#Even if I don't agree with half the stuff yall say

[cutely-inserts-my-opinion]

LIST OF THINGS ON MY BRAIN.

Lunar had a right to treat Nexus/New Moon how he did, Nexus wasn't exactly his Moon and they weren't as close so the bond was very different.

Nexus at the time considering the idea of him being Moon but a full restart, wasn't knowledgeable 100%, but I don't believe he was the youngest.

Considering the knowledge at the time though Sun was in the wrong for being a shit brother, how he acted made logical sense.

Nexus when he was new Moon I believe he wasn't as good as people made him out to be.

Thank you for coming to my ted-talk! Also nexus should of kissed ruin and dark sun before he died smh smh

Nexus should have kissed Ruin and Dark Sun i swear

[pinpurin]

sjiabsiws look what can be requested and I want to do something about the moral twins! Miles 42 has a girlfriend who is a reader who has been friends with the twins since they were little and Miles 1610 suspects that her brother has a girlfriend but he doesn't know who. I want to know how the family and twin 1610 would find out, to that add that they have been together for more than two years 💜🖤

I love the idea of 42!Miles hiding stuff from his family bc it sounds so much like him, for all the stories about the twins 42! miles will be addressed as milo, simply so things don't get confused and 1610!miles will still get called miles, now onto the story. Also they're juniors :))))

To say you were friends with the Morales twins was an understatement, you guys were unbelievably close, you were always with one or both of them, from the moment you guys were seen playing together by your parents in the playground when you were little to now.

Slowly but surely, you had gotten a lot little closer to milo, something about him being so mysterious had reeled you in, don't get it wrong you were still close with miles, milo just tended stay on your mind. I mean why wouldn't he be? he looked like he was sculpted by gods and blessed by Aphrodite.

As time grew miles started acting weird, he would cancel on your hangouts, abruptly leave during randoms times, wouldn't answer his phone and more. You had started to hate when he would do this without an explanation but at the same time you are thankful for it happening, because of him ditching you (and milo) you were able to get closer to the other brother, getting to know him on more than a friend level

he was always more reserved but with getting to know him more you were able to open up that hard exterior. With the hangout without his brother, he started to look at you in a different way. One day he had gave you a letter telling you to meet him at the rooftop of his apartment, when you got there laid Milo with flowers in his hand asking you to be his girlfriend.

That was two years ago.

you both had agreed to keep the relationship a secret until you decided you were ready to share the big news. "Mi vida?? are you listening??" Milo asked waving his hand in your face. "huh??" you gave him a questioning look. He rolled his eyes before smiling and pulling you closer to him. You had suddenly remembered where you were, the rooftop, where you and Milo go for privacy.

"I said.." he continued, grabbing your chin and making you face him. "Miles is catching onto us" he added. you pulled away from him "What?! How?" you questioned, He pulled down his hoodie showing you a kiss mark that you left on his neck, you pulled you hand to your mouth from shock. How could you be so careless?

"Why haven't you wiped it off?" you asked him quietly. "Because I like it ma, you could mark me more if you would like, sé que te gusta" he fixed his hoodie while smirking at you. "Shut up" you say smacking his chest, suddenly the door to the rooftop was open, you scoot a little bit farther from milo as you looked to see who was at the door. Miles. "Wassup yall" he said walking up to you both. "Hey man" you smile to yourself slightly relieved.

"Yo you wouldn't believe what i saw the other day, Milo had a big ass kiss mark on his neck, damn near looked like he was attacked by something." Miles exclaimed dramatically. "Nigga shut up" Milo huffed. "oh? this is true?" you asked Milo playing dumb, milo rolled his eyes at you but couldn't even hold back his smile. "Literally look at him cheesin mad hard" You and miles began to laugh. "So big bro when am I gonna meet this girl?" Miles asked putting his arm around Milos shoulder.

"You aint" milo replied taking his others halfs arm off of his shoulder. "bro, WHY? stop tryna be mysterious cuz your not that guy" miles folded his arms, "you must be confused, because i am HIM" miles replied.

you stood there with the most puzzled look on your face. "whatever" you said walking away from their nonsense. As you had opened the door to the Morales home, Ms. Morales greeted you. "Hey dear, where are the boys?" she asked while she was cleaning the table.

"On the rooftop arguing about who knows what" you replied, rubbing your temples as if you had a headache. she sighed before making her way over to you and wrapping you in her arms. "Youre the only one who keeps me sane" she said patting your head and you giggled at her "There not THAT bad" you said before letting go, she gave you a knowing look before you laughed again.

"I'm gonna be in the boy's room if you need me" you turned and walking away hearing an "okay dear" behind you. You walked in the room sitting on Milos bed scrolling through your phone for a couple of minutes before hearing someone one come in. "mi amor" miles sighed before flopping on top of you. "Ugh Milos get OFF!" you groaned as the man was crushing your windpipe. "Missed you ma, you didn't miss me?" he asked while peppering your face with kissed.

"How could i not miss my big baby?" your fake pout at him while he rolls his eyes, getting off of you, before you could say anything Milos lips were on yours with his hand cupping your cheek, you squeal from shock but nonetheless kiss him back with the same passion, now having your hands around him arms before pulling apart. As you open your eyes you see that Milos eyes are wide open from shock, you turn to see what he is looking at only to see his family staring back at you.

Sorry for the rushed ending, took all my brainpower to see how this would play out~ purin🤎🫶🏽

[sunnychuuya]

Time for my now nightly sally face vomit the one thing I dislike about this game so far is its lack of a save button

GUYS WHAT THE FLIP THIS IS SO FSR BACK ITS JUST AFTER I GOT THE CROWBAR WHAT

TIME TO SPEEDRUNNN

-6 minutes 34.94 seconds to get back to chapter five okay time to look up a tutorial..

-what the fuck. It was t h a t e a s y?? IT CAN BE COMPLETED IN LESS THAN 15 SECONDS?! IM ENDING IT ALL WTH

-didn't mention this before but I love the detail of the gear boy screen being scratched

-this is definitely foreshadowing

Hey guys look how much more coherent I am when I have the light off and am not on a fucking terrifying part

-well thats..creepy.

-WHY DOES THE DUDE IN CHAPTWR 7 MOCW SO SPEEDY I CANT XONTROL HIM

-Holt ahit the whole screen going black scared me so bad

-OB THATS A CORPSW

TGATS A FUCKING CORPSE

THAT IS A DEAD MAN

OH LORD

-WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHY DID HE PEEL OPEN LIKE A BANANA THIS RED EYED DEMON EBETTER GET THE FUCK AWAY BEGONE HOE

-yea guys maybe yall should fucking move cuz that shit is terrifying leave before you all fucking die

-NOOO

LaRYS CRHING

BABY NOOOOO

-Ok I mean like it does sound like bullshit so u can't rlly blame him for not believing sal..

-fuck wait if the tree house has proof what traumatizing shit happens there later why can't a tree house ever just be silly

-the apartments were abandoned huh..

-why am I playing as m a n

Agreed

I mean I don't rlly know what sal did except kill someone but all the fanarts I see of him post killing someone say "I had no choice" in the background and he doesn't seem like the dude to just go and murder someone

Maybe I just rlly like sal lmao

-LARRY FUCKING DIED?!

GUYS WHAT

I SAID HE WAS THE ONE FUCKING CHARCAYER WHO COUDLTNEE DIE

NO

NO

WHAT

WHY

WHY

THIS IS CRUEL

FUCK THIS GAME

No

DELETING RN

WHAT THE FYCK

-Why did Enon just die wth

-seeing a ghost take the form of Larry made me scream like not even joking I'm bawling my eyes out whay the fuck

-wait pookies this hopefully is not true and I don't see any reason in why it would be true of it is true I'm gonna find the nearest cliff but like sal murders someone and laryr is dead ...

....

No right that's not right it can't be they're bestie bros

Also it wouldn't make sense cuz Larry's tryna help sal

BUT HOW THE FUCK DID HE DIE THEN? one of my friends is being sus about it

-

I know I haven't met Travis but I've developed an attachment to him bc of the fan content I've seen

-WHY DID ENON FUCKING DIE

Thats low-key sus

Thats really sus actuslly

Right as Enon is like finding out about smth he dies

Hmmm

-"white room eht ni em dnif. Ouy dlot I tahw tegrof t'nod" thanks I understand that

OHCEAIT ITS BACKWARDS

Dont forget what I told you. Find me in the white room.

HUH ??

GUYS am I forgetting smth or is this sposed to be mysterious

Omori ass shit

-oh it's the ghosty thing

-am I stupid I csnt even kinds decipher what should be in the blanks half the time

Bad example. But sad!

Okay but run only has three letters what

OH IS IT AN ! ?

Yes I'm smart

OH FUCK

that scared me so fucking bad my vision low-key blacked out for a second I'm in the dark again lmao

-SAL NO?? FUCKING GET A LAWYER DIPSHIT??

-sal I love you but for the love of God (okay thst might not be a great thing to say from the foreshadowing we've been getting lol) fucking at least try to win the case

-WHAT NO FUCKING DEFENS UR SELF DONT JUST SAY "I wouldn't be surprised" UGH

-oh someone told me j would be scared of bologna bc of this game

-"ugh" dude pls

Yoo I'm finally gonna get rhe lore..

Im scared!

-Mr dood El is so real

-SHUT UP THIS IS SO COOL AND CREATIVD

-THIS GAME IS AMAZING!!

