#At first I didn't able to recognize that's Jumin

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Happy Birthday, Jumin

Happy birthday to Jumin Han, the ultimate cat dad and corporate prince! 🎂🐱

Happy 2024 to the one and only Juwallet Han 🤑💼! May your birthday be as loaded as your bank account and your heart as full as your cat tower with all those Elizabeth 3rd vibes.

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I posted 95 times in 2022

That's 8 more posts than 2021!

87 posts created (92%)

8 posts reblogged (8%)

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#duskwood - 30 posts

#julie plays duskwood - 27 posts

#julie replies - 20 posts

#friends - 15 posts

#oof - 9 posts

#anon - 8 posts

#jake duskwood - 7 posts

#jake donfort - 7 posts

#duskwood jake - 7 posts

#jake - 6 posts

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#martin is a prince and something about him just................... made me fall in love really fast

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#5

Duskwood | MASTERLIST

JAKE

IMAGINES

The World Around Us Disappears Summary: Jake had thought about how their first meeting would go before, but nothing sounded as sweet as the scenario MC once shared with him.

72 notes - Posted February 5, 2022

#4

After Yoosung’s Route

“Hi Julie! Congratulations on 5.5k! It's completely deserved <3 For the requests (if you're still taking them), could I ask for some fluffy yoosung headcanons that take place after his route? Yoosung growing and having a partner for the first time? Thank you <;333�� by @brighteststar707

Pairing(s): Kim Yoosung/gn!reader Word Count: 1.1k Genre: fluff, slight mentions of hurt, comfort

A/N: This starts right after his route ends.

Even though he’d insisted that he was fine and that you shouldn’t worry about his eye, you couldn’t help yourself, just like the rest of the RFA. Jumin wasn't kidding when he told Jaehee to contact the hospital as Yoosung's injury required attention - and the other members also agreed that it might have been too soon for Yoosung to be at an event like their party in the condition he was in.

One of the things that attracted Yoosung the most about you was your caring and supportive personality, so he wasn't surprised at all when you offered to take him to the hospital to check if he was indeed alright. Seven also promptly suggested that he go along, as he was feeling guilty about what had happened.

He would have preferred the others to have taken his word that he was fine, yet Yoosung agreed to go with you. After the events of the last few days, almost losing you and not even being able to go see if you were okay, he would take any opportunity to be with the one he'd been yearning for.

You might have gotten to know each other well on the messenger, but both of you were still eager to learn even more - especially now that you weren't pre-dating anymore. Yoosung could very well spend hours talking about the things he liked, but he was way more delighted to hear you talk about your own hobbies and experiences.

Yoosung was touch-starved when it came to you. He always made sure to be touching you in some way when you were together, whether it was “accidentally” brushing his arm against yours, holding your hands or straight up holding you. It was like an assurance that you were there, right next to him, safe.

You were the one to bring up the “therapy” subject. So much had happened in the short time you had known each other and you felt that Yoosung's mental health should be a priority.

Of course that he knew that things had been hard for him, but he still was a bit hesitant. He had no problem opening up to you or a close friend, but doing it so to a total stranger was different. However, remembering the conversation he had with V about Rika's issues and how she had refused treatment, he decided to give it a try.

He finally started acknowledging his own issues and working on them. Before, Yoosung wasn’t completely aware that he used LOLOL to cope with everything that happened. He knew, to a certain level, that he used the game to distract himself, but he could not see that his addiction was due to a coping mechanism.

Even though it's hurtful, he began exploring his feelings towards Rika's death. Recognizing the great impact his cousin had on him and that he didn't need to forget or walk away from it, but that there were healthier ways to move on with his life even if grief was still present.

Being the open partner he was, Yoosung looked for your support and comfort outside of therapy as he was working through these things. Healing is a hard and long path, so he was grateful that he had someone by his side that was patient enough to listen to him.

He meant what he said at the party, that he wanted to become a better person for you. With therapy, he also started working on the mindset of becoming better for himself as well.

Getting more and more of his motivation back and with the support of you and his friends, Yoosung's attention on his studies increased. That meant he had to learn to balance the time he spent with you with the time he focused on college. The life of a student is not easy.

That in no way meant that he neglected you. Even if he was studying for a big exam that was coming up, he still found time to text and call to make sure you were okay and eating properly.

There was this one time that Yoosung had invited you to his apartment so you could spend some time together and relax after he finished reviewing a few things for his finals. It was supposed to be just a few things, so you'd arrived while he was still studying and tried to keep yourself busy until he was done. Unfortunately, the study took more time than he’d expected and, when he realized, there wasn’t that much time left for you to hang out. Trying to cheer him up, as the man was repeatedly apologizing for making you wait, you suggested that maybe you could stay the night.

Since it was so late...

And you would like to spend time with him...

And, well...

Yoosung felt his face burning as he pulled the blanket over both of you. He was relieved that the light was already off so you couldn't see how red his cheeks were. He might have grown to be more confident in himself overall, but nothing could have prepared him for that. Due to the size of his bed, you were lying very close to each other. Yoosung could feel your warmth from where he was, feel your breath lightly against his face. His eye was still adjusting to the dark, but he could already make out the outline of your head leaning against his pillow. He wondered if you were also looking at him. Yoosung felt his heart skip a beat as one of your hands found its way to his belly, quickly guiding itself to wrap your arm around his waist. As if it were a second nature to him, the man moved his own arms around your body, pulling you closer. Your sigh of contentment as you buried your face in his neck didn't go unnoticed by Yoosung, bringing a soft smile to his face. "Good night, (Y/N)." he placed a kiss on the top of your head. "Thank you for staying."

Yoosung found he slept much better with you around. Even though he had spent most of the previous day studying, he’d woken up feeling refreshed in the morning.

He went on to invite you to his apartment more often in hopes that maybe you'd want to spend the night there again.

Another time you were there, Yoosung discovered how good it was to study while you snuggled him. The first few times that happened, he found it kind of hard to focus on his books with you so close, but he learned to make it work - mostly because he knew you'd stop doing it if you knew it was distracting him.

All in all, he was still going through a learning process, both about relationships and himself.

