#Cuz your child could be anything ... Many such things which are not to ur tastes and which would trigger u as a small minded individual

[subconsciousmysteries]

boomers n X'ers are mad that millennials Gen Z have woken up to all the child abusive norms in our society and we no longer give our parents respect just because they're our parents and teh bibble says so.

We also woke up to the fact that their politically passive and materialistic youth, where they took out a bunch of cheap usury loans and did nothing to stand up against central banking, has destroyed the economy for future generations. they have the audacity to call us lazy conspiracy theorists and essentially gaslight us for noticing such things.

A friend once told me she thinks that boomers and gen X are competing with their kids in this weird gross game to prove they're more successful and better, and I have to agree. They show no empathy for their own children's suffering, it's a generation full of casual and normalized narcissistic personality. I think this is a direct consequence of their culture which didn't encourage them to question their parents and see the humiliation and abuse they faced as children for what it is, unlike our culture today does. They actually believed that parents had kids out of virtue and selflessness and that the kids were obligated to repay the parents, not the other way around.

I notice a lack of individuation from the parents in most of Boomer and Gen X individuals. a "children must obey their parents" mentality. or... replace "obey" with "please" or "impress". Anyone with this mentality is primed for the narcissism demon. They will feel the constant need to prove themselves to the parents, to prove that they're successful and more worthy of praise, because in their eyes the parents can do no wrong and it is always their fault if the parent is abusing them or neglecting them. Then they project this gross mentality onto their children.

[machine-gun-casie]

The New Years Fic Writers and Readers Ask Game

i wasnt tagged but i really wanted to do this so here it is!

What was your biggest writing/reading achievement this year?

im glad that im still writing in the first place tbh. ive read more fanfic this year than i have in my entire life for obvious reasons. but im glad i finally wrote an angst piece for the first time in my life. also almond poppy see muffins is my literal child (as well as @enchantedamusedslightlyconfused ‘s, we co-parent)

What did you learn about yourself as a writer/reader this year?

i learned that my reader inserts are more of me inserts and that isnt necessarily a bad thing considering i mostly write for myself, i had just never thought of that. also slightly nsfw but i learned that reading smut makes me sleepy?? so i started reading smut before bed lol

Did you dive into something familiar or try something new this year?

familiar: yeah fluff is like a go to for me in whatever fandom. new: DEFINITELY i started writing for kells in 2020 (can you believe) and i also started writing for spencer reid :) many nice new things

Share a comment (if a writer) or story (if a reader) that lifted your spirits this year?

i love every comment people leave me (i also read all the tags) and i compile all the ones that i like to look back on with the tag #beautiful people on my blog, but ive also been told by a couple different people that they re-read my stuff which is insanely mind boggling so yeah

as for stories theres two mgk ones i go back to whenever im going thru a rough time: fit by my side by @angrylizardjacket and vegas run by @harringtonstudios

as for criminal minds, ive got my bookmarks on ao3 for my favs on there but my ultimate favorite writers are @reidscanehand and @write-orflight who are only on tumblr as far as i know so i felt like i need to include them :) anything these two writers post i will read no questions asked 

What are you grateful for?

in general? being alive and healthy. but a lot of good things happened to me this year (as well as some really really shitty stuff but oh well). the best thing that happened to me this year no doubt was meeting @enchantedamusedslightlyconfused i love you with my whole heart jordan 

im also grateful for kells, he helped me in a way no artist ever has. if u had asked me a year ago if i even liked rap i would have laughed in ur face i kid you not. he changed me along with so many things this year and i truly feel like im the best version of myself that has ever existed

im also eternally grateful for content creators, musicians and youtubers and designers, but specifically fandom content creators. if ur reading this and u r one, know that i am so grateful for you.

and my nephew. he cute as fuck.

Have your style (writer) or tastes (reader) changed this year?

im not entirely sure? i feel like with every piece i write i get better. in the sense that its a bit more realistic than when i first started writing. i know my fluff pieces are insanely fluffy and out of reach and very fan girly i truly understand, but it used to be so much worse. so overall i feel like my writing has gotten more realistic, which im proud of.

as a reader, i hoped i could see the appeal of angst this year but i dont think i ever will.

