#Cause I'm acting like Moz you see

[mooseyspooky]

The fact Johnny said "Moz wanted me to do it" is driving me absolutely wild. I think this shoot was around 1990.

[tielt]

VPN experience (unsponsored) and linux/win dev issues, google etc.

I use Mozilla VPN and it's been good for almost everything, affordable. Works with QBittorent if setup proper and even though it's owned by google I feel somewhat safer with browser & network bucketed in the same bin, if raised by a locality they can and so have to give your history to any legal authority. I use it cause they have a gui for each OS. They also use their own DNS which can help, I usually configure DNS to Quad9 where I can, but my trust of Quad9 is based in superficial knowledge. no port forwarding so no soulseek, I'll prob switch to Nord next year or another not sure yet, I really want to find an alternative to Spotify. Surfshark was ok, Moz VPN is faster I think. Forgot what i was using before that. TinyWall is a good free firewall for windows works pretty well to bucket stuff intuitively. Right Click -> show connections -> unblock only apps by necessity. Another one, Bitwarden is a free password manager that should work on all your devices synchronously. Anyway WASM+GPU is about to hit like a truck. It's similar to Vulkan GPU in the browser and Unreal & Unity will be serving it up, for possibly a majority of games down the line, directly in the browser it's looking HUGE. unfortunately this really empowers google/chromium at least at the apex of desktop, hoping they don't go walled garden on us with paywalls though I'm not sure how they could. ungoogled chromium is in a way more powerful because it has less weight. Lots of companies may not want the reverse engineering exposure but Unreal has a fully transparent stack before and after the interstitial dot net which runs on linux and mac also. Might be wasteful as i could see it being heavy on the network traffic. Scary amount of control in googles tree with youtube governance too, but web gpu is exciting, opengl/canvas in the browser never really got properly GPU enabled before. Another technical aside, Linux doesn't have 10 bit color which I think may become a bigger issue for nerds who develop off mac as this upgrade evolves, this got me back on windows though it's sparsely supported yet. Posting these hard lessons because it's all so time exhaustive. Just started learning Vulkan color buffers for images/textures and it is difficult. Writing code in windows feels bad, many of us go to school in a world downstream from BSD land. I didn't even realize till yesterday my monitor only supported 10 bit color (in VLC & in games) on the windows side. I've lost so much time automating over linux for dev, it is so frustrating, feels like the end of an era. Pop-OS is a new linux that basically acts like Ubuntu apt wise, but out of the box configured with many appealing features and auto-enabled encryption which is great if you worry your laptop may ever get stolen. But 8bit, maybe for a long time. I don't want every moment on a computer wired into my digital twins I do not trust Apple or Windows at all, like we only experience the google as being the shady one specifically because they manage the front end of the stack, of course it's everybody in their own way. If really messed up the only deep method is BNC Female to F typeFemale - F to BNC Connector along the router coax and you can put the connector wherever if your router is out the way and use ethernet only. Turn off cellular data for anything that loads graphics. Anyway I've been to saturn obviously, sometimes head down zen mode is what you need even if it's illusory.

Most days I find myself at home with my loneliness but I despise waste or feeling wasted, been considering going back to school but it would be a: for the sake of it and not a for the means of. Not appealing n the right way. I miss mentors, that feeling of some curation of personal growth this is a difficult thing to separate from. All the ways your time is spent are going to end up the same way in the end. O depression you're my only friend. ;P

[mooseyspooky]

Why do you think Morrissey has been acting like this lately? Is it because Marr turn down a reunion? I don't think he only wanted the reunion for the money. I also feel like Morrissey feels irrelevant and forgotten and thought that maybe a reunion might give a new life to his career

Darren asked me about this yesterday, and I wrote a whole essay about it. I think just copying it here will be a good answer to this.

