#DID U EVER SEE A GOODER BOY

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a/n: so uhh i know this isnt anime, but i wrote it while a little manic and it turned out okay so i wanted to post it :D enjoy! ao3 link here

Pairing: Gascon/Meve/Reynard

Rating: Explicit

Tags/Warnings: smut, drunk sex, mfm sex, double penetration, no beta we die like men, spoilers but only if u squint

Word Count: ~4k

Plot summary: Gascon has always found Meve to be a singular sort of woman. When faced with a difficult choice, she always finds a way to change the game and pick an unexpected, unprecedented option that reminds him of her earned queenship. Similarly, Reynard (Meve's loyal friend and advisor) is the most steadfast and honorable man that Gascon has ever met; it gives Gascon great pleasure to rile Reynard up just to see how far that patience and goodness goes. However, now that things between the three of them have hit a plateau, it is not often that Gascon finds himself surprised by them; he knows him, and they know him.

In matters of the heart, however, Gascon manages to be surprised by them still on one fateful, very drunk evening of respite and revelry.

(Set before the end of the game while still on campaign at a peasant's wedding feast)

There were benefits, Gascon supposed, to stopping in at every town and leaving no good deed undone from Lyria all the way to fucking Nilfgaard. One, naturally, was to tip the karmic scales back in his favor; but another was that, on occasions such as this, when a peasant festival or nuptial celebration was to be had, who wouldn't invite the do-gooder queen and her merry lot of dagger-happy fools to party alongside? And Gascon, a lover of revelry and all other earthly pleasure, was more than happy to take a load off to drink some free ale and eat some free vittles instead of endlessly pursuing this death march of Meve's.

There were problems, though, too, with remembering what it was like before the campaign— and one of those problems for Gascon specifically was simply the cessation of movement for long enough to remember to be alive. From his perch on a log next to a pretty woman who was nattering on about something or other about the bride and groom, Gascon could see miles and miles of green, rolling hills, fertile and full of plenty. The sun was on its way out, the golden hour of the evening finally waning into purple twilight, and as a bonfire and lanterns were lit, a fiddler drew up his bow and began to play alongside pipers and little drummer boys. It was a beautiful evening, full of light and laughter and all the things that made life worth living, and now more than ever, Gascon wished for a home he could truly call his own.

He had not had such a place for many, many years. 

Across the way, Meve and Reynard were speaking lowly, their heads bowed together in a moment of shared intimacy. The queen and her second-in-command rarely found a moment alone, but when they did, Gascon was usually lurking close enough to witness; watching them, he felt oddly like a voyeur, as though he should not be seeing what his eyes beheld, though it was never more than this— a simple, emotionally charged moment. If their usual pattern were any indication, it would only be a second or so before one of them would back away, drawing the line and leaving things unfinished between them.

Melitele help them— Gascon was dying of blue balls just watching. 

As Gascon had predicted, Reynard drew back after a moment; but then, something unusual happened. Meve reached out and grabbed his hand, saying something that Gascon couldn't hear, and Reynard bowed respectfully before allowing bright, vibrant Meve to pull him over to where the peasants were dancing. Together, Meve and Reynard began to dance as well, each smiling in the arms of the other, and Gascon found that they were nearly too painful to look at in their joy.

Truly, he didn't know which of them he was more jealous of— Meve, who was held steady by the strong, calloused hands of a kind, honest man, or Reynard, who was touched softly by a bloody-handed conqueress, a queen stronger than most kings and hair of spun gold. Separately, they were stunning; together, they were impossible. Gascon wanted to be between them, beneath them— he wanted— he wanted. 

Gascon threw back his tankard. He must already be too deep in his cups anyway— might as well finish the job and make his way back to his tent. The girl sitting next to him made a squeal of surprise, and Gason nearly made a bid to take her back with him— she had blue eyes and gold hair, after all, and Gascon's imagination could work wonders with that— but when he stood without explanation, she didn't demand anything or command him to explain himself, and it ruined the effect for him. Meve would never allow him to walk away without dismissal, and if he'd ever tried, Reynard would have stood between him and the door, a solid mass of muscle and steel, strong and steady. 

Fuck. He really was far down in his cups. 

The journey from Gascon's log to his tent turned out to be a perilous trek. In truth, Gascon was probably too drunk to be standing (he'd started drinking at noon, after all, and had hardly slowed), and well— every tent begins to look the same, after a while, a logs are bloody hard to step over when you can't tell how high to lift your leg. After a good few minutes, though, he managed to find a tree to piss on and a tent that was most likely his own, and he collapsed on the floor, certain he was going to regret getting so drunk on the morrow.

As it happened, though, Gascon was to regret getting so drunk much, much sooner than that.  

As Gascon lay quietly, feeling sloshy and almost sea-sick from the spinning world around him and his belly full of liquid, the flap of his tent opened. Standing in the entryway was Meve, tall and regal and lovely, looking down on him with a soft smile that made his tummy do a little flip.

"Forgive me, Meve," he slurred, propping up on his elbow. "I'd stand, but I think I'd puke if I did."

Meve laughed— a low, hearty sound that came from the throat. 

"Don't worry, Gascon," she told him fondly, "I just thought I'd look in on you so you wouldn't drown in your own vomit. Give me a moment, and I'll fix up your sleeping arrangements to where you'll be comfortable."

"You don't really need to…"

It was useless. Once Meve put her mind to something, she meant to do it. As the queen busied herself with fluffing and ruffling about his pallet, Gascon took it upon himself to watch her body as she worked. Goddess above, she was lovely, all long limbs and lovely eyes, and wiry strength— Gascon wanted to touch her ankles, kiss the bend of her knee, he wanted to—

"There," she said, putting her hands on her hips in satisfaction. "All done, Gascon. Do you think you can make it over there by yourself, or shall I carry you?"

Meve's eyes shined with her jest, but Gascon knew he wasn't going to make it to the fine little nest she'd made for him. Still, though, he couldn't bear to make her carry him, so instead, he said,

"I appreciate the thought, Meve dear, but the ground here is passing comfortable for my old bones. Come, sit— you'll see what I mean. It's fine ground, this is. You'll like it."

Laughing, Meve humored him, kneeling in front of him. Gascon managed to pull himself upright enough to be face-to-face with her, and he was hit at full-force by the shining of her eyes.

"You're right," Meve told him, sharing his breath. "It's fine ground indeed."

Gascon was confused. When had they gotten so close? Why were Meve's eyes half-lidded? Fuck, was she about to—

"Gascon, Your Majesty," said a familiar voice, and Gascon started. "I brought the water you asked me to—"

Reynard stopped mid-sentence, and Meve turned to him with the most guilty expression Gascon had ever seen on a woman— and he had seen many guilty women. Reynard wasted no time, though. As ever, he shrewdly calculated the situation and sacrificed himself for the good of others.

"I see." He cleared his throat. "Pardon my interruption— I shall impose no longer."

Oh, the poor sod. Even blind drunk, Gascon could see the pain in his eyes. Gascon wanted to take it all away from him, take it back, make it better— but what could he possibly do or say to unbreak a man's heart?

"Reynard, wait," said the queen, commanding and desperate. "It isn't— this isn't— I didn't come here with the intention of—"

Reynard held up his hand.

"You needn't explain yourself to me, Your Grace. You're a woman as fine as any, and you've been campaigning many a hard day. It is only natural that—"

"You misunderstand me, Reynard." Oh, she was truly suffering now— and it was all Gascon's bloodly fault. "You are as you ever were— a steadfast friend, patient and wise and honest. On the most trying days, under the beating sun or in pounding rain, you are my buckler, the shield that fends off the swords of my enemies. You are dearer to me than I can measure."

Gascon looked away then, drunkenly ashamed— he should not be here, he should go, a quip and a laugh, and he could be away, away, away— 

But Meve was not finished.

"And Gascon— my, my, what a man you are. So full of laughter, and full of secrets; you are the hunter in the night, the wolf that prowls and stands before my doorstep, a warning to those who would dare to cause me harm." 

She reached out to him, blue eyes shining. Her hand, though rough and calloused against the stubble of his cheek, was so tender that Gascon wondered if his face might crack from the pressure of it.  

"You are the blade in the dark that protects me when all else 'round me sleeps," she told him, the rasp in her voice like fingertips up his spine. "Gascon… you are the darkness in my own heart."

She paused then, swallowing thickly, and with azure eyes bright with tears, implored,

"Don't make me choose between the two of you. The thought of losing either of you— I cannot bear it. My shield and my blade— I need both in equal measure, else I shall die as surely as Melitele hears me now."

Gascon was gobsmacked, for once rendered speechless— but Reynard, ever the dullard, bowed his noble head and spoke, as ever, with the most foolish, most honorable cop-out imaginable:

"You need not choose, Your Grace. I— I overstep. I am your subject, and you my commander— any, er, relationship that might occur is— well, it's hardly appropriate." 

Though Reynard's words were strong and sure, Gascon had an eye for weakness. Even as Reynard was trying to preserve the heart of the woman he loved, his heart was breaking. No— he was breaking his own heart so that she would not have to, in order to spare her the pain of it. 

Stupid, noble bastard. He was a stronger man than Gascon. 

"I will forever be your friend and ally, Your Grace," he continued, bowing lowly, respectfully. "I am entirely devoted to you; nothing could dissuade me from my task, or from our lasting friendship. Gascon is a fine man, and handsome— not that you need my approval, but—"

He swallowed dryly, his eyes sliding to Gascon in a way that felt fragile, like an alchemist's incendiary concoction in a delicate demijohn.

"But you have it. I could not have chosen better for you myself."

"Reynard," the queen breathed, her eyes wet, glistening, and her closest adviser turned away, unable to contain his own emotion. 

Oh, bloody fucking hell. Gascon was going to have to bloodly fucking walk. 

Gingerly, he rose to his feet, swaying slightly. Without his usual grace, he made his way one foot in front of the other to where Reynard stood, head bowed in deference and shame. Noticing the shadow Gascon threw, Reynard looked up, and suddenly they were close— eye-to-eye, nose-to-nose, too close— and Gascon boldly placed his hand on the back of Reynard's neck, sliding his own calloused hand into soft salt-and-pepper hair. 

"Reynard, you fool," he said, his eyes drifting to the other man's lips even as they shared a breath. "As ever, you don't have a single clue. You're going to make our queen cry."

Slowly, almost teasingly, he smiled, tilting his head, requesting permission. Reynard, slow as ever, made a strangled noise, and then their lips touched, dry and soft and warm. Gascon grinned, then chuckled as Reynard kissed him back.