What’s the first thing you want to read or write this year?

i dont think i wanna have writing/reading goals this upcoming year. 2020 was the worst year of my life, but just cuz the clock struck midnight on the 31st doesnt mean that the shit show is over. so i hope that if i do continue writing this year, i do it when im ready. 

Anything new you want to try in 2021?

writing wise (again if i even do keep writing this year), maybe work on some ocs. ive never done that before. itll probably still be incredibly self indulgent but something new. and possibly write a few more soulmate!au’s because those bring me such joy

Do you have any fic resolutions?

i hope i never feel pressured to write anything this year.

im tagging @enchantedamusedslightlyconfused @angrylizardjacket @harringtonstudios @storiesforallfandoms @uhuhuh and if u werent tagged and u want to do this i genuinely mean it when i say consider urself tagged by me and tag me in ur post!!

[positive-danganronpa]

✿〉Positivity for a Kokichi Ouma who can't bring themselves to eat

Don’t worry Kokichi-kun! I’ll never leave one of my classmates hanging in their time of need.

Though I am afraid I don’t know much about eating disorders so I do hope that isn’t a major issue.

Well I do know that eating at least 3 square meals a day is very important for the human body, it’s where we gather all the nutrients and energy our body needs to function. So staying in your room all day and sleeping isn’t the best on top of the not eating, but don’t get me wrong it’d be worse if you exercised on top of the no eating so I suppose it’s a good thing you haven’t been pushing your body, but that still doesn’t mean that it isn’t healthy.

You should never push your body if you haven’t had anything to drink nor eat, i know from personal experience and it is very tiring and not fun.

Eating is very important for the human body and other vessels, it’s a way of life and one of the key resources we need to survive. I get that maybe there are times when you’re not hungry and that’s alright. We can go a few days or so without eating or eating very little, just as long as you’re drinking water in the meantime is good.

I’m not saying that gives you a free pass to not eat I’m just saying, for now if you really can’t bring yourself to eat please, at least drink some water, a litre a day at the very minimum, you could even go two litres if you wish. I heard 6-8-9 glasses is the average intake of water depending on the development and growth of your body and with the lack of eating I’d say 8 is a good amount if not more. Staying hydrated is very good! You’re able to go a few days without food to remain what can be considered ‘healthy’ so on the days when you don’t feel hungry at all then it’s okay to go a day without eating, but it pains me to think if you were to fall into an unhealthy state of body weight, depending on your age and culture it all differs, the size and weight, everything. But 3 square meals a day should be enough to keep your body going at a healthy rate. Something my food tech teacher taught me was: ‘the more colorful the meal the better!’ (especially greens) so things like fruit salads, vegetable/chicken wraps, even munching on little snacks like celery and peanut-butter is very good! So if you can, you don’t have to force yourself try to munch on a little something while sitting in your room doing whatever it is you please? I mean, if it’s a case of you’re unsure whether you’re hungry or not, and you haven’t eaten say breakfast or lunch or not very much at all, try wiping out some fruits or vegetables, things like carrots, cucumber, mango, banana, oranges are all very good for you and your body. Though just be aware if you haven’t eaten very many nutritious foods in a long while then your body may react in a strange way but that’s just because it’s trying to get use to the new foods, and it’ll improve little things like your energy levels and mood over time.

I’m not saying you have to eat healthy foods 24/7, even mixing in some fruits or vegetables in with something like chicken and rice is very good! It’s a great start. Or say, before bed or in the morning munch on something nutritious to give your body something to work with. It seriously helps, trust me, even if you don’t see or feel a change in the long run it helps... So for yourself Kichi, do you think you could do that? I’m sure your family and friends care about you, and it may make those around you feel more at ease to see you eating a snack every now and then of your own free will.

I really don’t want you to force yourself but just try unless of course you feel absolutely full and couldn’t eat a single bite. I wouldn’t want you getting sick or anything... take it at your own pace, start small and work from there, whether its trying to eat a salad for a meal or adding in supplements like lettuce/carrot/tomato into a sandwich, you know? whatever makes you comfy. But drink plenty of water! at the very least. I’m unsure how certain eating disorders work so I’m sorry if in your case it’s alright to go a day or two not eating, all I’ve learned from being in food technology for about two years now is that nutrients are what make our bodies function at their best and our mental state even out a bit!

