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[silverdrecms]

📷 kerjer .. a bitch wants to draw her

reaction meme

📷  your muse asking mine to model

it’s with the thud of her bookbag and a sigh that kerry heaves herself onto her bed, ready to simply lay in this exact position until her muscles and mind feel relaxed. aside from carrying the heavy textbooks for some of her introductory level courses, which were enough of a pain to deal with today, she’d been wound TIGHT by the influx of texts from the midnight halloween suitor she’d been speaking to casually, as well as her sugar daddy. while ghosting on him after that awkward kitchen conversation with jeremy was perhaps immature and a little uncalled for, she couldn’t shake the usual discomfort that came from their encounters regardless — so she took the little bitch’s way out and feigned illness and distractions via a mountain of coursework. meanwhile, the other man, who she’d jokingly listed as STEVE on her phone, was… nice, much like herself and not at the same time, so she enjoyed talking to him; however she knew that he hadn’t reached out to her in the first place just to have a friendly chat whenever they had the time and it was definitely unnerving on all fronts as of late. there was also the upcoming thanksgiving dinner with her family that had her stressed, simply due to whatever pestering her mother would enact regarding school, dating… anything that came to her mind, thus she could only hope that her father would divert the conversation as soon as it would come to that, to let her have a peaceful few days before she returned to kent — where those very issues would be dealt with once more. the petite brunette lays limp while the other inhabitants go about their evening, unsure as to what’s being said despite hearing the voices of jae squared downstairs, she can’t make out their conversation thus she hasn’t a clue what they could be doing; she reaches for the remote of her television, simply wanting background noise while relaxing, and turns it on before flicking through the channels, only to more or less settle on one playing top 40 tracks. eventually, ker’s allotted several minutes of shut-eye, not particularly napping, when there’s a knock on her bedroom door. “ come in, ” she sings, just loud enough to be heard, or so she believes, by the person outside. she doesn’t open her eyes as they step into the room, at least not Y E T, rather only when she hears them — jeremy, as a matter of fact — greeting her. she blinks a couple of times to focus on him properly, a smile forming upon doing so, one that lacks the tiredness she assumes he thinks she has, “ hey, what’s up ? ” 

conversation flows easily between them while kerry is visibly perky, her expression soon shifting to feature underlying surprise at the request he’d eventually make, one that’s unexpected if you were to ask her. “ why wo — ” slips out before she can help it, confused as to why he’d want her to do so, but redeems herself quickly with a couple of rapid blinks, “ s-sure, of course ! ” she sits up, gazing upward through her lashes with brows raised, as if to aid her to see him better in such a way. “ ho — what do you want me to do, exactly ? ” she waits for an order, one that has her  r e m a i n i n g  in her spot while he runs out to grab whatever materials he needs to draw her and she bites her lip, obstructing some of the faint, peachy gloss adorning them both. she quickly pins her hair on the right side of her head behind her ear and smacks said lips together to fix her momentary mistake, when he reenters and a light smile appears on the brunette. she lets him take command — following him joining her on the bed and positioning himself at the foot of it — and simply follows his instructions, which seems so odd to her; she blames it on the fact that she’s being asked to model for something more time-consuming AND unfamiliar, used to doing so for projects in one of her current fashion courses for sizing and other design purposes as well as in photos. there’s also the acknowledgement that this is jeremy requesting her to do so, that it’s especially unnerving doing so for her more constant crush, though she tries not to let it show. instead, as the music from the channel donning a black screen plays over the quiet scribbles of graphite to paper, she opts to hum over the initial silence between them — not that it’s particularly one that could be  D E E M E D  awkward in nature, though her actions do put her more at ease. it doesn’t really occur to her that he has to look at her quite often to create the sketch until the fifth time she lowers her gaze before it can lock on his, willing whatever flush of embarrassment that might colour her cheeks to vanish when the previous silence is broken, her lifting her head for j’s sake as a result of the times she’s slightly ducked under his keen eye. ker isn’t entirely prepared for the compliments that are to come her way, restraining her chuckle as to hide the extent of her flattery with a demure, “ thanks. ” and while there’s no end to them, her more cool demeanour falls to show the one he’s perhaps seen less of, the one where blushing accompanies the laughter and whines to stop at the more ridiculous ones he’s said that he’s used to. 

in no time is their interaction like their MANY others, though she’s now more conscious of how he might read those of the past and future based on the entirety of her latest reaction from now on and can feel her grin falter at being so obvious, but soon he’s finishing the drawing and kerry can feel the nervousness at the end result ebb away at her. she doesn’t think him to be a subpar artist, of course not, but he’s been attentive throughout the time spent recreating her looks on paper and she wonders how different or similar it’ll be to how she’s come to see herself so far in her twenty years of life. “ can i see it ? ” she vocalizes in the moment, a curious look on her face, “ when you’re done, of course. ” she murmurs back an okay with a smile when he agrees, letting the minutes trickle past before he declares he’s done. the girl finds herself moving CLOSER to where jeremy had situated himself when he began, trying not to leer over him until he gives her the green light to do so as she assumes he needs another moment or two first. it’s at the turn of the notepad that she leans impossibly closer and stares for a minute before a quiet oh slips out. she didn’t expect it to be too accurate within that span of time he had taken to sketch her features, thus she’s surprised to see that said expectation was blown out of the water; and perhaps it’s simply because no one’s drawn her since her elementary school days — when everyone in art class was at a beginner’s level — that she’s astonished by the resemblance between herself and what’s on the paper, her awestruck expression on full display and probably doing enough to indicate her thoughts. “ it’s really pretty, jeremy, ” is what kerry’s able to muster, realizing how conceited it may sound in technical terms making her wince for but a second, when she turns to smile at him, “ R E A L L Y  pretty. ” and she has half of a mind to slap herself out of embarrassment for only being able to repeat herself, but she refrains from doing so — at least until she’s alone once again. she’s about to ask what he plans to do with it, her curiosity getting the best of her, when she hears daehyun and jaewon discuss dinner plans on their walk to their room and UNINTENTIONALLY lets the realization of how much time has already passed distract her. “ should we put something on for dinner before someone spends a fortune on takeout ? ” because they have in the past, many times, in spite of kerry being present and capable of cooking their meal… simply because no one wished to wake her from her nap to do so. the sketch becomes forgotten as she stands to act on one of her mom friend duties, her and j subsequently walking out of her room together before splitting up — her to head downstairs and him to tuck his belongings away in his room.

it’s only when scanning her options, dae’s picky tendencies and her current aversion to having pizza again under consideration, that the drawing occurs to her and has her hiding reddened cheeks from view of the boys, ESPECIALLY jeremy.