Darren: How are we feeling about the moz and Johnny news

Me: Pretty indifferent. Same shit another day. I mean they survived the court case and banged all the way through the early to mid 2000s to 2009

Moz having a tantrum is nothing new

I was very sad to hear Johnny said no to a reunion

But it's not like I don't get it

Andy passed last year

Johnny wanted Moz back in 2008 and Moz ghosted him after promising he was totally on board

Moz didn't show up for the 2006 fundraiser concert for Andy's dad's cancer

Which is pretty ruthless

Moz clearly hasnt opened a single email Johnny sent him since 2018 when Johnny filed the trademark and tried to get him to cosign

Which is insane because Johnny did it specifically to stop Mike Joyce (the Classically Smiths venture that he tried roping Andy into, though Andy backed out at the last minute. Some say because of his cancer, but I'm sure Johnny being so pissed off about it he got lawyers involved was also a part of it)

Which is literally something Moz should be gagging to do at all times 24/7

And meanwhile nothing

And then Johnny continued to try, even sending the paperwork again this year in January and nothing

So i mean why would Johnny want a reunion

Moz wants it to happen a year after Andy is buried, it's too late

Does it hurt I don't get to see them together on stage ever, yes, but I'm not like

Demented

If I was Johnny I'd be so fucking tired

Like beyond exhausted

Sharing a stage with him?

Putting up with him on tour?

Moz canceled over 50% of shows last year

No explanation, sometimes on the _day of_

Just wouldn't do them

I mean Johnny won't cancel a show if his grandma dies

Moz just

Cancels cause it's a slightly breezy day out and that offends him

Yes I love Moz, I am his ride or die, I will go to my grave obsessed with him and everything about him

But I am aware and understanding he is extremely fickle and can be very stupid

This is all happened, literally all of it, cause Johnny made very light fun of him on Twitter

Like barely a joke

Johnny saw some popular girl on Twitter who is a super fan

Saw she mentioned a reunion

Didn't tag him

And Johnny posted a picture of a far right dude in England that Moz protested the treatment of in prison one time like- i don't know. 7 years ago

They put the guy in a prison where he was at high risk, and Moz made a slight offhanded comment saying it was cruel

So now here we are, with Johnny posting a picture of a guy

To a Smiths super fan

Who didn't tag him

Who mentioned a reunion

Because she saw Oasis get back together

And Moz got _so upset_

He decided to throw an absolute shit fit

And now Johnny has to be like literally can you calm down

And in some ways I understand both sides

Moz just

His sort of...recurring thing

Is that he really really hates when Johnny won't stick up for him

Or when Johnny is quiet when people are dog piling on him

Johnny did that a lot in the 90s

During the NME smear campaign, for instance, and the court case

And it really broke Moz up

Like, and I can imagine it did hurt

To be so close and so in love and meanwhile Johnny won't do anything. Just sit there and refuse to say anything

That's probably heartbreaking

Especially with Moz being so. Like. Blindly in belief that Johnny is forever innocent, forever perfect ("the always innocent young cabin boy")

There is no flaw

But Johnny is a human being, too, who has a lot going on

And to then see Johnny, here in 2024, once again. After 30 years not stand up for him

But instead making teasing posts on Twitter

Even if they're not cruel

I could see it causing Moz to have a meltdown

Should he be? At 65? No. He should be over it

But he's not

He still wants Johnny to love him, to defend him

And so yes he did have a total split from sanity for a bit but at the end of the day. I think the underlining thing is is that it stems from Moz being so deeply infatuated with his first love that he can't stand even the slightest notion Johnny isn't still as infatuated with him

Johnny was able to move on, to continue to keep his marriage, he was able to maintain friendships and have a lot of normal stuff that Moz couldn't because autism

Undiagnosed unrecognized autism but all the same

Moz is still, in his mind, deeply entrenched in the belief that Johnny is perfect and slight diversions from that cause major malfunctions

Moz clearly doesn't give a shit about the trademark thing. He's ignored it since 2018. Moz has talked about loathing albums being repackaged (Paint a Vulgar Picture), so clearly the greatest hits thing doesn't really bother him

Moz wanting a reunion, sure. Okay. Maybe that stung but my god he had to expect it

So what does Moz care about?

Johnny

That's it. Period.

He wants Johnny to love him and be obsessed with him forever, and that's the long and the short of it so.