-"Hello are you okay" *demonic garbling* fucking mood

-"now please leave us alone your head will frighten the children" LMAOKK

-okay so the truth stuff is sus obviously

-y aren't circle heads normal :(

-"Hello are yiu the great beast" "well, fuck you too friend." Teehee

-ik this is prolly gonna be some like deep foreshadowing but it's just this is so cool and funny?

-on the side of the fortune teller it looks like it says gae instead of green

-WHY WAS THAT PART UNIRONICALLY SO GOOD

-makes me kinda scared for late game tho!

-math class sleep >> all other sleep

LETS FUCKING GO GUYS LETS FUCKING GO ITS TRVAIS YES STUPID UGLY BOY IVE BEEN WAITING

-"nobody likes a cliche bully traaavis" SAL ILY SM

-"yk if you took that stick out of ur ass you may actually enjoy yourself for once." DAMNNNN

-travis you hoe 😔

Bro ik this is like sposed to be serious but why was the panel kf travis punching sal so fucking funny to me

-but like sal ik you don't know but maybe don't talk about travis dad

-ASH DONT KUST FUCKING TAKE OFF THE PROSTETHIC IN THE MIDDLE OF A FUCKING HALLWAY WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ??

Like j appreciate u trying to help but not the best move-

-larry.. how good.. to see you.. alive.. *sobbing*

-ash the ghosts are fucjing real stfu

-yea sal his dad is shit but like it doesn't rlly excuse it all idk

-mk yup there's smth up with the bologna

I hate that word it's not even close to how it's pronounced

-wtf is the hot dog incident???

Made with dog??

-"You're lucky it's bologna day" that is such a fucking sentence 💀

-"i don't know if this town has room for another conspiracy theory" there's prolly gonna be like 17 more this game

-I got a paperclip! And then I look at it and it says "I can use this paper clip to get into my friends lockers" lmal

-WHAT THE FUCK NO SAL UR SO WEONG PHYSICS IS THE WORSE?! ITS THE ONLT SCIENCE CLASS IVE EVER TAKEN THAT I DISLIKED

-oh yea how old r they rn r they still freshman ? Assuming so

-sal is so short god

-this is completely unrelated to sallt face but chat my leg is bleeding and it reallt burns uhh ow

It might be bc there's alcohol marjer in it but that's from a day ago so idk

-THWRWS CANONICAL GAY

OMFG

LETS GO

i mean ik sla is canonically bi but when there's a gay relationship in canon it's so happy okay

wait through the past two years

What is their age in ep 3

Like someone pls answer this

-wait

Im trying to figure it out

They said if they killed Travis they'd have to deal with him for two years

Indicating two years of hs left

Okay

Ig thar makes sense

Im a liar I don't understand

-i wish u could runnnnnnn ahhhhhh

-"you butt nozzle" wtf does this mean

-actusllt maybe I shouldn't say I wish u could run bc the thing that happened earlier.. haha..

-yall that's sus why r there so many missing posters

-where am I sposed to be going ahh

-the textbook in Larry's locker is labeled "generic textbook" lmao

-mmm that's sus home made by a teacher.. nah..

-?? Travis is gone

-THE NOTE?? OKAY I HEARS TRAVIS HAD LEFT A NOTE IN THE BATHROOM BUT LIKE I DIDNT KNK THE CONTENTS

OwwWW

THAT HURTS MY HEART :<

-BE GAY MY SILLY BOY KILL UR DAD !!

-bruh gods whole thing is loving everyone stop being homophobuc

-"yk we aren't all actually gay, right? I mean besides forTodd. Todd is super gay." Good for Todd

-okay I have to go through all the dialog options

-"says the boy who hides behind a mask! Get lost, you mutant!" OUCHIE :<

-can I murder kenneth.. he shot sal and his mom.. and is la shitty dad to travis.. :/

..!

-HE SAID SORRGY

-empty envelope..

Could

The note be from there

Hemmmmmmmmmmmm

-HES TEYING TO BE NICER WTH

-WAIT FUCK

THAT MEANS I DONT GET TO EXPERIENCE SOME OF THE DIOLAOGUES

FUCKING SHIT BALLS

-MRS PACKERTON LIVES IN THE APARTMENTS

WE KNOW WHO LVIES IN MOST IF NOR ALL OF THEM

EXCEPT FOR 201

QHICH HAS HAD SUSPICIOUS NOISES SINCE EPISODE ONE

SUSSSS

-i hate puzzles how am I sposed to know what the lock is

-NEVERMIND GOT IT IN LESS THAN 2 MINUTES IM FUCKING GOD

-sally has mental I'll

-me when uiuruy.rhoheitnruy.a,drwitoflsuynbusmo

-okay guys wrf was that cuz they're acting like it's a reoccurring thing

-ik is not that but dehydration rlly is a bitch

-im so on edge like it went into the bathroom and we saw gizmo qnd it had a record scratch sound and I jumped

-wow our dad actually says he'll do smrh with us soon.. shocker 😐

-oh ow that's sad but sals dad u bitch u fuckin got rid of photos of sals mom??? I like get ur also affected but be a better dad jeez

-welcom to windom guys

-time to try to geuss the password

-I DID IT IM FUCKINT AMAZING

GUYS WHY DID IT BREK

HES GONNA KILL ME SHIT

-y r there empty letters randomly appearing eith my name that's sus!!

-Robert slays

-yo we can enter 403 now shouldn't they have fixed the doorframe by now tho lmao

-whyis she talking out her neck god I'm gonna vomit the sound effects are Not Neesxcaru

-I feel like that red eyed demon ain't really gone.

-it's 1:06 am have mercy on my orbs pls

-these letters r confusing

-samn what r Todd's parents on 💀

-did sal jusr say "good lord" beuh

-im scared.

-theres a lock on the freezer fuck fuck fuck

-okay. Ifs creepy, but at least it'd just a goat head. Could be worse. Could be human

Waych me end up regretting these words..

-she has a weird obsession with pi huh

-greem stuff in the tub

-whay am I sposed to do while waiting 4 Larry

-GUYS IM NOT GONNA FUCKING BE STUCK AGAIN

IVE SEARCHED THE WHOLE PLACE WITJ THE GEAR BOY SND CLICKED ON EVERY INTERACTIVE THING

RAGHHN

I feel like there's a possibility the thing we found in her desk could be used to open the door but it'd not letting me

-clock puzzle..

-I did it

WHAT THE FUCK

-GUYS WHAT THE HELL

-yall I just killed a dude don't feel great about that haha...

-FYCK SHES BACK FUCKR FUSJDK

-"if we don't make it out alive.. I.. I love you dude"

-THE THE THE THE WAY THE WAY THE WAY ME WHEN THE WAY SAL IS HOLDING HIS PIGTALS

-it's just ash fuckign great what the hell

-"damn." Valid reaction ngl like what r u sposed to say to thar

-OH MY DUCKING GOD ARE THE MISSING POSTETS PEOPLE SHES MADE INTO BOLGIANEN

ANITHER FUCKIJG LOCK IN NOTNINCTHE MENTAL STATE FOR THIS RN

-this isn't very girlypop core

-ngl just googled the lock combo bc I'm uncomfy rn and don't feel like puzzles

-OH THATS A SHIT TON OF HUMAN CORPSES

WHY

Why

WAS THIS NECCASARU

-YEA LARRY I DONT BLAME YOU FOR THROWING UP I AM REALLT NEAR THERE MYSELF AND IM JUST SEEING IT THROUGH A SCREEN

-GUYS FUCKIJG MOVE OUT OF THESE APARTMENTS

-SAL IM FINE IF YOU STOP TELLING IT THERE OKAY OKAY CAN WE FUCKING NOT

DOES THIS MEAN LIKE EVERYONE AT THEIR SCHOOL EXCEPT I think her name was Megan IS A FUCKING CANNIBAL

IM SCARED GUYS

WHY IS TODD IN THE HOSPITAL

I MEAN IG AT LEAST HES ALIVE ??

-please don't go down the trash chute.

-welp she's dead okay Larry let's go!

Please.

-SAL FUCKING DONT ILL

FUCK NO

-IDK IFNIM SPOSED TO BE EABLE TO DECIPHER THESE MESAGES

-ripped carpet

-DONT FUCKING GO IN THERE

-wtf

-WHAT THE HELLLL

WHAT THE GENUINE FUCK DOODLES

-"whelp this looks bad" I love Larry

OH MY GOD TODD IM AN ARCHITECHTURE NERD TOO BUT PLEASE THSTS NOT IMPORTANT RN

-SHUT UP THIS IS DROM THE GEAR BOY GAME WITH WITH THE DEVOTEURDS OF GOD SHIT RAGHH

-THW RED EYED DEMON ISNT DEAD OKAY

-"it's a good thing thr cult isn't around anymore.. the demon too" YA JUST FUCKIN JINXED IT THEYRE GONNA KILL YA SAL

-qere gonna die were gonna die were all gonna die oh god oh fuck

-DONT SPLIT UP ARE YOU DUMB?!

-why do these things always happen to me?" Idk why I thought if schooby doo

-IM LARRGY OMG

Wait he doesn't die here does he.

-great gonna be here for 7 hours

-no im not looking up a tutorial Ur looking up a tutorial

-

Me when

I made itty

Qalk around in circles and you'll figure it out cool

-YOO IM SAL AHAIN

ANOTHET FCCKING PUZZLE KYS

-yipee I have to have a tutorial for sal too. End me.

