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[essensualneeds]

[yellowcry]

Hay que partir y construir su propio futuro

It wasn't getting better. She wasn't okay. She was broken and torn apart.

TW: Suicidal thoughts

Alma gripped her down, half sitting in the bed. Her heart kept bouncing back-and-forth, cracking inside her chest. She felt bad. Awful. A viscous feeling crawled inside her bones. Sick and pained agony that knotted her organs. It was dark. The solid shutters were closed tightly, not allowing the dark light to push inside the room.

There was a bitter taste on her mouth. Cold fingers stuck into her heart, squeezing it. The juice was coming out, disgusting and broken. Just like everything. Lifeless finders held her lungs tightly, not allowing her to breathe.

People had said the pain would go away. Like the paint washed off in the clean water. But it didn't work. Alma only felt this water getting more and more dirty. But her soul still was bedraggled. Torn like an old dress that could only be used as a floor rag. She remembered Pedro standing in front of her. Just one second ago. And then it all disappeared. Torn, broken. Never to be repaired. If you try to stitch it together it would just be torn at the seam even worse than before. If she closed her eyes, she could still see that river. She could feel a rough shore underneath her. The grains of sand digging into her arms. Feel her own screams tearing her throat

 

It wasn't getting better. It was never getting better. Something inside of Alma, something essensual for her to live wasn't here. It would never be here. Stains grew under her skin. Like a bunch of worms that couldn't stop wriggling. Always here to remind of the pain that ripped her brain in half. Claws that smashed her scull, squeeze out her eyes.

She didn't save Pedro. She allowed him to die. Was she any better than these riders that broke peace in their hometown? No, no. She really wasn't any better. Maybe even worse. They didn't know what a wonderful person Pedro was. But Alma knew. And she didn't stand up for him. She should've been dead. She should... Alma was worst ib everything. She was torn. Broken like that candle that she wanted to smash against the ground. But it didn't help. Of course. It always was here, never even melting. It was so hard to even look at it. Let alone rememver the meaning. A wedding candle that tied Alma to a useless piece of a thread. It strangled the tip of her finger, threating to chop it off. Cut into the meat.

Alma dug her nails into her wrist, so hard that the small patches of bruises grew from the pressure. She couldn't do this. She couldn't do this. She was wrong, she was broken. Shattered. She didn't feel better. She couldn't let go. The pain would never let her breathe. Never let her be Alma again. It was here, always here. Pedro's dead voice would never leave her head. Nightmares would never let her go. These when she saw her dear Pedro being slashed. Where no matter how fast Alma ran, she could never get closer to him. She could stand one hand away from Pedro, and it would be the biggest distance in the world.

She should be dead. She deserves to die. She's an awful mother, wife. An awful person. Pedro would be alive if it wasn't for her. Alma could've saved him. But she was too selfish. A coward that allowed him to die. It would be so much better if she didn't exist. Maybe go out amd drown herself in a lake. Heavens knew she would faint if she tried to stab herself (like Pedro was). But water at least held some symbolism too. It would be so much better for everyone She was an awful person. She was a broken plate. A stabbed cocoon of a dead butterfly. Maybe she wasn't even alive. Just a breathing corpse that rotted inside.

She should've been dead, she should...

 

Alma froze as somebody pulled her by the sleeve. For a second she felt her heart stopping.

"Mamí sad?" Julieta looked up at her. Both of her siblings were still asleep. But she was an earlier riser, already awakened before the sun could even come out.

 

Alma let out a shaking breathe. What was she thinking about? She wanted... She almost... How could she even think of leaving her kids alone? Make them orphans? God... She was a really bad mother. What if Pepa had found her body? What if Bruno didn't sleep for days because of nightmares if Alma wasn't here to wipe off his fears?

"It's okay, Julita." Alma pat her daughter's head, blinking back the tears. She couldn't die. She had to be dead, but she couldn't die. Her keds needed a mother. Their community needed a leader. Why was Alma so selfish to want an escape? She had to pay for the sacrifice. To make sure it wouldn't be spent on nothing. "Are you wake up already?"

Alma wasn't supposed to be alive. But she couldn't die either. As long as her kids connected her to the ground below. Tying her tight. It wasn't good. It didn't fix anything, but it was a reason of why Alma couldn't just die. The pain wasn't going to set her free. Allow her to inhale in a full chest. But she had to survive. Today and all the days after this. No matter how hard it was. Even if it felt pointless. She had to survive. For Julieta. For Pepa. And for Bruno. They didn't actually need her. But they didn't realize it yet. And Alma couldn't just torn it from them. Even if anyone else would be a better mother that she is. They were too young to understand it.

Alma wasn't supposed to be alive, but she must be alive. For their sake.

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I like imagining an 80s workout video with a bunch of Waddle Dees doing dance steps and cheerfully teaching you how to make a delicious Fountain of Dreams cocktail!!

Lyrics from WiKirby are under the cut just in case you want them!

Japanese Romaji:

Ōkina gurasu o dashite izumi de araimashou

Orenji no ohisama wa "furīzu" de shābetto ni shite

Makishimutomato usuku suraisu genki dorinku bēsu ni sosoide

Pepāminto no umi de watte sakki no ohisama ukabemasu

Sutāroddo de sotto ni san-kai kakimazete

Manatsu no kaori ga suru kakuteru no dekiagari!

Makkana ringo morai jūsu o tsukurimashou

Hanmā te ni irete muteki no kyandi o kudaite

Gurasu no soko ni irete okimasu Kirakira-boshi no essensu kuwae

Ringojūsu o sosoide kara Wāpusutā ue ni kazarimasu

Chīsana koe de sotto pupupu to jumon itte

Negai ga min'na kanau kakuteru no dekiagari!

English Translation:

Take out a big glass and wash it in the fountain

Take the orange sun and "Freeze" it with sherbet

Add thinly-sliced Maxim Tomato to a Pep Brew base

Dilute it in a sea of peppermint and let it float in the sun for a while

With the Star Rod, gently stir it a couple of times

When it smells like midsummer, the cocktail is ready!

Make some juice out of bright red apples

Take a Hammer and crush some Invincible Candy

Add the essence of Sparkling Stars and let them sink to the bottom

After pouring in the apple juice, put a Warp Star on top

In a soft voice, say "Pupupu"

Everyone's wishes came true, the cocktail is ready!

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Alexa Rae

Born Mary Sharpton in December 1980, in Atlanta, Georgia, United States, Alexa was an was an avid horse rider growing up and participated in national competitions. During her teenage years she also modeling work for various companies including Guess Jeans. At age 18 she moved into the adult industry as a dancer under the name Fantasy at the Gold Club in Atlanta. She made the switch into the hardcore film industry in 1998 as a contract girl for Wicked Pictures Alexa also tarted her own erotic novelty toy line called Essensual Elements. In 2003 she won an AVN Award for Best Couples Sex Scene. Alexa also made appearances as a video vixen in the music videos Uncomplicated by Lo-Ball and Work It by Nelly with Justin Timberlake. She retied from the hardcore industry in 2006, but continued to appear in softcore nude videos from Peach until the end of the decade.

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