#DO hit me up. I WILL send it & I'll NEVER be mad abt you sending /me/ things from memes I haven't rbed either

[patchiko]

comic!jason todd x m!indie rock singer/guitarist reader

cold weather - glass beach

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🪐⁠☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ contents ; hc’s totally not based off glass beach lyrics haha thats so cheesy whaat lololo…

I love the way you make me feel when I’m staring at my screen.

At 4AM, trying not to fall asleep

And you hit me up just to see if I’m OK

JASON TODD CODED SOOO BAAADD

literally how the crushes form for both sides

jason has like an inner psyche where he just fuckin knows when youre awake

if you ask him he’ll probably say something stupid like ‘i can hear your (guitar)/(voice)’ and he’s nowhere around you

and his heart throbs whenever you two stay texting for waayy tooooo loonggg, starts cheesing and shit

NEERRRDD

average jason todd text

When I keep you up sending Mamegoma Lines

You know it's shit like that that makes me wanna be alive

JASON TODD CODED LINE. CANON CANON.

he responds through his helmet while he’s kicking ass

it gets so common to a point where he ends up having a full blown convo w/ you using those stupid fuckin stickers

bug him late at night !!

he’ll tell you to gts but he’d be lying if he says it doesn’t make his heart melt when u send him these little fucks.

So I'll call in sick again just to spend the day with you

100% he’ll call a day off to hang with you

whether its showing up to your show then hitting a bar, 100%,

i need jason todd in a relationship where he just drops everything for his s/o,

fuck the mission!! he wants to listen to those fucking vocals for an hour or you shredding ur guitar!!

he’s fucking around in an arcade with you till 11pm

hes a little ass at mario kart, better with motorcycle games,

BRING HIM TO ANY SHOOTER ONES WHERE U HOLD THE GUN AND UR GETTING WAAAASHHHEDD.

he has the most fun with the halo ones or the walking dead ones

weirdly good at the multiplayer pacman games

AMAZING AT GALAXIA ILL DIE ON THIS HILLL

Wanna say I think it's so gay that we really both feel the same way

That I feel like we're more than just friends

It took too long to realize

I didn't miss the cold weather, I just missed you

Jason was never homophobic and or totally against the idea of him being gay

i dont think he was ever in a gay relationship b4 you two

bc most of the vigilante guys he met were trying to fight him or absolute dick heads,

n’ most of the male figures in his life weren’t the absolute best.

so there wasn’t tooo much room for crushing on a guy too easily

if you’d ask him abt his sexuality its smthn like ‘i think im straight but i dunno what if im not.’

heres how i think it starts ;)

you’re preforming at a bar, n’ ofc jason todd can admit when a guys cute/attractive, any guy could do that

and maybe its ur guitar or your vocals but he cant stop watching (he convinces himself its your talent which is reasonably not gay)

maybe one coincidence leads to another and you two chat and go out at times, he pulls up to your shows more.

and the whole time he thinks he’s just acknowledging that your a very attractive person,

notthin crazy to admit ya homie has mad kisssble lips after starin at them for a sec too long. lol. haha. hm.

and i think the thought really hits him when he’s out of gotham for a mission. and he’s craving your presence

he texts you but you dont respond, fuck right you have a show and the timezone difference—

n he gets fuckin, ANTSY and SAD.

he tries to smoke a cig to fuck off

but he cant stop thinking about that one night where he brings you to his favorite rooftop view of the city,

how those sly stupid jokes slip from your mouth like honey,

the way you glance at him and the moonlight on your skin

how he got that random need to just lean into your lips

and— (GAY REALIZATION PANICC) <- link

'Cause I don't need the cold weather like I need you

And I don't need the sweater weather I just need you

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Fuck! Hahahaha

hes unlabeled your honor.

[sayakxmi]

[Magi reread] Night 38: Junkyard Street

Bro, my heart is not ready.

Alibaba just says that, yeah, Cassim's the real leader of the Fog Troupe, but it seems like he'd always wanted Alibaba to lead... Nah, he didn't. He wanted Alibaba to be bright & catch attention, and to control him from the shadows, probably.

Bro, I'm so sad. Look at him grinning.

Honestly, back to smart Alibaba, the whole tunnel thing. Thinking outside the box and all that.

