#Also I'm watching s4 of AoT

[dannyboytheevil]

did this because yall deserve to know of my past horrific actions 💜

Also I went through my mha phase and sad girl phase at the same time around like 5/6th grade (the years aren't very accurate but I can only remember things a couple of years back so why would I know) so I thought it would be easiest to use Midoriya for this lol.

[mulberrysilk]

Illicit Affairs | Z. Yeager

Zeke Yeager x f!reader

summary: an unspoken love hidden from others. An involvement with the Zeke Yeager was akin to a sweet dream. It was reckless and was bound to be tragic with what the Wonder Boy’s ambition will bring. Yet, every time, none dared to speak the three words that might change everything or nothing.

cw: canonverse. unprotected sex, hinted corruption kink, secret relationship. creampie, possessive Zeke Yeager, kinda angsty? praise, zeke calls reader good girl. Zeke is only soft to reader, okay i guess this fic is lowkey sweet but more so bittersweet

wc : 5.3k

a/n : it has been very long while and I'm mid away S4 part 2 of AOT but am now watching Bleach just cause. So here is a Zeke fic that's been sitting in my drafts for a long time with a lot of other drafts. I will also start posting some fics when I make an ao3 acc! Again, I'm sorry for being gone for a long time but I'll try to write more because I do miss it and I miss interacting with everyone here too.

Special thanks to @iwaasfairy for beta-reading this! ♥︎

That’s thing about illicit affairs  and clandestine meetings and longing stares

It’s born from just one single glance but it dies and it dies, and it dies

A million little times

“How about you?” The ravenette nodded at your direction, a gentle yet playful smile adorning her face. The sleepy and calm look in her eyes was ever present but now had a shimmer of curiosity. 

“What about me?” 

“Have you been seeing anyone?” Pieck’s grin widened, especially when you froze momentarily. All fell eyes on you now. 

You nervously laughed and played it off by pouring yourself another serving of wine. Little did you know, two pairs of eyes were curiously keen to know the answer, they stared at you with anticipation, and Pieck knew this. 

“Yeah, let me know, so I could beat him up. Give him a good scare,” Galliard smirked, clenching his fist and flexing his bicep to further his point. 

“You won’t have to scare anyone,” you interjected immediately but like being shot with an unexpected arrow to the back or as if being caught sneaking around to steal something, you tensed. The all too familiar burning stare made your skin prickle and your body shiver. Swallowing the lump in your throat and maintaining your composure, you continued. “There’s nobody.” 

To make it even more believable you offered your friends a smile.

The blond across you exhaled as if he held his breath. “If there was somebody, she would tell us. We don’t have to pry like this.” 

Pieck pursed her lips, eyes teasing and in disbelief. “Oh? Well, I’m just teasing her, Reiner.” 

You chuckled and reached to the back of your neck, your senses tingling from the knowing feeling of what it’s like to be in his presence. 

“Plus, people know better than to go after our Y/N.” Porco huffed, leaning back into the cushioned booth seat,  a strand of ashy blond hair falling from its slicked body. “We’re not letting some good for nothing idiot anywhere near her.”

“How protective of you, Pock.” Pieck mused, your ears not picking up a lot as your head buzzed with the effects of wine. “And do you think you’re not a good for nothing idiot?” 

He was here. You could feel him. As you stared into the glass, the still body of deep red reflected your face. 

“Hey, kid.” A hand gently squeezed your shoulder. The warm touch made you shudder as your teeth clenched. Don’t call me, kid. Something about that made your heart sink a little and yet his touch lingered as everyone acknowledged his appearance. 

“What’s Pieck tormenting you with this time?” He asked, voice void of sarcasm one would really think he was serious but that’s him. He says some things seriously with a humour he only understood. 

“I’m not tormenting her,” she giggled, glancing at you as Zeke causally stood behind you, not taking a seat in the booth you four were sat. “Just asking about our dear little crybaby’s love life.” 

“Oh?”

“There’s not much to tell because she claims she doesn’t have one.” 

His thumb gently drew circles on the back of your shoulder, your heart picking up at the gesture. You raised your gaze from the wine and up to him. His defined jaw and the sinews of his neck as he spoke were the first thing you gathered before moving to his lips, his cheekbones, his nose and his eyes.  You weren’t sure if it was the buzz of the wine getting to you, making you feel all soft and fuzzy but this was a face you had gazed upon many a night. Sometimes you wondered why he hid his handsome face with his golden beard. Not that you were complaining, oh no. The hair that framed his mouth and jaw added a kind of wisdom to him, it made his overall countenance even more unreadable. 

“How is she supposed to have one when you’ve got these two,” he tilted his head slightly to the direction of the two men sat across from you. “…Colt and even the kids, guarding her like a hawk?” Zeke jested. 

How indeed. 

“She could be having a secret love affair?” Pieck suggested with a sly smile, winking at your direction.

But all you could think about was how you disliked it when Zeke called you kid. 

Soft linen kissed the bare skin of your back and your head rested upon a cloud soft pillow. Your whole body tingled as if slowly being set aflame, sparks ignited with every single caress from callous yet gentle hands. The bitter taste of tobacco lingered on his pink lips that you’d never imagined to be this soft and yet there was a sweetness to them that you can’t quite place but you craved for more. 