Indeed things like atmosphere, sleep and food can affect our mood... i thought it was crazy too dw ^^ unless ur smarter then me on that then i’m just a stup ;p

But in saying all this you don’t have to eat a bunch of healthy foods all the time, as long as you eat 3 meals a day I’m sure it’d be helpful as long as you continue with it. I’m just saying, for now and the next few days eat some extra nutrients! If you haven’t eaten them in a while I’m sure your body will thank you for it, and eating nutrients are very beneficial in many ways.

Also a good tip mainly cuz i think it’s cool your body will tell you when it needs / is starved of nutrients, you’ll become more sluggish and unwell. The easiest way to recognize this is to actually ingest some veggies or fruit, if all of a sudden they don’t taste super bland and plain then eat as much as you can, once vegetables start tasting surprisingly appetizing that’s your body telling you it needs it... i thought that was cool, i mean originally when this happened to me i just thought my taste buds finally matured and i didn’t care about the taste of celery until a few weeks later when it tasted just as unsatisfying as it did when i was a child. just thought that was cool and wanted to share if you didn’t know already

I hope that helps on the eating side of things. But now onto your sleeping habits. Depending on your age we all need different amounts of sleep to remain energized and wake for the day. Adults need between 7 to 9 hours of sleep per night to function at their best. While children and teens need even more. So depending on your age I’d say between 7 to 12! (I use to know a math equation that could tell you exactly how many hours you need depending on your age but I learnt it back in year 8 and don’t remember now sorry) If you’re sleeping more then that, then you must be very young...or over sleeping... my therapist told me that by getting the proper amount of sleep can improve your mood and energy so it’s important to get the regular amount each night. I’m unsure as to why you’re so sleepy, but it could be a result of your lack of eating, so there’s another reason to eat I suppose...

I’m not completely sure what over sleeping may do to your body but I highly doubt it boosts your energy levels very much. I suppose a way to get into sleeping regularly is to make a target time, give yourself 10-30 minutes of preparation for bed and be in bed before your target time! Like my therapist made mine 10:00 PM ! At that time I get off all my electronics and get ready for bed and prepare my books for the next days round of classes, then finally be in bed by 10:30 PM ! For the first week ranging to the first month I felt a lot better and stopped taking naps during my math and geography classes (and I B’d my math final exam too! with barely any study at home!) What I basically mean here is, it can really benefit you to set a scheduled time and follow through, self discipline is key here! It’ll even help you practice your attitude about doing things for yourself and pro-activeness! My mood and attitude seemed a lot more steadier during that period but due to being bipolar I couldn’t really help the swings every now and then. I sometimes fall off the schedule when things get busy but that’s alright life becomes a little complicated and we react in a certain way to it. But proper sleeping patterns are very beneficial to your health, make sure whatever time you set, you’ll have enough throughout the entire night to get you through the day!

And if you’re like me and can’t for the life of yourself remember anything or time just seems to magically disappear, then feel free to set up reminders for yourself, put them somewhere you know you’ll see them! Like for me I put on alarms on my phone (since it’s my life) and whenever it’s 10 and I’m still on the computer or whatever I turn it off and get ready for bed.

You can even make some nice little encouragement reminders for yourself! Like say write on a sticky note to remind yourself to eat or drink! I know you can do it Ouma-kun! I believe in you \0v0/ !

If you don’t feel very tired or you can’t sleep, then try meditating to calm your mind a bit. Even something as laying down and concentrate on your breathing can send you to a state of calmness where your mind can drift to sleep.

A lot of the time when we are tired things keep us from sleeping which is very annoying trying some ‘sleep hacks’ or techniques may help, but since everyone is different feel free to try as many as you’d like until you find one that fits you!

Things as simple as lighting, temperature, background noise etc etc can also affect our sleeping, some like to were eye masks to shield any amount of light, while others enjoy the dim lighting of a room to put them at ease. It’s not childish to keep a night light or something similar it can actually help some people!