"Sweet goddess," Meve breathed behind them, and Gascon laughed into Reynard's kiss, pulling the other man closer to him until they were flush and his half-hard cock met Reynard's full, muscular thigh. Reynard's hands, resting til now at his side, traveled upwards to touch Gascon's back, and Gascon shivered.

"Don't you see?" Gascon sighed between kisses, holding back a groan as Reynard squeezed his waist. "This is so much easier, isn't it? Easier than the fighting, than the pining— our queen needn't choose. Does she not deserve the both of us? Is she not worthy of both our worship?"

Reynard pulled away, and for a moment, Gascon feared he'd overstepped or somehow given offense— but then he saw Reynard's pupils blown wide, his eyes dark with desire, and Gascon's heart thumped painfully in his chest for an entirely different reason. 

"You talk too much," Reynard told him, and Gascon swayed, too drunk to take such a statement and stay standing. Reynard, ever the gentleman, caught him by the waist, steadied him, and Gascon thought he'd never wanted to suck thick, knightly cock more than he did in that moment.

"Well, I see you lads have been keeping something from me— again."

When Gascon looked back, Meve was smiling wryly, but there was a brokenness to it that shamed him. 

"Never," he insisted gently, prying himself from Reynard. "Meve, love— I swore to you, never again."

"Hm."

The queen, it seemed, was unconvinced. 

Well, that was alright. It wouldn't be long before Gascon could feel his face again, and even drunk, he'd been known to be very convincing when he wanted to be. 

With as much dignity as he could muster, Gascon took Reynard by the hand and led him to where Meve sat, long, lovely legs drawn up against her chest, guarded, defensive. Awkwardly, he lowered himself to the floor, pulling at Reynard to follow, and placed a hand on one round knee, stroking it softly with his thumb. Wordless, Meve dropped her head to her knees, hiding her face, and Gascon could feel the wetness of her unshed tears finally break loose from her eyes. 

"Oh Meve," he said, "Oh, darling— don't cry, love. We've got you. We're here."

The queen stayed that way a few moments, and Gascon let her. He said nothing further, only stroked her back with one hand and petted her hair with the other. Reynard, equally silent, knelt apprehensively beside her; from his expression, he wanted desperately to touch her, but wasn't sure how, or even if he could. Meve was his queen, his sovereign, his highest power— to Reynard, Meve was sacred, more than queen, more than woman. 

That would not do. Meve was all that and more-- but she was a woman, and that side of her deserved to be touched, to be loved like a human, not aestheticized, not objectified. Slowly, Gascon reached out, allowing Reynard time to process the motion, and when Reynard did not stop him, Gascon placed Reynard's hand on Meve's shoulder, squeezed gently, and guided Reynard's movement until the man felt brave enough to take his own initiative. 

Once she felt Reynard's touch, the queen looked up, nose red and sniffly, cheeks puffy. Gascon thought she had never looked more beautiful. 

"May I kiss you, Your Grace?" he asked, and, bewildered, Meve blinked, then laughed.

"Forgive me," she choked out, attempting to stifle her laughter to little effect, "I don't mean to laugh at you, it's just— I don't think you've ever called me Your Grace before this very moment."

She smiled, took his hand, and added,

"Never has it meant more. Kiss me, Gascon."

Gascon did not need to be told twice. He pressed his lips to hers, sweet and slow, then deeper, tasting the spiced wine on her tongue. His hands pulled at her knees, and Meve allowed them to be moved apart. Gascon knelt between them, his hands in her hair, and then he felt her hands slip beneath his tunic, cold and searching. 

"Reynard," she said, the movement of her lips soft against Gascon's mouth. "Come to me."

Gascon took his cue and began to kiss lower, worshipping his queen's neck with kisses, licking the salt-sweat taste from her skin in a way that made her shiver. Above him and to the side, Reynard and Meve were kissing, the movement of their lips making wet, lewd sounds above Gascon's ear. Eager, hungry, but still a bit addled, he began to fiddle with the laces at the front of Meve's shirt, trying to loosen them, but soon got distracted, moving instead to the large, alluring bulge in Reynard's trousers, pressing against it with pleasant friction as his other hand squeezed at Meve's breasts. Mindlessly, he rutted against what of Meve his cock could reach, wondering why the hell they hadn't tried this sooner as Reynard groaned, low and animal, at the press of a palm against his cockhead. 

Really, it wasn't fair that the stick-in-the-mud had such a big... stick.

"Reynard," he purred, a bit sing-song. "Take off your trousers, love— I want to taste you."

Oh, the attention that got him. Meve's eyes, bright and hazy with wanting, narrowed with carnal pleasure at the suggestion, and Reynard's widened in innocent shock. 

"I— Gascon, that's very generous, but—  I mean— I don't think it proper to— "

It took a moment for Gascon to catch on to the reason for Reynard's hesitancy— what man turns down a blowie, anyway?— but then it clicked, and Gascon was suddenly, inexplicably flattered.

"You're worried about sullying my honor, wounding my dignity," he grinned, gleeful and bewildered by such concern. When Reynard nodded hesitantly in affirmation, Gascon's grin turned filthy. 

"You're very sweet," he replied, shuffling forward to place a kiss to Reynard's ear, "but I'm the Duke of Dogs. Honor and dignity aren't really my thing, and I think if I don't get to have that fat cock of yours in my mouth, I might just die. You'd be doing me a favor, really."

So saying, Gascon began to fiddle with the laces of Reynard's breeches, and luckily, they were easier to untagle than Meve's shirt. In only a moment, Gascon freed Reynard's length, and, after admiring it for a moment, brushing the thick, bulbous head with his thumb, he lowered his mouth to it and began to suck. 

"Melitele's saggy tits," Gascon heard Meve swear above him, and there was some rustling and the soft rip of fabric that he could only assume was Meve's shirt falling victim to Reynard's impatient hands.  

Gascon was nothing if not thorough in his ministrations. At a moderate pace, he forced Reynard's cockhead past his lips, teasing the slit with his tongue, and was rewarded with a deep, earthy groan. A few moments later, he let his hands take over to lap and suck at Reynard's thick, heavy balls, their smell deep and rich with sweat and arousal, and Gascon allowed himself a moan as he tasted and touched them, rolling their heavy weight in his hands and sucking them into his mouth. Deliciously responsive, Reynard thrust his hips up and against Gascon's face, and the next thing either of them knew, Gascon was dodging spurts of white and Reynard was shuddering from his release. 

"Already?" Gascon teased, and Reynard had the grace to blush. 

"It's... been a while," he admitted sheepishly, and Gascon rose to kiss him, soft and reassuring. 

"It bothers me not at all," said Gascon, "for the night is young, and I'm only getting started."

Comforted, Reynard brought a hand up to guide Gascon's face to him so they could kiss— a warm, sticky hand, slick with—

Gascon took a sniff or two... 

Meve. 

Gascon turned to find the queen entirely bare. While he was distracted with cock, Meve had apparently abandoned her clothes, exposing miles and miles of golden flesh and a dusting of fine blonde hair. She knelt beside the two of them, smiling widely, and Gascon smiled in return, beckoning her to come nearer. 

"Your Grace," Gascon bowed, a sweeping and dramatic display. "Permission to lap at that pretty cunt of yours?"

"Only if you promise to make it good," the queen teased back. 

"Oh, I solemnly swear, 'twill be," he grinned. "On your back, love."

After a few moments of shimmying, Gascon's head was between Meve's legs, licking and sucking at her clit. His hands smoothed over her legs and the soft down of hair there; too drunk on her sex to notice anything else, Gascon nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt Reynard press himself flush against his back, cock hard and sliding over the curve of his ass. Wordlessly, Reynard rocked against him, humping like a dog (ha!), occasionally reaching over to tweak Meve's pretty, perfect nipples.

Oh, the feel of Reynard's terribly large cock in the cleft of his arse— they should definitely have tried this earlier, Gascon decided. Instead of fighting, biting like mutts at each other's throats, they should have been doing this.  

"Gascon!" Meve exclaimed as he spat messily onto her cunt, grinning like a hound at the mess she looked beneath him. 

"What?" he asked, batting his eyes with faux innocence. 

"You're— that's— !"

The poor queen couldn't string more than two words together, but her need to do so dissipated as Gascon returned to his purpose, this time plunging three fingers inside her without warning. He sucked at her clit, curled his fingers upwards, pressing into soft, yielding flesh. As he did so, Reynard reached around to grasp his cock, and Gascon moaned against Meve's sex as a rough, calloused hand stroked him. 

"Gascon," Meve breathed, "Gascon, what's—  oh—  oh!"

Gascon did not let up until his face was soaked from his nose down and Meve was threatening to crush his 'mean, filthy skull' between her thighs if he didn't 'stop, dammit, she was fucking shaking'—  and only then to correct his queen, because she didn't seem to grasp the idea that such a crushing of skulls was hardly a punishment. 

"Are you ready for cock, then, my queen?" he asked, his knees beginning to shake as Reynard's thrusts began to synch with his stroking. "Which of us would you like first?"

Reynard, who had been very much lost to his pleasure for the last few minutes, seemed to snap out of it a bit at that. Suddenly once more unsure, Reynard stopped moving altogether and just sort of froze, awkward and insecure. 

Oh, bloody hell, Gascon should have just kept his mouth shut. 

"Well," said Meve, propping up on a hand as she glanced between the two of them, "I don't very well see why I cannot have the both of you at once."

The suggestion was so matter-of-fact and without a hint of teasing that Gascon had to pinch himself to make sure that he wasn't dreaming. Similarly affected, Reynard's mouth hung agape, and the queen threw back her head and laughed at the both of them. 

"What, skittish now, Gascon?" she teased. "And you, Reynard, my bravest knight— why do you balk?"

"Hey, love, no one's balking," said Gascon, the ale running away with his tongue, "It's just the fact that you said what you said out loud and expected us not to faint like blushing virgins. You're quite filthy, Your Grace. It's a wonder you haven't killed poor Reynard."

Reynard was still frozen, the poor sod, so Gascon reached for his hand and brought him to his side. Reynard shuffled forward, his ridiculously large cock bobbing comically between his legs, and Gascon knew Meve was going to need more prep to take that girth plus his own. 

"Come on, chap," he said, clapping Reynard on the shoulder. "We've got work to do if we're to please our queen, and it's going to take both of us to prep her well. Are you up to it, or shall I take over for a bit?"

