Rin: Really? I’m glad to hear that. *smiles*

Me: *Thinks to myself* AAAAAAAAAAA AA  S TOP S MILING SO SW EE TLY—

Cuddle : Which one of your mutuals do you really want to hug right now?

Me: all of them~ if they let me ;w;

Rin: I’d let you cuddle me if you wan–

Me: AHAHAHA…A. THATS OKAY… *sweats nervously*

Heartbeat : What fictional character do you love?

Me: ME??? ? ?? IN LOVE??? I DON’T HAVE—

Rin: Oi, take a look at this picture I just took of myself,

Me: *looks into the camera* okay i lied bECAUSE I CAN ‘T DENY THESE I JUST LOV ET HEM

Rin: huh? Who are you saying this to?

Romance : Perfect date?

Me: I would love to go somewhere for dinner and just walk around the park during the night sky. I’m a night owl and I just adore star gazing!

Rin: Funny you mention that, because I tend to do the same for you.

Me: H-Huh? Y-You don’t have to, if it’s just you, then I wouldn’t mind doing whatever you wanted to do.

Rin: But what if I said I wanted to take you out for dinner and walk around to look at the stars~?

Me: …F-Fine you win >////

Joy : What truly makes you happy?

Honestly, I think having close friends make me the most happiest person alive. That, along with Rin Matsuoka and Rei Ryugazaki for many reasons, they are just so important to me and are the reasons why I’m moving forward today….

Rin: Ah, I’m glad you feel that way about me. I can somehow understand your pain because what got me back up was Haru and the others.

Me: Yeah…them too but you and Rei…just stood out to me the most.

Rin: Really now?

Me: *nods shyly* I’ll explain later…

Happiness : Who are your kin?

Me: LMAO I dunno what a kin is so I’ma skip OTL

Love : Are you, or have you been, in love before?

Me: *looks around to see if Rin is in the room then tries to speak as quick as possible* Sadly I have, but usually they fade away, probably because I know how to deal with getting over things so easily even though for friends, I have a hard time letting go //BRICKED. However, with Rin…I can’t seem to get over him no matter how hard I try. He, along with Rei have a big impact onto my life and I couldn’t have asked for a better inspiration.

Rin: *comes back from the bathroom* What I miss?

Me: A-AH! Nothing! Moving on!

Beloved : What do you love the most about yourself?

Me: There’s not alot really, but if I had to say something it would probably be either the way I sing or how my hair is.

Rin:….so you do care for yourself!

Me: I-I SAID IF RIN!

Sweet: Favorite love song?

Me: TOO MANY TURIEFYDSJOA if I had to describe what song would be for me and Rin, it would most likely be Hello by Lionel Richie call me cheesy but I can relate every time I think of Rin >///

Rin: *comes from the kitchen with snacks* He got you snacks.

Me: A-Ah! Hey! And thanks.

Cute : What’s your aesthetic?

Me: *sweats nervously as I look into my kink list* Lets just skip that >.>

Rin: What’s that on your hand?

Me: NOTHING MOVING ON!!

Thoughtful : If you could change your name, what would you call yourself?

Me: Honestly, I really love my name. I never really thought about changing it one bit because of how unique it is.

Charming : Who helps motivate you?

Me: *looks at the question and turns to Rin* He Rin I’m thirsty can you get me some water while I’m fishing the questions?

Rin: Ah, okay. *Walks off to get the drinks*

Me: *sighs deeply and answers* R-Rin and R-Rei >/////

Beautiful : Who is your ideal significant other? 

Me: For a significant other, I wish to have someone to be determined and passionate towards something that he would want to do. I also want a person that’s can support my dreams while I support his. At the same time, I also want him to be very understanding and loyal as well. Having someone understand you is like finding your other half. Lastly, I wish for a guy that has emotions. Having to always be stoic and act “manly” Isn’t my forte. At the same time it would be nice for him to tease me every now and then

If there was someone that had most of these traits, it would be Rin and Rei.

Rin: Hey, I’m back *Hands out water*

Me: H-H-Hey! Thanks! *takes the water*

Affection : Who do you ship?

Me: Depending on the fandom, I haven’t shipped anything in a while but my current ship at the moment would be Shigure x Nina from Fire emblem. 

JUST RECENT: I was just done looking at Dangan ronpa V3….and I have another ship…but I won’t say because it’s a spoiler for those who haven’t watched it yet!

Kind : What Pokemon would you be?

Me: GODS….THERES SO MANY OF THEM IDK WHICH ONE I WANNA BE…..probably a blaziken

Rin: Blaziken? Isn’t that a fire type?

Me: Y E S

Heart Beat : You’re getting coffee with a celebrity, who is it?

Me: Tops down Amy Lee. She’s one of the most inspirational singers I know and I wish to someday sing just like her…even though my voice might be fading.

Rin: If you wanted to sing that bad, why don’t you sign up to auditions and perform on stage?