I also hear that listening to ‘white noise’ helps a lot of people be put to sleep, it use to take me hours to go to sleep, but once I stumbled across this thing called ASMR i can fall asleep in less then 30 minutes most nights!

Though it’s not for everyone but you can definitely find what works for you! And by white noise I don’t typically mean the static noise you can hear from an old TV, a soft murmur is a lovely website that has nice examples of relaxing white noise. Play around with it and see what you like, you could even try listening to instrumentals like piano, music boxes or whatever you find to be peaceful. Though I’m sorry if you’re not allowed to listen to music when sleeping. But there are other alternatives where you don’t need to listen to background noise, I’m just saying, they’re nice to listen to if you just need to relax or wind down for a bit too ^^

Uh sorry this got so long, I hope you can find something in here to be helpful to you.

And I’m also sorry for the lack of knowledge in some areas, I still did my best which I hope was enough for you. But if it didn’t help I recommend asking other kin blogs for help with this also! I just want the best for you and hopefully someone will be able to give you the right advice.

Oh but before I go. Let me tell you. In some cases if it bothers or hurts you to hear everyone around you calling you too skinny, just know a lot of the time, they just care and worry about you. I’m no skinny girl, I’m actually rather chubby, so they barely notice when I hardly eat, but I do have a few friends who worry me dearly, and after hearing that some of them barely eat and are trying to loose even more weight, it scares me. And I even do my best to make them eat whenever I can now. As for he people around you, we just worry, a friend of mine came close to being anorexic and because of this I worry about my friends constantly, which means you too. We just worry and care, and you’r lovely, whether you’re slim, large, chubby, cuddly or bony it doesn’t matter as long as you’re healthy and taking care of yourself.

Well I don’t really know how to end these things and I’m too lazy to go through this mountain of words so I apologize for the mistakes here and there and everywhere. Now you have a good day Ouma.

And eat something! With a nice glass or water.

Mod Kaede ♫

[theboykingofhell]

(acting anon from earlier!!) i read ur whole thing and its FILLED with rly good info ty!! im british and im looking to start getting into acting but i always shyed away from it in schools etc cause there's always be a dance side to it and :/ no ty id rather eat nails than dance ever. but im rly interested in the acting techniques n stuff u mentioned and id defo read as many posts abt it as u wanted to write :0 ty for your time!!

OK YEAH now that i actually have time and by that i mean i have no time there’s like three things i’m supposed to be doing rn but i want to stall starting them lmfao I’MMA TALK MORE ABOUT THIS RN

imma be real i cant remember all the things i mentioned in that post i wrote and i cant be bothered to go back and look so IF YOU EVER HAVE A SPECIFIC QUESTION LITERALLY ASK ME ANY TIME

oooooooooooh... yeah.. love... babe.... go to acting schools lol it’s not even JUST the fact that they literally teach you how to act but. you. need to network. god. especially since you ARE british, acting schools are very important because a lot of companies will pretty much hire you based on what school you went to. just the short amount of time i was there made this VERY obvious that it is VERY hard to get picked up by a company if you haven’t gone to school, and getting picked up by a company is how you get consistent theater work for YEEEEEEARS...!!! also, usually a school will give you a rly good chance to network by having some sort of showcase at the end where you can get in contact with a bunch of agents and the more famous the school, the more agents see your work and try and help you out!!!!

and, like... the whole dance bit is just a hurdle you’re gonna have to jump. it’s def rly important to just partipate in the classes, you don’t have to be GOOD but it gives you just that little bit of awareness over your body and your movement that you might not have had before and that’s rly important, especially on the stage!! i felt the same way about singing but, man, the more you work at it, the more mangeable it gets. and you don’t want to have this grudge on you forever because it’ll really limit your work :/

but i mean man you don’t actually have to, there’s no set way to become an actor! if you find work, you have that work, it doesn’t matter how you get there t b h. i just think it helps and the more skills you acquire, the better of a chance you have to get that work...

