#As much of a downer as I'm being I truly deeply do wish I could do all of that exactly as you said

[kingprinceleo]

Regarding your feelings towards art: It sounds like burnout. When something you've used to do feels so tough and hard and painful? I've gone through that with school, work, even video games I play! What helps burnout is taking a break. Don't even sketch! And pick something else to do. I've learned to do simple coding, simple sewing, how to fix electronics (Like Gamecubes), playing with my Lego, learning about cars, and trying new games! My autism actually LOVED learning about cars so I got a new power (Car autism). After I felt satisfied with the amount I learned I was able to go back to whatever was burning me out. Pick something new to try out or learn about. Drop even sketching for now. If you get a drawing idea write it down somewhere, that way you won't lose it. Even your "Worthless" sketches ARE worth something! It's art! No art is worthless, ever. It all has meaning, purpose, and emotion put into it. I hope any of this info can help you feel better.

This is all really good stuff to anyone who isn't me fnjdjdndndjd /lh

I wish I could do any of that, but it's almost physically impossible to get myself to try anything new,, I have this silly little disease where even if I'm completely alone, I feel so stupid and ashamed for not understanding something right away, not being good at it right away , and that stresses me out beyond repair so I try to avoid those feelings which results in my only skills being mid digital sketches, middle school level singing, and I can dance. Slightly. That's genuinely all I can do from all my years of being alive and it is!!!! Embarrassing!!!

Really the only thing I'm slightly interested in is music composition and production, but the learning curve for that is so steep im scared to touch it with a million foot pole

The depression and executive dysfunction do not help even slightly with any of this stuff, even the autism can't fight the power of being sad and tired