Without waiting for Reynard to answer, Gascon sank two fingers into Meve's cunt, scissoring and playing in her wet heat. With his other hand, he guided Reynard to mimic his motions, and soon they were both four fingers in, spreading Meve obscenely wide as she writhed and whined beneath them. Fuck, if this wasn't every depraved man's wet dream, Gascon didn't know what was.

"Ready, Mevie?" he asked with a kiss, withdrawing his fingers. "We don't want to hurt you."

"M'ready," she replied blearily, chest heaving with pleasure. "Just get on with it, will you?"

With a gentleness that surprised even himself, Gascon took charge, maneuvering them until Reynard was sitting behind Meve, his cock resting against her sex, and Gascon pressed a kiss to both their mouths before lifting Meve until Reynard slid smoothly into her, eliciting a filthy gasp from them both that would live forever in Gascon's memory as the most lewd noise he'd ever heard. Wasting no time, Gascon took his own cock and pushed slowly in, allowing Meve time to adjust and forcing himself to be present enough in the moment to appreciate the sensation of sharing a woman this way. There was so much sensation all at once that Gascon was afraid that he would embarrass himself, but then his hips moved on their own, rocking into Meve and against Reynard in delicious friction that was better than anything had a right to be. 

"Oh, goddess," Meve keened, arching her back as Gascon began to fuck her in earnest. "Oh, goddess!"

She pulsed around them, reaching orgasm, and Gascon found himself not too far behind. A few moments later, and the heavens opened; a choir sang, his vision went white, and Gascon came harder than he'd ever come in his life. He pulled out, choosing to spend his seed over Meve's belly, and in improbable, impossible queenly fashion, Meve dragged her fingers through the mess and brought it to her lips, tasting him— but that was not all. She turned, opened her mouth to kiss Reynard, pushing seed from her mouth to his, and Gascon thought he might pass out just from watching them. 

"Melitele help me," he breathed. 

As he watched Reynard lift Meve bodily and thrust up into her with all the fervor of a zealot in his worship, Gascon made a vow. For these two, he would do anything, break any vow, keep any oath; Gascon would die before them, because none would touch them while he yet lived. Meve had called him her blade in the darkness, the wolf at her door— Gascon had not realized how right she was until that very moment. He would be that which stood between them and the world, and no matter how this Nilfgaard business shook out, Gascon knew where his loyalties lie.

For once in his life, Gascon stood for something, and it felt right that it should be this. 

That it should be love.

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💕  Bittersweet Temptations by @revengingbarnes 

Y/N Y/L/N loves coffee, always has, which is why she spent all her adult years creating the perfect coffee shop. Cutesy, homey and cozy, it’s the job of her dreams. So what if business has been a little slow lately? It’s her happy place, it would always be. But that was all until the flirty, witty and obnoxious Bucky Barnes opened up a rival coffee shop two blocks down the street. Business and profit are all Bucky cares about. He’s the exact opposite of everything Y/N stands for, and naturally, she can’t stand him. But what happens when Y/N is running the risk of losing her beloved shop and Bucky’s the only one lending her a helping hand?

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💕 The Neighbor by @staymay5 

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💕 came in close by @buckyskorpion 

what could possibly go wrong with a couple of good-natured pranks between sworn enemies?

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💕 (1) New Message by @yikeswtfmate 

One night Wanda and Nat dare Y/N to text her hottest ex. She complies, only to realise it’s not her ex she’s texting and this might be the most attractive man she’s actually laid eyes on.

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💕 Eye For An Eye by @sinner-as-saint 

Battered and bruising, Y/N is out to seek sweet revenge from a man, James Buchanan Barnes, who tore her family apart 10 years ago. Y/N’s plan was simple; infiltrate his life, mess with his head, toy with his heart and leave him broken. Headstrong, she will stop at nothing, not even when it comes down to her being the villain in her own story…

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💕 Under Oath by @ugh-supersoldiers 

The people called for justice, the state answered. The trial of State v. Barnes is set to begin, and the odds are most certainly not in favor of the not so beloved ex Winter Soldier. That’s where you come in, the quick, smart, and all too brave lawyer set on defending and saving one Bucky Barnes from legal prosecution. The only problem? He’s not so sure he’s worth saving at all.

. 💕 Hate To Love You by @revengingbarnes 

While on her death bed, Y/N’s mother has just one wish; her daughter to be married and settled in her life. It’s something her mother has never stopped pestering her about. But up until now, Y/N had managed to not give into her family’s traditions of arranged marriage. And she might have continued to do so if weren’t her mother’s last desire. Unable to refuse her mother’s desperate plea, Y/N agrees to meet the man her parents have chosen for her. There’s just one tiny problem. Her soon-to-be husband is her ex. More tragically, he’s the one ex she never managed to get over.

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💕 Everything by @hootyhoobuckaroo

. 💕 late night devils by @whistlingwillows 

Bucky gets revenge on his ex with you, the girl he never got over no matter how much he thought he did.

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💕 Safe with Me by @bitsandbobsandstuff 

When an unknown threat enters your life, protection is offered at the highest level. As Bucky Barnes comes into your life, the game changes, and you realise falling for the man tasked with keeping you safe is the last thing you expected.    

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💕 Wildest Dreams by @hopesbarnes 

Everyone said he was a bad guy, that he broke hearts. But maybe they were wrong about him.

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💕 Things Bucky says during sex. by @steveodinsonbarnes 

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💕 charming by @venusbarnes 

in which you’re a girl in need of protection, and Bucky’s the perfect man for the job.

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💕 one stroke and you’ve consumed my waking days by @buckthegrump 

Bucky has a pen pal.

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💕 Just One Kiss by @sarahwroteathing 

Bucky Barnes has been chasing after you since he was ten years old, but you’re determined not to give in. How long can you hold out when all he’s asking for is just one kiss? (40′s happy ending AU)

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💕 Come Over by @moonstruckbucky 

You’re new to New York City. Fresh out of post-grad and wanting a change of pace, and this change comes in more ways than one.

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💕 Even In The Darkest Times by @justauthoring 

Bucky x reader where they were together in the forties and when Steve goes back, he sends her into the future so she can be with Bucky while he stays in the past with Peggy.

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💕 Hearts Don’t Lie by @daenyara 

when y/n and her family have to leave Europe to escape the war, finding love in New York is the last thing she expects (and the last thing that interests her). Much to her annoyance, her parents set her up with the one person in all Brooklyn she cannot stand: the charming James Barnes, who’s decided to show her he’s not as bad as she thinks.

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💕 A Bid on Bucky by @samingtonwilson 

You spend thousands of dollars at a bachelor auction for Bucky when you could’ve had him for free this entire time.

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💕 Helpless For You by @sgtjbuccky 

A blind date has lead you and Bucky to the fourth date. Each one proving that you’ve got it bad more than prior and it doesn’t quite matter what will happen - you will keep on falling for that handsome devil and you don’t even mind.

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💕 Lavender by @wkemeup 

Not every nightmare is the same and Bucky doesn’t always wake up as the man you know.

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💕 Fixed by @drawlfoy 

draco has a teasing relationship with the reader–they playfully argue and go back and forth but never acknowledge the fact that there may be something more. draco notices her pulling back and becoming more reserved. he follows her out of the dining hall one day to find her having a breakdown over a dark secret.

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💕 Anytime by @notimetoblog

Bucky is still cautious when it comes to touching people & vice versa. one day after a mission, the avengers are in the quinjet on their way home, Bucky sat down beside the reader & accidentally falling asleep on her & snuggling her. she doesn’t make it a big deal but all the other members are surprised. just fluff involving soft Bucky.

[gwuncanisbetterthanduncney]

TOTAL DRAMA ALL STARS season 5 episode 5

 this is what I think Gwen should have done and what should have happened in episode 5 and afterwards in Gwen’s perspective.I might do Duncan or Courtney’s next,and I might do another season,idk.And,yes,I know I’m like,10 years late.

this is my first story/fanfic,so please go easy on me

Ever since we got  there,Duncan only cared about getting under Courtney’s skin,and its TOTALLY ANNOYING!!!!The only reason I went back to that disgusting place was to make up with Courtney.Even though, I DID NOTHING WRONG!!!!!They were broken up WAY before Duncan and I started.And WHY WAS I A VILLAIN??????????

When Heather started acting all ‘nice’ in this weeks challenge,I knew something was up,but i just tried to keep my distance.Then i saw an opportunity to make amends with Courtney,or at least start to.I took it and I was SO close,but she just had to remember that she wanted to see my head on a spike!

I can’t believe my team were even considering crossing that rope bridge!It’s like, the most obvious thing in a movie!The rope bridge snaps,and most of the time,someone dies.I WAS NOT TAKING THAT CHANCE!So,I decided to take the long way.I might have been alone,against a bunch of killer,wild animals,but at least if I was gonna die,I wasn’t going to fall to my death off of a dang rope!

I have to admit, it was pretty cool of Duncan to save me from those chipmunks,or whatever they were.If only he had stayed that cool the whole time!I mean seriously!Why does he even care if Courtney said anything about him?Shouldn’t he be less focused on his ex-girlfriend and more focused on me,his ACTUAL GIRLFRIEND and the competition????But no,he’s WAY too cocky for that,and thinks that Courtney’s still obsessed with him,like he is about her.I mean,PUH LEASE!She’s happy with Scott,let her be!

When I saw Courtney in trouble,I really hoped that if I saved her,she would finally forgive me for the whole Duncan thing,and we could move on in our lives.Then,everyone would see that I’m really a Hero,not a VILLAIN,and that I really didn’t mean all of those horrible accidents that happened to her.Plus,even though Courtney and I were busy fighting of a deadly deer,we still won!I was SO happy!Another night in a luxury hotel!!!!!!

The last straw for me with Duncan was at the Elimination Ceremony,when Duncan tried to comfort me with a kiss on the cheek,AND ASKED IF COURTNEY WAS WATCHING!!!!!!!!!I finally snapped.”WHY DO YOU CARE????” I screamed.”Look Duncan,I know that you don’t like Courtney,and you’re trying to get under her skin,but I’m sick of it!Ever since we got here,all you’ve cared about is Courtney,YOUR EX-GIRLFRIEND!You need to get this into your thick scull:the only reason I came back here is to make up with her,and the only reason you’re here is because I’m here,right?”Duncan nodded”Right,so you need to stop putting so much effort into your ex-girlfriend and more effort into me,your actual girlfriend and our relationship!Oh,and you need to stop caring what everyone thinks about you!!!!!Ever since you got switched over the the Hero’s, its all you care about.WHO CARES IF YOU’RE A BAD BOY OR A GOODY GOODY??I’ll still love you all the same!If you don’t stop,I’m done,I can barely take it anymore “

I turned to Courtney”Courtney,I am so sorry about everything that has happened between us,even though I really don’t think I did anything wrong,I am so sorry about how everything went down.I really only came back to make up with you,and I’m sorry if you can’t forgive me.”