I love them, but also shoutout to that kid on bottom-right stealing the flag while these two are busy fighting.

AGH

: (

Literally all of this is sad, and then there's Alibaba being jealous abt his mom being stolen, lmao. Also, man he's so casual about death here, just, yea, idk what happened, maybe he ran, maybe he killed himself, who knows.

Not that he desevred anything better, but still. Death must've been such a common occurrence in the slums.

Agh. Look at them. Alibaba's living his best life, Anise is always smiling, Mariam is so happy, and Cassim's so awkward it's all so precious. Also, I suddenly remembered that Cassim propsed to Anise like 3 times, lmao. But UGH they were a FAMILY

So, I guess Alibaba watched it happen?

But also, agh, look at Cassim's expression ;_;

Other than that, I'm thinking again abt Aibaba doing something similar for Aladdin in his introduction chapter, like, I wish we knew more about Anise. How much of Alibaba came from her?

Like, bro, what's there to say, I'm just sitting here, being sad. Also, do you guys think Alibaba might have some trauma related to illnesses? I usually hc that he does, I mean, the slums in general, but also literally his mom, his father, then as he finds out, Mariam... Everybody in his family died out of illness, except for Cassim, who'd killed himself. Jesus.

Everybody's moms are dead, except for that one who should be dead.

UGHHHH

Honestly, pretty cool that they were helped out.

Ugh, baby.

And that goddamn horn gets me.

: (

No, but seriously. He later gets mad at Alibaba for not doing all that stuff... Alibaba was willing to do, except Cassim told him no. Like, bro, you're sending him mixed signals.

Alibaba: Can I help steal?

Cassim: No

Cassim, some time later, angry: You live such a proper life, you never steal, you never-

Alibaba's hair looks so messy, Cassim's self-loathing hits pretty hard, but here I'll offer you something somewhat silly.

Like, it's better in the anime, cuz Cassim says "you should live a respectable life like your mother", which Alibaba very much could have taken as "have you considered becoming a prostitute?" And I just find it kinda funny.

Why must you hurt me that way

Also, Cassim looks like he hadn't slept well in days. Probably exactly what happened, tbh.

I wonder why.

Merry Crisis

And I've always liked that choice to have Rashid be just a faceless silhouette from Alibaba's perspective here. Father is for emotional distance, lmao.

He wanted Cassim to tell him to stay : ( But no one ever tells him to stay : (

Ugh, I am being destroyed by this chapter again.

1 - BRO YOU LITERALLY TOLD HIM NOT TO and 2 -

AGH

;_;

It's both sad and silly at the same time.

Also, it's now that I realize that he probably has a black eye, that's why he looks like that.

Man, this makes so sad. And also. FATHER IS FOR EMOTIONAL DISTANCE

Like, Rashid was a shit father. A pretty good king, a good mentor, but a shit father. He just kind of. Wasn't there. For any of his sons. According to SnB he left the first two for their mother to care for, then was disappointed they didn't turn out how he wanted them to. And you also get the impression that he started searching for Alibaba bc he gave up on these two. Which is shitty for them, and shitty for Alibaba. He had his life turned upside down, because Rashid was too busy playing around in other nations & teaching the one kid that wasn't his, than actually making sure his country has proper heirs.

Like, don't get me wrong, I actually like Rashid, all of these things make him interesting, but a good parent award is definitely not for him.

sordboy

Sth I keep on forgetting is that Alibaba never liked swordplay.

He didn't hate economy in practice, tho. And didn't hate reading, too, especially the stories about Dungeons.

Progress!

Weird fate shit.

