#DON'T be worried about this lol I'm genuinely doing great. I wrote this last year and this year I've made some big changes to my life!

[kerryweaverlesbian]

I want to throw myself into a ravine.

Google image search: Ravine, safe search off

Google image search: bruises

Google image search: head trauma, bones through skin, blood on rocks, teeth knocked out, promises broken, returning, returning from whence I came.

Wikihow: How to identify a ravine.

Wikihow: How to set a broken bone.

Wikihow: How to take my feet from the ground and fall forwards, weighted, gravity’s bitch, how to pummel the ground with my soft small body until it relents and hurts me back, how to take the impact and know it is mine and mine alone.

Yahoo answers: Why am I like this?

Yahoo answers: No, really, why am I like this? What’s wrong with my life that I’m afraid to truly live it? Where is Destiny, where is Chaos, where is the will to, the drive to, the need, the call, the truth?

Yahoo answers: Why didn’t I do it?

[1d1195]

Part 5 was amazing bestie!!!! It was so good, I can’t! I was very excited to read how their date would go and it really didn’t disappoint. Loved how they needed to talk somethings out and I thought Harry asking the big question “why” was very fitting! It happened out of nowhere from his perspective so I def think he deserves some explanation on it. Kinda wild that he would even think she would go on a date with him with her having a bf or a fiancé but I get his hurt! Also I think it’s so adorable how she’s writting about their love story 😭

Also didn’t expect smut at all?!? Genuinely shocked when I read the little warnings lol BUT once again it was fitting for them! The neediness of both of them I think expresses their emotions beyond just sexual attraction! And ya know what I fear I too would just combust that easily if Harry praised me like that HAHA I GET HER!

Very much loved this new part Sam! So excited to see how they develop!!! You did great as always!!

Also I think it’s always nice to have somethings for ourselves but I do think if you feel comfortable enough talking about your writing I think there’s no shame in that! You can always say you “journal” like writing is therapeutic!

Sadly there is no hot anyone this time around😔 must find my motivation elsewhere lol hopefully the fall though lol they seem a bit easier though they have way more tiny assignments which is just a bit much lol

Hope you have the loviest of week/weekend! Wishing you the best!!!-💜

Ahhh! I'm so glad you enjoyed it! HE'S JUST A BOY he is so infatuated and jealous I think he would have seriously just exploded if she was with someone else 🤭 I mean she is me and she can't stop writing about Harry 🤷‍♀️ It's a blessed curse, I'd say and I don't blame her at all. He's easy to write about 😉 I love real talks of course that's why these parts get so lengthy. You're very right and I hadn't fully grasped that tbh. It really was out of nowhere for him. I never really thought of that! He def deserved an emotional talk then hehehehe

Okay full disclosure I was most likely ovulating when I wrote this part (it's one of the first sections of the story I wrote) and I don't know if smut was the right move but I absolutely don't regret it because I really think I would let Harry Styles do unspeakable things to me in public and/or private it's very embarrassing but that's why I have a screen to hide behind. BUT ANYWAY. I think after three years they were both likely to be very desperate and it's very obvious they've never stopped loving one another so I just let it happen lol (I think if Harry called me beautiful I would cease to exist so an O seemed less aggressive in a sense 🤣)

I hope you'll like the last couple parts! I've been a bit worried about part 6 more than 7 (Part 7 also has a huge chunk that I wrote from the very beginning of the idea of this, so)

That's a great idea why didn't I think to just LIE and tell people I'm journaling 🤣 You're so smart 💕

UGH well it's a short time frame anyway. It would be devastating to have someone hot to look at but only for a 5 weeks (instead of 10, right?) Tiny assignments is a lot but I'm glad it seems a bit easier. You had me worried at the end of your last classes so I'm very happy they're easier! 💕

I hope you have an amazing weekend planned! Love YOU! 💕