#Apparently 3am me does not believe in paragraph breaks and I'm too tired to care.

[crowsteethandwolfsfeathers]

Three am seems like the perfect time for this post because why the fuck not. But I don't get a lot of the antagonism on this site. Or like in internet culture in general these days. First of all, why are people so against endogenic systems? Look, I'm still figuring my own system out and I'm pretty sure we're a result of long-term severe stress. But if you're not the result of trauma? So? Congrats, you're not traumatized. Why do I care and how is that any of my business? I also don't get antis. They seem to be a result of a puritanical culture hellbent on leading witchhunts against anything remotely "morally unpure." Hi, yes, that's literally everyone ever, get off your high horse. Maybe I'm just old, but I come from the "don't like, don't read" generation of fanficcers. Back when the "dead dove" tag was a warning that elements of a fic were dark and likely upsetting to people and when we understood the word "squick" and how it differed from "trigger." Actually, that's not entirely true: my history as a fanficcer predates the existence of the "dead dove" tag, but that's not the point here. There are things I get hella squicked out about with fic. You know what I do with those things? I don't read them, I don't write them, I don't RP them, I blacklist the tags and move on with my life. That's why my generation of fanficcers were taught to tag the everliving shit out of things. So that folks could avoid them if they wanted. It's all about curating your own online experience. That is your responsibility, not mine. I will hand you the tools to do it (by tagging the shit out of everything I write) and if you choose not to do that, that's a you problem, not a me problem. I do write fanfics and original fiction deserving of the "dead dove" tag. Generally that's due to abuse (typically of a physical, psychological, or emotional - not sexual - variety and generally between two or more adults) and I do use that to explore my own experiences in a safe and controlled way. Because I've been subjected to a lot of that, especially psychological and emotional abuse. It's a way that I can examine those experiences and try to work with them in an environment where I am completely in control. I can make it stop. If I want to, I can drop it and walk away and never look at it again. I did not have that power when actually living those experiences. Whatever the hell you've been through - or haven't been through, for that matter - you deserve space to make sense of that. Just warn people about the contents of your work. Tag that shit. And if I don't like it or find it disturbing, I will avoid it and move on.

I dunno, there wasn't really a point to this, I'm just frustrated with people. And especially a lot of the hypocrisy I see all the time. I jumped into online fandom when it was still the fucking wild west. In those days we really did live by "tag your shit" and "don't like, don't read." Like take some responsibility for moderating your own media experience. And I find a certain level of hypocrisy in me, a fucking gryphon who apparently has a couple of other people hanging out in their head, trying to tell anybody else their identity is invalid. Live and let live, folks.