#Being asked for clarification if not assumed of better intention would be killer. Going to watch youtube so I won't want to kill myself. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ovkl · 3 months ago

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Explosive departures and vindictive posts coming out of shit I was being playful and/or nonserious about followed by a sack of rocks being swung at my head to ice the cake, especially when on the topic of me being vulnerable/affectionate/missing someone, gets me so hot in the face there is nothing more humiliating than being so socially inept that you are positively unbearable unless you're rigid and stonefaced until you unsettle the surrounding population.

#Mine #I do not want to be a tone tag user.#But if this shit keeps happening it is going to throw me into a triple homicide.#Being asked for clarification if not assumed of better intention would be killer. Going to watch youtube so I won't want to kill myself.#Some day the affirmation that I am not bearing a shape so alien that being truly held and wanted is possible will find me.#It only makes sense that someone else's tolerance is near absent.#There are millions of people who do things correctly. And better. And efficiently. Don't wait up on me! Sorry I wasted your time.#I don't think I am going to keep up with anyone consistently for a while.#There is not 1 person alive who wants to be here for the long haul or work with me and I don't blame them. In fact I insist.#Blaming and getting into it with me for something I don't even have a problem with and continuing to do so instead of asking me directly #is so far removed from 'reasoning out' your assumptions.#When you jump to accuse someone that loves you of mean shit and throw them under the bus on a dime hurts a lot.#Especially sitting here now and I'm supposed to believe that's my fault too and that I need to 'get over myself'.#I was trying to laugh at my adoration. I just missed you. I'm sorry.

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