Me: I have thought about doing that Rin, but I don’t like the idea of having your own life be exposed for others to know about. It’s like you’ll never be safe if your ever famous ya know?

 Rin: I see, thats reasonable

Giggle : Do you believe in love at first sight?

Me: Maybe? Not really? Who knows, I don’t think I ran into anyone within this situation though. Probably because I’d like to get to know them better.

Laughter : Who can always make you laugh?

Me: Honestly, my friends. Each time I joke around and say lots of things to them, they all know how to brighten my day or make the worse thoughts go away. I would be pretty much dull and alone if it weren’t for having the best of friends.

Rin: Like that one time where Nagisa wouldn’t stop bugging Rei about his personal belongings and how they went missing?

Me: Exactly!

Smile : What do you find attractive?

Me: Probably a guy that is tall, determined, passionate, dedicated towards what they like–

Rin: Me?

Me: RUIEHSDJOJF SHHUSHHHH!!! *blushes*

Warmth : What is your happy place?

Me: Anywhere where I can have some alone time. Normally I’d say my room but my dad has been on and off at my lately to the point where I can’t find my happy place anymore.

Huggable : What are your favorite flowers?

Me: I love Roses~ Their just so beautiful!

Rin: *Walks in holding out a bunch of Roses*

Me: UIORTHFERIOFHRJFH Y-You didn’t have too Rin >////

Soul Mate : Who is your best friend?

Me:I have alot of best friends, but there a few that I believe that deserves to be acknolege.

Real life: @lostpirika @moonlitcritter and one other in real life.

Online: @nymvee @momokitty27 (That’s you~!!) the rest are on skype but not active on tumblr so ouo

Rin: These friends mean alot to you huh?

Me: Yeah, whenever I have them, I feel like I’m unstoppable…

Rin: I see, just like how I felt with Haru and the others

Unique : What qualities do you look for in other people?

Me: Wasn’t there a similar question like this?

Rin: Ah, I think their asking for in general, not as a lover..

Me: Oh that makes sense, I guess people that can have all the patients in the world and stand by my side no matter what happens in the world. I also would love for people to be honest with me. Within the past, I’ve had certain friends that didn’t believe in me or be honest with their words which makes me question almost everyone in the planet if their telling the truth or not. Which leaves me into having a final quality

Trust and lots of support. About a month ago I lashed out at a friend who was telling the truth to me. but I didn’t believe her because I felt like she was lying. Which made me feel that I failed to notice the people who truly care for me.

Other than that, I’m pretty much chill with hanging with alot of other people.

Trust : Do you trust people easily?

Me: This question is very difficult to answer because alot of people I’ve faced within my life have lied to me many times. If I had to tell the harsh truth. No, I don’t.

At first, I’m pretty open to everyone, but lately, I’ve just been pushing people away because I’m scared that I’ll just get hurt again. This feeling was just recent, and it’s has a personal reason that I’m not ready to share.

Rin: That sounds harsh, I’m sorry everything didn’t go too well.

Me: Not you’re fault, honest!

Dearest : What item is most dear to you?

Me: Item? Hmm…

Me: Any gift that a friend gives to me is always something dear to me.

Rin: Like thoese Rose I gave to you earlier?

Me: UIRHOJI R I N

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Okay, I’m just doing this once, to link it to all the idiots who exist in the future.

Dear Makoto fans (cause I don’t know other Rin haters out there), I’m gonna try to explain it as simple as possible. 

If the video is titled “Rin & Haru”, it is most likely surprisingly is about Rin and wait for it, cause you won’t believe it... Haru. So if you hate Rin and you see a video, which title contains “Rin” AND there’s an actual Rin on the thumbnail

maybe (but that’s just me going crazy here)... maybe you shouldn’t look for Makoto there. Cause I don’t believe they look similar.. but I might check my eyes just in case later.

So for all the pals like this one:

(and there was a bunch of others that I’ve muted), if you have two brain cells left, please invite them over for a minute here.

1. It is not my fault that my video reached over half a million views and got into Youtube recommendations. I’m not responsible for no your recommendations, no mine. Youtube recommends me all kind of stuff, including Ikuya vids, for example, cause they’re also related to Free!, doesn’t mean I have to watch them.

Like you won’t believe it, but not only the “I don’t wanna watch this” button exists there, but there is also such a crazy possibilty as to NOT WATCH YOUR NOTP VIDEOS (and YES IT FREAKING EXISTS!). You do it by not clicking on the vid and just, well, you know, not watching it with those two thingies on your face thats called eyes.

Also thanks for being my biggest fan and all, but there’s really no need to go through all of my vids, if you don’t even like this ship. Cause I kinda considered to take it as a compliment for a moment there. But this amount of free time honestly can be used to create your own content that actually includes your otp. Just saying. 