[nanjokei]

all your sycophants telling you to be meaner, nah youre just an asshole. did you like. even read the post in the first place. bc it doesnt look like you did?? i get that it makes you feel cool and good abt yourself to mock other ppls thinking-out-loud type posts but you basically telling them to shut up and keep their thoughts out of The Pure And Perfect Tag™ and then go on to say "oh im autistic ive never gotten the chance to rly speak up and be mean so this feels good" like..... thats so painfully hypocritical. you should KNOW how it feels to be told "shut up no one cares" so why are you doing it to someone else? so im telling you to shut up. youre annoying and no one cares and you shouldnt use other people as punching bags. asshole

did you get it out of your system. that's great. i don't really feel like giving a benefit of the doubt response anymore given after the first ask you decided to go ballistic like this... like, not even being sassy, i could have just responded "are you mad" and published it. but i am a neurotic person who will respond even if it's not in the way i initially set out to. just for you.

just for transparency, here's the first ask i got last night:

hi. i think you are projecting a lot of feelings onto me that i did not express and stretching my original statements. which in some sense, some may see as understandable! i was being less than gentleman-ly! i don't know if this is the op messaging after i blocked them or a friend coming in to give me a piece of their mind, it does not matter. this is something i was gonna say even in the first ask: had i been approached for an apology, i probably would have caved and apologized, because i'm weak to that kind of thing. at the very least even if i didn't agree, i would have wholeheartedly apologized for any distress or trouble. this isn't bull or me trying to flatter my way out of a situation. the response i got— which a friend ended up reading, to be honest i just blocked right away— was thoroughly strange, something something apologizing and being like "idk tumblr tag etiquette" and choosing to delete the original post. which i would not know how to respond to. i'm not some kind of tag police or god of tumblr or whatever, so why apologize to me or delete the post. i am writing this response under the assumption that it could be someone else, but a hit dog will holler, in this one sentence i will address OP directly: that response was strange. had i read it, i would have either ignored it still or apologized, i have no idea, but initial my response really was "but i have no power over this person or anyone". i did not ask for you to clean up your contribution to a tag or police it. i simply stated my opinion on my blog when prompted by a third party expressedly out of earshot of the op. is that a morally correct thing? proooobably not. but it is the internet. "why are you, the person who got hated on, continuing the cycle of hate" type bs might as well be a self fulfilling prophecy. if you feel this way, why send me asks about it at all if you're gonna go ape over me not responding immediately? does it mean so much to you? go ahead and block. i do not argue with people online. but i'll respond because clearly you want one. not gonna prostrate myself before anyone, and respond just as coldly as you are painting me out to be. this is my special fanservice to you, since you wanted to believe that about me so badly.

>pure and perfect tag

i do not check tags for a reason. i checked it one time. i guess this implication comes off of what i said so i'll say it out clearly but i genuinely could care less past the initial pang of cringe what is in there. had nonnie not continued to converse with me i would have moved on ans forgotten about it. i am not a police or a militia. it means nothing to me most days if a tag is "good". who the hell cares. you are obsessing over my existence, my opinion and the weight of such a thing a bit too much over here.

>shut up no one cares

neeeever said this, and no one has ever said this to me. the story i recounted about being called toxic was in the youtube comments and was 5 years ago. no one told me "no one cares". it just hurt my ego. anyway, if someone cared so much to send two asks about it, then thank you. i really won't shut up.

>never got the chance to speak up and be mean

ok.

>my sycophants

it was one nonnie. are you obsessed with me or something? i am like one random ass blogger on a dying website. i do not have an army or cult of personality. i am just one guy.

>end of the ask

heard you loud and clear. thanks for the feedback, not gonna reflect on it much though. it was an asshole move. does it make me an asshole? yup.

it was catty and petty of me. i knew that much from the very first ask i answered. but op wasn't tagged, i didn't send anyone to them either, so i can only really think "what were you doing on my blog anyway". because yes, this is a blogging site, not a pvp site, i didn't engage with anyone to start fights. didn't bring op's name into it, didn't actively mock them (the comment about them not being special was ad hominem though i admit to that much. sorry.)

you cannot expect everyone to be 100% nice and handle people with kiddie gloves in their own blog space when they are not bringing you into it especially given i did not direct anyone to anyone's post.

had it been me i would have just blocked and moved on. pwease no steppy and all that. whoever sent op an ask about it to make them respond is kind of a drama obsessed weirdo lol. like i'm just saying. causing both me and op a headache. it did not have to shake out like this. neither of us were gonna engage with each other and everyone could have gone to sleep without any icky feelings. honestly, from my point of view, both of you are strange. wow, i am barely hiding who i think is behind this ask. but it really is addressed very generally.

don't send me another ask! i will just publish them with no response. this situation was entirely avoidable and i lament that you decided to both waste my time and your own with all this. just block me like i asked!