MASTERLIST

94 notes - Posted August 21, 2022

#3

Their S/O leaves on a one year trip

“Konnichiwa! Its my first time requesting something, so I hope this request won’t sound weird. Can I have a headcanon of saeyoung and yoosung when their s/o leave on a one year trip then comes back? Thank you!!” by anon

Featuring: Choi Saeyoung, Kim Yoosung

》 CHOI SAEYOUNG

Saeyoung had already mastered the skill of hiding his true feelings from people, so he didn’t let it show how heartbroken he was. He might be used to being alone, but it didn’t mean he liked the feeling of being lonely.

He acted like the most supportive boyfriend. You were already pretty hyped about the whole situation, but Saeyoung doubled your expectations. A few days after you told him what your plans were and the places you wanted to go, he came to you with a list of wonderful and lesser-known attractions that you just couldn't miss while you were there - and he himself seemed very excited about it all as he rambled about each location.

On the day of your departure, he managed to get every RFA member to see you off with him. Even though he’d tried to convince himself that he was only doing this because he knew you would love to see everyone before you left, he knew deep down that he was also doing it for himself. Saeyoung did know he was going to miss you terribly, and thought that having the others around him would be somewhat comforting in the moment.

Of course you kept in touch with him every day. Saeyoung would log into the messenger every few hours to see if you were online. Whenever you were, he’d want to know if you were safe and having a good time, because honestly that's what really mattered to him.

Over the course of that one year, the RFA chatroom was filled with photos of you and the beautiful sightings you'd seen, as you wanted to share this experience with your friends. Saeyoung obviously swooned every time he saw your face in any of the files you sent.

You noticed the “707 has entered the chatroom” notification popping up in the chatroom as soon as you finished uploading your new photo. Even though you were previously talking to Jaehee about the new place you were visiting, Saeyoung managed to be quicker than everyone else with his reactions. “Woa-!” he exclaimed, sending you his heart eyes emoji. “If you were a fruit,” Jaehee's message popped up right after. "Please, don't." "You'd be a fine-apple." You snorted, not being able to hide the smile growing on your lips. The other RFA members, however, didn't seem to appreciate the cheesy words as much as you did. “(Y/N), when do you get back? Seven has been insufferable since you went away.” Zen complained. “Can’t a guy compliment his honeybunch sugarplum anymore??” Saeyoung wrote dramatically. “Can’t a guy show his love and appreciation for the one who makes his heart thump thump in his chest????” “Not in the chatroom!” Zen retorted. “Yoosung’s eyes are too innocent for your messages.” It didn't take more than five seconds for Yoosung to send his own angry emoji. “Hey! They are not! But ya, go text them in private or something.”

 Even when you sent him a photo in private, he made a point of commenting in the RFA chatroom that “his beloved blessed him with a picture, but that he could not share much information about it”. Zen thought that was actually worse as there were so many possibilities of what that could mean.

There was nothing particularly risqué or inappropriate about the photos you sent him in private; you were doing it mainly because the others were complaining about Seven. However, both of you really enjoyed to tease Zen with the idea that something might be going on.

Even though you were miles and miles away from each other, you still tried to do a few things together over the phone - that included your monthly horror movie night. Of course, watching a movie with Saeyoung on a video call wasn't the same. You'd deny it if anyone asked, but you kind of missed the way he'd try to scare you when you were together. Still, it was comforting to do these little activities with him, as it also served as a reminder of what would be waiting for you at home.

He was the one to pick you up at the airport when you got back. From the moment you let yourself be wrapped in a hug, you knew that he wouldn’t leave your side for the next couple of days. And, honestly, you didn’t mind it at all. You did have a lot to catch up on.

It hadn't been long since you'd arrived at your house. You and Saeyoung were sitting on the floor of your bedroom next to each other, suitcases scattered around the place. As you looked around the room you hadn't seen in a year, a thought popped into your head. “Oh! Now that we’re here, I can finally say it.” Saeyoung raised an eyebrow at your words. You reached for one of your suitcases, looking for something inside its contents. “I came bearing gifts!” “Wha-” when he saw you take a box in your hands, the man's eyes widened slightly, but he quickly narrowed them in mock accusation. “Why didn't you tell me this sooner?” "Because I knew that if I'd told you on the airport, you wouldn't have been able to wait until we got here." He let out an exaggerated sigh as he shook his head. “Unfortunately, you know me too well.” you nudged the box towards him, encouraging him to take it from you. A teasing grin crossed his face. "You shouldn't have." Those might have been the words that came out of his mouth, but his excitement at receiving that surprise gift was noticeable in his posture. “I know it isn’t much.” a half truth; although there were a lot of things, they were just small keychains, pendants and stickers. “You were always on my mind and I guess I wanted to bring you something from each place I went to so you could feel like you were there with me.” You watched as he took a few souvenirs in his hands for a better look. You beamed at him when one particular keychain caught his eyes – you’d been waiting for him to notice it. You almost couldn't believe it yourself when you came across from it at this one store that sold some unusual items. There you’d found it, a Longcat keychain. “This one is my favorite.” you chuckled, seeing him carefully analyzing it. “I thought of you as soon as I saw it.” Saeyoung's gaze softened at your words, thankfulness clear in his eyes when he turned to you once again. It meant a lot to him, you knew it did. The corner of his mouth turned up in a small smile; oh, it had been one long year. One of his hands went to the back of your neck, pulling your face closer as he leaned toward you. You whined at the feeling of his lips engulfing yours in a passionate kiss, your arms reaching blindly for his waist. There were so many feelings evident in Saeyoung's movements - so much yearning, neediness, gratitude and love. You had almost forgotten how he had the ability to take your breath away. You could feel the cold keychain grazing your cheek as he moved his other hand to your face. “I missed you.” he murmured tenderly against your lips. You tightened your grip around him. “I missed you too.”

He cherished your gifts more than you knew. A few weeks later, you found the Longcat keychain in his jacket pocket. Saeyoung had left it there so he could have it with him at all times - it was particularly useful whenever he felt overwhelmed, for it was a reminder that you were in his life and would be there for him. It had easily become one of his greatest prized possessions.

