#And like - come on Andi. That's *more* than good enough by anyone's standards ๐ญ๐ญ
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Perfectionist brain is now trying to tell me that the comment I've written, in which I've quoted back a dozen or so of my favourite parts, still hasn't properly conveyed how deeply and utterly this fic has cut me and that I need to write something more insightful about the themes of the story rather than just squeeing throughout and gah, BRAIN, stop it!! You keep doing this, and you know that's the type of thinking that ends up leaving no comment at all! I'm pretty certain the several hundred words you've left is a fairly clear sign that you loved the story, even if it doesn't live up to your ever-reachingly high standards of being able to tell them *everything* you loved and felt about it which - may I remind you, Andi - is impossible!
Man, I've kind of laughed at myself for feeling kind of guilty in the past for leaving "only" a paragraph on comment when my energy has been greatly less than my love for the fic, but that's at least understandable. Now it's getting ridiculous! "You're quoting so much so you don't have to put in the effort of writing something that engages more deeply with the story's themes and is actually meaningful--" Oh, come on, brain, can you be a bit kinder to me, please? You don't think that when you *get* a comment, do you?! You'd be delighted! So can you please just leave me alone and stop telling me I'm doing things wrong!!
#Ooof#Personal#Brain is on the whole doing better than it was a few weeks ago!#Hooray for meds!#But I've noticed this kind of thinking creeping back in and this just was the limit#I've gone back and checked and my comment was over 1000 words in the end XD#And like - come on Andi. That's *more* than good enough by anyone's standards ๐ญ๐ญ#Sighhhh#It's not as bad as that time I abandoned a fic that I was absolutely loving to pieces because I wanted to comment on every other line and#doing that was too much but I just couldn't switch off the part of my brain saying ''this is comment-worthy and you wouldn't want them not#to know that right? And if you don't comment on this bit but do on something else they'll think this bit isn't as good and it is.''#But boy if it isn't treading the line in getting there#Ughhh#Usually I'm pretty okay at reminding myself that ''good is better than an abandoned perfect''#But it's harder to believe that when you're doing something for someone else simply because you *want* to idk#Anyway#Big ramble#I'm okay#Just really tired of being a perfectionist sometimes ๐
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