After my ‘speech’,I stormed back to the hotel,and locked myself in a small bedroom.There was NO way I was going to sit through an entire Elimination Ceremony after that.

Courtney came to my room about an hour later.

She knocked and waited outside the door forever.I eventually opened the door.

“Hey.........”she said as she entered the room.

“Hi.....................”I replied.What was I supposed to say?

“Look,I’m so sorry I wouldn’t forgive you.Or at least hear you out about it.I really appreciate how you came back just to make it up to me!”Courtney said after a long silence.”And by the way,you were right,we were over before you started dating..........Can you ever forgive me????

I was almost in tears.Finally,someone admitted that I wasn’t the boyfriend stealing,new Heather!!!!!

“Of course!!!!!!!!I muttered,in between sobs

SEASON 5 EPISODE 6

I was so happy to wake up and find Cameron on our team.Finally someone nice!I really wasn’t in the mood for some dumb challenge,but,I also needed a distraction.Plus I was curious if Duncan would take my words seriously.

I got seriously scared when Chris told u what the challenge was.But,to my surprise,Duncan stayed with me the entire time,even though we’re on different teams.He was actually really sweet.Half way through the challenge,Duncan pulled me aside and apologized.He told me that he just felt self conscious about losing his ‘bad boy’ exterior,and he didn’t want me to think he was a sissy or that its not cool to be in a relationship with a ‘do-gooder’ or something like that.I told him he was sweet,but really stupid,I mean,as if doing something kind would put me off being in a relationship with him.The thing that put me off was his arrogance,cocky-ness and how he was pretending to be something he’s not.

Then he stopped me,pulled me in close and we kissed

After that,Duncan really started to change.He stopped trying to get to Courtney,and finally started to focus on our relationship.And the competition.When Duncan stopped caring what everyone thought of him,he actually did start to go back to being a bad boy,which I could see he was happy about.

SEASON 5 EPISODE 7

I was so focused on the whole Duncan and Courtney thing that I didn’t even really notice who was on my team.Courtney,obviously.Which now was great because she finally forgave me,Cameron,who I really didn’t know,but I was really happy to get to know,because he seems like a really nice person,Scott,who was one of the 2 actual villains on the Villain team.Yeah,he was weird,but it was so obvious that Courtney liked him,so,I had to be nice to him.If I was on his good side,I could stay on Courtney’s good side.

And last but not least,Alejandro.There was NO WAY I was ever going to trust that guy!There really isn’t much to say,except for the fact that he was definitely the most villainous of all the Villains.

“hey babe.”Duncan said as I walked over to him.He seemed really down.I knew Duncan seemed off.Something was bothering him,so,I asked him.I COULD’NT BELIEVE IT!!!!Mike was in JUVIE????But he was called Mal??That made no sense,I mean,MIKE!!!When I wasn’t focused on Duncan and Courtney,I did notice that Mike was acting a bit strange,but I still couldn’t believe that HE went to juvie.Duncan left to go tell Zoey.I didn’t think that was such a good idea.I mean if I was in doubt,there was no way Zoey would believe him.Especially since Duncan had gone back to his old ways of being ‘the delinquent’.I didn’t have time to ask Duncan how she reacted,because Chris started explaining the challenge.”Great,another day of pain.”I thought.

I knew something had to be up with this challenge when Scott had to fight Fang and Sierra had to fight her........creature’s mother.Scott was SO MESSED UP after his fight with Fang,and I was SO happy when Courtney let me help.I was really glad we were friends again!!

I have to admit,when I saw Alejandro’s older brother,I was in awe.I know he told us that he was better than him at everything,but I guess I had to see it to believe it.But it was no surprise how he felt about Heather.It was more obvious that they were in love than me and Duncan,and we’re an ACTUAL COUPLE!!!

When I saw Mike take down Izzy,I kinda started to believe Duncan even more.The Mike that I knew,even vaguely,WOULD NOT be able to take down that psycho chick!

I know it looked bad,that Duncan couldn’t take down some stupid bird,but I respected him for it.YEAH it was just a bird,but Duncan wouldn’t hurt something so helpless.I know he was disappointed in himself,but like I said,I RESPECTED HIM FOR IT and I told him so.He still seemed upset,so I gave him a hug and pulled him in for a kiss.He seemed to cheer up after that,but I hated that he was doubting himself so much.I thought he was really noble to turn down that fight!

It was my turn next,and I couldn’t believe they actually wanted me to fight Courtney!Right after we made up and were best friends again!

We obviously refused,until Chris pulled out those Gwuncan videos Sierra made.I could tell Courtney was getting angry,so I simply said:”Look,Courtney,we’re passed this,and we agreed to be friends!You told me you were OVER Duncan!”

There was a long pause.I had no idea what to do!”Should I be getting ready to fight?”I thought to myself

“You’re right!Sorry Chris,but I’m not fighting my best friend!”Courtney finally replied

I was so happy!!!!!!This was confirmation that she really did forgive me!!!!I pulled her into a huge hug and ran over to Duncan.I didn’t care if our team lost or not.I was SO happy!!!

When Chris told us that we got to choose who went home,it was an obvious choice.Sierra.She was going crazy without her phone and Cody.Well,crazier.

I was so glad Alejandro was gone for the night!I always felt uneasy with him around.

I felt horrible eliminating Sierra,but Duncan did help me through it and made me laugh a lot.He also reassured me that she would be happier,cause she would be with Cody again.

I know it sounds like Duncan’s gone soft,but he really hasn’t.He’s sweet around me sometimes,like when I’m upset,but with everyone else,he’s just how he used to be.Which I appreciate.I love that he is himself when he’s around me and everyone in camp,dark and spooky,but when he realizes I’m upset or need to talk about something,he switches.He’s kind,sweet and understanding.

I don’t want it to seem like I wanted him to change,I think he just needed a reality check,which I’m sure he would agree with now,and that’s exactly what I gave him.

SEASON 5 EPISODE 8

I woke up that morning feeling AMAZING!Courtney and I were friends again,everything was back on track with Duncan,I slept in the most comfortable bed ever,in the most amazing hotel ever and I had the best dream...........ever.I dreamt that I was riding a fluffy unicorn ,across clouds made of marshmallows!

Courtney and I started to talk and I confessed that a couple days before I was ready to quit,but because we were friends again,and me and Duncan had the best relationship ever,I never wanted it to end!

“I hope we make it to the finale together.”Courtney said,smiling.

“What about Scott?”I asked

Then,Courtney said something that made me even HAPPIER.I didn’t think that was possible “He’s cool and all,but like you say,you gotta put friends first!”

Like I said,I was really happy that she said that,and meant it,but what about Duncan?He was my boyfriend after all!

The more I thought about it,the more I realized that my dream was to have Duncan AND Courtney in the finale with me.After that,there would be no alliances,no bias.And we would all try our best and see who won.Before,those two in the finale with me would have seemed like a nightmare,with them fighting all the time,but,Duncan had realized that Courtney and I were friends and there was nothing he could do about it.And Courtney realized that Duncan and I were in love,and just because they didn’t work out,doesn’t mean that the same would happen to us.

Before the challenge,Duncan decided to drive Chef’s truck into the ocean,I don’t know why,probably because he was bored,or wanted to prove a point,but it was HILARIOUS watching Chef get all mad,which,of course,made Duncan happy,and then he saw me laughing and found it even funnier!He really was a sight for sore eyes!

When I heard that the teams were being merged,I was so happy!Now,not only could I spend time with Courtney,but I could spend time with Duncan,not just walking to,from,and during challenges!I walked straight over to Duncan and kissed him.

For that days challenge,we had to race all around the island in boats that barely floated!

Of course Duncan and I went together,but Alejandro got the best boat,so we jumped into the other speedboat.

I looked back and saw Courtney and Scott jump on to the raft with Zoey and Cameron.I would have gone back for her,considering she was my best friend,but we were too far ahead.

I don’t know how Mike got so far ahead of us in a measly fishing boat,but, I was glad to see Alejandro’s engine stalling.And so was Duncan.”Having a little engine trouble Al???”Duncan laughed as we sped past him.

We managed to avoid all of the coconuts in Coconut Alley,but when I looked back,I saw that Courtney got hit,and I got seriously worried!But she bounced back just like she always does.

Eventually,our engine stalled,and even the guys on the RAFT passed us with their new motor.Duncan went to the top of the boat and started paddling while I tried to fix the engine.And of course,to make a bad situation worse,Chris just had to swoop down and remind us that Mike was winning.........and we were in last place.

I eventually got the engine going again,and we went as fast as we could,but it just wasn’t enough.We came in second,and would have won,but Alejandro’s NOSE passed the finish line before we did.I was so sure we were gonna win,but Alejandro beat us by a split second.

I wasn’t that bummed when Alejandro was being a jerk about bringing someone to the hotel because as corny as it sounds,I just wanted to spend time with Duncan,and i couldn’t do that if one of us was in the 5 star hotel.Not that Alejandro would bring either of us anyway!

At the Elimination Ceremony,I was SO glad to hear that there would be no Boney Island!That place is HORRIBLE!!!!And then,when I thought it couldn’t get any better,Chris told us that there also wouldn’t be anyone going home.I knew there was probably a catch,but,I just didn’t care.

As we were saying goodnight,Duncan slipped a note into my hand and went to the guys side of the cabin.

I waited until I was in bed to read it,and I kept it from Courtney.I don’t know why,I just felt like she ‘wouldn’t approve’ or something.Anyway,the note said

     “Gwen,if you feel like having some fun,meet me at the mess hall at 2.A.M.Everythings funner at night <3 ;]Make sure no 1 sees u.Especially Courtney.</p>

When I read the note,I was so glad I waited till everyone was in bed.I decided to wait up until then.It was 10:30pm so I only had to wait 4 and a half hours..............no problem.

