#Blah blah realizing I don't interact with fandom anymore blah blah wishing I had more of my passion back blah blah

[cakeanon]

You know, sometimes I think it's important to sit and think about the person you used to be, and to let yourself mourn them if necessary. I'm aware now, after diagnosis, that a lot of my more extroverted personality traits were me masking even in online spaces, but I do still miss the person who would go into spaces and try to come out of it with a new friend, or interact with someone in a fandom space without second guessing every word. I've lost some of those skills in finding myself, and that's okay, but it doesn't mean I'm not allowed to mourn parts of the person I used to be. I am more myself than I've ever been, but the me of 10, 5 and even 2 years ago is still important too.