#Also Troye Sivan if you're out there know that I tag you too

[gaycoruscant]

91 Questions Tag

Thanks to Liv ( @sixty-seven-protons ) for tagging me to answer this mountain of random facts

THE LAST – 
 1. Drink: Water
 2. Phone call: My friend trying to tell me I was late for a band meeting (yikes!)
 3. Text message: Jon, quote: “oh” as said in reference to being decked in front of the emoji movie theater.
 4. Song I listened to: “DKLA” by Troye Sivan
 5. Time you cried: Idk, Thursday??? Last Wednesday????? Something like that.

HAVE YOU EVER –
 6. Dated someone twice: No
 7. Been cheated on: No I’ve always been a single pringle 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope
 9. Lost someone special: I guess
 10. Been depressed: Yeah tb to November when it was real bad
 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS –
 12. The yellow color of a ripe wheat field in the sunset
 13. Forest green
 14. Sapphire blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU –
 15. Made new friends: Yeah! I went from having friends who were only friends at school to having actual people to hang out with, plus a few more
 16. Fallen out of love: I’ve fallen out of crushes
 17. Laughed until you cried: Yep. It was with that shittyflute Toxic video. Look it up. It will CHANGE you.
 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Not really, no
 19. Met someone who changed you: Hell yeah @ my friends
 20. Found out who your true friends were: For the most part.

MORE – 
 21. Kissed someone on your facebook? No I don’t have facebook
 22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? Zero, as in I have no facebook and no facebook friends
 23. Do you have any pets? My dog Lucy!!!
 24. Do you want to change your name? Not really anymore but there was a time where I wished I was named Tara
 25. What did you do on your last birthday? Fucking band camp
 26. What time did you wake up? 8 in the morning (thanks, band)
 27. What were you doing at midnight? Drowning myself in the sweet sweet voice of Troye Sivan
 28. Name something you can’t wait for: To hang out with my friends in a few days
 29. When was the last time you saw your mother? Yesterday
 30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I’d make my good ol’ Texas small town more gay-friendly
 31. What are you listening to right now? Wind chimes
 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? No.
 33. Something that is getting on your nerves? Unwanted questions from family members.
 34. Most visited site: This wonderful hellsite

SCHOOL – 
 35. Elementary: The good ol’ days. My gay self was gay as FUCK back then but did anyone know? No. Did anyone care? No. But I was happy with all my friends and we gossiped and played games like lava monster at recess. Then FIFTH GRADE comes along and, story time! Toxic masculinity (aka my brother) makes a stupid comment that goes “why are all your friends girls” in that stupid prepubescent boy mocking voice and my submissive childhood self gives in and decides to change to be “more like the other boys” and that is where my life went to hell.
 36. Middle: OH BOY!!! Puberty + new school + new insecurities thanks to my new friend Toxic Masculinity = a very bad few years
 37. High: To summarize: Fuck masculinity I’m gonna be GAY and there’s nothing you can do to stop me from being my feminine self (except force me to hide myself from homophobes)
 38. College: A Concept: I go a prestigious high-end Ivy League, 3000 miles away from the homophobes I deal with daily. I get a nice boyfriend and we live a nice apartment together. We love each other very much and help each other in our studies and we support each other’s artistic endeavors. I graduate top of my class and become a well off scientist/poet and we get paid well enough to marry at age twenty-eight and pay off our student loans by the same time. Life is gay. Life is good.

ME – 
 39. Hair color: Dirty blond
 40. Long or short hair? It’s short
 41. Do you have a crush on someone? Not right now
 42. What do you like about yourself? My mind (mostly). My body? Not so much
 43. Piercings? Nah I’m good
 44. Blood type: ???????????? Bitch I don’t know
 45. Nickname: One friend called me Nowickipedia and it kind of caught on
 46. Relationship status: www.pringles.com
 47. Zodiac sign: Leo
 48. Pronouns: Honestly I don’t care. He/him is what I’ve used most of my life (thanks, assigned gender! 🙃) but she/her is fine and they/them is ok too.
 49. Favorite TV show(s): STAR WARS: THE CLONE WARS & STAR WARS: REBELS (God I’m such a nerd)
 50. Tattoos: No
 51. Right, ambidextrous, or left-handed? Right handed, but I text and use my phone with my left hand and all my other right handed family members think I’m crazy.

FIRST – 
 52. Surgery: None
 53. Piercing: None
 54. Sport: Flag football fourth grade (see 35, subject: masculinity and a desire to “fit in”)
 55. Vacation: Disneyland
 56. Pair of trainers: What is this asking? First pair of physical trainers to help me pump iron??? (Actually it’s probably shoes but who calls shoes trainers??)