I dozed off a few times,but eventually the time came to go meet Duncan.I got  dressed and made my way to the mess hall.He saw me before I saw him,so Duncan decided to sneak up to me,grab me,and of course,kiss me.We walked over to where he was waiting for me,and I saw that he had a lot of toilet paper and eggs.I could see where he was going with this,but I decided to play dumb.

“Duncan,what are these for?”I asked,trying to sound as dumb as possible.

“WHAT DO YOU THINK BABE?We’re gonna tp and egg the camp.Especially the hotel.”Duncan replied.”UNLESS YOU’RE TOO CHICKEN!”and he started clucking like a chicken.

“HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,great plan,bad boy,but first,I have two questions.

1.Where’d you find all the eggs and toilet paper.And 2.Why didn’t you want me to tell Courtney?”

“Oh come on,Pasty,you need to start comin up with better questions!

1.I was looking around the hotel last night,and found a huge cellar full of cool stuff.And 2.She would follow you,take a video of us and sue the show to have us kicked off.Just to get herself closer to the million bucks.”

I really didn’t wanna laugh,because we were friends again,but I couldn’t help it.It was so accurate it hurt!

We probably stood there laughing for the next 10 minutes laughing.

We finally got it together,grabbed as much toilet paper and eggs as we could carry and made our way over to the hotel.

It was so much fun TP-ing and egging the hotel.And it was the only time alone me and Duncan had since we got there.We finished,and one thing led to another.Next thing I knew we were on the ground making out.Don’t judge me,okay.I know we were outside,and I was still trying to secure Courtney’s trust,and she probably still hated me on the inside,but,I couldn’t help myself.

SEASON 5 EPISODE 9

We finally left,happy with our work,at about 04:30 in the morning and went to bed,only to get about 2 hours of sleep,when we were woken up by Chris’s screaming.We all went out to see what was wrong,and for a minute,I actually forgot everything that happened that night.........Until I looked at the resort.Duncan and I burst out laughing,until I remembered that Chris would probably make us clean it up if he knew me and Duncan did it,so I dug him in the sides and tried to cover my laughter with a fake cough.

It was seriously hard not to laugh at Chris and Chef’s reactions!

After we went behind the hotel and laughed ‘till our sides hurt,Duncan and I eventually went up to the library.I was going to go over to Courtney,but saw she was cuddling up to Scott,and thought it would just be better to ask her about it later,so I went to stand with Cam and Duncan.I had no idea why,but Cameron seemed really cold towards me,and acted like I didn’t exist.

I decided to think about it later,and to focus on the competition right then.I couldn’t believe that Chris was planning a PARTY.I was already getting scared when Chris was listing off the things ‘he hoped no one was allergic to’,but when I saw ZEKE,I kinda started to freak out.But as usual,Duncan was there to calm me down.Courtney even helped!

Like I said I was freaking out when I just SAW Zeke,but when Chef said he wanted us to HUNT FOR HIM,I really started to freak.NO WAY WAS I DOING THAT.I didn’t even LIKE Chris!

Then Chef agreed to that reward........................

There was no way I was going in there alone,so I naturally made Duncan swear on his life that he WOULD NOT LEAVE ME IN THERE,like Trent did when I was buried alive.And yes,I’m still mad about it.I’m really going to sound like Courtney right now,but,to make sure he didn’t leave me in a cold,dark pit,I tied a rope around both of our waists.Its not that I thought Duncan would leave me in there,but I had to be sure.I did think the same with Trent,after all.

We ran to the mines and tried to find a way in.I really wanted to win that reward,but,I was kinda distracted.Duncan noticed and asked me what was wrong,so I told him about Cameron,and that I had no idea what he could be mad about.As always,Duncan calmed me down,told me to forget about Cam and reminded me what was on the line.Aswell as reminding me that ‘I should be paying more attention to him,cause,he was much hotter’.As usual his joke made me focus again and I got my head back in the game.

“Hey Pasty,”Duncan called from a few meters away,still connected to the rope “This must me the entrance.Come on.”And before I could turn to look,I felt myself being pulled down a long,dark tunnel.

“DUNCAAAAAAANNNNN!”I screamed when I eventually hit the ground. “Where are you??????HEEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPP!!!!”

 “Babe,it’s fine,I’m right here.No need to panic.”I heard Duncan say as he hugged me tight.Again,he made me feel better,but after about 5 seconds I came to my senses and grabbed my flashlight.I tried to turn it on but the batteries were dead.I started to freak out again,and then we heard Zoey calling my name as she jumped down the hole.I moved out of the way,but she landed right on top of Duncan.

“OMG Duncan,I am so sorry!Are you alright??”

“Whatever,I’m fine!”Duncan said,obviously really annoyed at Zoey.

“Oh,thank goodness!”Then she turned to me “Gwen,are you okay?I heard you screaming.”Zoey said,clearly worried for me.

“Look,I’m fine Zoey,but we can’t just stand here in the dark,we,ve gotta get out of here.Try your flashlights.”

They tried them and suddenly,we had light.I’ve never been so happy to see a flashlight working before in my life!

We made our way down the mine,when I started hearing grunting sounds.Again,I was freaking out and didn’t even let Zoey or Duncan speak.Then,in the middle of my mindless yabbering,I heard Zoey screaming.Next thing I knew,her flashlight was on the floor and I couldn’t see Zoey anywhere.Neither could Duncan.

“You know what?,Forget this!”I shouted as I walked away,trying to find an exit.

“Gwen?Where are you going?”I heard Duncan call behind me.

“Where do you think?I’m not gonna sit and wait for Zeke to come and stuff me in a bag!” I said,rolling my eyes at him.

 “Good point.......”I heard Duncan say to himself.He thought about it for a second but then ran to join me.

“Then I’m coming with you.Where’s the exit?”

“My hero”I exclaimed sarcastically.”Anyway,I have no idea.Lets just have a look around”

While we were looking around,I saw Cameron laying in the river.Me and Duncan ran to pull him out,and,when he tried to hug us,Duncan pushed him back in the water.I helped him out again,and I was so happy when he said that he trusted me again,but,when he said that ‘Mike had him going’,I started to believe Duncan’s theory of Mike being dangerous even more.The old Mike wouldn’t want Cam to think bad of anyone!

I was going to tell Cameron that we were leaving,but he ran off before I got the chance.Duncan wanted to leave him and get out of there,but,I couldn’t just let my friend run into a radio-active mine and leave him there.So,we had to follow him.

We saw the streamers and I wanted to turn back,but,Duncan,Cameron and Chef ran into the mine.And I was NOT going to stay there by myself.

“I’ll distract Zeke,you get Chris,you saved my life.I owe you this!”Cameron told me and Duncan,before he ran in front of Zeke.

“Get Chris!”Duncan screamed as he ran out after Cameron.

Duncan was a few feet behind Cameron,so he was fine when Cam was buried in rocks.Duncan straight away started pulling them off of him while I shot Zeke with the Spaghetti Gun.

I threw Chris on the ground and ran over to help Duncan get the rocks off of Cameron.We ran out of the mine and went to the campfire for elimination,but,there was no need,because,Cameron was too hurt to keep going.I felt really bad,but,at least he helped me win the prize before he went.......

SEASON 5 EPISODE 10

“OMG,how much more dangerous can these challenges even get?” was all I could think when Chris was explaining the ‘Obsta-kill-course’.Before the challenge,Zoey told me how Alejandro LET Cam fall in the mines.Man,I knew he was evil,but I didn’t think even he was THAT evil.So,yeah,I agreed to voting him off with Zoey and Mike.Even if I didn’t know which version of Mike was in control.

“Oh,great,murderous tires”I thought when I was running through them.And on top of that stupid challenge,I had Alejandro wanting to form an alliance with me!Even after what he did to Cam.It made me sick just to look at him.

When I finally made it passed the tires,surprisingly still in 1 piece,I got to the ropes.What is wrong with those people?I mean,ropes made out of dog hair,electrical wires and LICORICE!?How were we supposed to climb a rope made of licorice?!

Me and Zoey were just laughing and joking about my DISGUSTING rope,when suddenly,I heard Courtney shouting below 

“You two better not be talking about me kissing Scott and Cameron!!”

“You kissed Cameron?!” I screamed.HOW COULD SHE?After all the crap she gave me for kissing Duncan,when they were broken up,she went and kissed Cameron......WHILE SHE WAS WITH SCOTT!!!!!

“I f we survive this,you and I are having a little chat,Courtney.”And I knew exactly what I wanted to say to that two faced little witch!But,at the moment I had to focus on winning.

I finally reached_ the snapping bars_,the thing I’m worst at.......When I was growing up,I could never get all the way across,so,I don’t know how I did it in the challenge.Probably had something to do with the fact that I was hanging above a pond filled with snapping turtles,and seeing Mike,or was it Mal,fall in and get bitten. 

And,of course,when I was SO close to winning,Courtney wanted to talk about her cheating on Scott.”Sorry Courtney,I don’t have time for your lies right now,”and I ran off,leaving her dumbfounded behind the rocks.

Because I ran off,I got to the zipline first.I opened my backpack and took my equipment out.I really thought I was going to win,but,Zoey passed me by an inch!I looked back and saw Mike(or Mal) hanging onto Alejandro.”Smart move”I thought.But,it didn’t end so well,and they fell into the water.Duncan came third,Courtney was fourth and Scott,was dead last.We were waiting for Scott when I realized that I hadn’t seen Duncan for the entire challenge. “Where were you all this time?”I asked.

“Don’t worry about it Pasty.”is all he would say,which got me annoyed,but,I had bigger problems so,I ignored his teasing.

On the way back to camp,I told Duncan about Courtney kissing Cam and Scott,and that I was really annoyed about it.He started going off!He was so mad.

“How could she,after all the kicks to the kiwis,all the screaming,all the arguments,all the hate we put up with!?!?”

“I know,just,let me talk to her later.If shes not voted off......”

“Fine,but you know I’m sure as Hell gonna vote her off!”

And that was the end of the conversation.

At the Elimination Ceremony,it was obvious who was going home,and I could tell Duncan was not happy about it.When Alejandro’s name was called,Duncan went red!I knew he was annoyed at Courtney,like a lot,but I asked him to let me talk to her before he said or did anything.

The night before,I decided I did not want to stay in that hotel anymore.Chris is so weird and as cheesy as it sounds,I missed going asleep and waking up with and near my best friends and my boyfriend.But,because I didn’t want my reward,Chris decided that I had to go to Boney Island!