[notesofarichlycolorednight]

Hi,pal! I'm loving "It's the perfect story"! However, the subject I'm talking about doesn't directly to the fic. By what I know, people don't hate Silena because she was the spy,it's more like they think her being seduced/manipulated into doing it is detracting to her character. Many posts say that's very insulting to teen girls, or her cause should be something like "her cabin was being disrespected"(out of character IMO, but I'll talk about it later)...

Continuation. Or “the demigods were being mistreated by the gods”(not a bad one,but Silena didn’t really feel the worst of the gods IMO. Not like Luke, Chris or Tori in the fic). People are entitled to their opinions, but I disagree. About the “disrespected cabin stuff”,Silena is defensive in a blunt, straightforward way when it happens. Examples: how she wanted to fight the Huntresses when they said love was worthless;or when people were surprised by her magic knowledge,and she looked offended.

Cont. Besides, those behaviors show that Silena can be quite passionate and proud, what probably made her vulnerable to manipulation(her romantic nature didn’t help). Besides, Silena herself thought she was saving lives. I believe Luke’s words would sound truer to her if she cared about him than from a dispassionate perspective. Besides, if Luke managed to lure Percy to near death with a friendly smile and soda,despite Percy’s instincts saying no,I believe he could do it to Silena…

Cont. By what I read, your only issue was the age. However, I think that was something like “death of the author” in canon,as she didn’t get one. In fact, I rather like the idea of Silena being an older camper,including than Charles(if 18 years old girls date boys in their 20’s…),both in canon and in your fic. In your fic,it could make her Tori ’ s peer. In canon,it’d fit the whole “role model” stuff we had going on HoO.

what’s up dude! thanks, i’m glad to hear you’re enjoying it!

that’s how i interpreted it when i read the books (or how i remember interpreting it, at least, i haven’t read the series in a while) like, being the spy meant she was a traitor, which is also a comment abt her character (i.e., may she’s not the greatest person–for the lack of a better word–bc she was a traitor). when clarisses declares she’s a hero, i assumed it was supposed to be juxtaposed to her being a traitor. which is a roundabout way to say that the ultimate end is the same, whereas the perspective is different? but i can see where others are coming from–that the campers would be more mad bc of the fact that she was easily manipulated by luke, rather than her being the spy

i guess i can see where ppl are coming from regarding it being an insult to teen girls (i’d really like to see those posts tho, bc i actually haven’t seen anyone talk abt that–i somehow manage to avoid discourse like we’re two opposing magnets, my d-list x-men power), bc it plays off the stereotype that teen girls are so boy crazy, they’re easily manipulated by any good-looking guy that smiles in their direction. it doesn’t help that she’s a child of aphrodite. and what i mean by that is, i think, ppl often water down what aphrodite is the goddess of. when ppl say, “she’s the goddess of love and beauty” ppl often think she’s the goddess of, “being vain and romantic/sexual love” (not true btw, fite me, i will gladly jump into that discourse)

but anyway, back to my main point, i can see how it may play off a teen girl stereotype (rick is good at doing that sometimes, which isn’t entirely his fault, bc like i said abt toxic masculinity, it’s so ingrained in our society, it’s hard to unlearn and we often fall into those stereotypes if we’re not fully aware of them and consciously thinking about them), but i also don’t entirely agree with that argument, either

now i could be wrong, esp since i haven’t read any of this discourse, so i haven’t read ppl’s reasoning or arguments, but it sounds very surface-level White Feminism™ and what i mean by that is that there are more grey areas to this argument, okay, so put away your pitchforks and put out your torches and, i mean, also that this argument is coming from ppl who want to seem like they’re woke, but then turn around and continue to do or say things that are insidiously bigoted

like i said, i can see how it plays into a stereotype, but if we’re going by rick’s canon (which we totally don’t have to, but for this argument’s sake we are) she’s young and impressionable, luke is handsome and charming–if another young person were in her position, we’d probably see the same thing. young ppl are easy to manipulate, they just are. they’re still learning abt the world, and how it works, and that maybe not everyone has good intentions. not to mention they’re still trying to find themselves, and they look to peers, mentors, and ppl who are respected (for whatever reason) for cues to how they should act and think. it’s like trying on clothes or taste-testing foods–they’re trying out opinions. if they don’t like the “taste” of an opinion, then they learn, grow, and change. some ppl instantly connect with an opinion (which could be bigoted or not) and not explore further, or could be sheltered and just not have the opportunity to experience anything else.