》 KIM YOOSUNG

Yoosung was not so good at hiding his feelings, so you knew that he was taken aback by the news. Those watering eyes couldn’t lie. Ever since you started dating, there wasn’t a week that went by that you hadn’t seen each other. He was just so used to having you around and a year was a long time to be apart from you.

It was bittersweet for him really.

He tried to suck it up as soon as his feelings allowed him. Yoosung knew that this was something you’d wanted for a while and watching you finally making this dream of yours come true made him happy. He made sure to let you know how excited he was, asking you about all of your plans and things you were looking forward to.

You still talked to each other every day after your departure.

And every single day he texted you to make sure that you were eating well. That didn’t surprise you at all, for Yoosung already had a habit of asking you the same thing three times a day even when you were together.

“Good morning, cutie pie! Did you have breakfast?” A smile quickly spread on your lips as you saw the message pop up on your phone. You’d been waiting for it. Yoosung’s messages were like clockwork. This time, you’d even taken a picture of your food before eating so you could send it to him. “I did, Yoosungie. It was delicious, but nothing could be as good as your omelette.” If there was something you missed about home other than your friends and boyfriend, it was definitely the latter’s cooking. He claimed that he was still learning, but it was better than anything you could ever make. Your smile only widened when you saw his reply popping up in the chat. “I promise I will make you one when you get back, don’t worry!”

Sometimes, when neither of you had a busy tiring day, you’d stay on the phone for hours. He’d tell you everything about his day - going from how he was trying to get better grades at college to this really unfair match he lost on LOLOL. Then, he’d eagerly ask you about yours, paying attention to every word coming out of your mouth.

It happened more than once that both of you fell asleep while still on call. Yoosung personally loved whenever this happened, because he’d get to wake up to your voice calling him.

He might have said once or twice that he didn’t like taking selfies that much, but by the end of the trip, you had a whole album just for pictures of him. He’d always send them with the excuse that he didn’t want you to “miss him too much or forget what he looks like”. The truth was that he was just sending them in hopes that he’d get a selfie of you back, because he missed you.

Yoosung was waiting for you at the airport the day you finally got back. He couldn’t help but cry when he saw you again. Happy tears, obviously - he was just so happy that you were back, safe and sound.

He was trying to stay strong, but it was so hard when so many feelings were going through him. The second his eyes locked with yours was his breaking point. His shaking hands gripped the flowers he’d bought for you tightly as the tears finally freed themselves and ran down his face. You knew that you didn’t look much better, tripping over your own feet until you reached him. As soon as you threw your arms around his neck, Yoosung wrapped his around your waist, pulling you as close to him as possible. You could feel your shoulder getting wet from his tears, but couldn’t bring yourself to care. “I love you.” These were the first words he managed to say. You pulled away slightly just so that you could see him properly. His cheeks were red, wet from his silent crying; however, he had a bright smile adorning his face. His eyes were examining your face, as if he was trying to memorize exactly how you looked like at that moment. “I love you.” he said it softly, leaning his forehead on yours. “I love you so much.” You nodded your head, sighing in contentment as you closed your eyes. “I love you too.”

MASTERLIST

122 notes - Posted February 7, 2022

#2

The Night Before | Kim Yoosung

Yoosung wakes up the morning after his first time with his significant other.

Pairing(s): Kim Yoosung/gn!reader Word Count: 0.4k Genre: fluff Warnings: There are mentions of sexual activity, but nothing too explicit. Also, haven’t written anything in a year, so beware.

Yoosung’s eyes hurt. That was the first thing he felt waking up that morning. It took him a few seconds to figure out what was causing his discomfort as he slowly forced his eyes open. The blinds above his head were almost fully close, but there was still a small gap through which the sun was shining directly into his eyes.

The boy grunted. He must not have closed them thoroughly the night before. No one could blame him, though. It wasn’t like he’d cared too much about it when he got to his room with (Y/N).

He wasn’t thinking about the blinds when they sat on his bed, lips moving against each other’s, his shaking hands eager to explore their body. And (Y/N) surely didn’t seem to mind it either as their lips left marks on his neck, their equally shaking hands making sure to make a mess of Yoosung’s hair.

Both nervous for sure, but ready.

Ready to give themselves to each other.

Utterly and completely, body and soul.

A breath on his neck brought him back to the moment. A smile spread across his face, his gaze moving to the body next to his. It was impossible to ignore the way they’d fallen asleep - both turned to each other, (Y/N)’s arms wrapped around his waist, their face hiding on his neck.

Yoosung’s face heat up at the feeling of their entire body pressed against him. Just a reminder that they were together the night before. He hadn’t shied away from their touches then and he surely wasn’t going to do that now. He tightened his grip on their back, bringing them even closer to him.

He loved this.

The words (Y/N) had muttered to him before they fell asleep on his arms rang on his mind.

I feel so safe with you.

Oh, he did too, and he was happy they felt that way.

After everything that had happened in his life, he yearned to have someone he could trust, someone that would care for him. He wanted someone that would find that in him too, a safe place. Lying in his bed in the early morning, after the events of the night before, he was sure that he’d found his person.

Yoosung closed his eyes again, not wanting this moment to end. Even though the sun was still shining into the room and onto his face, he allowed himself to relax. His heart warmed at the realization.

He loved them.

Utterly and completely, body and soul.

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123 notes - Posted February 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

The World Around Us Disappears | Jake

Jake had thought about how their first meeting would go before, but nothing sounded as sweet as the scenario MC once shared with him.

Pairing(s): Jake/fem!reader Word Count: 0.5k Genre: fluff with a tiny bit of angst

A/N: Heavily based on this post right here.

He wasn't sure where they were.

Was it Duskwood? The Chinese restaurant? Or maybe the motel across the street from it? Well, it didn't really matter to him. The only thing Jake knew was that they were there, close to each other.

He’d thought about this moment before, how it would be when they were together at last. It was everything he had imagined, but at the same time nothing like it. Jake could feel his heart beating out of rhythm in his chest. He’d never been this careless, this reckless, to bring someone into his life – but there he was, taking (Y/N) into his arms.