-gwuss who's bleeding again! Different spot this time closer to my ankle

-following a tutorial

-does exactly what it says

-doesn't work

-runs around in rage and despair

-it fucking worked

Making a second part to this cuz my phones trying to die ill rb when thr other is finish

@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow

[maythearo]

JAMIL NEWS!!!

Jamil Viper was found at the streets of Pernambuco, enjoying the Carnaval and dancing frevo! In a exclusive interview, he said his favorite food is acarajé and coxinha

Jokes aside, I really like the idea of Scarabia duo, Octatrio and Savannaclaw enjoying Brazil! And I really like that Malleus would use something similar to that Hawaiian shirt he bought in the Yasmina silk event (I really don't know what that shirts name, I just know its the same as the Genie in the end of Aladdin). And I also love thinking about Jamil using traditional São João outfit (mano, ele com uma camisa xadrez vermelha e preta... Oh homem lindo).

I want to claim Jamil as Brazilian, but I can't-

Do you have any HCs like that?

And omg you opened comissions!!!! I'm so happy, even if I don't have money for it, IM STILL VERY HAPPY FOR U FOR A REASON I CAN'T EXPLAIN, I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY!

Beijitos!

- The BR Jamil Simp Anon

First of all, you're so sweet, thank you 😫 and second ANON LEMME TELL YOU SOMETHING YOU'RE MAKING MY BRAIN GO NUTS CAUSE I WANNA DRAW ALL OF THAT, AS A GOOD BRAZILIAN ARTIST WOULD! Also hello Jamil bbygirl what are you doing here in Brazil haha twirls hair twirls hair

Omg I'm thinking on the spot rn of some good br headcanons, and I completely agree with you, out of all the dorms, Scarabia, Octavinelle and Savanaclaw would definitely vibe the most in Brazil. Hold on lemme breath in before I shove all my hcs into this post hold on. Eng speaking mutuals and followers I will hold yall hostage to listen to my insane rambles ok here we go

First and foremost, I just know Ruggie is brazilian 100%, and I think we can all agree to that, he's our boy 🙌 he would absolutely drag Leona and Jack around, getting them to try a little bit of everything whenever they get the chance. The hyena boy would pile a bunch of stuff on Jack's arms saying "You HAVE to try this snack- wait have some caldo de cana too... OH you can't forget this piece of candy-" and last thing you know Jack is just buried under pounds of little treats and trinkets.

I personally visited very little States here, but at least around São Paulo and Rio, one of my favorite things to do is to browse those classic, super pretty handmade jewelry they sell on the beach, decorated with crystals and stones, and I just want to get them all even though I might not even use half of the stuff I buy. But anyways, Leona doing that. Leona getting tererê de cabelo to go with the braids. He's gonna spend so much money with clothes and accessories and he's gonna look stunning doing it.

Btw btw I'm obsessed with a store called Atame (@/voudeatame on ig) they have the most brazilian jewelry and clothes ever and the designs are gorge, I should draw Leona wearing something inspired by that someday 😭

Bro if there's anything we all learn in major tourist spots is that you gotta be smart with prices and everything, keep an eye out to not get scammed, unfortunately... But you know what, Octavinelle is just chill with that. You think anyone can scam AZUL? That's impossible. Anyone tries anything with the octatrio, the person is just gonna get scammed back. Jokes aside, I picture Floyd wearing the good ol havaianas, shorts, and maybe #those glasses wherever he goes, Jade might even go along with it every now and then, why not.

This randomly reminds me of Ace cause his casual outfits definitely exclusively consist of that + a random football team shirt. I couldn't care less about football but listen. Corinthians. Simply cause he's annoying and that would be very in character of him (É MEMES, NAO ME MATEM CORINTHIANOS)

Have you ever noticed how Trey looks like the twst version of Zé Carioca. Let that sink in.

Thinking about Malleus, don't you think he would love to visit historical towns and monuments? There's so much history in our architecture, he'd find most fascinating I'm sure.

I just know Jamil and Kalim would absolutely own the dance floor in carnaval, like. No dobts about that. Kalim specially, would love to participate in any bloquinhos de carnaval if he could. Sounds exhausting for me to even be amongst a single one, but okay Kalim, get it I guess 💃 Scarabia and Brazil we share vibes!!!!!

You mentioned the São João fit, and I also thought of Epel, that boy invented Festa Junina, fr. He throws biribinha/estalinhos everywhere to piss off Vil. Also Jamil oh homem perfeito c é doido, n é possível uma coisa dessas.

São João stalls under the management of Octavinelle and it's hell on earth

Sam would open a famous lojinha de 1,99 for sure, I will not elaborate. Oh also whenever I stumble upon frog shaped reco-reco I think of him, I think he would sell them idk idk

Ruggie will show Kalim those brown colored glass plate sets every grandma got in their houses, and tell him they are indestructible.

"Jamil, Jamil! Check this out! Ruggie says these plates NEVER break! Oh we need to have them in Scarabia, pleeaseee!"

"What do you mean they never break? No, Kalim don't-"

Kalim throws it to the floor, it immediately shatters in a million pieces. "I think it hit a weird angle, that must be it."

Idia = alanzoka

Me @ Jamil:

[dustydustyrose]

To me BB and BS feels like, half of the Crwby wanted BB and half wanted BS, someone lost a bet and BB won pffffft (not saying this is actually what happened, ofc)

I'm personally not a huge fan of BB, and here's why:

- V1-3 BB reminds me of me and my best friend. In other words, I read 95% of their interactions as platonic. (TBF, growing up a lot of people thought my best friend and I were dating so LMAO take that as you will 😂)

- BB didn't become obvious to me until V5. I remember watching the scene where Yang and Blake were reunited, pausing the video, and saying "do they have feelings for each other?") it was that exact moment. But to have 3 whole seasons of (imo) 0 romantic interactions to suddenly having nothing but romantically coded interactions felt kind of jarring and forced to me

- When Blake and Sun are in Menagerie together, it felt like Crwby was using that as an opportunity to say BS was not going to happen in the most out of character way possible (Blake slapping Sun in the face. Seriously, I'm pretty sure I remember even Blake's VA saying that scene made her uncomfortable with how ooc it was). Imo that season would've been a great conclusion to BS even without that scene 😭 that scene just felt like someone was trying to prove a point

- I personally don't like how much BB depends on each other. One reason I liked both of them so much was because of how independent they were, and now it feels like they revolve around each other and can do nothing without each other (I'm of the opinion that even in romantic relationships partners should have their own stuff outside of each other, so those two being attached by the hip in everything they do just feels.... meh to me)

- The execution feels like it wasn't planned at all. Whether it was planned or not doesnt really matter as much as execution. To me, it didn't feel planned, and that's another reason why I'm not a fan of the ship

- I agree that whatever BS had going on in the past doesn't make BB less valid. It's just the way they ended BS to make BB more obvious that felt so... cringey to me 😭

I won't say that I outright dislike BB. It's just not my favorite. And yeah BB was a 4 season long slow burn, but that's still 4 out of 9 seasons to me. The way BB started is the main reason why I'm not a fan. The start (V5, imo) felt very abrupt. It wasn't there, then it was suddenly in my face 😂

Another thing I will say is that lgbtq req between when rwby first came out to now is VASTLY different. Taking that into consideration, even if BB was planned from the beginning, I understand why it would've been so subtle at the start. Imo, though, I think crwby was unsure of BB until the end of V3, but by then they'd already developed BS in a way, so V4 was them back tracking and V5 was them setting it in stone. And that is why BB feels so awkward up until V5

Also, that one comic about Yang wanting Blake to open up to her... felt weird to me PFFFFFT. Hear me out!!!!

It felt weird because the start of the comic we see Yang helping a bunch of people out and saying it's the "big sister" in her. Then she spends the rest of the comic with Blake and... yeah. To start a comic with a "big sister" mentality only to end with subtly implied romance felt WEIRD 😭

Anyway, that's all I'll say on the matter (probably). I just had thoughts i wanted to vomit into the universe. Really happy for all the BB shippers tho~ I know yall have been waiting for this for a long time ✨️💖

[destinyc1020]

i swear some ppl have a pre-existing bias when it comes to cgi, lmao. that scene in nwh looked good and you also have to compare the material here. the things that spider-man is able to do is honestly something that (despite tom's background in stunts) no person can physically do! so of course they have to use cgi. and so much of it really looks great and just fits the genre and type of film that it is. like sorry but i don't know why people are expecting these actors or stunt people to move like spider-man does, it's just not possible and to create a movement like that purely organically, so yes cgi is absolutely necessary. i of course am always down for a spidey movie with less cgi, but that would mean less swinging, less action so that would be more suited for a character study - which i think tom has said he'd love to do too in nwh interviews! also anons are comparing a fictional desert alien planet in a remote area (or a fictional city in batmans case) to the very real and very busy setting of nyc! like can yall not see why practical sets work for some but not for all?

also, i gotta say the nwh fight scenes were honestly incredible. i think that scene with peter and the goblin in the apartment is really a top tier comic book film fight. the combo of tom and willem doing the actual stunts plus the vfx work turned out perfect. watching the bts i am always amazed by the stunt crew on the spidey films, they really are among the best of the best in the business

I agreed with most of your points here Anon, except for a few.