2. Breaking news here, but just because Rin makes your ship invalid, doesn’t mean he’s a bad character. 

So let’s just all hate him for much more “obvious reasons” like:

- being a great brother:

- being a great son:

- being a great friend:

-being a great boyfriend:

- for working hard to get where he wanted in life and for fighting for his dreams:

I knoooow right? I hate dat perfect bitch, too, but there’s really no need to be agressive about it. You can instead try to do all these beautiful things, too (it’s very hard tho, but believe me it’s really worth it) xD

Like instead of watching a video about Rinharu, whom you hate or scrolling through their tag, try maybe cooking your mom a dinner for once or smth. And I know that to your part of the fandom having life goals is very offensive, but maybe you should try these, too.

Or like maybe watch a 10 minutes Chloe Ting challenge vid and spend few minutes doing this. I mean that’s how I got my sexy abs, after watching Harurin perfect bods xD I mean, all better than bindge watching your notp vids.

3. For tumblr haters. There’s actually such thing as blocking a tag on tumblr. Like “Free!” is a mutual tag, but if you block “Rinharu” tag, you won’t see my post even in the Free! tag. I mean, yeah, tumblr mulfunction sometimes, but in general it works. If the malfunction happens, just scroll past it. 

Cause I’m just kinda already reconsidering my respectful non tagging “makoharu” and “makoto” policy (and mind this: I only talk about those when I’m asked), cause what’s even the point, if 90% of your fandom are idiots who search and post in “rinharu” tag anyways and apparently hanging out on my blog a whole fucking lot.

I mean, I’ve been in some ugly fandoms, but I seriously have not yet seen this much disrespect to the other side, who doesn’t even touch you. Like have you not calmed your tits yet? Even in 2020? I’m really asking you to, please, reconsider this and stop embarrassing those two nice people if they’re still there. Because I’m really close to not giving a shit in return.

4. About anonymous death threats. I have a guy, who fixed my computer, who can track those. Most times I really don’t care and just block, but what if one time I’d have lots of free time or get drunk or smth..? Cause he offered once to do it just for fun xD

5. If you want to shit so much that you just can’t help it, shit in YOUR tag. Like we don’t go there, we don’t see it and you can vent if you need it this much. 

You do not post Rin hate in his tag. If you do not get it, it’s the tag for his fans. And no, “I hate him, cause I ship MH” is not a character study. 

P.S. DM me if you need any help with “how to not go on you NOTP tag”, cause I’m such a genius, I actually know how to do this, too (lmao).

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I mean yeah, Haru is amazing, gorgeous and all that, but have you even seen Rin? xD Sorry, I'm just joking, but seriously I love him to death, I love Rin even more than Levi, really. I can relate to him in every way possible and he's actually my role model, like... I want to be like him. Dude just saw a boy, fell in love, went to his school and made this boy love him back. And then he went to the different country all alone to persuit his dream. Mind blowing

“dude just saw a boy, fell in love, went to his school and made this boy love him back. and then he went to the different country all alone.” lmao 

haha but seriously though, Rin is incredible. I mean, he's the one who makes his own life and my favorite is that he actually never blames anyone for his mistakes and losses and doesn’t feel like anyone owes him anything. It’s such a great quality, that many ppl lack. Most people are like “well, I know can’t do it, so I won’t even try” or “well, someone’s better, so why trying” or “it someone else’s fault, I’m like that” lmao no, it’s your choice actually, what you want to be in life.

And he’s an amazing brother and amazing son, which just makes my heart melt. Especially in moments like, when he pretends to be cool, but needs to walk Gou back, cause it’s dark already T_T. Such an idiot.

But also he’s like a Wei Wuxian level of dumbdumb when it comes to love in my opinion. It’s like he’s obviously gay for Haru, but he’s also scared to fully admit that. I just fetl very bad for my baby when steped on his throat and asked him to call, but then Rin for 7 years was hiding from him each time he came back for holidays, Haru was so hurt about that, seriously. “I’m gonna write you a letter, but send it to Sousuke” lmao “I’m gonna tell everyone I passed, including Makoto, but not to you, you’re too special, I’ll tell you when I see you”. And don’t get me started on how “cool” he was trying to look in s1, with digging up and then throwing the trophy xD 

He seriously 2 times got scared that Haru was into Gou. ???? I mean, this is seriously... go sit with Wei Wuxian.

So yeah, I absolutely love Rin and he’s been my inspiration too and I think he is for many, actually. He’s a complete nutjob and just wild sometimes tho haha 

I also love the romantic in him lolz it’s so funny. Like petals in the pool and crying at stupid movies. Just the cutest. But also... I can’t relate really lolz

But as much as I love him he’s just not my type. I’m more into cold, stoic, keeping everything inside, but loving with all their heart types of characters. So yeah, Haru, Lan Wangji, Levi are my dudes. They’re also too cool for school lmao So I wouldn’t put Rin over Levi, no haha Levi is my everything. Also the sass is my weakness :D