CURRENT – 
 57. Eating: Nothing
 58. Drinking: Nothing
 59. I’m about to: ????? No plans just sit at home all day
 60. Listening to: The AC

FUTURE – 
 61. Waiting for: A horribly sappy romantic subplot to happen sometime in the next ten years
 62. Want: To see my friends
 63. Married: Hopefully
 64. Career: Paleontologist? Astrobiologist? Poet? So many options I need to decide.

YOUR TYPE – 
 65. Hugs or kisses? Hugs, but only because I’ve never kissed anyone
 66. Lips or eyes? Eyes 100000% I wrote a song and like thirty poems about them so….
 67. Shorter or taller? Taller probably because I went out in public and everyone was shorter than me and I got a bunch of dysphoria surrounding that so yeah (but honestly it doesn’t matter)
 68. Older or younger? I don’t care
 69. Nice arms or nice stomach? Both. A nice stomach to use as a pillow and nice arms that can hold me tight.
 70. Sensitive or loud? Idk
 71. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship. No sex-repulsed hopeless romantic like me is settling for one night of doing it dirty.
 72. Troublemaker or hesitant? Idk 73. Kissed a stranger? No way
 74. Drank hard liquor? Nope nope nope alcohol is disgusting
 75. Lost contact lenses/glasses? No
 76. Turned someone down? Once when I was still in the closet and I found out a guy had a crush on me but my homophobic brother knew he had a crush and told me so when the boy finally got enough guts to ask me to homecoming I went into panic mode and said no (sorry!) 77. Sex on first date? Nooooooooooo way. Sex would have to be like seven months in when we’ve gotten used to chillin with each other and got past at least twelve dates.
 78. Broken someone’s heart? Maybe. (See 76)
 79. Had your heart broken? Oh boy yeah when I had my first crush on a boy (the crushes on girls before don’t count they were influenced by Toxic masculinity) I ended up telling him and I was Devastated™ but is that heartbreak if it’s a crush? Idk.
 80. Been arrested? Nope
 81. Cried when someone died? See Padme Amidala’s funeral, Star Wars: Episode III: Revenge of the Sith (2005).
 82. Fallen for a friend? The only way I’ve ever crushed on someone

DO YOU BELIEVE IN – 
 83. Yourself? For like a few days at a time
 84. Miracles? Ehh sort of
 85. Love at first sight? Yes
 86. Santa Claus? No
 87. Kiss on first date? Wait until the fourth
 88. Angels? @ my friends (mutuals = friends)

OTHER – 
 89. Current best friend’s name: I refuse to put just one!
 90. Eye color: Blue
 91. Favorite movie: Jurassic Park, Star Wars: the Complete Saga, Interstellar, Arrival, Mulan

I tag @vanillabeanniall @uswntinharmony @knightcrawlers @rogueleadxr @apple-bottom-dean @solitudeontatooine and any other mutuals I have who want to do this

[kersficrecs]

Songs That Remind Me of Matt Murdock

I want to preface this with I chose songs that remind me of Matt, not necessarily anything that fits the show or the comics. Also this is the first of many playlists I’ve been making, if you have any characters you want to see a playlist for send me an ask on here or my main blog @kerstynn​

spotify link | apple music link

below the cut is each song in the playlist and the lyric(s) that make me think of him <3 (I will keep adding songs to the list and editing this post with new lyrics and songs; also if you have any suggestions of songs to add reply with them or send an ask and I’ll definitely check out the song - and probably add it to the playlist)

edit: I FORGOT TO SAY: if you want to use this for fic inspiration PLEASE DO I WANNA READ THEM ALL 💜

Date Posted: January 20th, 2022

Last Updated: January 20th, 2022

Sleep Alone // Waterparks

My face feels hot and blue my hands still count on you to let me down articulate and lonely enough for the two of us if you want, if you want to

TALK ME DOWN // Troye Sivan

And I wanna come home to you, but home is just a room full of my safest sounds. 'Cause you know that I can't trust myself with my 3:00 a.m. shadow I'd rather fuel a fantasy then deal with this alone

Hum Hallelujah // Fall Out Boy

So hum hallelujah just off the key of reason. I thought I loved you, it was just how you looked in the light I know the irony here but my brain said ‘Matt <3′

Like Sin // Chase Coy

devil in a red dress breath on my skin, you smile like a saint but girl you hurt like sin

Look After You // The Fray

When I'm losing my control, the city spins around You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Surround You // Echosmith 

Just crawl in my arms, oh, and I'll hold you beside me I want my love to surround you

Beating Heart Baby // Waterparks

Baby is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel your beating heart, baby.