SEASON 5 EPISODE 11

“Man,Boney Island was rough,well,up until that Woolly Beaver tried to eat me and I climbed a tree and slept in the canopy.It was actually pretty relaxing.” “Well,at least you got some kind of break from this dump,”Duncan said kicking a rock. “Wow”Zoey said simply.Then,Courtney did something really weird! “Yeah,what a nightmare.Luckily,Gwen is super smart and totally strong,so she lived to tell the tale” she said hugging me.I smiled,really weirded out while everyone else rolled their eyes.

“Well,welcome back Gwen.”Zoey said in her usual,sweet voice.I smiled,until I heard Courtney mocking her under her breath.”What!?” I shouted. “Oh,nothing,I was just noticing that cutthroat vibe Zoey has about her.So two-faced.We should shun her.” I was about to say no when I heard Duncan behind me.I turned and he said “Please don’t tell me you’re really gonna ‘shun’ your friend because Princess over here wants you to.” “No,no i’m not.”I said,leaving Courtney dumbfounded on her own.

Courtney caught up with us and I asked Duncan to go on ahead.I decided to talk to her there about kissing Scott and Cam. “Are you still mad at me for all the kissing I did,because Scott was an accident and Cameron kissed me!” she asked “Yes,I’m still mad at you!You gave me and Duncan so much crap because of World Tour even though you were broken up,but,when you do it,everyone is supposed to act like it never happened.And it’s even worse because you and Scott were actually together when ‘Cameron kissed you’ and everyone knew it!” “I know,and I’m so sorry,but I really don’t want to lose you as a friend over some guy again!Can we just put all this behind us?”she pleaded. “So you still wanna go all the way to the finale with me?” “Gwen,I promise.It’s you and me,right to the end.” “Ok then,but so I know I can trust you,you have to vote for whoever I tell you at the Elimination.” “Deal”.And we ran to catch up with everyone else.

Then we ran into Scott. “H-Hey Courtney,you’re looking really,uh,goop,AH,good!I mean,you know,gice,NICE!Agh........UGH!”I started laughing as Courtney really awkwardly thanked him. “Yeah,anytime.And,hey,if you need any help lifting anything,just let me know.”And he did dome cringe yawn and stretch thing,talking about his arms being like a cheetah’s.I started gagging and Courtney and I were laughing and joking,and I was so happy.I did what I went there to do.Courtney ACTUALLY forgave me!

Scott caught up to Mike and Zoey,while Duncan came over to Courtney and I and put his arm around me,like he usually does.I was happy with how me and Courtney’s conversation went,but I knew Duncan wouldn’t be,so I was trying to figure out a way to tell him about it and keep him calm,when I heard Scott talking to Mike and Zoey in the distance. “Hope you two got lots of sleep,’cause I’m feeling as strong as an ox.” “Don’t you mean ‘strong as a rat’?”Scott gave him a confused look,so Mike said “OH,you haven’t seen Courtney’s chart!?”Courtney gasped,and we ran over as Mike pulled out a chart,1st with Duncan drawn as a devil,then with Mike and Zoey drawn somewhat normally and me,drawn with horns and a red nose,all with big red X’s going through them,and finally,there was Scott,drawn with a rat tail,with a big green tick beside it.

“Second last!? ‘right to the end,my butt!”I said as I walked away,Duncan close behind,shooting her a dirty look.

I could hear Scott complaining about Courtney drawing him with a tail,then joining me and Duncan,and Courtney desperately tried to explain. “Oh please,even you can’t talk your way out of this one!”I shouted back at her,without looking back.We all ran to the ice-cream,and Duncan and I were almost at the top of the cliff when Scott pushed me down and ran ahead.I almost fell down but,as usual,Duncan was there to save me.

I was first to get my ice-cream and slid down the cliff all the way to the bottom.Closely followed by Duncan.We ran to the swap with the cherries,and again,I was first to reach them.When Duncan and I heard ‘Snappy’ behind us,I started to freak out and scream,but because Duncan was bottling up so much anger towards Courtney,he threw his bowl to the edge of the swamp and started fighting ‘Snappy’.I ran ahead,and as I was leaving,I saw Duncan getting out of the swamp,looking very satisfied,so I guessed he had one his fight,but,in the background,I also saw Mike swinging down and jumping on the alligator,just as he was recovering from his fight with Duncan.

That confirmed it for me.Duncan was right and Mike was Mal.There was no way Mike would actually fight SNAPPY!Manitoba or Vito maybe,or maybe Svetlana would swing down and grab the cherry,carefully placing it in her bowl,but Mike,would have tried to sneak passed the alligator.

I continued running and Duncan soon caught up.

“Hey,thanks for the save back there.”I said with a smile

“Hey,no problem.Needed to let some anger out anyway.”He said,rolling his eyes towards Courtney,who was desperately trying to get Zoey to be in an alliance with her.

We kept running until we got to the ‘crushed nut zone’.Somehow,Mal had beaten us there,and was already fighting off the robot.We almost sneaked passed it,and got away,but, Mal shouted “Hey guys,look out for the robot!”.It turned it’s attention towards us.I grabbed my crushed nuts as Duncan and I took turns distracting the robot.I ran out of the mess hall after Duncan and tripped over Courtney. “Gwen,I-” Courtney started. “No time to chat!”I said as I tried to run away and catch up. “Wait!I’m sorry.I never should have made that chart.I still want us to be a team,to be friends!Please don’t vote me off.VOTE FOR ZOEY!”She said desperately. “You’re right,you shouldn’t have made that chart,and I can’t forgive you,but I need as many allies as possible,so,if you vote for yourself,like you promised,I’ll vote for Scott,and I’ll try to get Duncan,Zoey and Mike to vote for him too.”I said as I was about to run off again.She stopped me again. “Get real!You’re just trying to make it unanimous!”She whined. “That’s a chance you’ll just have to take” I shouted back as I finally escaped and ran to catch up.

I caught up to Mike and Duncan when they were hiding behind a rock,at the ‘chocolate fire zone’. “Come on Duncan,we can take turns distracting it!”I called over.Duncan agreed,and I was about to run out and distract the fire plant when Mal piped up “Can I help?”he asked. “Sure Mike,but no sabotage this time,OK?”I said as sweetly as I could.He opened his mouth to  defend himself,but Duncan pushed him out to distract the plant.Duncan ran ahead,with his chocolate sauce and I ran and got mine.I considered leaving him there to fight off the plant himself,but decided to help him.I distracted the fire plant like I said I would and waited for Mal to get his chocolate.I was about to run ahead,after he got it,and expected him to follow me,but he dove back behind the rock.

I shook my head and ran to catch up with Duncan.He was almost at the finish line,but Courtney ran in front of him and won the race!I was furious until Chris said that we actually had to eat our sundaes and Zoey won. “Yes!Courtney is going DOWN!”I thought.

I decided to keep my promise and vote for Scott,but I didn’t say anything to Duncan,Zoey or Mal about voting for him too.I t wouldn’t have made a difference though.Everyone was super annoyed at Courtney after that chart,including me.I was seriously happy when Courtney was flushed down that giant toilet.It meant that I could become better friends with Zoey,and Mike when he gained back control.I also knew that Duncan was happy too.Now,we could also focus on our relationship with each other,not with Courtney.

“Welcome to the Final 5!Zoey,the spa hotel is all yours because......from now on,winners can’t take anyone along with them.”I heard Chris say as I walked back to the cabin.I was kinda disappointed.I never felt safe around Mal,ever since Duncan told me about Juvie.

SEASON 5 EPISODE 12

When I got back to camp,I was really excited,and was going to go to the confessional when Duncan stopped me.

“Where are you going,Pasty?”He asked.He looked kind of worried.

“To the confessional,why?”I asked.

“No reason.........I’m coming with you”He answered,kinda abruptly.

I simply answered, “Ok” and we made our way there.

I walked in and expected Duncan to just wait outside,but he came in and I really didn’t mind

“We’re the last 2 original cast members left on the island!”I said excitedly while leaning against Duncan,smiling up at him. “But,if we’re going to make it all the way,we need to get some allies.”I said thoughtfully. “Other than each other.”I butted in right as Duncan was about to say something. “But then again,Mike and Zoey are my friends,and they wouldn’t vote one of us off,just like I would never vote one of them off.Neither would Duncan,right babe?”I asked

“Well,honestly babe,Mal’s gotta go.He ain’t right.”He said.The more I thought about it,the more I realized that he was right.If it came down to it,I would probably vote Mal off too.

“Yeah I guess,but Scott needs to go!”

“Agreed!”

Then we left to go back to the cabins.

Even though we were gonna vote Scott of,I decided to be nice to him,so I went up to him and said: “Hey,Scott.How are you holding up?”He scoffed “What do you care?” “Sorry,I....”I started to apologize “I don’t want your pity.I want your head on a platter!”He threatened. Duncan came over and told him to back off. “Thanks,Duncan,but it’s fine.”I said as I walked away into the girls cabin.

I could here Duncan and Scott arguing outside,but I ignored them and tried to fall asleep.After I prayed that Scott would wake up in the morning.

We woke up to Chris screaming into the loudspeaker,as usual.

“Good morning Final 5!Gather on the dock,pronto-rooni-o.It’s crunch time!And by that,I mean your about to get crunched.”He said before he started laughing hysterically like the psychopath he is.

I walked with Duncan,as we made a list of all the horror movies we were gonna watch when we got home.

He eventually got to the point and told us what the challenge was.We needed to find something valuable on the island.I scoffed,turned to Duncan and said “Chris’ idea of ‘valuable’ is pretty skewed.He’s such an ego maniac,his most prized  possession is himself.” “Too true Pasty”Duncan replied as we tried not to laugh.

We had to find whatever was in the treasure chest we opened,and because Zoey won,she went first.I went next and had to find the gold key from Chef’s go carts from Season 4.Then,Duncan went,and he had to find Mr coconut.Apparently,he was lost after Chris threw him away in season 1.Scott went next,then Mal.Duncan and I decided that for this challenge,we would try and win it on our own,because,we’ve helped each other so much this season.

When Chris said that 2 of us were going home though,we decided to help each other just a bit. “OK how ‘bout this,whoever finds their treasure first helps the other?”Duncan suggested. “WOW,that’s actually a really good idea,Duncan!”I said,surprised.

We all ran to find our ‘loot’.I checked Chef’s kitchen first.I must have smashed every smashable thing in there!Good thing Chef didn’t catch me!But,no matter where I looked,the gold key just wasn’t there. “Oh man!”I thought. “Where else would Chris and Chef keep a key?”Then I remembered that the gold car was the car that didn’t work,so they probably threw it out. “It’s a long shot,but it might still be in the trash.”I said to myself.I made my way over to the dump and bumped into Duncan. 