And it was such a relief to feel her skin against his, a gentle reminder that she was real. He knew it was dangerous to be around him, but he wanted to believe that he’d be capable of protecting her if it came to it.

Protecting her from his pursuers, from the Man Without a Face, from anything that could do her harm.

Her hands were firm on his shoulders, as if they were the only thing keeping her steady. She was right, no words were needed. Jake could see the mix of emotions going through her eyes, even though he couldn't name them all. What he knew was that they were pretty similar to what he was feeling.

Joy and hope.

Serenity.

These were the ones he could tell that were there.

But there was something else.

Something stronger, more intense; but that at the same time brought softness to their eyes.

Could he call it-

Love?

Only four letters to describe such a confusing and unmeasurable feeling, but it felt so right. Was it possible to come to a conclusion like that without saying a word? It seemed like it was, at least for them. No words, their eyes speaking plenty already.

And then, as a one last action to confirm what they already knew, Jake leaned in. Slowly, giving her time to move away if that was what she wished to do. He was content to see that she didn't and, quite the opposite of that, moved her hands to his face in an attempt to bring him closer.

The feeling of her lips colliding against his was the only thing that grounded him in that moment. As her hands started stroking his cheeks softly, Jake couldn't even make sense of his thoughts anymore. It absolutely terrified him as it wasn't something he was used to.

Only one word kept repeating on his mind.

Finally, finally, finally.

They were finally together and it was like the whole world disappeared around them.

When Jake opened his eyes again, he couldn't help but sigh in disappointment as he found himself back at the motel, in front of his computer, alone. He damned himself for allowing his thoughts to get so far away. (Y/N) and her friends were still in danger and Hannah was missing. He couldn't afford getting distracted right now.

Jake ran his hand over his face, trying to regain his focus. Admittedly, that had become his favorite scenario since (Y/N) brought it up to him, and sometimes, when exhaustion took over, he'd find himself getting lost in it.

It was just that it was really a very nice thought.

And he wanted nothing more than to make it a reality.

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290 notes - Posted February 5, 2022

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[anon-drabble]

sometimes, love is best realized in the painful moments.

some short jumin angst. first person from jumin's pov. it kind of is a spin-off of @just-mysme-headshots ' missing traits au as jumin in that had a tendency to take eyes...

When she cried, I would meet her eyes. Watch the tears fall from her kind brown eyes. It was my way of acknowledging her pain, I thought it might help to ground her and help her recognize that I was there for her. I didn't enjoy watching her cry. It never occurred to me to avoid her when she was upset. Everyone always said love meant being there for the good times but also for the bad. So, I was there for her, every time. Because I was her husband and it was my duty. 

But the first time I saw her tears, I felt my body freeze. It seized up, and I could not move. Frozen to the spot, unable to speak; I could not blink and I do not believe my heart beat at that moment. I do not recall the reason for her tears but she had never been one to cry often. Not like my wife, who did not hide her tears. Perhaps that was why these tears in particular disturbed me so. 

When my wife cried, she and I discussed things, talked her tears away, as she said. It helped her to be open about her feelings and emotions so it was a benefit to her to talk about why she was crying. But when that woman who wasn't my wife cried, I could not ask her what troubled her. I could not speak at all. Even after I had seen her weep before, every time after that still rendered me helpless. She likely thought me a useless man. One who could not handle the smallest bit of crying. 

But the truth was, it was different between her and the woman I married. 

When I agreed to marry the young woman my father picked out, I believed I could grow to be fond of her. She was different than the sorts of women he frequently dated. She had a good head on her shoulders and an abundance of sense. She and I got along well and so we agreed to be married. I believed I loved her. 

Until I saw her. She joined the RFA as a new coordinator but I knew little else of her. I knew so little, in fact, that I did not recognize when my view of her changed. But I felt it when her tears stained her cheek. When she had a habit of licking her lips more as she cried, as if trying to catch every bit of moisture that left her. She held it back, waited until she thought she was alone to truly cry. But I still saw her. The more I saw her, the more helpless I felt. Each time, I was not able to do anything. Each time, it hurt me to watch her cry, unable to even speak to her. 

What a useless man. 

The difference between her and my wife became clear to me. When my wife cried, I sought to calm her, to solve the problem. I thought it was all I could do. But when she cried, I felt the pain as if it were my own. I didn't simply want her to stop. I wanted the tears to dry and to never fall again. I wanted to dry them myself and protect her from whatever hurt her so. I wanted to make sure those eyes would never need to shed another tear. 

But she was not my wife. It was not my job to dry those tears. I thought I loved my wife. Until I saw just how much I hated seeing the tears of another. Ironic that hatred showed me just how much I loved another. 

I hated those crying eyes. I would stop them from crying. No matter what… 

[jafndaegur]

What Ties You to Him & What Ties You to Me

Zen x MC

a/n: listening to sad BTS and shower thoughts will give you the oddest hurt/comfort ideas.

MC's breath huffed out in a small puff of cold air. The screen of her phone was bright in the early winter morning. She tugged the blanket over her shoulders more, regretting that she'd chosen to sit in just her pajamas out on the front stoop stairs.

The text message glared up at her, a single sentence from Jumin. "The flight from Munich to Seoul was a nightmare."

He sent that an hour ago and she still hadn't found the courage to respond. What was she supposed to say? Thanks for disappearing to Germany, going dark, and then coming back married! Honestly, MC should've been impressed. Korea's poster child disappears for six months and the worst speculation had been he'd found better business in Europe. The idea made her sick. How could someone so iconic and so seen just one day slip into obscurity? Again the overwhelming nausea worked it's way up to her throat.

When Jumin left he'd promised to let her know when he landed—had asked her if she wanted a souvenir upon his return. She expected nothing less from him, he was her best friend afterall. At least she considered him so...whether he saw her in that light or not, she couldn't say. Not anymore. And it wasn't like she could voice it.

