#First of all I don't fucking believe in whichcraft and magic as a whole what the fuck | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

iwonderwh0 · 12 days ago

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Apart from buying some lottery tickets (never did that before) and making some other unwise financial decisions and compulsively blocking people I find slightly annoying, I'm not really doing anything weird (as far as I can tell) but yeah...

Sleep deprivation made me so fucking dumb I would probably fail any reading comprehension test if I were given any now. If you see me saying something batshit stupid, please let me know if I stop making sense

#Also I now often catch myself being superstitious despite being an atheist #there are beliefs that I now find myself holding that if I were to voice out loud I'd criticise it #but somehow awareness of irrationality doesn't prevent me from believing it «in secret»#like I'll type it down because maybe if I see it I'll see just how ridiculous it is but over the last few days I've been repeatedly thinkin #about possibility of my ex friend who I haven't really been in contact for years cursing me as she was in whichcraft and stuff #First of all I don't fucking believe in whichcraft and magic as a whole what the fuck #second of all why would she do that #my irrational voice goes «out of spite» but it doesn't really make much sense does it #another close call was thinking my T-shirt got stolen when I couldn't find it but it was like weeks ago and since then I found it #it was really out of touch to theorise of something so low value to be stolen but once again contradiction with logic didn't really help #totally erase this belief (not until I found the damn T-shirt)#I don't believe in fate but once again I developed this subconscious belief that I'm destined to win a «lottery» with lottery being either #finding out that I have this one in million fatal sleep disorder or winning an actual lottery and that if second scenario happens it'll #exclude the possibility of another #once again logically I understand both are highly unlikely scenarios with no connection whatsoever #BUT my stupid brain still is trying to tell me those are really valid and likely explanations #like I'm trying to keep them a secret from myself because I know I would never believe it #like some background lowercase insanity is simmering but so far my ability to reassess it as bullshit is winning #I wonder for how long will it keep winning

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