I don't think the Anon/some fans are complaining about the usage of CGI in general for Spider-man... Like I mentioned in my own response yesterday, Marvel wouldn't be able to showcase half of the fantasy worlds and outer space regions like they do in their films if they didn't use CGI. And like you said, the Spider-man films NEED CGI because he's doing stuff that most humans cannot do lol. 😅

With that said, I think Anon was just expressing frustration with the OVER-use of CGI in films today.

I keep bringing this up, but if you go back and watch "Batman: The Dark Knight", for example, you will notice a stark contrast. I think one of the reasons why that movie was so GREAT (aside from the great acting, the awesome writing, and the overall directing of the film) is that it was shot with barely any CGI, so it actually felt like a situation that could occur in REAL life.

Gotham is a fake city, and Batman scales walls also, but the CGI is so much LESS than what we see in most Marvel films.

Christopher Nolan even swears that he did NOT use any CGI in Oppenheimer in order to depict the explosions, and I think that was a deliberate choice.

This just goes to show that some films CAN be made without so much CGI.

Granted, it does make things much easier when you use CGI.... but there's a sense of realism at times when you don't use too much of it.

With that said.....

also, i gotta say the nwh fight scenes were honestly incredible. i think that scene with peter and the goblin in the apartment is really a top tier comic book film fight. the combo of tom and willem doing the actual stunts plus the vfx work turned out perfect. watching the bts i am always amazed by the stunt crew on the spidey films, they really are among the best of the best in the business

I totally agree!! 😃 The Spidey/Goblin fight in NWH was honestly amazing! 👏🏾 I felt every punch! It seems, the fights btwn Spidey and The Green Goblin are always the most raw, vicious, and intense! 😬

I recall the fight btwn Spiderman and the Green Goblin being particularly intense in the original Spiderman franchise as well lol. 🙈

So yea, don't get me wrong, I'm def not against CGI at all! Sometimes, you actually NEED it for many scenes, and it's used in TONS of films (even in areas/scenes that you don't pick up on), but I can see how having too much of it can get a bit old or even annoying.

NWH deserves some grace though, coz we were in a pandemic, and even the original locations for filming for the film went from multiple locations to just ONE: Atlanta. 👀

MANY films had to just film in one location during those covid years due to health and traveling concerns for the cast, crew, etc.

One thing I'd love to see (that I usually saw in Tobey's Franchise) is the heart of New York City and the PEOPLE in it in the film. To me, that really helps to set the tone and setting for the film.

For some reason, with Tom's Spiderman, they seem to have made the City take a back seat. 🥴

Maybe they will always film mostly in Atlanta. 🤷🏾‍♀️ But I do miss seeing the actual CITY of New York (and not just CGI or sets) in the Spiderman films. 😔

[puppetmaster13u]

Eeee Glad yall like them <3

Hm. That's a good question about the Lazarus waters. I don't think so, in like a forced way. It might count enough that it's possible for them to do so- but the issue is that Lazarus Waters will kill someone if they're not near death when exposed. (At least that was the rule originally, who knows how things have changed in other comics) If they do get in Lazarus waters or come into contact with it, I do want to say it supercharges their bioluminescence lmao. Like they will light up.

Hunting galas are definitely a thing. And it gets violent I bet. Mouths and hands covered in blood and viscera that'd freak out anyone not from Gotham (or used to it in those that have married in but haven't begun their own changes yet) There's definitely a kiddie pool during those galas too. Shallower water for smaller kids learning or still building up tail strength and jaw muscles. People will be gossiping and their hands will dart out and pick up a squirming creature to casually rip open or snap the neck of before snacking.

Oh my god, Gala foods. There's a whole new level of that. I bet sushi and takes on sushi are common. Easy to hold and to stuff with goodies.

@just-a-madderslife had a fun idea of there being almost raincoat fashion and honestly that's fun. I bet there's a challenge or something of making raincoats that don't look like raincoats. Custom ones that mimic the patterns on their scales and such, dark interiors with flickers of bright colors that almost look like shimmering shapes in dark waters, y'know?

@meowmeowmeowmeow4x Honestly I feel like Damian would know about his less human-ish half from the beginning. Talia and Bruce and co have a decent relationship in this timeline, and I don't think any of them would exactly hide it from him. The Al Ghuls have also had magic run through their bloodline before, so I wouldn't be surprised if Bruce even grudgingly contacted one of his league contacts, or even the Al Ghuls themselves, when the curse first happened. (Heck, maybe that's why they have a decent relationship, communication for the win) So I think Damian would be pretty proud of it, maybe even a little self conscious about how much smaller(& clumsier in the water) he is compared to his adoptive siblings, who have been there for most of their lives.

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 The moment Bruce registered what he was seeing, he’d admit there was more than a hint of cold fear that washed down his spine. There was a reason he’d drilled it into his children’s heads to label any food they brought from home. So maybe realizing his breakfast was missing made him panic a bit. 

 Look, he’d seen what happened when an idiot or two insisted on eating something his fellow gothamites warned them they couldn’t. Most did not survive and he could only hope and pray that no one had eaten any of it yet- or if they had they were perhaps immune. Somehow. 

 He’d been on monitor duty for practically the entire night and didn’t want to deal with this first thing! In fact he was this close to hysterically screaming, which any of his coworkers could agree was not a normal thing. 

 Maybe he was speed-walking more than a bit faster than he usually did and was maybe tapping out commands to open up the video from the entire night before. But it was understandable! He didn’t want to get one of his coworkers killed because they decided to eat literal poison! 

 He didn’t care if anyone saw him not-running (because he wasn’t!) but he was admittedly glad that no one saw him quite literally run right into Clark. Smacked right into his front and risked breaking his own nose like he’d done so with a concrete wall. 

 “Shoot- erm, sorry-” Clark’s face was flushed in embarrassment, hand not holding him up from falling holding a pan of something or other that smelled baked. Bruce might’ve still been hungry under all the panic and worry even if he’d not admit that out loud. 

   “Out of the way,” he practically growled, the dread about potential injury and death to his allies making him not care for any type of pleasantries. Even if the kryptonian’s midwestern disposition practically demanded them lest he look like a kicked puppy. 

   Clark looked utterly stricken, already having the aura of an apologetic dog who ate part of the couch while you were away. He’d apologize later, but he couldn’t waste even a moment- 

   “Aw sorry, erm, didn’t know you’d be this upset-” 

   What was he- No. Bruce stilled from where he’d been going down the hall, very slowly turning to look at the kryptonian. Him?! Of all the people in the Watchtower- “Clark,” he didn’t know why the kryptonian had paled, he thought his voice was perfectly pleasant. “Did you eat my breakfast, that was clearly labeled?” 

   Well he didn’t look poisoned at least, though that wasn’t going to stop Bruce from tearing him a new one, previous concussion or no. 

Mermay Special Prompt 3

“Are you kidding? No one goes to Gotham, that place is like,” Aquaman made a motion with his hand, a not-quite grimace on his face. “Like things should not be living in the water, like it should be impossible, and things should be dead, but they aren’t and it’s like, like the equivalent of an undead apocalypse over there!” 

Bruce rolled his eyes behind his cowl, taking a sip of his coffee as the others continued drinking. Socialize, they said, it’ll be fine they said. Well excuse him, but the waters weren’t that bad. Sure there were always dumped bodies, and chemicals from the rogue attacks, but it was far worse at one point.

One thing he’ll always be relieved for is how the… curse (thank you broken statuette back in the beginning of his vigilante career that fused with the other many curses of Gotham) made the people of Gotham actually care about the waters around them. 

Though also, he couldn’t help but thank anything that might be listening for the fact that the curse only interacted with Gotham waters, because losing legs with any risk of a drop of water would be downright annoying. 

“No dude, you don’t understand, no one goes there for a reason! That shit is horrific- someone saw a big thing with bits of rebar stabbed straight through it and still chased after a big alligator-thing!” Oh. Oh that had been him. Oops. Hopefully his kids didn’t find out about this, but they were probably already on the cameras. Dammnit. 

[marblesodaa]

Rating fandoms I am/have been in part 1

Gacha: 7/10

Its actually rrly cool and great, but I hate the amount of controversies and ppl that post innaproprate stuff

MHA: 2/10

When I was in it, I was so cringy omgggg. I hate it. Half of the ships are toxic ( yes, even bakudeku and dabi x hawks). I honestly don't even like the anime itself now, I just like SOME characters there (Jirou, Ochako Kinoko). The amount of fujoshis there is, is creepy tbh. Talking about creepy, why do so many ppl there call LITERAL MINORS HOT AND SEXY? Like, what.

Creepypasta: 6/10

Its alright, but we can all agree that its not what it used to be. I was also really edgy back there. But hey it was fun being there, and now that Im back there, its rrly cool! But I mostly hate ppl who simp for creepypatas, like I know the characters ARE fictional, but still, they are serial killers, they murdered people. Yes it is fictional, but if you somehow were in creepypasta world, they wouldnt wamt ro date you, they are only there to kill you, bcuz its pretty much their job.

Animation memes: 7/10

It was actually rrly cool being there, its sad that rn there is so much controversies. I don't think I have anything else to say about that.