the opinion here: the gods are bad. the person she’s looking to for guidance: luke. plain and simple

and, as you say anon, percy even fell for luke’s charms (despite the warning signs!! and percy is most def Not Straight, so luke was also using that fact against percy as well, whether rick luke knew it or not). so, ya know, there ya go

now, i think rick chose a child of aphrodite, and a girl, bc he thought he was turning a trope on its head–you’d never expect (from the stereotype of what aphrodite stands for) silena to be a spy, to work for kronos of all ppl titans. do you see what i mean? i think he was going for an elle woods effect–except in the polar opposite direction. the ends is the same, where this girl who is often underestimated (like elle) turns out to do something no one expected of her (in silena’s case, being the spy, which takes a lot of guts, nerve, and smarts–the opposite of what ppl expect from aphrodite, based on a reductive stereotype)

and that’s where the real issue lies, not that she was a teen girl, but rather some of the decisions the author made under wrong assumptions

i agree that the alternatives aren’t as sincere or make as much sense. silena didn’t experience a whole lot of strife regarding her mom or the gods in general, so she’d have no reason to hate them as luke does–she’d have no reason to be the spy for luke if he were to simply use that argument to get her to kronos’s side. and maybe she would’ve joined kronos under “her cabin was being disrespected,” however, it was’t being disrespected by the gods themselves, right? not like the minor gods, not like nemesis or hecate. the disrespect comes more from the ppl around her–the ppl who assume the wrong things abt aphrodite when they hear the words “love” and “beauty.” so that alternative reason doesn’t hold a lot of water if you really think abt it

i also agree with you: that her passion and pride made her more easily manipulated, and also that luke’s words would mean more coming from a more passionate and personal perspective. luke fed her lines that played into her character (like how kronos fed luke lines that played into his hatred for the gods). if she felt passionate abt helping save ppl (and it’s coming from someone she likes, someone she looks up to), then she’d  be the spy for sure. if she had a crush on luke, more for him to use against her, right? that’s just how it goes sometimes, ya know? her crush are her rose-colored glasses, add that on top of “you’d be saving lives” and, well, luke’s got her wrapped around kronos’s finger

yeah, the age thing is a big sticking point for me, just bc based on the timeline of things, she’s several years younger than luke (which make his kiss, in my story, really gross). if beckendorf was going to college during tlo, he was probably at the least 18, and silena was probably around the same age. by this time, luke is 23, so that means that she’s abt 5 years younger? is five years a huge deal between older ppl (like mid- to late-twenties and beyond)? not at all. but with younger ppl (teens and early twenties), it’s a HUGE gap in age, and a HUGE deal.

but like you say, i think rick is hitting that point of “death of the author” (esp with more recent events…btw, jason is totally alive and well, and if you think or try to tell me differently, then you can meet me in a denny’s parking lot at 3am), so we can totes not follow canon and age both silena and beckendorf up. not to mention, there’s no specific age that ppl go to college (just in general most ppl starting college are from 17-20) so it’s completely fine for beckendorf to be going to college at 22, 23. and a 2 yr age difference (regarding beckendorf at 20, dating silena at 18) is totes better than a 5 yr difference for sure

i really like tori and silena being peers, and i if i had been more comfortable breaking canon (and knew what i know now, then), it would’ve been fun to write (but eeeyyy, it’s fun to think abt, so there may be headcanons in your future regarding this). finally, you’re right, i think it would make “silena as a role model” so much more powerful if she had been/was older in canon

thanks for sending these in! i had a lot of fun talking and thinking abt all the points you brought up/made, and i hope to continue this discussion, if you want!

[prefixing]

aaaa so i start college in 10 days, it's on the other side of the country, and 82% of the time i'm caught between being excited and happy and terrified and literally panicking at 2 AM when I should be asleep.... i know i /should/ be excited and also nervous but i had a huge change in my life early this year that truly and honestly left me reeling and dissociating, and i'm terrified that this will trigger the same response but worse.. god okay i'll also be meeting my best friend of two years 1/?