Being the doting boyfriend he was, Zen had taken immediate notice at the drop of her emotions. The constant upset worry and depression at the growing time of Jumin Han's departure. With the first day of nothing, she summed it up to him being tired after a long flight. On the second day, she figured he needed time to settle in. Day after day, she came up with a new excuse for Jumin's absence from everywhere: their texts, the RFA chatroom, even the news. And it wasn't like she was waiting without action during his radio-silence. She texted him every day at first. Tried calling too at times. The humorous thought of him not purchasing an international phone plan crossed her mind at times too. But MC didn't vocalize. Zen always noticed the warped look on her face after another day of quiet, and even when he wanted to say something, he kept it to himself. She knew her boyfriend was going against his very nature to poke at Jumin's misgivings—he had a knack for stoking the business man's irritation that way. But no one was more conscious of Jumin's distancing than MC. So Zen left it be.

And she almost gave up too—so many times she'd written a goodbye which followed a list of worries and concerns about him. But she could never send. So she moved on instead. She removed their conversation from her recent texts and forced herself past. Jumin had always been one for emotionally distancing himself with needed. This must have been one of those times.

But like his lifelong best friend, it seemed that Jumin would not be coming back. And he had no intention of letting any of them—not her, not Zen, not even Jaehee, Yoosung or Seven—know either.

Until today.

She'd heard it on the radio first. How C&R's heir had returned from a staycation in Germany to wed and honeymoon his beautiful bride. The news on TV confirmed that. But his message to her, left little to no information for divination.

MC wiped at her nose, insisting that it was the cold and that she was definitely not crying.

A flash of silver caught her attention and her gaze jolted up, wondering if it was Zen passing by during his morning jog. But the moment slipped away and no one was there.

Sighing, the pads of her fingers dug into the phone screen. He acted as if he'd never left, never not said goodbye, never left a trace. Even if they both pretended everything was normal again, she was still worried. Why did he leave? Why did he leave for so long? Why didn't he say anything, not even a farewell? MC asked these questions over and over again until she was dizzy. Maybe it was selfish to want an answer, but she wanted something. Anything.

"Babe."

She looked up and this time Zen was there. He wore his black baseball cap per usual, and his hair neatly tied back in a bun. He wore a dark jacket and his running shorts over his leggings. So he was on a jog. But in his hands was a bottle of water and a piping hot cup of something.

"You looked cold earlier, your nose was running." He handed her the styrofoam cup. "The coffee shop on the corner was open, and I needed water anyways. It's really important to stay hydrated in the winter, you know?"

He stretched his arms over his head before plopping down on the steps next to her. "MC, do I even want to know why you're out here in your pjs? What would happen if another man saw you?"

Taking a sip of the drink—a pleasant surprise of hot chocolate—she giggled.

Zen leaned forward and rested his elbow on his knee, propping his chip up with his hand. "I saw the news."

MC took another sip of the beverage before resting her head in his shoulder. "He texted me."

"Did you respond?"

She shook her head.

Humming, he laced his hand in hers. "That's okay babe."

"Is it really?" She wondered if he was just acting, or worse, just humoring her.

Zen pressed his lips to her brow. "I'd be more worried if you were jumping up and down for joy right now."

She peeked up at him, gaze tentative under lashes.

"You're always gonna love the stupid prick," he muttered grumpy, nuzzling his nose against the crown of her head. "So it makes sense if you're still upset and concerned."

"Zen..." his name was whisper on her lips, moments like these where he wasn't flamboyant or too much were treasured and the things he said here. MC recognized that far off look in his eyes, the rueful pain that conjured a mirror image of Jumin without it actually being the CEO in Line.

"You'll always think of them, always be frustrated and worried." He curled his lip and made a disgruntled noise before swinging her a smug look. "Don't get me wrong. I know what ties you to him and what ties you to me are totally different loves. Clearly I have the superior one."

This time, MC did laugh.

"But the way you feel right now is fine, honey. Other than V, you were the only one able to get under that thick skin of his." He continued, hand tugging her up. "And that silver-spoon jerk under yours. Take this at your own pace, sweetheart. You don't have to force the upbeat friendliness."

MC found she couldn't respond. She didn't need his permission. And yet having it...

"Have you eaten? Let me make you breakfast," Zen chirped, leading her up the stairs back to her apartment.

"I've only got a few eggs and some onions," she murmured back, one hand still in his and the other clutching her phone.

"Omlettes then!" He smiled brightly, giving his arm a little swing. "And then grocery shopping after my rehearsal. Can't have my princess going hungry."

MC pressed to Zen's side and snuggled close. He laughed and shook his head, pulling the blanket tighter around her. He muttered about how she'd probably catch a cold and how she really should pay attention to how long she sat out on the front stoop. With a smile, MC took his playful chiding and decided he was right—she pocketed her phone and handed Zen her keys for the apartment.

[owo-shenanigans]

Yes my dude I got you! But if you ever need to chat or just have some dumb memes you can always message me! I don't bite! Also I'm not going to do Saeran because I really can't think of anything :(( I might add him later if I can! @kaitlin0134

Yoosung

Oh no

What does he do??

He'd get closer to you, all proper procedures flying out the window as he tried to calm you down

He would be so scared and worried for you like my god

After it was over and you explained what the heck it was he'd be like OoO oh no

Obsessed with you almost to the point of creepyness Yoosung to the rescue!

He'd do a bunch of research to try and be the best!!! Boyfriend!!! Ever!

After that, when it happened he'd probably panic at first but slap himself to get himself together and do whatever the websites recommended.

Jaehee

MC? Can you hear me?

Probably the most naturally prepared when it first happens as she recognized the signs of a panic attack

Got exceedingly worried when she couldn't find any triggers but still tried her best to help you out of it

Once it ends she gets you a nice drink and a blanket if you're at home

Be ready for her to look up all the reputable information within three days

When it happened again after that she'd be prepared and do whatever she could to help you through it smoothly, sending anyone nearby to get water and rubbing your back, always repeating her name.

Zen

You were out shopping when suddenly your hand went out of his??? What??

When he looked back at you he saw your face freaking out

His dumb ass instantly said "MC! Are you having an allergic reaction?!"