Monster High 9.5/10

I don't know if this counts, but monter high fandom is pretty cool and chill. I hate the new reboots, mostly gen 3, gen 2 wasn't good, but it wasn't that bad, yall were just mean tbh. It doesn't have that much drama, except the whole "gen 3" thing. Its fun to be there tbh. But, the reboots aren't really helping and yeah. If atleast they made them good :/ It would be 10/10 if ppl werent THAT ride about the reboots, like I get it, the reboots arent THAT good but sheesh, calm down.

Edit: nvm, I give it 8/10, Also gen 3 isn't bad, gen 2 is the worse, the animation style is really bad, also stereotypical characters, but gen3 is overhated, I only hate the Lagoonas stereotypical song tbh.

DDLC 10/10

There was never really any controversy, and I've been in this fandom for like- 3 years (I think) so yeah. Its a cool game and the fandom is also rrly cool so yeah.

Edit: I give it 9.5/10, only bcuz some dudes there are weirdos and ppl need to leave Natsuki alone 😭

Fnaf 8/10

Its pretty cool, the only thing that I don't kike is- honestly ALL of the ships, the FNAF books are, okay ig. Meh. But I still love it. Theres a thing about FNAF fandom and FNAF its, I don't know how to describe it. Let's be honest tho, when you enter FNAF fandom, theres no way back, no matter how much you try.

[flxttxr]

DATING CONNOR STOLL HCS.

hcs of dating the loveable connor stoll <3

this lovable idiot

okok you may be his beautiful lover but he is NOT gonna stop pranking you, nope

prank him back please,,

anyways i am a firm believer that he kisses you on the hand just to tease you and fluster you

but okay surprise kisses and hugs

like imagine youre just heading out of your cabin for breakfast, you're quite sleepy and you just wanna eat but you feel like a zombie coz you didn't sleep well. you head for your table until you feel two strong arms wrap around you from behind and connor says "morning, love. how did you sleep?" and you feel someone pecking your cheek— and it's connor.

that was long im sorry haha

calls you love,,, you cannot convince me otherwise

cheek kisses and lip kisses are his favourites

his dates are so, so sweet and genuine

like going on camp half blood hill to star gaze and stuff

i feel like he knows a bit about constellations since hes smart yknow

okok so when yall go stargaze,, there's two things you can do in the cold night to stay warm

wear connors sweaters and stuff coz this man is BIG and his clothes are really warm and comfy

or just cuddle up to him in the night

he likes you doing both

PLAY WITH HIS HAIR PLEASE

im telling you his hair is really soft and it feels so nice

CUDDLING <3

yall take turns,, he loves to be spooned and loves to spoon

he likes holding you, he wants you to know you're safe with him in this messed up world of all these monsters. he wants you to know he's by your side, no matter what. you vented to him once about how frightened you were, and he squeezed your hand, and consoled you. "i'll always be here, love, 'til death do us apart. yknow what? even after death, i'll still be there."

he likes getting spooned to know that someone else is there for him as well. it's obvious travis will always be there for him, but he likes knowing that you're there for him too.

please take care of him oh my gosh

he steals things for you

liked that bracelet drew was wearing?? he sees she has like five of those bracelcliets and steals one

gives it you beaming

you know he stoll it and you rush to give it back to drew saying you "saw it lying around'

you scold him (nicely) but he does it a few times,, saying he wants his love happy

so you cant really get mad at him, he's intentions are genuine in a way

HAND HOLDING

okay so all demigods have ADHD, right?

sometimes when he's walking w you while holding his hands he just gently strokes your hand with his thumb. his thumb just goes in circles, stroking the back of your hand. sometimes he just stops in his tracks coz hes so engrossed w hand holding,,

also his hands are sort of rough, and he loves the way how soft your skin feels

and hmm hes a clingy lil shit

pda?? his middle name

he'll cling onto you, kiss you, hug you, no matter what time, place, or what people are there. unless you don't feel comfortable with that stuff of course

anyone fucks with you? they fuck with connor.

zeus save the demigod who decided to pick on you

you probs defended yourself and the demigod went away,,

but oh no connor is pissed

and angy connor is bad news

you try to stop him

he doesn't agree

connor makes the person's life hell, they get the worst pranks

if its someone from the ares cabin,, he is not afraid to throw hands

but you stop him

anyways

this was long

thank you for reading

im a literal simp for this dude <3

[writingwarden]

#FF007F

Part One

Locus x Fem!reader

NSFW- That means minors, YALL NEED TO LEAVE

Word count- 2197

[A/n at the end]

[possessive Locus, switch!reader, switch!Locus, praise kink, Dom/Sub dynamics if you squint, Sub drop, aftercare]

A few months after Locus and I's confessions, I decided I wanted a permanent place to stay. Somewhere I could hide when I have to lay low or for when I just felt like I needed a sense of a normal life. Felix mocked me about it to no end. Saying it was stupid and would be found eventually. Locus however, was oddly supportive of the matter. After that night we officially became what most would call a couple. We didn't let it interfere with work and all in all things were normal. Felix confirmed that he did the one bed thing after some pushing. 

But I bought the place, in cash of course. A small chunk of property with a run down A- Frame house. A nice little project as Siris called it. And I couldn't help but agree. I fixed it up with help from the guys and it was finally a place I could call home. I even managed to get Locus to bring some of his stuff! Considering he'd be over a lot. We still haven't tried anything together yet. I mean, we're both adults and in our line of work you'd occasionally like someone to bed with. But something about this time should feel special. None of us had approached each other about it either. Figuring it would happen naturally. Still, I put myself on birth control just in case.

So I decided that I was going to cook his favourite dinner one night. He had mentioned it the other day on call and I think it will be a nice surprise. He and the others had taken a job a planet over and he had been gone for a week and a half. I was on a job before him, but I didn't get back in time to catch him before they left. It's been almost a month without seeing him in person. 

I try not to be the clingy type, he still dislikes PDA. Everything was private when it came to us. We took care of each other. I noticed that when he could he took control of things and I usually let him. I like being taken care of sometimes. Maybe I should try and take the initiative with something soon. Maybe he'd like it or he wouldn't and would put me in my place. Now that didn't sound so bad. 

I busied myself with preparing the food after I got a call from him. 

"Hey, I figured I'd call to tell you I'll be there in about an hour." He sounded exhausted and I could hear Felix in the back whining about something.

"Oh that's perfect actually! I'll see you soon!" 

"See you soon." And then he hung up. And he was true to his word, almost an hour later he walked in through the door. I noticed how he winced as he set his bags down. Walking up behind me he wrapped his arms around my waist. He said nothing so I swayed back and forth, dancing to an imaginary song. 

"It went so wrong. Capture and turn in this punk to the cops. Then someone wiped him from the files and then Felix had the brilliant idea of asking for ransom. But the kid's dad didn't want him and then he and his whole posse showed up and Felix got shot. It was just a mess." He sighs out, still staring at the fire. 

"Why don't you sit down and I'll bring dinner to you?" I ask while reaching for plates. I hear a small huff of acknowledgement and he walks into the living room. Filling both plates, I walked into the living room to find him staring blankly at the fireplace. It was one of two ways to warm the house and it is the beginning of winter. We eat in silence while I wait for him to tell me about his time away.

That was our main rule, never force the other to talk about what they've done. 

I set my plate down and pulled his head into my chest. "I'm so sorry baby." Was all I could get out.

He pulled himself up and took both our plates to the kitchen. I began to follow him when he looked over his shoulder and told me it was ok, to just go get ready for bed and he'd be there soon. He was always like this, so helpful and stubborn.

Knowing better than to argue with him I go and grab my things to shower, settling on one of his shirts (a dark green one) and a pair of his boxers. He'll never admit it but he loves it when I wear his clothes or his signature colour, so why not wear both. I think it's a territory thing. Like a 'yes, this person is my person and they love me' type of thing. I think it's kinda hot.

 After my shower I enter the bedroom to find him sitting at my desk, reading. Still in his suit, the blazer hanging off the chair and his sleeves rolled up. He looks up at me and smiles a bit.

"Is that my shirt?" 

"Yep and," I lift it up a bit and do a little twirl to show him, "also these!"

He motions for me to come to him and I do. Settling into his lap I can feel his heart beat. It's chaotic, like he just got done running. Leaning in for a kiss I get an idea on how to take his mind off things. Shifting my hips slightly I lean harder into the kiss. I move my hips again, getting a little groan from him. 

"What are you doing?" He asks, looking at me confused.

"Whatcha mean baby?" I say doing it again, this time in a full motion. With that action he grabs my thighs, forcing me to stop. He looks at me sternly and says, "If you keep doing that I will not be able to stop myself." 

"And what if I want that?" His jaw clenches.

"Then take it, you know you can." And with that his lips are back on mine. 

This time I move with purpose and begin to unbutton his shirt. He moves down my throat, kissing and biting wherever he wants. It's like something feral snapped in him as he picks me up and walks over to the bed. 

Sitting down on it and leaning back long enough to get the shirt off of me. Then he's back attacking my chest, taking one nipple into his mouth and kneading the other. His touch was like a torch to my skin. Biting back a moan I fumble with his belt and eventually get it undone. Pulling down his pants and he kicks them off. He pulls back and flips us so he's on top. Now we're both left in our underwear and he asks me "Is this ok?" 

I nod.

"Words pretty thing." 

"Yes," and then I throw in "please" for good measure. 

He doesn't answer but instead pulls down the boxers in one swift motion. His followed soon after. 

Spreading my legs for him, he grins and it's the grin of a predator who's just caught its prey. "That's a good girl." 

