#Everytime we're just trying to make it just a little bit longer bc we have something to help

[sastielsfandom]

So, we have money set aside that we cannot touch for a place to live. We have incomes coming our way. We are simply trying to survive until we can secure housing. But we don't have the funds yet because we're waiting on approvals and such. We're going to try and stay at hotels until then, because sleeping in parking lots is scary with a car full of girls.

Especially when we break down and have to push the car. One of those nights we managed to get to a parking lot and most people kept their distance even with greetings. But while I was getting something out of the trunk, bend over looking for something, someone was trying to talk to me and calling me beautiful and it was gross. Saying things to me and my sister but she didn't notice. The only reason he left us alone was because some other guy shooed him away which I grateful for. But a lot of the times there aren't people willing to do that you know? And that was like at two a.m. or something, not an hour of politeness.

Plus it's been raining and that in itself has made me want to curl up in a ball and stay away from cars. Got too much car trauma for that shit.

Basically, trying to avoid more trauma for myself and my siblings, and my mother. If anyone could please help, whether it's a dollar or five, just whatever you can!! We appreciate it greatly!!

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I LITERALLY HAD THE SAME HC TBH! till I remembered he was born in a temple or whatever but I still like to have he just says that to avoid any questions Abt his bio parents. I like to give him angst so I always imagined his parents thought he was fucking psycho crazy bc nobody believed him about seeing ghosts. Like what a freaking creepy child he would be on accident bc imagine his mom or dad is cooking and then in the next room over they hear their son talking to someone and they're like oh hey bug who you talking to? And he's just staring at a wall and talking to himself and they get chills on sight. And worse if they ask him Abt it later like hey we're u talking to yourself? And he's like no I was talking to the little girl in a red dress, she likes to talk to me :) and they go crazy insane paranoid and can't deal with him anymore they've taken him to all kinds of doctors and stuff but nothing seems wrong but they suggest getting him mental help but that doesn't help him either so the mom leaves bc she can't take it anymore she can't believe she gave birth to a monster. And the dad sticks for not much longer after and abandons him at a temple telling them to take care of him and so they take him in but also are a bit put off over the seeing ghosts thing. I don't think the monks would take it well either so who knows how they'd punish him or straighten him out everytime he "lies" about seeing ghosts and being possessed. So yeah no love from his parents the only people who were supposed to love him unconditionally and no love from the monks who took him in and have been raising him for years. And no love from other kids his age or strangers bc they think he's weird for talking to himself or a pervert for always being so touchy and hugging them when they've just met. He goes to the Internet for help and of course he discovers things he shouldn't at such a young age and starts throwing himself on any girl in sight. He's so desperate for love he'll take anything, he just needs to prove to himself he's able to be loved. That he isn't unlovable.

And oh my gosh the thing Abt the psychickers teasing and insulting him and going too far bc they think he's just a punching bag with no feelings. But they cross the line when they make fun of him being fatherless and he breaks down and they panic like oh no what do we do? How do we fix it? They're so bad at being nice to him cue the awkward hugs and pats on the back and trying to get him to open up and stuff. And he does easily bc even tho they just hurt him he still thinks they're the closest he's ever had to real friends, which is why he's put up with all their insults up until now. And then they almost bawl their eyes out and are like damn now I want to protect this pervert :( so they become the Tori protection squad. They still insult him but make sure he knows it's in good fun and try not to go too far anymore. And if ANYONE ELSE DARES TO INSULT HIM THEY'LL FEEL THEIR WRATH.

The theory that Toritsukas mother is dead is I think most possible of all since it may be connected to his powers, but maybe she isn’t. She just abandoned him right after giving birth and left him with his father, who wasn't a good parent either or just couldn’t care less about his child (or worse, he didn't want a "schizo" for a child) and dropped him off at the temple not so long after. So it gave Toritsuka a sense that he's so unlovable that even the only people who were supposed to love him unconditionaly, didn't. And he supresses it so so hard, and tries to find love so so bad but the only type of love he knows is sexual becouse he saw that on the internet but it just doesn’t ever work and it just confirms his believe that he'll never experience love of any kind.