But then he realized no you weren't

He had no clue what to do so he just made sure that nobody was near you

Once it was over he took you home and asked you about it, including what to do in the future

The next times that you have a panic attack, he touches you carefully to try and ground you, always saying his name so you wouldn't freak out

Jumin

So it happened while you were in his apartment

And damn if he didn't feel absolutely awful once he figured out what it was

He'd probably get a doctor even as you protested because he needs to be sure

Once the doctor confirmed it and gave you both advise on what to do Jumin would be very confused about it

But take his job very seriously and give a lecture to his employees about what to do

Jaehee would be sympathetic and probably the second best person to help you deal, after Jumin

If it happened again after he'd rub your shoulders while saying "It's me. It's Jumin." To ground you.

707

Oh boy did you say panic?

Thankfully he already knew from your medical records when he first hacked your info

But he didn't expect to actually need it

When you first had one he felt like a piece of shit because it was his fault!!

He'd clear everything away from you so that you wouldn't get hurt

He'd feel so guilty that he'd probably add to the robot cats code to help you in case you had another one

Saeran probably had those when they were children, so Saeyoung would know the hand on the heartbeat method

He would feel really bad about triggering you until you managed to get through to him about how it wasn't his fault

V

Oh no not again

He'd be so panicked and worried he wouldn't be any help at all. At all.

Once your attack finished and you managed to tell him what it was he'd probably look it up online but

He wouldn't understand any of it so he'd have to go to you and ask for advice on how to help

He'd be way too scared to touch you because what if he made it worse?! But he'd make sure that nobody touched you or got near you

Maybe after a few years of dating he'd use the heartbeat touch method because he'd find it mildly romantic

He's a bit of an idiot

Rika

Oh shit did the sacrifice scare you

But it was in honor of your love!

No but for real the instant it happened she'd freak out because this is the one area that she doesn't know

If you're in public her polite lovely girl facade would crack to show the 'will not take shit from anyone if it'll hurt her sweetie' Rika

So when you become aware again be prepared to see anyone who was trying to touch you or get near you on the ground with their arms tied up

The instant she noticed you were okay she'd just hug you tightly while calling a car to go to the hospital because her precious MC had a panic attack!!!

Once you managed to tell her what it was she'd ask if you'd still see the doctor so she could know what to do better

Be prepared for her to enlist the whole RFA to help her research information about it

The next time that you had one she'd have some police tape in her purse so no one could get up in your space

She'd probably hug you, making sure to say her name multiple times first so you would know who she was

Kate

Oh fuck what

Umm MC are you okay!?

She probably wouldn't understand what was happening for the first few seconds because she's a dumb bitch

But when people start recording you?? Oh hell no she's going to punch some fools

She did not punch some fools but she did take their phones and delete the footage

And threaten them all with death and hacking if they didn't back off while taking pictures of their faces

The area got clear fast but unfortunately it took long enough that your attack finished so she wasn't able to comfort you :(

She'd bring you both home asap because what if it happened again!?! You don't need food

She'd ask you a bunch of questions about how to best help you and what to do

So next time it happened she would probably hold your hands together after stating her name like ten times

[mysticsituations]

Ola :) can I request some hc for the RFA reacting to a mc who was working really hard to get a promotion, to the point of exhaustion even, but in the end one of their colleagues, who didn't put half as much effort in it got the promotion, please? :3

Yay my first request!

You had been working at your job for 3 years. It was well past time for you to get a promotion in your opinion, and a spot just opened in an upper level position with a pay raise! In order to stand out, you took on extra projects and double-or-triple checked all your stuff, so you ended up pulling multiple all nighters in a row. When the day came to announce the new promotion, you wore your best outfit and held your head high. The boss then walked straight past you and shook the hand of your office mate, a known slacker and real piece of work. The worker shook the boss’s hand and made a comment about how hard work really pays off. You held it together until you made it home, where you closed the door to your apartment and bounced your head against the door as you tried to hold the tears in.

Yoosung:

-He had prepared a nice meal to celebrate your promotion.

-he knew you had been working non-stop, and he had more than often found you working even after he was done playing LOLOL.

-not to mention he was feeling a little neglected as you worked nonstop, but he had swallowed it down and smothered you in as much care as he could.

-He was super worried about you, and he was so happy it was about to be over and all your hard work was about to pay off.

-when you walked in the door he had just finished putting the food on the table, and he ran to see you when he saw you banging your head.

-”MC? MC what’s wrong?”

-”They gave it to my office mate.”

-Yoosung looked like a fish with his mouth hanging open like that. He knew your office mate. That person was a slacker- even Yoosung knew that. 

-To be honest, he was pissed. Yoosung knew how hard you worked and how deserving you were of that position. He had some unrealistic hope that people who worked hard automatically got the best job and the best pay- at least that’s what they taught at school. Jaehee had told him that simply having good grades doesn’t guarantee anything, but it really didn’t sink in how unfair the corporate world was until now.

-However, he knew you needed support. If there is one thing he has learned from you, its that simply being hateful and resentful doesn’t get anything done.

-”MC… I’m so sorry this happened to you. Do you want to talk about it?”

-You shook your head.

-”How about we eat this food, and then we can watch a movie? A movie with stupid bosses who get what they deserve!”

-you laugh and take his hand as he leads you to the delicious food, and as you take the first bite you realize no matter how hard your job is, Yoosung is always your rock. With him by your side, you will always have a supporter who appreciates your hard work. You do the best to return the favor and give him a lot of attention since you’ve been neglecting him for work recently.

Zen:

-Boy oh boy was Zen READY for you to get this promotion

-Between you working for your promotion and him working on his latest show, You guys barely saw each other.

-His show had come out last weekend, and you were only able to come to opening night, although you did go all out and get him roses and totally took the evening off for him.

-He offered to take you to the cast party, and you had declined, saying you needed to work on something again. He was disappointed, but after all you had sacraficed for him, he figured it was the least he could do to support your career as well.

-He had felt guilty when he came home from the cast party at 2 AM and you were still wide awake, papers strewn across the room and dark circles under your eyes.

-When you had left this morning in your best outfit ready to take on the day, he told you to take a selfie and send it to him when you got your promotion.

-As the day went on with no selfie, he started getting nervous. You had probably just forgotten, but he had a bad feeling.

-That feeling was confirmed when you came home and banged your head on the door.