Keening at this response I raise my hips to expose myself more, desperate for his touch. "Oh, you like that? When I tell you how pretty you are? How you're such a good toy for me?" 

I nod quickly, hoping he'd finally answer me. He did, pressing a finger into me, but then he stilled. "Tell me what you want, doll." 

"You! I want you inside of me!" I gasp out. 

"Oh you can do better than that, hmm." He adds another finger yet still doesn't move. 

"Please! Fuck me, I'm your to use!" And it would seem those were the magic words. Because he began pumping into me. Grabbing his shoulders I can't control the sounds coming from me. I can feel that knot beginning to build up. And I think he knew too because he takes his thumb and runs circles on that little nub and I exploded. I was seeing stars while he pulled his fingers out. Whining at the loss I pulled myself closer and wrapped my legs around his waist. 

Looking straight into his eyes I said, with no uncertainty, "Fuck me, Sir."

Oh he liked that, he liked that a lot. Looks like I'll be using that more often. His eyes darkened, "You’ll be my downfall." 

"I know." And with that I pushed him onto his back so I was now on top. Grabbing his dick I pumped him a few times, earning the sweetest moans. Positioning myself above him I sunk down. He was stretching me like no other. When I reached the hilt I stopped. "You fit me so perfectly sir," I purr. "Like you were made to please me, such a perfect cock." 

"Take it, it's all for you. Use me pretty girl." He groans out, breathing heavily. Like he was using all his restraint not to take control like we both know he could. So I pull his hands together and place them on the headboard.

"Stay." Was my only command as I pulled off and dropped back down. Repeating my actions I could see his white knuckle grasp on the headboard. I wanted him to snap and with his eyes following my every move it was so easy. Reaching down I began to work on that little nub, not bothering to hide any pleasure gained from it. And that's all it took, his hands were on my hips and he began to slam me on his dick. I could feel a second release build as I squeezed around him. He made a small choked noise. 

Still inside me he flipped us so he was in control again. He lifted up my leg over his shoulder with one hand, the other wrapping around my throat. That helped him reach that little spot inside me. I don't know what gave it away but he shifted so he hit that spot with every thrust. This time when I came my nails scratched down his back, sure to leave marks, and my vision blanked out. Groaning under his breath he stilled, shooting hot streams into me. I felt weightless, almost floaty. Completely blissed out. 

Careful not to crush me as he laid down on my chest we caught our breath together. After a minute he slowly pulled out of me, causing me to whine at the cold that followed his absence. "I'll be right back." He starts towards the bedroom door. And as soon as he's gone my mind races. What if he didn't like that? What if he thinks you're gross now? What if he regrets it and leaves me? My eyes water and I curl into myself in an attempt to disappear. I didn’t want him to leave, I’ve never felt this way about anyone and I start to hate myself for coming dependent on his affection. We were killers for fuck sake, we didn’t have time for love. It was that thought that forced out the tears. 

So stuck up in my head that I didn't notice when he came back, damp towel and water glass in his hand. Yet I could feel him there, observing. "Hey baby, let me get you cleaned up." And he says it so gently that I almost couldn't hear it. After no response he sits on the side of the bed, "Sweetheart I need you back now, come back to me." He says, this time a little louder. I try to focus on the towel against my skin and I'm mostly present by the time he slowly holds the cup up to my mouth for me. The cold liquid soothes my throat and I force myself to look at him.  

And instead of disgust I find nothing but love plastered across his face. He’s looking at me as if I’m the only one in the world. I can’t take it and begin to sob again. Saying nothing he pulls me into his arms and runs his fingers through my hair. “It’s alright, you're experiencing a ‘Sub drop.’ It's ok, it's normal and I’m not mad, let it all out. I'm right here."

So I do and he picks me up, carrying me to the bathroom. I look at him confused while he sets me on the counter. He kisses my forehead and starts to draw a bath. Once the tub is filled and steam has filled the room he picks me up again. Gently stepping into the water he puts my back to his chest. The waters warm and I relax almost immediately. It's funny, tonight was supposed to be about him and his relaxation. Yet here we sit, him whispering sweet affirmations and gently rinsing us off. He had always been so considerate, the idea of an official Dom/Sub dynamic becoming more appealing. I'll ask him about it later. For now, I'll let him fulfil his need to care. 

I don't think I'd trade this for anything. 

 [A/N- More self indulgent fluff. First time writing smut so be nice.]

[xsarcasticwriterx]

Wonderwall-part 2

Summary: Y/n find out something that changes the course of her relationship and life forever.

Pairing: tony stark x reader x bucky barnes

Warnings: angst and angst and angst, panic attack, swearing, some bitter sweet fluff,

note: I know its a weird change cause i went from she/her to you and stuff but i like writing you more than her so here we are pfft also i mention civil war but this story doesn't fit in the timeline it just fit for the scenario.

Wonderwall masterlist

You and tony sat on the ship with IVs being stuck into you. bucky sat next to you “hey... wanna talk about it? he ask softly. you shake your head. “not now not yet” you say with tears falling down your face. you had cheated on him. you cheated on the love of your life the person you'd been with for 3 years. Not only that but with someone who has tried to kill bucky on multiple occasions. Tony moved next to you. “Hey...” he said with a sigh. “Promise me we will never ever tell them about this” you say with a panic. he nods frantically. “that's exactly what i was going to say.” and with that you two spent the rest of the time in silence.

You sat in your room. It was 4 days after you got back. you felt weird and had been getting sick for the past few days. The others assumed it was due to your body still adjusting to being on land with consistent water and food. but you had other ideas as to why this could be happening.

Your hands shook as you paced the room. “fuck fuck fuck ok it'll be ok” you said to yourself. you walked into the bathroom and opened the pregnancy test box. panic was all you felt as you took it. you set a timer and walked back to your room. you continued to pace. what would you do if you were pregnant. what would you tell buck? what would you tell tony?! you two promised not to tell anyone. the timer went off. you put your head into your hands. “ok its probably negative i mean what are the chances” you say walking back to the bathroom. you heart was going at a pace that was scary. your whole body was shaking. you grab the test and flip it over.

positive.

you stared at the 2 lines. you felt tears fall down your face and your breathing become rapid. a panic attack that's what this was. you fell to the ground as your breathing became uneven. “no no no no no” you say getting louder. you curl up and feel your whole body shake. you try desperately to grab for every breath but its like inhaling nothing. you start to cough from lack of oxygen and tears. snot ran down your face. you grab onto your hair and scream into your legs. the door immediately opens and bucky rushes to your side. 

“hey its ok im here” he says putting his hand on your shoulder. “count with me ok” he says. you barely hear him it's like being underwater but you nod with what strength you have. “ now 1″ he says. “1″ you reply dryly your throat is dry and your lungs feel empty.

you two count to 10 slowly. you gradually catch your breath. the shaking stops and you feel more exhausted than ever. he pulls you close. “wanna talk about it?” he ask kindly. you look down seeing the pregnancy test and bucky sees it too. he grabs it and turns it over. his breathing gets deeper and he stands up. he walks back and forth and nods. “tony?” he ask with an angered tone. you nod. his nodding and pacing gets faster. 

he walks out the room. you stand up quickly and chase after him. “buck bucky don't” you say quickly seeing him walk towards the one door that would fuck up everything. he nods hard and fast. You feel the tears fall faster and faster. “bucky stop it!” you yell at him. Tony opens the door and immediately is met with a metal fist. “fuck!” tony says holding his nose. Bucky pushes him again which shoves tony down. bucky get on top and keeps hitting him. “bucky! stop!” you say going towards him you try to just pull him but that does nothing.ok next plan. you grab his shoulders “Stop!” you say using your powers. 

you keep pulling him and he does stop. he falls back into your lap. “you promised me you'd never use your powers on me” he says looking up at you. “i'm sorry buck” you say tears falling still. his head falls back onto your stomach. tony looks up at you his face bloody and beat. the metal fist definitely did not help. he looks at you confused. “im pregnant” you say to him. you see his eyes widen. “wha-what” he says shaking his head. 

“shes fucking pregnant with your damn child” bucky says trying to pull out of your arms. you panic and hold him with all your strength. “sleep” you say feeling him go limp in your arms. tony just blinks looking down at the floor. “your....” he says trailing off. his breathing gets deeper.

Doors open in the hall. natasha is the first to come out then steve. Bruce slowly emerges. Wanda and vision come out in a worry. Clint is the last to come out hes geared up ready for a fight. “what's going on?” nat asks. they see tony and bucky's bloody fist. “I thought we were past this?” steve ask in a panic. you look up at wanda and natasha. 

Steve takes bucky away from your lap and takes him to the main room and lays him on the couch. You stand up with natasha and wanda's help. vision,clint, and bruce still look concerned but less worried. “anyone gonna tell us what happened?” clint ask.  

Bruce hands tony a rag to put on his possibly broken nose. “uh let's go sit on the couch.”  wanda says leading you to the main room. bruce helps tony to the couch. “I should...” you say nodding to bucky. They nod as you slowly go to him. you put your hands softly on his head. “wake” you say and immediately bucky shoots up angry and tears edging his eyes.

“buck buck hey calm” steve says grabbing bucky's shoulders. Buck stares at steve angrily. “sooo?” clint ask sitting on the couch. nat and wanda sat down too. you were in front of all of them. “tony and I spent a month and a half up there.” you start off. everyone sits up more. neither you or tony had spoken of your time up there sense yalls return. 