(i RLY suggest lamda, it’s a hard school get into but it’s one of the best if not the best and also the education is beautiful and ALSO lamda-trained actors get the most consistent work because the uk just nuts all over itself about lamda-trained actors)

BUT YEAH. ACTING TECHNIQUES. GONNA FINALLY ADD A CUT LOL

i’m only gonna talk about these vaguely cuz tbh i’m not as ~studied~ as i should be because i’ve been far too lazy until now to actually sit down and read acting textbooks but HERE’S THE GIST....

stanislavsky is like... pretty much the most well-known most taught acting technique. so many of the other techniques you learn BUILDS on his work. there’s a huge range of shit that he’s got to offer because his and later similar teachings are SO focused on realism (which tbh is a very new thing in acting), but some of the most important is stuff like emotional recall and objective work aaaaand character building by using yourSELF and projecting it onto the character. it’s a very psychological form of acting and it’s... MY BASIS but not actually my fave!

now, a lot of parts of it is very useful. emotional recall, for one, is SUPER nice. it’s a very good way to build that vulnerability up, tear down a lot of walls and explore how to summon emotions up....

my first exercise with stanislavsky, i remember them making us lie down and pretty much meditate, and then you listened as the teacher described a bunch of things: your favorite beach as a child and what it felt like, all these sensory memories about the smells and tastes and sights of the beach. and then it moved on to the night of your first kiss, your first love, and then your first loss. a nice basic range of basic emotions, and then you build on that.

stanislavsky (and stuff like uta hagan who wrote a RLY great book that i havent finished reading yet but it’s a GREAT way to rly build on the technique) rly encourages taking yourself and putting it into the character. SO!!!! if your character is going through their first break-up, summon the feelings and memories of your first break-up and push that into your lines, so on and so forth.

the big criticism with stanislavsky and all the techniques like them is that it COULD be very unhealthy for you... considering it’s all about reliving and reliving old memories. and i agree, i mean, one of my favorite plays and one of my monologues of choice for auditions is from a play where the main character is kidnapped and raped, and i’ve been kidnapped and raped before so i am CONSTANTLY and purposely triggering myself just to perform that monologue well. THAT AIN’T RIGHT! helps tho! 

(stuff like method acting falls under stanislavsky and his successors strasberg and stella adler, so....! you can see why not everyone fucks with it)

MY criticism about stanislavsky, which is why it doesn’t work as much for me, is that it’s very VERY heavily text-based. uhhh THIS IS LONG ALREADY SO SOMEONE SEND AN ASK ABOUT OBJECTIVES AND I’LL EXPLAIN but they want you to do a lot in the moment that makes it very distracting if you don’t have this process pinned down and that’s AGGRAVATING FOR ME ANYWAY

chekov is another technique that’s interesting, again not a fave but VERY helpful. this one builds character more from the outside in, it’s all about like... a lot of very subtle details that you can add to the background to add color to your performances. a lot of it is about atmospheres, attitudes, body language, and how that affects your character and how your character is thinking through the scene. it’s VERY reactionary and very fun because you don’t have to think NEARLY as much. 

pretty much you form... gestures, or moods for your characters, and instead of perfoming an ‘action’ (stanislavsky thingy, i’ll explain that in another post i guess), you’re using this ‘gesture’ to explain yourself. it is far FAR more abstract than stanislavsky, which is a lot more technique and exact, and it’s very vague, which does make it very hard for people. it also doesn’t stress realism like stanislavsky and company does, so it’s not as popular at the moment!

 meisner technique is my second favorite technique and kind of hard to explain because i haven’t rly gotten a comprehensive course in it yet besides a few workshops and activities, but it’s a technique that stresses STRESSES ‘listening’. that’s something you hear a lot as an actor, it’s one of the hardest things to really get but it’s also, truly, the essence of good acting. you can’t be a good actor if you don’t listen, because if you don’t listen, you’re not in the moment, and if you’re not IN the moment, you’re just... reciting lines!!!

it’s so hard to explain so i’mma link a cute video i just found because it shows a lot of variety and also shows the actors messing up a lot and it’s cute omfg

it focuses a lot of repetition (either of the same one line for each person or they’re both doing the same line back and forth) which forces the actor to not think about what’s being said but how it’s being said. you’re stuck in the moment because you KNOW what you’re gonna say, you don’t have to worry about saying anything else, all you gotta worry about is what the other person does and how you’re gonna react to it. if they suddenly start screaming in your face UHH YOU’RE GONNA SCREAM BACK HOW DARE YOU? and it’s automatic and SO natural and that’s why i love it, because you don’t have to THINK through it. you don’t rly think through your life like they make you do in other techniques, so i adore the ability to not have to do that on stage.