“Wow,what are you doing?”I asked looking him up and down. “Isn’t it obvious?Chris threw Mr.Coconut into the water,so he’s gotta be there somewhere.”he answered,like it was the most obvious thing in the world. “Where you goin’?”he asked. “The key wasn’t in the kitchen,and I figured they would have thrown the key out,since that kart didn’t work,so I’m hoping it’ll still be in the trash.”I said. “Cool,well,good luck Pasty.” “Right back at ya Juvie.”,and I made my way to the trash.

I got there and started digging through the dumpster.Suddenly,I heard someone moving behind me. “AHHHHHHH”I screamed,and hit the person over the head with a baseball bat I found.The person stood up and growled! “Oh my God!What are you doing here.......Mike?!”I was about to say Mal,but I stopped myself.He hesitated. “Oh,uh.......I.....was just..um.......looking for my treasure,yeah um.........I need to find an original golden Chris statue,so I......just...um.....figured it would be in the dump.......so............yeah”I looked at him suspiciously. “Whatever......”I finally said,after a long and awkward silence.I kept looking,trying to avoid Mal as much as possible.

“So..........ummmm.........you know,i was just thinking that me,you and Zoey should make an alliance.........or......something.”He said awkwardly,after a really long pause. “Let me talk to Duncan”I said back coldly. “Well........I mean,I like Duncan,you know that.........it’s just........I was thinking it would be just you,me and Zoey,you know?” “Ugh,yeah right!Fat chance of that happening”I said rolling my eyes.

I quickly found the key and got out of there before Mal could say anything else.When I got back,Zoey had already won, and Duncan and Scott were already there.Even though Scott didn’t have his treasure.Later,at the elimination ceramony,Zoey got to choose who to flush out of me,Mal and Duncan.Scott automatically got the boot for coming back empty handed. “I’m really sorry Gwen,but I promised Mike I’d take him to the finale if I won,and you’re a really strong competitor.”she said hanging her head in shame while Scott was sitting in the flush of shame.

“If Gwen’s going, I’m going too!”Duncan said suddenly,climbing into the flush of shame. “Fine,whatever,makes things easier for me!”Chris agreed carelessly. “Duncan?!What are you doing?You have a chance to win ANOTHER million bucks!”I gasped. “I don’t need it Pasty!Still have loads left over from TDA.Anyway,I only came back cause you wanted to.” “Awww,thanks Duncan!Hey,Zoey,I really hope you win!And watch out for ‘Mike’!”I said staring straight at Mal.He simply looked around cluelessly,whistling that annoying song.

I’m not going to do episodes now that they were eliminated

And just like that,we were all flushed down the flush of shame,and sent back to ‘playa de losers’.We washed up on the shore of the beach,and walked over to the villa.When we walked in,they were all sitting around the pool.Lindsay turned around first and squealed “OMG Gwen!What are you doing here?!And Duncan too?!”I rolled my eyes as she pulled me into a hug and I hugged her back. “We were eliminated,Lindsay,just like you were.”

I pulled away from the hug and walked over to Cameron,rolling my eyes at Courtney as I did. “Hey,buddy.How you feeling?” “Oh,I’m fine!The doctor said I’ll only need my full-body cast for another 2 months!”he said excitedly. “Um........wow...that’s so....great!”I answered awkwardly.

The three of us that had just arrived went around to everyone,catching up on everything that had happened since they were eliminated.Duncan and I avoided Courtney,while Scott ran over to her as soon as we walked up.Me and Duncan just looked at him,looked at each other,and rolled our eyes.

We found out which rooms we were in and went to unpack and relax.Me and Duncan had rooms right next to each other,at the end of the hall.Duncan winked at me when we were going into our rooms and I just laughed and winked back.I unpacked my suitcase and went to join everyone else at the pool.Duncan was there,dipping doing laps around the pool.I went and put my feet in the water. “Wow!I never took you as a swimmer!” “Yeah,well......you just gonna sit there all night?”he asked,staring at me jokingly.I jumped in and started splashing him. “Oh,yeah,that’s how you wanna play?”he said,splashing me back.We continued splashing each other,and were wrestling in the water,when we heard a camera click.We turned and were shocked to see Sierra pointing her phone at us,taking a million pictures. “O.M.G!You two are sooooo cute together!My followers on my Gwuncan blog are gonna LOVE this.” 

We both rolled our eyes again and got out of the pool. “Way to ruin the mood,Stalkzilla!”Duncan shouted back at her.I laughed and we talked and joked until we got to our rooms.I had a shower and got ready for bed.I only remembered when my stomach started growling like crazy that I hadn’t eaten anything since Chef’s slop that morning.Then,I remembered that I was in a villa,that had ACTUAL FOOD and ran down to the kitchen.

Right as I was about to enter the kitchen when I heard the cupboard opening and pots and pans clanking together.I shook my head,rolled my eyes and walked in.I was expecting to see someone in there,but there was only a half eaten doughnut,in the shape of............Cody......sitting there on the table.I shrugged it off and went over to the fridge.I stood there for a few minutes,in awe.I hadn’t seen that much REAL FOOD for almost 2 months!I grabbed all the ingredients for my favorite grilled cheese and went over to the pans.I opened the cupboard and screamed!

“SIERRA?What  are you doing?!”I screamed. “Gwen favorite food:Grilled Cheese!”she said into her phone. “Oh,sorry Gwen!I was just hiding in there so I could see what you were doing!”she said,as if that isn’t creepy at all!I rolled my eyes again and grabbed a pan behind her.I made my sandwich and listen her going on about how ‘me and Duncan are soooooo cute together,even though boyfriend stealing is wrong,and almost all of her followers love us together and blah blah blah.’ I can’t even count the amount of times I rolled my eyes from the time that it took me to make my grilled cheese to clean up afterwards.

Even though I felt like my head was going to explode,I stayed for a while and listened to her rambling on.I eventually got away from her at about 10 ‘o clock and went up to my room.I found the letters my family and friends sent me on the dresser.I opened up one from my brother,and he told me that my mom was acting crazy again,and told me that I looked really stupid chasing Courtney around the way I did.In another letter,he told me that he was had re-watched the episode where I screamed at Duncan and Courtney about 1 million times.I laughed when I read that.I opened the letters from my mom next,and she just went on and on about how much they both missed me.I got 1 letter from Pixie Corpse,Reaper and Marilyn,which they wrote together.Reaper wrote that I needed to forget that stuck up b**ch and ‘focus on my dumbass boyfriend’,so it was obviously sent before episode 5.Marilyn went on about how stupid Duncan was being,while Pixie went on about how much they all hate Courtney.

I finally decided to stop re-reading my letters at around 11pm and went to sleep.

The next morning,I woke up,got in my swimwear and went down for breakfast in the dining room.I sat beside Cameron and Duncan sat beside me.I had to help Cameron with his food because of his cast,but I didn’t mind.It was kind of my fault he was hurt anyway.After breakfast,I put on sunscreen and layed on a beach lounger near the pool.I was just getting comfortable,when Duncan ran up and drenched me from head to toe with a bucket of ice water.I screamed and pushed him in the pool.I laughed and jumped in beside him.Lindsay,Sierra,Sam,Joe and Lightning jumped in after us,and we were all having a great time,while Heather stared at us in disgust,Alejandro stared at her in awe,Courtney stared at her PDA and Scott stared at her,drooling.

After a while,everyone got out,but me and Duncan stayed.We stopped joking around and just hung out at the edge. “So,you’re really not annoyed that you missed out on a million bucks?”I asked,looking up at him,smiling curiously. “Nah.I don’t need it.I only put up with Chris because you were there anyway.”I laughed,and splashed him.This spiked up another water fight,and we eventually started wrestling again.

A while later,we stopped because the lunch buffet was served.

Every day was pretty much the same,for about 3 days,until the day of the finale came.That morning,we all got ready and had breakfast.Then,we were brought to the camp and put in giant balloons.As soon as we saw the balloons,Duncan and I stared at each other with fear. “Oh,man,what’s Chris gonna do to us now?” I asked myself.I thought for sure that Cameron was still too injured to participate,since he was still in a bubble,with a broken arm,but they shoved him into a balloon anyway.

We were left flouting there for a while,until eventually,just as my claustrophobia started acting up,we heard voices. Chris explained to Zoey and Mal that they had 30 seconds to try and shoot us down,and any one of us they got down,would be their teammate.My claustrophobia really started to act up and I screamed for help.I could hear Duncan trying to calm me down,but I continued screaming.In the background,I heard Zoey and Mal shooting at us,and eventually,Zoey shot me down.

I ran over to her and hugged her tight,thanking her the whole time. “No problem Gwen,but I kinda need to shoot someone else down!”she said in her sweet,soft voice. “Oh!Right!Sorry!”I said,backing away.Zoey shot down Cameron next and Mal was able to shoot down Alejandro and Heather.Chris told us time was up and told one of the interns to collect everyone else,right as a huge gust of wind came and blew them all away. “Oh my God,Duncan!!I screamed. “Chris!How are you going to get them down?!”I asked,as Zoey stroked my arm calmly. “I don’t know,the interns will handle it.”He said,shrugging his shoulders.

Chris continued explaining the final challenge,while Alejandro and Heather made goo-goo eyes at each other,I kept looking up worriedly,Zoey and Cameron tried to calm me down,and Mal stared at nothing,groaning Mike’s name a few times.I didn’t notice until Chris mentioned it that Alejandro and Heather were actually DATING!I laughed and cringed for a few seconds until I remembered Duncan.I can’t believe I didn’t notice how disgusting those 2 were!It was kinda sad to see their rivalry end....

We followed Chris onto the cart and over to the challenge.When I actually saw ‘The Moats Of Doom’,I decided that I had to forget that Duncan had just floated into space,and focus on the challenge.Unless I wanted someone to get mutated like that Dakota chick,burned alive and have to be stuck in a robot suit like Alejandro,or have a shark as an enemy like Scott.

“So......excited?”Chris asked. “This challenge is crazy!”I exclaimed throwing my arms down. “Let’s not try to hurt Mal!”Zoey said desperately to me and Cameron, “Mike’s still in there,right Cameron?”.Cameron sighed sadly and said “I don’t think so,Zoey.And it’s possible that Mal was always Mal and Mike was just one personality.Either way,Mike’s gone.”