Crying Over It All // Waterparks

I want the fireworks I want the softest words I want what you deserve and to unlearn my hurt

Reckless // You Me At Six 

I'm the devil on your shoulder telling you that love is blind. It's ok when it's hiding in disguise

Clusterhug // I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

Darling, you're a holy quarantine new romantic Philistine

Lights Go Down // I DON’T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME 

Oh Lord the thief of the year steal every heart from the boys that you're touching

Lucky People // Waterparks 

I'll be your optimistic black hole full of love I can't control let's keep each other safe from the world 

Silly Putty // Phem 

Get you on your knees, we could start our own prayer group. Shit, I kinda wanna marry you

Trade Mistakes // Panic! At the Disco 

I feel marooned in this body deserted, my organs can go on without me. You can't fly these wings. You can't sleep in this box with me.

State of Grace (Acoustic Version) (Taylor’s Version) // Taylor Swift 

And I never saw you coming; And I'll never be the same (yes I have jokes)

Cruel Summer // Taylor Swift 

And I screamed for whatever it's worth "I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard? He looks up grinning like a devil

Line Without a Hook // Ricky Montgomery 

Baby, I am a wreck when I'm without you I need you here to stay I broke all my bones that day I found you crying at the lake

Cabo // Ricky Montgomery

Ashes, ashes, dust to dust I think I found a place for us. It's down by garden after dark. It's in my arms, it's in my arms.

American Graffiti // Waterparks

Maybe the world was made in six days but I could ruin mine by Monday

Tell Her You Love Her // Echosmith

When she says she needs you tell her you need her too. You tell her clearly; Speak what your heart wants you to. Tell her she's lovely, always tell her the truth. When she says she loves you tell her you love her too.

Tags: (If you want to be tagged in future playlists just let me know!) @cressidaclearwood​ (btw I’m loving your false god series)

[gaykey]

wait can u talk more about key's taste in media pls

ok ok so!

now, this might take a while, and it's late, so i don't know when you're gonna see this???

as i said in the tags of my post, over the years, key has been very loud about the media he consumes.

more often than not, that media is either, very lgbt+ or, lgbt+ associated.

(disclaimer! not to say that he doesn't also like media not geared towards the lgbt+ too, this is just me highlighting when he does because i find it interesting, and relatable!)

let's start with the well-known stuff.

music~

key's gaga phase!

now, kibum was very much into gaga around her 'born this way' era and, i don't think i need to spell out the associations with the lgbt+ that this has. it's pretty cut & dry.

if you look at key's performance of 'hair' by gaga for example.....ooooof.

the lyrics to this song???

he. is. YELLING.

next up, his kesha phase

not much to say other than, like gaga, kesha is an artist very much associated with the lgbt community. especially at the time that key was into her music (yes she was a popular & fun artist to cover at the time, but, knowing kibum.....)

and the way Key so confidently belted out 'boys tryna touch my junk'? mmhmm.

next, mikaaa!

key loves mika. we know this.

he not only has he covered his music but, he went to his concert, and met him irl!

for those who don't know, mika is entrenched in the community, and is lgbt+ himself. he's literally a gay icon.

also, key has been into, beyonce & rihanna over the years, but these artists mentioned are the most prominent in his taste.

key spoke about beyonce in a 2012 interview with dazed & confused magazine though!

"Q: I’m curious to know what else than vintage interests you these days. What is it if there’s anything that shocked you like hammering your head?

Key: Beyonce’s music video for ‘Best Thing I Never Had’ in which she has a wedding in lingerie. Why is she so pretty? It made me almost angry because she is so pretty.

Q: You were angry?

Key: Watching it, I said, “How come? How can she be so in such a situation?” I get angry when someone else beats me to it when I’m thinking of doing what I want to try.

Q: You don’t mean trying lingerie?