- so im also nervous that she won’t like me but also excited out of my mind because holy fuck it’s like my brain can’t decide if i’d like to have her be more than a friend ajdjfk Anyway…. things’re just,, not fun :’)) and im just scared, im never sure where to look for advice for handling extreme change especially after previous change went so horribly :\ i Am looking forward to classes tho and i can’t wait to see what new friends i can make or what my job will be like but aaaa there’s a lot 2/2

hi!! thank you for sending this and confiding in me! i don’t know what kind of response you expected, but this was all i could think about for my 1h long yoga pass and i think i might have gone overboard. also just a note that the only thing that i 100% can relate to is meeting an online friend, but i am planning to move country in 2019 and i can already feel that kind of stress creeping up on me.warning: long post ahead!!it’s probably not news to you that the big trig to freak outs/dissociating is stress, and that you should try to avoid it, but honestly that’s pretty rubbish advice. i guess what you can do is prepare yourself mentally? you know that big changes are what triggers this response in you so perhaps you could look back at last time and try to recognise what helped in that moment, and what you could try to remember if things go badly again?

in general, when it comes to big changes (bear in mind, the biggest change in my life is moving from the suburbs into the city, which only really meant that i had to switch schools for the third time and i wasn’t even mad abt it because i hated my old one) these are some things that might help to think about:

you’re not alone!! you mentioned your best friend that you’re meeting (does she live close to where you’re moving? if not, she’ll most likely still be available online like before), but there are also more people at your college in similar position as you; and they are most likely terrified as well. when my ex moved city there was a facebook group for people new in that city who shared tips with each other? perhaps there is something similar available for you? perhaps you have friends from before that are taking similar steps in life? (i’m also available for potential updates if u wanna rant)

the positives; it will not all be sunshines and rainbows but you’re excited about your classes, there are friends to be made and you have a job that you’re actually looking forward to! wow!!

it usually helps me to kind of “jump into the future”; think about were you were a few year ago and how quickly that time has passed. then imagine a significant moment in the future (e.g. graduating college!) and how you will then look back at where you are now as if no time has passed. this is a weird tip idk

now to what i actually have experience of; meeting internet friends. fun fact: it is terrifying!! and will always be!! 

i have two particular encounters that stand out, let’s call them #1 and #2. when i met #1 back in 2011 we hung out for an afternoon in the city centre and we are still really good friends (i’m actually visiting her this weekend!!)

with #2 we hung out for two whole weekends in 2015 with about three weeks in between, this sent me into panic mode, i ghosted her for a good half year and we haven’t really spoken the same way since. this is the wrong thing to help you not freak out but honestly, it was shit for a while but we’re on good terms now and enjoy life separately.

main differences between these meetings (getting scientific)

#1

a 3h train ride away

we hung out for a short period of time

our parents were with us to check that the other was a legit person but then we were left to our own devices

#2

a 24h flight away

we hung out for about 48hours straight twice in a short period of time (considering the circumstances)

both our families and my other friend were with us at all times

i guess my advice is to meet in smaller doses first to not overwhelm each other? its exhausting to feel like you have to “live up” to whatever personality you’ve displayed online, however honest it may be, and keeping that up for long period of time will tire you out (unless both of you are superhuman extroverts (which i though i was but apparently am not)). since you’re moving away it might not be a problem but having family around made meeting #2 way worse than it might have been otherwise. i’m not the same around my parents as i am to my friends, and here i favoured my parent-friendly side, which differed greatly to how i interacted with my friend online and made the tension weird. with friend #1 we were alone and i could let myself go, only worrying about one persons response as opposed to lk 10

as for potential lovey dovey feelings, don’t stress about that for now!! leave that as a nice surprise for when things have settled a little. love may be terrifying but it’s also an amazing feeling to be in love, so savour it when it’s truly there. sorry to be blunt and negative, but the potential for love that you’re feeling right now might change when you meet (or it may blossom!), so i’d say to leave it on its own for now and deal with it when it happens.

sorry for hitting you with a novel for a response and good luck!! if you feel like it, you’re more than welcome to send me updates