“We saw no end and I was about to have a meet and greet with death himself. Tony was giving up his food and water to keep me going” you say looking down messing with your hands. “I don't understand why this led to bucky beating she shit out of tony.” Clint ask. “let her finish” steve said. “We got closer than ever and had agreed that there was no chance at us returning. We were desperate to stop the pain to just be with someone be cared for before the end. We slept together.” you state. bucky's breathing gets more rapid and his hands form fist. everyone starts to yell at tony natasha tried to silence it which only made her a target.

“Shut up!” you say yelling at them. They look at you surprised. “shut up before we end up with another battle and let me fucking finish what the hell i'm saying before attacking tony which by the way it takes two to tango so shut up please.” you say looking at the floor hands making fist. everyone turns to you and shuts up even bucky and tony.

“Now I am pregnant with tony child. Now before you all start yelling and attacking tony just try to understand the situation.” you say. “Understand the situation?!” bucky yells. steve tries to calm him. “no no just no ok. He mmm he saw her vulnerability and used it!” bucky says standing up and pointing at tony.

“Buck no that's not it he didn't do that. I saw a world without you with no one except me and tony on that stupid ship dying slowly and mercilessly.” you say feeling tears falling again. natasha stood up and walked to you. “I know your pissed as hell at tony and at y/n but right now” she points at tony “you are going to be a father” and she points at bucky “and if you stay, which i think you should, are going to be a step father so let's just try to deal with that right now.”

Natasha held you by her side. Bruce stood up “I’ll help it whatever way I can.” he said. “me too” clint said standing. “I will too” vision said standing. Wanda stood “You always got me.” she said with a small smile. steve looked at bucky then tony and then you. He sighed and stood up “you got me too” he said with a nod. 

you swallow “thank you all of you” you say softly then look to tony and bucky. “You definitely have me i'm not going to bail on my child just because its a complicated situation.” tony said standing up. bucky let a soft growl out. “buck?” you ask hesitantly. He looks up at you and shakes his head. He walks off and soon yall hear a door slam.

You dropped your head. “Give him time” nat whispered to you. you nod. she nods to steve and steve nods and walks after bucky. natasha takes you to your room nodding to tony who nods back and walks to the kitchen. sittin on your bed you look down at your stomach. there's a person in there well soon they'll be. nat sat next to you “how're you feeling?” she ask. “I don't know...Im going to have a child and it's not the child of who i always pictured it as. I broke the love of my life's heart and broke tony and I’s promise.”

“bucky just needs time is all steve is talking to him and i'm sure tony understands that you couldn't keep it a secret you two made that promise when you didn't know you were pregnant and don't worry you have all of us here to help and protect you.” nat said. “I’m an avenger...I had a father who used me as a testing subject and gave me powers i couldn't control till i was 17 how am i supposed to be a parent? Their father is a billionaire who is ready to die at any shot and their possible step father was born in 1917 and was brainwashed to be a murderer.” you spew out.

“you'll be ok we are all broken and a mess but together we can raise this child. I promise. We will figure it out” she says rubbing your arm. The door opens and in comes tony with a glass of water. “figured you could use this” he says walking towards you. nat looks at you and you nod. she stands up and walks out. 

Tony sits next to you. “i'm sorry” you say immediately scared of tony being angry. “no no don't apologize you had to say something its not like you could just avoid questions when your stomach grows.” he says with a chuckle. “y/n i want you to know i am going to be the best damn father i can be and if you and bucky stay together...because you and bucky will stay together i know he will have a huge role in that child's life and i'm so glad they get 3 parents who love them more than anything in this world. I will protect the with my life I will not die for them. I will live for them.” 

“Tony...” is all you can get out through choked sobs. you hug him holding him close. “thank you” you say pulling away “what about pepper?” you ask concerned. “I’ll tell her just need to let this” he moves his hand to the room “settle before any more people get mad” he says. the door slowly opens and an exhausted, messy haired, red eyed, wrapped hand, bucky opens the door. upon seeing tony he sighs.

“can I speak to her alone?” he says with no emotion. tony nods and walks past bucky out of the room. tony closes the door behind him and walks towards the bed.

he sits next to you and sighs. “buck-” you starts but he cuts you off “don't....let me speak” he says. “I am pissed as hell at you dont get me wrong...but i understand...you didn't see a possibility as being back here all you saw was death. I will be the best step father i can and the best boyfriend i can be. I am far from forgiving you but I still love you and I don't want us to end and this child is amazing news even if they aren't mine. I will be as much of a father to this kid as I can be and I will raise them as my own. I'm here for the long run.” he says looking at you. you smile and hug him. “I love you too bucky...thank you” you say. 

This journey was far from over but for now the world felt damn good. This kid would have 3 parents who love them more than anything or anyone in this world.

[colour-outside-the-liness]

Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!

The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂

Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:

I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨

Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!

https://pin.it/UcHVlkq

Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).

Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!

I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.

Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨

Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a

great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️

[hubariatheantiquitor]

Some Shipping Charts

I live in a universe where I don't have to introduce my OCs, I can just write about them and people will love them. But Uh... Here we are... I guess.

I've got stuff for Keiran and Finch, I also have some new Couples For myself I guess, Amos Kathrine and Elfinnia, (though I might not write for Elfie as much at first I'm still figuring her out... I see you looking, i will figure her out, that is a promise and a threat). I might... I might write some fanfic (Various fandoms) for reader inserts, I'm not afraid no sir, that'd be ridiculous...

Anyway Oc stuff under the cut I guess

Keiran and Finch, my beloveds.

Art For Keiran is done by my dear friend @koi-n-central-rp we dont have Finch art because we dont, he's handsome I promise... Either way

Keiran is an Immortal elf man who likes to cause mischief for the people around him, he's had a very rough past and is still working through his issues. He doesn't know he's an Archfey, I dont quite remember how he finds out that he is one but for the most part he kind of just lives his life thinking he's cursed with something akin to true immortality and deals with that by committing crimes and sleeping with your local government official.

Finch darling, is the High Mage of Aetheridge, which doesn't mean a damn thing to anyone but my friends, and not even to the folks reading the comic yet, but either way, He is your local government official is what I'm getting at, he's the youngest member of the council and drowns himself in work, he's a wizard we all love a wizard, and he's just kind of a guy, just a human guy, his romance with Keiran caught everyone by surprise cause, 'That guy? falling in love with the devilish rogue that pisses off Lavinia, insane' yet here they are making out on your counter, sorry it's true, I was the toaster.

Kathrine Elizabeth Ward, Amos Adler, and Elfinnia Mildew

I love them so much your honor, I made Amos up on accident, and I've hit the point in my relationship with him where I'm hurting him mentally and physically for the plot, the average life cycle of a Hubris oc I know.

Better yet, yall will get the hang of it when we get around to it, cause there is a pattern and I will *never* fail to follow it because I'm not a coward.

Moving on

Kathrine Elizabeth Ward was a player character for a Cowboy dungeons and Dragons campaign, she is a Warlock, she had a pact Weapon (a hunting rifle) and her patron was a shadowy demon thing that first introduced itself as a mother for Kathrine, and they've been together for 12 years. Kathrine's, unique situation is that Mother came to her after the death of her actual real mother and offered to take the pain in exchange for teaching Kathrine how to take care of herself, Kathrine agreed not knowing that along with the pain Mother took everything else with it, and feeds off of her emotional energy, rendering Katherine, Literally emotionless. I love her Immensely your honor.

Elfinnia Mildew, was @koi-n-central-rp 's character for that same cowboy campaign, she is an elven ranger/fighter, and She is the oldest in the group obviously, her mother passed away long before the campaign started from, illness if I'm remembering correctly, and she was left to fend for herself, (with her trusty companion Sally Mae) Ms. Elfinnia is out of touch, and has trouble reading, but she's learning, and she's literally the sunshine of this romantic situation.

Amos Adler... need I say more your honor,

I will, dont look at me like that, Amos Adler, is an Orc Blooded Bounty hunter from a small nowhere town, he's our 'outlaw with a heart' and he's been doing this since the ripe old age of 16. Despite his Orc blood Amos looks rather human, one could mistake him for a half-elf, with the short point of his ears, He doesn't know his parents and doesn't care to, prefers to spend his time alone with his horse Pearl, that being until he's forced to work with Ms. Finny, and Ms. Kathrine, he takes to them more than hed ever imagined he would, Regardless he's our 'Bad Boy' romance option your honor.

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

So...

Just found out this cocky lil dick I already had declared in my head as an asshole, jerkoff know it all who's struggling to cope after his wife's divorce...

Just switched his hair style from low cut 40s to a 20s Mohawk. And he went from wearing khakis to grey camouflage joggers looking like the next adventure of "Where's my dad, Tony hawk" and this idiot had already jump ahead of me just to put his box in a trailer 1st while I had already waited in line after my other coworkers.

He just disrespected one of the guy coworkers I just seem to get along well with since we like needy stuff like anime and dealt with parent trauma....yea we've talked about personal issues before...seemingly as we kept running into each other during these 12hr shifts.

So naturally we just walk, talk, and look for more blue lights to unload.

Like a lil brother cause I'm 5yrs older. But anywho the asshole I'm talking about wasn't my coworker-friend...this guy's name is Nathaniel. My coworkers name I probably won't even mention as such unless I feel like we could be friends outside of work, but rn I'm unsure. Still too early to say...

