#Anyways uh she's a bit quirky <3 a bit Traumatized- (a Lot traumatized-)

[makerofmadness]

as mentioned in the previous post this is basically mock crk game dialogue I did as a writing exercise (I do this for every character in this AU X3), for my AU's version of Golden Cheese Cookie. (For those who missed it here's the post about the AU)

(I will be posting the others whenever I feel like it I have. A lot)

something something Lead-in to the actual mock dialogue look here it is:

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Gacha Pre-Pull: I hope you did not forget... mhehe...

Gacha: AHH HA HA HA! I am the Demonic Goddess! BEHOLD!

Wish: Give me what is MINE.

Loading Screen:

How PATHETIC.

I shall devastate the battlefield!

See the Light of Destruction...!

Ahahaha! I have you in my si~ghts!

I'm feeling just a little bit DESTRUCTIVE right now...

Skill: Feel true devastation!

Victory:

I won...! I WON!! Ah ha ha!

Oh, that is the sweet taste of payback...

With victory comes the spoils.

Defeat:

Grr... I will bury them in the scorching sands, soon enough...

A loss... No, not again, not again...!

Spices...! My precious Spices, you're all still here, yes...?

Knockout: No... NO...!!

Promotion:

It feels so good to finally stretch these wings! Ahaha!

Glorious, aren't I? Wouldn't you want me as your queen? (...wouldn't you?)

Wooo! Ha ha...

The power of destruction shines brighter than gold! (...ah, I wish...)

Time for some FUN!

Someday, I'll bury those so-called 'Heroes' in the burning sands... mhehe...!

Level Up:

Shower me in gold! Until I have regained my former radiance...

Victory grows closer! CLOSER!

Red shines just as much as gold, right...? RIGHT?

I think I quite like you... To the treasury. NOW!

Nutmeg Tiger Cookie! Let's see what I can break now...

It is US who will stand in the end!

Once a treasure is in my grasp... I will NEVER let go of it.

The power of destruction burns even brighter! 

Kingdom:

Just as quaint as I remembered it...

Do you wish to tempt living destruction...!?

Why, yes, I do have a tendency to spin out of control...

The Demonic Goddess is in your presence! All eyes on me, now...!

I DEMAND respect!

Is that gold I see?? ...pyrite!? RAH!!

You know, I have... HAD a kingdom of my own...

Do you... wish to speak to me?

*sniff sniff* ...Bear Jellies?

Gold? Give it to me! OR ELSE!

I shall regain my treasures!

Cookie Info:

I hope you did not forget... mhehe...

Demon? God? I have become both.

I will never face another loss...

"Greedy?" Hah! I'm glad you noticed!

What's MINE is mine FOREVER...!

The Spices, too, are my treasures...

AHAHAHA! HAHAHAHA! AHA... ah, it's not very funny, is it?

The power of Abundance still belongs to ME! Make no mistake.

I hope my friends can enjoy this freedom with me...

I will destroy any threat to my treasures!

[alywats]

June/ July 2021 Reading Wrap-Up

So, it’s been a minute, huh? I finished my first year of grad school on June 8th, turned 23 on June 9th, and went face-down-head-empty on June 10th. I am trying to be better about managing burn-out, but that is a discussion for another time. Let’s get caught up on my spicy literary opinions, shall we?? I read significantly less than normal in June and July, but we still have 8 whole books!

1. Shrines Of Upper Austria –Phoebe Power (71 pgs) 4

This is a special poetry collection, because it was written by the person who taught me the most about poetry. In 2018 I signed up for a poetry class during my semester abroad in England, and Phoebe was my workshop leader. Cut to 3 years later, and I still think about pieces of advice Phoebe gave me, every time I write. This collection was published while I was there, and I actually went to the release event and heard her perform some of the poems, but for some reason I hadn’t gone back and actually read the whole book until now.  I love this collection a lot, it’s a mosaic of European stories and histories, specifically as they relate to WW2. I think Phoebe has such a strong voice and such a unique style of writing, in ways that may make some of her work a little difficult to unpack for some readers. Anyways, Phoebe was the first person I ever showed my writing to, she even gave me feedback on a poem that went on to circulate tumblr (lol), and she understood my voice before I really understood it myself… anyways I think you should read this if you’re into poetry!