Key: Ah, no, not that one. With Beyonce, we have this powerful image of her. It’s amazing to see that people like the calm music video the singer with such an image made for her quiet song as much as her energetic performances on stage. It means she gives off the same amount of energy in performing calm songs. I’d like to be like that. Supposing people are 100 % satisfied when you dance, I think they are 80% satisfied with slow songs. I was wondering how to reduce the difference, but Beyonce did it! If she doesn’t care and doesn’t feel shy in lingerie, it is nothing to be ashamed of. Who would have imagined her doing a wedding in lingerie for such a slow song?"

key & david bowie

another queer icon that key has been very vocal about liking.

he's wore a bowie t shirt, and posted about him on insta.

can't add any more images, but, here's a link to a post i made

https://gaykey.tumblr.com/post/641280895625691136/radiatingdyke-yes-thank-you-amber-also-it

key + troye sivan

2022 update, but key + conan grey! he's a huge fan of conan's music and even met him, gave a tour of the sme building, and completely fanboyed the entire time

also, a small thing but

key wearing a freddie mercury badge

next

movies/tv shows/stage stuff/art/culture ect.

so

hedwig and the angry inch

key is a big fan of the musical, and i assume the film?

hedwig and the angry inch is a lgbt+ musical/film about a transfemme character called hedwig, and her search for stardom.

a queer culture piece of media.

he referenced a character from the story in his ultra slutty insta post

also, he met the cast of the musical!

also, shout out to kibum stan, olly, sjjvjfjdndndjnssj

(olly and years & years could also be put on this list!)

art & artists

jean-michel basquiat & keith haring

both artists kibum has mentioned, or referenced in the past

both overtly lgbt+ or suspected to be (jean-michel never publicly identified as bisexual, but, was known to be attracted to multiple genders, and someone very much considered/associated with, part of the culture)

kibum with a keith haring phone case & tee shirt

kibum at a jean-michel exhibit a few weeks ago.

sooooo, there we go!

this is just the tip of the iceberg btw.

there's tons more, but, it's late, and i'd have to troll through tons of his insta posts lol, but you get where i'm going with this

kibum has always has, and always will be, outspoken and true to himself

about who he is, what he likes and dislikes,

and it's a huge part of why i adore him so much.

[merrrrrrrrry]

10 music recommendations you’ve been listening to recently

@dontdropthatthunthunthun tagged me in this game. Thank you lovely

{The laptop stopped working, then my brother's phone stopped working so he started using mine and then because of the cyclone, I've not really been able to properly listen to music. I thought of excusing myself but you said you're curious so... the first few are going to be very different from what I usually listen to.}

Adore You cover - @watermelonsugarhii

Anna, I'm sorry if I'm creeping you out by now but I love this version so much. I had been getting a bit tired of listening to it everywhere so your version made me call back in love. Also loved your Girls cover (great recommendation @goldensunflowerera )

Watermelon Sugar cover - @genuineconspiracy

Thank you so much for posting it (due to an unknown person's insistence). I love how differently you sing it (mayhaps we'll get one version with music 😳😌)

To Be So Lonely cover - @wastelandharry

Yet another lovely cover. Loved your second version too🤗

Olivia (Extended)

I liked the song and I really liked the instrumental but the two put together is fantastic. One of these days when I was really stressed, it calmed me down. (not mentioning op because I don't know them at all). Thank you @goldenhusbands for helping me find it. 😍

Fearless - Louis Tomlinson

My brother's been signing Watermelon Sugar all the time and I've been singing Fearless(although much less than him). It's a thing.

Country Song - Bo Burnham

Extremely witty and very good music too. It's really funny, check it out.

Jab We Met - the soundtrack

I recommend this album to everyone. Even if you don't understand the language. There's a random Assamese sentence in one of the songs as one of the composers(?) is Assamese so that's fun.

Dancing Queen - ABBA

Heard it a while before my birthday and I've been waiting to make this stupid joke for some time

Bloom - Troye Sivan

Bottoming anthem as this cute verse himself said

Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam

It's downloaded on my mother's phone as she sang it in our complex's Durga puja once (very well might I add)

Shout out to @happyhusbands ' 5sos cover as well.

Anyone who wishes to do this, consider yourself tagged. Have a wonderful day everyone💕💕💕

[sluttymickey]

Hey hey!!! Music anon here! Omg, yes starting with your tags, I listened to that song and it’s SO Ian s7, it had me all up in my feels. Just like the rest of these songs 😭

Lost Boy/Blue Moon - Troye Sivan (Recommend listening to these back to back, it really gives me 5x12 Ian —> pre-prison Ian)

This is gonna out me as a former 1D stan but, alas:

Always You/Habit - Louis Tomlinson (It was always Mickey, Ian/ Ian is the habit Mickey can’t break)

What a Time - Julia Michaels ft. Niall Horan (just, oof)

I Won’t Mind - Zayn (Baby secret boyfriend Ian)

Matilda - Harry Styles (Not even joking, I get so fucking emotional if I think about Ian showing or singing this song to Mickey)