Nathaniel works in palletizing area and we're in water spider. And Nathaniel is a team leader who sometimes does unloading in water spyder....like sparsely. He comes up to my coworker and says hey what have you been doing over here? I haven't seen you do anything in awhile....but he's done this before, but not this snarky. He basically said you're supposed to fix the printers just because he found one printer that he actually needed to use that didn't work, so Nathaniel did it himself (meanwhile not even knowing that they don't train us or any of the team leaders to clean the jammed paper in our sticker printers)

He goes and talks shit, but couldn't even finish fixing the printer himself, because Ms. Andrea finished it right after he couldn't figure out why it kept making more copies of his stickers. Mr. Know-it-all. My coworker told me last time he said something disrespectful like that he said water spider are for lazy people, but we don't pick to go here....so why the fuck is he hating on us when the packages from upstairs control our production....not us? Shut the fuck and stick to growing your balls back since your wife technically took half of it.

And I told my coworker that he needs to check him next time and pull him to the side, cause otherwise he's gonna keep doing it. Just because he's older doesn't mean shit, we're all grown here. Address him professionally, but correct him like you already know yall want the same level of respect.

But my coworker told me that as I was standing next to Ms. Andrea around the time they were trying to fix the printer....he said he saw Nathaniel looked at my ass, and then my face, then looked at him and winked. And it was probably with cocky lil short lip smirk he does too. He said he's never seen him do that 😳 and was surprised by how he just went from that to that.

And I totally agree, that's like watching somebody's personality switch and the mask comes off.

This guy, I looked at him like you would as just a teacher you don't like, an old man I would never dare procreate with or get one off of....don't like his uppity attitude. And our other favorite team leader who trained us, and is about the same age as Nathaniel already knows he's an asshole too, but he's smart enough to know you can't fight him because of corporate rules.

I was so grossed out when he told me I wanted vomit and kick his ass, because his other side is coming out. And I noticed how low his confidence seemed after the first two weeks, now with this new haircut and clothes he feels like he can disrespect me and get away with it by looking at me and my ass like it's his to judge. I feel gross.

But I also feel pretty dumbfounded...how come at the warehouse I feel numb when I'm off these herbs and its 2 o'clock in the morning?

Is it because I know I'm better than he is, just some jerk who feels like he needs hid power back and is probably looking at every other pretty Thang here the same way??

Or is it because I just looked at a girl's ass in leggings like two or three times and felt like I was low key hypocritical?

But I would never do no bold shit like that and Nathaniel is fake af. And probably this other team leader too who's the captain of water spider. I didn't even know he was captain yet and after my first two shifts he goes to ask me how old I am and do I have kids? And then asked me was I on Facebook dating? (I later on found out he swiped right on me before I deleted the app) and then talks about the girls who he has slept with and called them hoes, showing me their pictures and bragged about fucking this 18yr old girl as if it was an accomplishment for being 30yrs old and still fucking bitches regularly.

I said yea you sound like the non-committal type and he said yep. I'm so glad I didn't swipe right before I started this job, Mr. Water Spyder Captain.

He still tries to talk to me every so often, but I noticed he nosey af since I told him I was pan.

I don't share alot with nobody there really. Unless it's Ms. Andrea or the other male coworker friends who I started training with. There's only a few other girls there I could see me being friends with but we're just in different departments so we just wave and have small talk and I'll crack a joke open in there or too about production or something.

When I do get sleepy, I tend to do like walking alone just so I don't get as easily stressed and worrying about kicking someone's ass if shit pops off a certain way cause I get irritable and it takes energy to talk about something wayyy too deep in the night.

My head hurts and sometimes I get those headaches in the center of my head and eye twitching.

But today, I feel a whole lot better after that 6hr long nap, instead of 4.

Nathaniel gonna get his turn to get cracked on and it probably won't be me.

We gonna see. If he would have said anything innappropiately to me directly I would have corrected his ass on spot. Cause I don't play that sexist shit where you get to sat anything you want like nooooo fuck that. And I won't bullshit a smile neither.

[taesthetes]

Hi! It's jilt anon again ,, and I forgot to mention (even tho this is smth in the medical field) I've always loved the idea of being a psychological therapist. A lotta ppl who are in therapy always say that they hate their therapist or that they don't need it, but I've always loved the idea of helping people. I've gone thru tough times , and I still am , I'm very insecure and some people might say "wow you think you're ugly big deal" but it's resorted to some ways that I'm not very proud of- 1/1

(omg I put 1/1 it’s supposed to be a ? Apologies) 2/? -nowadays, people my age are going thru tough times, and I’ve always wanted to help people who struggle too. Since I’m probably never ever gonna come off anon, I’ll just rant on here (if that’s okay if it’s not just say so) I’m only 13 and ppl might think I’m over acting or whatever but what I think so what I think so screw yall haters. I’m a very self conscious person, and I used to have an eating disorder -

(3/?) - its not super extreme where I starved myself to the bone, I’ve never had the will to do that to myself, I’ve resorted to not eating breakfast and if I do, I bring it w me into the car and to school and I throw it away once class starts, I skipped lunch, and I ate less than half of my plate during dinner. I’ve stopped that, but I’m still insecure and only eat dinner everyday. I have monsters in my head, and nothing is worse than waking up in morning to realize that its another day-

(4/?)-to hide myself. At first I started to wear makeup to hide my face , but after a year Its become my passion, and I actually love applying it. I still get shit for wearing it bc apparently I “try too hard” but I do my best to igngote it. I’ve never thought I was good enough, and honestly I still don’t. I’m only 13 but people my age are going thru stuff like this too, and it’s hard. My parents don’t know, and the only person I can talk to is my friend who knows what I’m going thru -

(5/?) I’ve never really had a best friend too?? Or I’ve never been anyone’s best friend. Something like that, I have a lot of regular friends, but I don’t know what it’s like to be able to talk to someone in the middle of the night, to have a sleep over w someone other than my cousin, to tell secrets to someone, I’ve never known what that’s like. I’m sorry if I seem like I’m trying to get a pity party, but I just wanted to rant. Sometimes the thoughts in my head become to much -

(6/6) and I have to break a razor. And omg I feel like an attention whore but thank you so much for taking time to respond and read. Idk what the world would do w/o ppl like you 😦 have an amazing day!! (I saw your selfies and omfg you’re beautiful!!) -jilt anon

hey, sunflower!! how have you been? i’m gonna put my answer under the cut because it got really long oops

oooh, that’s a great major; two of my friends are majoring in psychology and want to become therapists as well! and being a psychological therapist is definitely a wonderful way to help people. but oh sunflower, i’m sorry you had to go through insecurities and having insensitive people be unkind ): that’s really rude of them to say such things, and i really hope they stopped being hurtful.

(and that’s ok!! 1/1 just reminds me of shinee’s 1 of 1 so it’s all good aha) but yes, i agree; everyone i know is incredibly stressed out and going through their personal issues, so therapists are really helpful. and yes, you’re always welcome to rant to me! i’m always here to listen if you ever want to talk :) i don’t think you’re overacting at all. regardless of age, everyone has their battles.

first off, i’m so sorry you had to go through all this. eating disorders are awful, and i had thoughts about starving myself when i was younger, but i’m thankful my past self never did it in the end. and, i’m really glad you’re getting better. it’s great that you’ve taken the step of fully eating during dinner time, and i really hope you start to eat for breakfast and lunch as well. it doesn’t have to be a big meal; start small with maybe a banana for breakfast? or a fruit smoothie? and maybe some carrots and dip for lunch? and slowly expand your lunch from there? i really don’t want you skipping meals ): it’s not good for your body, but i’m proud that you are now eating dinner! keep going! you can get through this, sunflower!! 

i know it’s hard to get rid of your insecurities immediately, but it’s a gradual process of building up your self esteem. something i like to do is to give myself one compliment every day or accomplish something everyday. it doesn’t have to be something grand. you can say something like “i took a shower today. i took care of myself well today.” i too have those monster thoughts sometimes, and it takes baby steps to build up your confidence, but i know, one day, you’ll wake up and feel proud of yourself.

and that’s amazing!! i think it’s so cool that you love makeup. i always think it would be fun to be able to blend and create different looks, but i’m not very good at makeup unfortunately. usually, my sister or my friends do it for me if it gets fancier than eyeliner and mascara. just ignore all those people, sunflower /: you do you, and wear all the makeup you want if you love it. i’m proud of you for doing what makes you happy and paying no attention to those people. 

i know you might not want to do this, but i really think you should talk to your parents about this if you’re struggling a lot. your parents will want to help you, and they can get you help if you need it. but i’m glad you have someone to talk to about this!

having close friends and not a best friend is good, too. and you have your cousin! you mentioned that she was your best friend before, i believe? so you are having sleepovers and sharing secrets with your best friend :D and there’s no need to apologize! i’m always here to listen to whatever you’d like to say. and omg please don’t use a razor. please, please, please, if you ever have thoughts of using a razor, please come and talk to me instead. i’m always here for you.

and please don’t think of yourself that way! thank YOU for always stopping by and talking to me! i enjoy talking to you :) asdkjhfas you’re too kind omg thank you so much and i hope you have a lovely day, too!! 😦 (and thank you adjkfahsdf i’m sure you’re just as gorgeous if not more!)