-”Babe… Please don’t hurt that beautiful head of yours…” He said softly, reaching behind you and turning you to his chest.

-When you mumbled that your office mate got it, he was furious. That person definitely didn’t deserve it!

-He scowled at the thought of how big wigs like your boss didn’t understand the hard work you put in- just like that trust fund jerk, they didn’t understand a hard working person and how much they deserve to be recognized.

- He dropped a kiss to your head and started swaying back and forth, singing a song from his recent muscial.

-When you didn’t seem to be following, he switched to your favorite song.

-”Dance with me, babe. We can look at the stars and pretend this day never happend.”-Later that night he distracted you with his body if you know what I mean huehuehue ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Jaehee

(this one is you trying to switch to a part time position while you are getting ready to open your cafe. You thought you could handle having both jobs until the cafe got more money.)

- You had been working super hard at your job recently, and Jaehee was worried.

-As someone who often overworked herself, she knew what it looked like, and you were overworked.

-Personally she didn’t like your job at all. The end goal for both of you was to work full time at the cafe and leave your job, but with her handling a lot of the finances and records for getting the cafe open, you were the only one making money at the moment.

- You needed to get switched to a part time position now, but your job had limited availability for those jobs, and you needed to prove yourself in a different expertise to get it.

-It wasn’t something you were necessarily good at, so it took a lot of work to do. Not to mention you were trying to run the cafe stuff as well.

-You were totally swamped, and you didn’t do much to ease Jaehee’s concerns.

-”This is just temporary, Jaehee. Once I get this done, everything will be smooth sailing!”

-She smiled at your enthusiasm, and tried to tend to you as much as you would let her. She even helped you sometimes with your tasks if she finished early.

-The day came, and she made you a special latte art of a star in your morning coffee, telling you that you were a star no matter what happened today.

-Well the worst happend.

-When she saw you enter the door and beat your head, she knew what happened.

-She had felt that feeling herself.

- “Oh, MC…” She said softly.

-Jaehee wasn’t much of a touchy person, but she knew you needed a hug right now.

-She wrapped you up in her arms, and felt your tears on her shoulder.

-”MC, I will repeat the words that you said to me earlier this week. All of this is temporary. Soon, we will have this cafe up and running, and you will not need your strenuous job.”

- When you told her that your office mate got the position, she straightened her back a bit and squished up her nose in disgust.

-”I rememeber how it felt to be overlooked for an employee with less drive and ambition… I know how angry and distraught I felt when employers didn’t respect all I had done for them, especially Mr. Han… But Love, this is truly just a stepping stone. Your true dream job is here, with me. In our lovely cafe that you have blessed me with. Please, don’t forget our dream is here… and My dream will always be with you.”

-At this point you melted. Jaehee was always so good with words. You smiled up at her and kissed her on the cheek.

-’Thanks, Jaehee… could we watch some of Zen’s musicals now? I think that would make me feel better.”

-Jaehee smiled brightly and you too spent a beautiful night watching Zen and complaining about stupid jobs and how excited you were to open a cafe together.

Jumin

-You had insisted on keeping your job even after you were married. You said you didn’t like being cooped up in the penthouse all day, and you had fun at your job.

-Jumin was happy you liked what you did, and he tried to be supportive even though he really wished you could live in total luxury without the need to work, but he loved your hardworking attitude.

-When you came to him a few weeks ago speaking of a promotion that became available, he thought it was only right that you get it, as he could see how talented and dedicated you were to your job. You were the kind of person he wanted at C&R and any good boss would appreciate you.

-Little did he know you did not have a boss that was very good at recognizing potential.

-When he started coming home to see you swamped in work, he offered to help, but you insisted you could do it yourself, and you didn’t want to make him work after he had just come home.

-After a few all nighters, he asked again if he could help, or even hire you an assistant, but you insisted you were fine.

-When he came home after a long night at the office to find you asleep on the living room floor surrounded by paper, he had had enough and put you in bed for the night. You had freaked out the next morning about how you didn’t have time to spare for a night of sleep like that, and Jumin had to lightly scold you for not taking care of yourself.

-”My love, I need you to take care of yourself. You are so precious to me, and no job was ever completed by working yourself into the ground. A night’s rest will do you well.”

- He was right of course, and you did a lot better now that you were rested.

-When you left for your job that day, Jumin had had the chef prepare a well-balanced breakfast for you. He kissed you as you left the penthouse, and decided he would come home early so he could celebrate with you.

-He put on a slightly nicer suit than he regularly wore and had the chef make sashimi and wine for you to dine on in celebration.

-When he saw you dejectedly enter the penthouse though, he rushed to your side.

-”My dear, what is wrong?”

-”They gave it to my office mate- you know, the slacker? He made a speech about how ‘hard work really pays off~’”

-Jumin turned you towards him and brushed his fingers through your hair.

-”My love I am so sorry. Who do I need to call to make this right? I know you deserve more than this- and I will do everything I can to make it so.”

-You sniffled and laughed at his intense desire to help.

-”It’s okay Jumin... I don’t need the promotion anyways I guess... I just really wanted my hard work to be recognized...”

- Jumin stared into your eyes for a moment before smirking a playful smile.

-”You want to be acknowledged, you say? My dear, I can acknowledge you as long as you want.”

- He kissed at your cheek, your eyes, and the side of your lips, speaking of all the wonderful ways you make him a better man and acknowledging all you do for him, before passionately kissing you and lifting you into his arms.

-He brought you to the bedroom and ‘acknowledged’ you all night long and pampered you the whole next day as he called into work and got you the day off.

Seven:

-Again, with Saeyoung it wasn’t really about the money but just the acknowledgement that you wanted the promotion.

-You were in your dream field and were about to be promoted to a higher position so that you could do more of what you liked.

- Saeyoung was starting to understand the miracle of having a dream job now that he was building all these toys in his free time and opening a shop to sell them. He wanted you to enjoy your job too.

-When you started to pull all nighters, he was probably the most worried. He knew just how bad it was to mess up your sleep schedule and to work through meals. You had been the person who had stuck with him through his job, and he knew he owed you the same courtesy, but he honestly wasn’t sure he could handle all the worry he had as he watched you slave away at your work at 4 AM.