This one was a bit angsty so here’s one last one to make you smile:

She’s So Mean - Matchbox 20 (Mickey: “You say that again I’ll rip your tongue out of your head” Ian: 😏🥰)

Omg Music Anon HIIIIIII!!! I've missed you!!🥺

(I truly thought you got annoyed by me and left ashfgdj I'm so happy to see you back in my inbox 😭)

Putting thoughts under the cut because I have MANY

1. Lost boy:

Omg. Did you know that I was so OBSESSED with this song like, 5(?) years ago?? Not just this song, the entire Troye Sivan discography from back then. I'm gonna listen to Blue Neighbourhood on repeat now for a while. Speaking of. It is SUCH A GALLAVICH ALBUM IS IT NOT?

Wild, Bite, Fools, Heaven, for you -> early seasons boyfriends

Blue -> s5 mickey 🥺

Anyway, back to Lost Boy!!

As the smile fell from your face, I fell with it // Our faces blue // There's a heart stain on the carpet // I left it, I left it with you (Porch break up 🥺)

So go, get to runnin', won't you hurry? // While it's light out, while it's early (remember when that post was going about about deleted lines from the porch break up? And ian said something like leave before you get burnt or something like that? Yeah these lyrics remind me of that 🥺)

So what are you waiting for? // Cause someone could love you more // I'm just a lost boy, lost boy (he doesn't want Mickey waiting around for him to do his next crazy shit 😭 (sorry i don't remember the exact dialogue he said))

2. Blue Moon:

Crash and burn is all I know // I think that's why I made you go // Those three words, you were my first

Maybe you were my blue moon // maybe I let go too soon // Running from what could be // so terrified of happy // how did I come to lose // My blue moon

^^ GOD. These lines have got me FUCKED UP. That's him 🥺

3. Always You:

DID YOU KNOW I'M A FORMER 1D STAN TOO? LOUIS WAS MY FAVOURITE 😭

I'm wastin' my time when it was always you, always you // Chasin' the high, but it was always you, always you // Should've never let you go (IAN ABOUT MICKEY YEAH 😭)

4. Habit

I always said that I'd mess up eventually // I told you that, so what did you expect from me? // It shouldn't come as no surprise anymore

You're the habit that I can't break // You're the feelin' I can't put down // You're the shiver that I can't shake // You're the habit that I can't break

You give me the time and the space // I was out of control // And I'm sorry I let you down // I guess that I know what I already knew // I was better with you // And I miss you now

^^ all of these make me think of Mickey thinking about ian in juvie after calling him a warm mouth 🥺

Also, We Made It also makes me think of ian and mickey 🤕

5. What a Time:

Ngl every time i listen to this song i think about s7 gallavich 😭

I think of the night in the park, it was getting dark // And we stayed up for hours // What a time, what a time, what a time

You clinged to my body like you wanted it forever // What a time, what a time, what a time // For you and I

^ mickey in mexico thinking about the night they stargazed 🥺

I know we didn't end it like we're supposed to // And now we get a bit tense // I wonder if my mind just leaves out all the bad parts // I know we didn't make sense

I admit it that I think about it sometimes // Even though I know it's not so distant // Oh, no, I still wanna reminisce it

^^ just. Both of them missing each other after s7 😭

6. I Won't Mind:

'Cause we are who we are // When no one's watching // And right from the start // You know I got you

I won't mind // Even though I know you // You'll never be mine

It hurts my heart to think this but yeah, baby secret boyfriend ian 🥺🥺🥺

7. Matilda

Okay so I heard this song for the first time just now and. Wow. Just. [Sobs violently]

The thought of Mickey getting to hear this. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Like the entire songs, every single one of the lyrics. 😭

But especially, especially, these lines:

Matilda, you talk of the pain like it's all alright //But I know that you feel like a piece of you's dead inside // You showed me a power that is strong enough to bring sun to the darkest days

You can let it go // You can throw a party full of everyone you know // And not invite your family, 'cause they never showed you love // You don't have to be sorry for leaving and growing up

You can let it go // You can throw a party full of everyone you know // You can start a family who will always show you love // You don't have to be sorry, no

Thinking about Mickey listening to this and thinking about his family, about Mickey finding and starting a family of his home, a family that will always love him, and about him never having to be in that kind of pain again. Wow. Once again, excuse me while I- [sobs violently]

8. She's so mean:

Yes!! Mickey's rude but Ian's like 🥰 boyfriend 🥰

And the part about how he'll freak out if ian doesn't shut up and all all he wants is to hold him!! He'll never let him go so true <3