#Curufin keeps trying to get Maedhros to take over as Regent King while Fingon is ''unfortunately too unwell to rule'

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Maedhros's brothers mostly buy the story of "Fingon got head trauma and doesn't remember the past." Fingon's obviously not faking the amnesia. And the Feanorians trust each other above outsiders. And several of them knew Maedhros and Fingon were married before, so it's not suspicious they're (still) married now.

But even so, its very convenient that Fingon trusts all of them now, and no one else. If Maedhros has carefully arranged to get the High King under his thumb, his brothers want to know what will send the house of cards toppling over.

Amras is the only one to ask outright. Every kind of mental Healing known to the Noldor was suggested to him in the early years in Beleriand, so he wouldn't fade after the death of his other half, and of his father, and of his grandfather; and the capture of his brother. He was offered to chance to forget it all, to remember the good times alone, to recall every minute crystal-clear such that the annoying parts couldn't be smoothed over and he'd be glad his twin was gone, to stop loving anyone he hadn't seen in the last day, to stop feeling anything at all... And all of them came with words of caution, additional things he would lose or ways he would remember again. Amras never acceped any spells that promised more than a few nights of dreamless sleep so he could recover, or a few days of complete calm when the Noldor were on the verge of all dying out. He wanted to remember, but he knows that it is sometimes a weakness, and that not all the spells would have required he know about them.

If Fingon will recall his entire childhood the first time he sees an elfling, Amras needs to know. Maedhros can have his fun, but not if Fingon will get in the way of retrieving the Silmaril, completing their mission, avenging their kin, and keeping Amrod from the Void. Fingon might be more annoying if locked in his room all day, but Maedhros can deal with it.

Amras asks his eldest brother. "How did the amnesia set in? Did he forget more each day, or was he fine one hour and lost completely the next?"

"Why in the world do you need to know my husband's medical information?"

"We all see each other often enough. If he forgets where he put down his boots, I should know if he needs more sleep or if it's a sign he's getting worse."

"It won't get worse - it was a sudden event with his head nearly being staved in! He forgot instantly, and is no more fragile now than the rest of us."

"I am glad to hear it. Bad enough for him to lose all sense of his place in the world, without having to fear it happening again. And it's good that you don't have to reintroduce yourself to your husband every morning."

"That was awkward the first time, but he never forgot me completely. Our love is stronger than any terror that tries to separate us."

"Was he scared then, at the beginning?"

"A bit, but less once the nightmares stopped."

Having nightmares of things you couldn't remember was almost the exact opposite of the Songs Amras had used. Nightmares were a sign of the emotions coming through with too few facts; Amras had dulled his feeling at times but never once the names of those he had lost.

"I'm surprised they stopped so quickly, with no memories of his family solid to anchor his thoughts on other than the twisted version that shows in nightmares."

"Fingon is strong, and brave enough to face what is coming rather than fear what has been left behind. The healers' plan let him recover in weeks what might take others years."

Amras nodded and changed the subject. The healers had obviously done something to make sure Fingon would have no nightmares, and Maedhros knew what it was, and Maedhros was confident enough in it to leave the healers behind rather than "recruit" one to the East to hide Fingon's memories again as needed. It might be that Fingon thought the nightmares had faded naturally, but that made little difference if they were well and truly blocked from him. Amras wouldn't encourage Fingon to seek out his past, but he wouldn't worry that the next Balrog sighting would send Fingon into a spiral of fear.