2. Crush –Richard Siken (62 pgs) 5

I don’t know if I have the right words to describe this book. Are they love poems? Sometimes. This was an absolutely haunting reading experience. All of the poems in this book are so desperate, so obsessive, so panicked, that by the end you just need a deep breath. There is so much blood in the lines of these poems, and I think that’s the best sell I can make? I HIGHLY recommend this.

3. Grocery List Poems –Rhiannon McGavin (80 pgs) 4.5

The last thing I read on The Day I Read A Bunch Of Poetry, and it was by one of my favorite poets. This is Rhiannon’s second collection, and uh, can we get some commotion for the fruit imagery??? I really like this collection, it is very cohesive and so full of her voice (which I have come to love a lot). My favorite poem in this book is Elsa la Rose and I want everyone to read it.

4. West Of Here –Jonathan Evison (486 pgs) 3

Here, my guys, is where things took a turn. I started reading this book on like June 10th, and I did not finish it until JULY 12TH. I don’t know if my brain just finally needed to shut down after finishing a year of grad school, or if this book was actually just that painful to read. Maybe it was some combination of the two, but good lord this book was hard for me to get through. The premise was great: historical fiction about when Washington became a state with a current day Bigfoot B-plot. Woof though: I was  annoyed by every character in this book (oh and there were about 37243875 characters to keep track of across two different timelines), plus I was also kind of annoyed by how #woke and #girlboss some of the characters from the 1800’s timeline were? Clearly Evison was trying to skirt around some of the *ahem* problematic elements of colonizing Washington and treating Indiginous people the way they were treated, and also the way women were treated in the 1800s, etc… but it came off as oversimplified and cringy. This would have been a 2-star review BUT THAT BIGFOOT B-PLOT? I am a simple woman.  

5. The Pisces –Melissa Broder (270 pgs) 3.5

Haha, what? This book has mermaid sex. Okay, it also has some big Ottessa Moshfegh-esque character study elements, where we meet an unlikable narrator and relate to her *too much* for comfort. This is a read where you feel uneasy the whole time and the ending kept me awake for a little while after I finished it. It’s gross, it’s weird, and most of all there is a fish man ready for action. Did I like this? Who’s to say, really.

6. All The Light We Cannot See –Anthony Doerr (531 pgs) 3.5

This I read as a buddy read with my good friend Carly! Carly and I met the first day of college and we did music stuff together throughout. Now, we are both yelling about books on the internet (her book instagram is @book.trunks if you want to check out her hot takes!). But on to this book…. sad, just sad.

This book kind of wrecked me? And I did really like the writing. I became invested in the characters immediately, and the structure of the book felt like a kind of fragmented flashback, which is fitting for a traumatic book about WW2. I am becoming really sensitive to the ways authors use trauma like this though, did this book make me feel things because it was full of good, emotional writing? Or did descriptions of extreme suffering evoke those feelings because I am a human and WW2 was a nightmare? Does this matter? I don’t know, but this book was sad and I *think* I liked it?

7. Sweetbitter –Stephanie Danler (356 pgs) 2.5

This is pretentious lit-fic in its most pure essence. An overwritten coming-of-age/ finding yourself novel with minimal plot set in New York City, baby –the city of dreams! Our protagonist has a tragic past, and working in a fancy restaurant shows her things about the city and its people that make her question her place there. There’s sex and drugs along the way, and maybe NYC isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, hmm? Or, maybe this is *exactly* where she’s supposed to be. Does this sound exceedingly boring and predictable, because it was.

8. Supernatural Strategies For Making a Rock ‘n’ Roll Group –Ian F. Svenonius (250 pgs) 4

This is a quirky little nonfiction (memoir?? art piece?) about what it means to start a rock ‘n’ roll band! I thought this was super interesting and it reminded me of Chuck Klosterman’s writing a bit, so no complaints here!