however i’ve never gotten far enough in the technique to find out how to apply it to a set script but it might just be about building that openness to just... DO and BE and let whatever happens happens, which is NICE

LAST THING THAT I’LL TALK ABOUT IS FUCKING GROTOWSKI YE  S. ok so a lot of techniques overlap, so by this i’m also talking about lecoq and peter brook’s acting techniques. it’s all physical theatre which is all about the GROTEQUE and like UGH there’s so many fascinating things honestly just google ‘theatre of cruelty’ because it’s FASCINATING

the emphasis is... not rly on realism altho the acting i’ve seen come out of it is the most realistic i’ve seen? it’s rly gritty and about accessing the most... EXTREME of emotions, it’s about rly grasping human nature and twisting it and bringing it on stage. peter brook especially (who has a book called the empty stage or something like that that i got to read) stresses that... theatre shouldn’t be about costumes and sets and whatever, it should be just about the actor, and that you can do a PERFECTLY GOOD show with a completely empty stage, with just the actor in the center.

it also has an emphasis on YANKING the audience into the show and being very interactive and like... nothing’s held back, it should be hard to watch, THEATRE SHOULD BE CATHARTIC AND FUCKED UP AND YES.

so physical theatre involves pulling emotions from the body through your movement. life isn’t just about the mind, after all, your body holds emotions through it, there’s chemicals and hormones and what your body does on its own and against other bodies and just. again, hard to explain so HERE’S SOME COOL VIDS THAT SHOWS DIFFERENT TECHNIQUES AND COMPARES THEM ALL

i lied there’s one more technique i wanna mention: it’s called alba emoting! it, again, builds on the idea that trying to access emotions through the brain is UNHEALTHY AND DANGEROUS and that you can, instead, try and access it through the body! how???? cuz emotions are PHYSICAL. you feel sadness and anger and love and whatnot in your gut and chest and through your head and all through every nerve in your body, right????? so why not try and mimic that for the stage???

it’s SUPER COOL because! what you do with alba emoting is: affix yourself a certain way. it involves certain body postures or positions, certain expressions sometimes... EVERY time it depends upon a different breathing pattern... and all you gotta do is do it. and your body doesn’t know better, it gets tricked into it...!

so, if i were to alba emote fear... it’s hard to describe through text rather than do it but this one might be the clearest one... part of the positioning is to have your hands up in front of you, as if you’re trying to ward someone off or shield yourself. you have your mouth open, you have your eyes stuck to the floor in a submissive sort of way, (there’s more that i cant describe but then) you start to make yourself hyperventilate by taking short, quick breaths through your mouth. after a few seconds of this, your body just starts SHOOTING adrenaline through you because it starts thinking WHOA SOMETHING BAD’S HAPPENING I’M AFRAID?FUCKFUCKFUCK

and that continues until you stop! you can stop at any time and then just go. you get left with a ‘residue’ (which is very chekov in nature in that it ‘colors’ your performance) where you can just act and do the lines and do your actions (stanislavsky) without worrying about needing to push any fear into yourself because it’s THERE, it’s PRESENT and whatever happens in the scene will either alliviate it or make it worse!!!

it’s a BEAUTIFUL way to prepare for a scene right before you go on stage too omg. last semester we were doing julius ceasar, and there was a scene where i had to play a servant who just witnessed a murder and just. go in and beg for my life and the life of my master. so i did the fear emote, and then my friend (playing my master at the moment) decided to talk to me in character and give me the order to throw myself in front of the murderers and LMFAO by the time i ran on there i was like fucking in tears i was so terrified HA

THERE ARE SO MANY MORE TOO IT’S SO FUN YOU JUST GOTTA GO AND SEE WHAT WORKS FOR YOU WHOO!!!!!! HOPE THIS WAS FUN AND HELPFUL YES