I looked at Zoey sympathetically while tears started to form in her eyes.I was sad too!I didn’t really know Mike that well,since I had only spoken to Mike as himself a small amount of times,and I only really knew what I had seen on the few episodes I watched of Total Drama Revenge Of The Island.Suddenly,Zoey came to her senses,wiped her eyes and said “Well,if Mal really is Mal,let’s go out,crush him,and win this thing!”. “Yeah!”I exclaimed as I high-fived Zoey.

She tried to high five Cameron from inside his bubble,but he rolled down the hill and over to Mal. “Keep your garbage on your side!”Mal laughed as he kicked Cameron passed Chris.Chris did the outro to the break,and we all prepared for the final challenge.

Zoey and I rolled Cameron over to the opposite side of the challenge and we were waiting to start when Mal called over, “Good luck Zoey!You’re gonna need it!”and he continued with evil laughter.Cameron looked over at him scared,while I gave him the stink eye. “No way I’m letting this jerk win a million bucks!”I thought.

Chris started the challenge and we ran to the first moat. “It’s too wide to jump across!”Zoey yelled desperately. “Maybe we could use these as stilts,” I suggested.I picked them up and tried lacing them in the toxic goop. “Or not”I said throwing the sticks down.We stood there desperately trying to think of something when Cameron piped up. “I have an idea,but I’m not crazy about it.” Zoey and I looked at each other suspiciously,and the next thing I knew we were sailing across the moat on Cameron’s bubble.

Zoey and I jumped off of the bubble right as it started sizzling up and Cameron was shot into Zoey’s arms. “Zoey has crossed the first moat.Zoey is in the lead.Zoey!Winning!”Chris said loudly,trying to annoy Mal.It worked,and Mal pole vaulted over the moat as me and Cameron started climbing the ladder.When he landed,he almost lost his balance and fell into the moat. “MIKE?!”Zoey screamed when she saw her boyfriend almost fall into a pit of toxic waste.

“Hey!He’s not Mike!”I shouted. “Remember that or he’ll introduce you to a pool of lava!” I understood she was concerned,but honestly,I was more concerned about making sure Zoey won!And more importantly,making sure ‘Mal’ lost! “Ok.Right.I know that.I do.”Zoey answered,as she ran to the ladder.

I helped Cam and Zoey up the ladder,fairly confident we were wayyy in the lead,but Mal was right behind us.We thought quickly and put the ladder across the lava so we could get over it.Just as Zoey was across and I was starting to climb over,Mal ran over and threw Cameron down beside the toxic waste.The ladder began to burn just as Zoey was in the middle,but she ran across before she fell in the lava.After I was sure she was ok,I turned to Mal. “You’ve got some nerve,you know that?!”and I went to hit him,but he grabbed my hand and threw me down beside Cam.I got up and we made our way over to Alejandro and Heather.The pain in my ankle was horrible,so I was in no mood for Heather when she said;“What’s wrong with you?” in her usual,whiney voice.

TO BE CONTINUED

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Access June 18th Outline Notes

Share: Pastor Joe from the Singapore site asked us this question. What is something that you are proud of in your life? Why?

Personal Reflection -junior Duchess -valedvictorian. -got to dream college (UT AUSTIN), graduated and got scholarships to fund education. Why am I proud of those goals? I set a goal and stuck with it for the most part.

Greater than what i hold onto. Consider: where do u find your safety, security and success? What do you hold onto?

The One Thing: Give up what you hold onto in vain; Jesus is your real gain.

Luke: 18: 18-23 ESV I. Jesus knows your "one thing" Profile: young rich man is… -young -successful. -entitled position of authority and influence. -educated. -do-gooder. "Good teacher, what must I do ro inherit eternal life?" Vs. 18

What is your actual belief about God?   In Singapore- people have the right answer for everything. 1+1=2. Right thing to say. There is this Asian culture to try to save face You have a different.... Face with family. Face In public Face with friends. Face at work. Americans value freedom of expression.. as long as I express myself that’s what matters. Not as much freedom to express what you honestly feel in Singapore and Asia in general.

It’s hard to know what people’s actual belief’s about God is because there is this culture of saving face. What is your actual belief about God? Jesus starts to reveal what he actually believes. Jesus asks.. why do u call me good? No one is good except God alone. God defines what is good alone. Do u really know and believe I am God?

The young rich guy: tells Jesus “I have kept the ten commandments since i was young.” Modern day rendition: “I I I think that I am good, and i am going to jesus for him to affirm me as a good guy…” “Don’t you see those 17 gold stars i saw in kindergarten. The rich guy was insecure..  genuinely curious. The way he responds is a little defensive explaining himself insisting on his own goodness.

Pastor Joe: For many years i felt like i was a good kid. I did all the right things.. knew all the right answers. Jesus revealed the mans actual belief. This is your one thing in life. He was sad, because he had a great number of treasures.

***The rulers actual beliefs: Good things, come to good people by their own good efforts.

**This mans actual one thing (God) My own accomplishments and gains.

Sometimes it takes faith to recieve Gods gift.

Pastor Joe: “Some of you use church as a cover for your unfaithfulness. Send me Lord... why? I was running away. I was such a perfectionist that i hesitated to turn in papers on time. Man... i don’t care about what ppl think but I care what ppl think.

Have you ever been uncomfortable trying to follow God? I don’t want to do this... Im so dry.. God just disagreed with you. Have you ever walked away from God but ever walked away feeling sad? You are here present but you heart is not.

What is that one thing? That thing u have to give up.

What is your one thing? God has revealed to you that you have put your trust in? Your true idol for safety, security? Success?

When Jesus isn't your one thing, Jesus just becomes an add-on in your life to make you feel more affirmed?

I placed my church inv. At my significance. Person came in late to access and judges them for being late. I refused to address outside of Jesus. I tried desperately to find my significance in anything and everything even in good things like the church.

The young ruler found his safety and security in things other than Jesus. When we surrender to God we are so focused on the losing part we dont realize what we are gaining. I wonder if he was insecure and didnt know the steadfast love of God was greater than anything else in this world.

What the young man should have responded.. is i have no good apart from God. Psalm 16: 1-2.

“The deepest, tenderest place in the heart of God is reserved for sinners who can offer him nothing but their need.” Ray Ortlund.

II. Jesus is worth surrendering to Read Luke 18: 24-27 The disciples told Jesus “you just turned away your prime candidate.” This guys has been to OCR b4 ocring, and been to every OCR, participated in Freshman missions, did Csmp and now going on asian missions. This rich guy “Hes done it all. Hes the ultimate bachelor. If not him.. who is good enough?”

***Our idolatry makes it impossible to follow Jesus and gain eternal life. Marriage is an exclusive committed relationship. Even if you are the most hard working person in life.. if its not Jesus your pursuit..  then at some point you may turn away.

Jesus is the only good one.. its on his goodness that we stand upon.

Ask yourself: Is there anything you feel like you deserve more of? Have you been obsessed with your competence, reputation, or ranking amongst others? Have you been experiencing a loss that u need to grieve over? Is there something youve gained that you feel you need to hold onto? Is there something you dont want to pray about?

A lot of seniors.. What r u doing after graduation.. idk.. stop asking me. Its embarrassing just to say IDK. Like an essay you are dragging out that you don't know. Second, Third, 4th friend all get jobs.. First friend.. you are happy.. But you think what about me God?

Come to LG you have job.. Praise God it was a gift to me.. yes lord it was a gift praise God..i can be a missionary in my field. 4 months in and your like i hate work.. it stinks.

We always challenge graduates to give your first paycheck to step out in faith.

Students esp... im telling you its harder and harder to give up your all. As a bachelor.. all i have is time.. married.. i hesitate.. Becuase of my Baby boy.. As you get more sucessful you gain more.. the more you gain the harder it is to give and hold up.

***Is Jesus really worth it? Jesus makes eternal life worth it.  .. not by yourself but by the work of God. Vs. 27   He makes it possible to say and do good works.. overflow of good works. Ephesians 2:8-10

Read Luke 18:28 Surrender to Jesus is complete. Surrender to Jesus is continual. In order for it to be complete but continual.

J.D. Greer Surrender starts with the realization that... I would gladly give it all. Surrender means coming to God with open hands and open heart. Am I fully surrendered?

Following Jesus doesn't have anything with your current profession.. its something deeper than that. Regardless of what your doing.. what and where.

Jesus is worth it all. Paul.. whatever I had i counted as a loss for the sake of Christ.

I was so dedicated to the middle East in the military I even came up with the... Four Ms Missions in Military for Muslims in Middle East - genuine prayer at first. Camp Greenly. Rifle in my hand and training.. shooting at target. God spoke to me to pray... Vivid image of when i gave my life a few years prior.. ive been pining my hopes in marine corps. I took pride in it.. over the years.. i put my safety security and significance in military. I took out loans.. forgive all loans if you sign up for more years.   I had stopped turning to the Lord as my providor. My lord i give up marine corp.. Hehe.  I see what u are doing..   Go to county called dajbootie. Narrowed down list.. Ok lord send me. My name wasnt called. Lord.. what is it that you want me to do? Those good things had become my one thing. Whole season pray through.. hopinh whatever you want to do.. show me and ill follow.

God opened door.. miracle provision for transformation center. Month later.. Months later pastor Andrew.. asked me to get inv. With church.. Month after that sent pastor ben. Month after that first int. Church plant.. 6 months. God showed me this is what I'm doing. Person challenged me.. what y Fast and pray about it.. I think, I think God was calling me to be a Pastor..

Went with Jakarta for a year.   That was a hard year. Christ was probing my heart what my one thing really was... Are we even listening to what the Lord has to say.

Psalm 27:4 Intimacy from God was Davids one thing.

Helen H. Lemmel

One thing: Give up what you hold onto in vain; Jesus is your real gain. Life Application: I release............. My reward is Christ alone.

Reflection: I think for me, I doubt that God wants me to give up on being an AuD. I just don’t think that’s what God want’s for me, but I think He is wanting me to surrender my timeline, by not getting into grad school this year, it kind of screws up my 10 year plan, but maybe one more year in Austin is just what I need to help transform me into a missionary not only as a worker in the workplace, but also as a student, in all areas of my life. 10+1 year timeline here we go. Also if you get a chance, please watch Pastor Joe’s from Singapore’s preaching. He’s such as hilarious pastor, he’s so sassy, in speaking truth to people’s lives, he calls them out on their bluff.