-So was it really that bad that he had slipped some sleep aid pill into your drink after your fourth all nighter? Probably, especially considering how panicked you had been when you woke up 14 hours later. You guessed it was him who did it, and you had ignored him all day out of spite.

-Now he knew how it felt to be ignored, and it made him all the more mad at himself for doing this to you when he first met you.

-That night you apologized to him with a bag of HBC that you had been saving to get him to eat better, and he told you he was sorry for drugging you. He had just been worried.

-You sighed and kissed him as you told him you forgave him.

-A few days later you left for work in your best clothes, and he had cheered for you all the way out the door.

-He had been working on a toy all day while waiting for your arrival back home, and he had even put on some nice clothes himself to take you out for dinner and a ride. He usually had date nights at home, but you deserved a special night tonight!

-However, when you came home and hit your head against the door, he sprung into action.

- “Hey, hey! Who dares to beat the head of my beautiful fiancee?”

- “A loser who didn’t get a promotion.”

- Saeyoung frowned at this.

- “Baby, you are not a loser. You worked really hard- I’m sure they just don’t realize how good you are!”

- “Yeah, obviously. They chose my office mate.”

-That stunned Saeyoung. He knew your office mate from when he visited you at work. He was constantly looking up videos and talking on tripter whenever he was there, and you constantly complained how you always ended up picking up his slack.

-”MC...”

-”I just... I want to pig out and pretend this day never happened.”

-Saeyoung pulled you into his arms and kissed your head.

-”Now that, we can do.”

-You both went to your room and put on your comfiest pjs, ordered fried wings and all other kinds of shit to eat, and pigged out in the living room while watching your favorite kdrama.

-At some point he pulled you close to him and looked into your eyes with his soul pouring into you, and he whispered into your ear “I don’t care if those idiots at your job don’t see how special you are... You will always be loved and appreciated by me.”

-He got a big kiss for that one.

- The next day your boss had stripped the promotion from your office mate when his computer history and time spent goofing off had been brought to his attention, and you were given the promotion instead! Saeyoung swears it wasn’t him.

[mystic-head-canons]

Hello! I love your blog, so could I request headcanons for the RFA + Unknown + V & Vanderwood how they would react when mc comes out as asexual? (She first didn't want to tell bc she thought they would break up)If you're uncomfortable with it it's ok

Being asexual myself, this actually makes me very happy. Also, like to point out, the main thing about asexuals is that we don’t experience sexual attraction. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that an asexual has no desire for sex, and some people are completely down for it, but you really only hear about sex-repulsed asexuals. That’s not going to be the case for some of these.

Yoosung

He might be… a little disappointed, but respects her

If MC told him she did want to have sex, he would probably be happy to comply, but would be a little confused until MC explained, asexual doesn’t mean having no desire for sex

Yoosung’s biggest thing would controlling his own desires towards her and trying to make sure he doesn’t make her uncomfortable by pushing any of her limits

Jaehee

why would this matter when they’re only friends?! (I’m still bitter)

When MC comes out to her, Jaehee asks a ton of questions, researches it extensively to try to figure out being asexual means and what it means to MC

Jaehee is okay without sex, and as a result, she’s perfectly happy to just have a cuddle partner on the couch

Besides, kissing isn’t off limits, and being able to kiss MC nice

Zen

MC is the type of asexual that enjoys sex, but she just doesn’t experience sexual attraction

Even then, once Zen finds out, he respects her sexuality, and is probably a little more careful when it comes to sex

They’re still sexually active, but she sets the pace for them more than he does

Zen happily contains the Beast TM just to be with MC

Jumin

Well… MC never really brought it up, and she seemed fine with sex, so he never even wondered about it

It wasn’t until some woman at a party struck up a conversation with MC (unbeknownst to them both that Jumin was within earshot)

The woman basically said that MC had married Jumin because was sexy and wealthy

MC, first of all, shut down the notion of the money, real quick, because she was used to it and could do so easily

Second of all, she stated plainly that she was asexual, and while she recognized that Jumin was indeed a very sexy man, she doesn’t experience sexual attraction, ergo, this woman has completely misread her

When they get home, Jumin asks about asexuality and makes sure he hasn’t made her uncomfortable or pressured her into anything

After assuring him that he didn’t, Jumin suggests that they retire for the evening and they cuddle

Saeyoung

Saeyoung suspected by the way that she shied away from anything sexual, so when she came out he was a-okay with it

He even makes a list of a ton of asexual safe activities, including bowling, movie watching, and amusement parks

Besides, his religion pretty much states that people who don’t want sex are the holiest people

So Saeyoung practically worships MC, holding her and loving her, but never pushing her for anything she’s not comfortable with

V

All he asks is that MC only does what she is most comfortable with

So the moment she comes out to him, he asks what that means to her and what he can do to make her the most comfortable

After MC explains that she has no sexual attraction and is actually very repulsed and frightened at the prospect of sex, V respectfully agrees never to pursue sex with her

He makes sure that she’s okay with physical affection, just so long as it’s not sexual, and he even prefers if MC initiates the contact because V doesn’t want to mess things up or make her uncomfortable

Saeran

Dude has some serious trauma regarding physical interactions with people, so MC’s physical distance isn’t something he immediately registers

As he warms up to her, they get more physical, starting with small gestures, like hand touches, brushing the hair out of the others face, etc.

The biggest gestures turning into hand holding, hugging, and eventually even kissing

When Saeran attempts to take things further, as he’s interested and he understands there’s meant to be a natural progression with these things, MC stops him and explains that she’s asexual and doesn’t like sex

Now, she also admits that she’s never tried it, and she’s curious if only to try and learn, but she’s kind of scared and would like to wait and slow down

While disappointed, Saeran backs off and waits

Considering the patience she’s had with him all this time, it’s the least he can do

Vanderwood

I kind of head canon Vanderwood as asexual too

So when MC tells him that she’s asexual, he’s very chill about the whole thing

Just kind of shrugs and says, “Good. I am too.”

When they spend time together, it’s mostly just sitting on the couch watching TV, with his arm around her shoulders and her snuggled into his side