His hands run down your sides and paused at your hips, giving them a gentle squeeze, feeling them as if checking that he was really touching you as his lips refused to leave yours. When they did he found himself wanting to kiss every part of you and he had the rest of the long night to do so. Your lips parted slightly with a soft gasp escaping when his lips, hot, kissed and suckled at the curve of your neck. Your legs shivered to close, wanting to rub against each other for some kind of friction but he was between them as he pinned you beneath him, worshipping you with every kiss and caressing you with adoration.

He felt the way your thighs tried to close, squeezing his waist gently. He couldn’t hold back the smirk that formed on his face as he continued to kiss you, bringing his knee up to your mound.

“Z-Zeke!” You had gasped, your hands gripping his shoulders squeezed him at the sudden pressure of where you began to ache.

“That’s a beautiful rendition of my name, sweetheart,” he murmured against your skin. “I’m looking forward to hearing more.” 

Zeke didn’t know what was awoken in him to even try with you. All he knew was he wanted you and that every time you had to leave after being with him and your shared friends, he’d rather go home with you than watch you go. He sought after you in ways he shouldn’t and believed he couldn’t care for. He didn’t know what exactly it was. Was it because his term with his Titan was ending? Maybe he just wanted to live a little? Let loose before he dies? He was too intoxicated by just you to even contemplate an answer, it’s even more difficult when he could feel your supple soft skin beneath his calloused tainted hands, hear your titillating breaths and feel warmth emanating from your body. 

It felt like a crime to be this close to you. To touch you. He couldn’t help but be audacious when he had seen you from across the room, seated by the bar and in  a conversation with Pieck. He had wondered what she had said to you that made you flush and bloom so prettily that the sudden idea of other parts of you being that same shade of flush crossed his mind. He could’ve stayed away. He should’ve. But when you caught him staring at you from afar and you held his gaze, he knew that something was lit aflame. 

Then it happened over and over again. Longing stares, a glint in his eye and a soft nod of your head and a smile to silently acknowledge him. Over and over til small talk became in depth conversations, til soft short touches lingered and became bolder. 

Till it all filled a chalice that was full and now was overflowing endlessly. All that so he could now feel your skin against his, your lips on his lips and be completely and utterly drunk on all of you. 

“T-take these off.” You huffed when you lied back down, annoyed with the fabrics that separated the two of you. 

“Impatient are we?” He grinned, leaning back to full height and kneeling between you. You rolled your eyes at the smug look on his face but when he discarded his blazer and his fingers worked the buttons of his shirt, you let out a deep breath. It was a shame that his clothes hid away such a toned frame, a body that was trained rigorously for years and one that harnessed a Titan. 

“You were the one who kissed me first,” you pointed out, still admiring his physique illuminated by moonlight. 

“I couldn’t hold myself back anymore.” He threw the shirt away before bringing his attention, not like he wasn’t before, back to you. There you laid on his bed, hair beautifully a mess, only in your shell satin slip,pliant and anticipating, looking up at him with those eyes of yours. He wished he could take a picture. 

“See. You’re the impatient one.” 

“Guilty as charged.” He surrendered easily to you and only you. 

Without wasting another precious moment, his lips claimed yours and he would claim it over and over again if he had to. You were sweet. Too sweet. Too much of a good thing that he shouldn’t ruin because God knows the sins he had committed. But at the end of the day, he was also a man. A temptation as promising and as beautiful as you was worth a bite. 

Zeke’s hands roamed the expanse of exposed skin, finding that he adored touching the skin of your thighs as he pushed the satin fabric higher and higher, enjoying the way your breath hitched when he caressed your inner thigh. 

“Have you ever had someone before?” He asked, grey eyes looking through long, pretty, dark golden lashes.

“Why?” You caught your lip between your teeth finding the question amusing as you hid your smirk. “Do you want me to say you’re the first?” 

His hands squeezed your thighs, his jaw tightening as he glared. “You’re teasing.” 

“Am I?” You ran your fingers through his blond hair, pushing it back to see his face. He looked agitated and antagonised, and the way he looked at you like this made you want to push his buttons more. Did it bother him if someone else did touch you? Was he a territorial kind of man? 

His thumbs dug into the flesh of your thighs. “Answer my question.” 

You kept his gaze and let your smile unfold, and he didn’t like that. But you looked so god damn beautiful, smiling down at him like that with your secrets and leaving him on the edge, wondering if you’ll indulge him with what you hid behind that confident expression.

“Why?” You weren’t letting up, your fingers untangling from his locks, his eyes followed  your hand and how it traced your collarbone then slowly down between the valley of your breasts. “You’re wondering if I’ve been touched here?” 

“Yes.” He replied, hands sliding up to grip your hips now. 

“No...and nowhere else.” 

Zeke muttered a swear and your smile remained, finding it amusing how the great Zeke Yeager, the Wonder Boy and War Chief, was acting. You’ve never seen him like this or even imagined him to be like this. 

“Good.” He spoke, moving up so that his face was levelled with yours, his frame caging you. “Because I would make sure you’ll forget whoever it  was.” 

“Didn’t know you were so possessive, War Chief.” You batted your lashes, leaning up to kiss the corner of his mouth.  “It’s a new look on you.” 

“You are a tease.” 

“A secret love affair?” Galliard scoffed as if the possibility of it was so far-fetched. He was in denial of it.

“Is that so hard to believe?” Pieck smirked knowingly at  Porco’s reaction. His annoyance was written all over his face at the thought of someone else getting to you first. “Well, is it?” 

The ravenette was met with silence and you gave your two male friends in front of you a sheepish smile. You weren’t going to say anything. You couldn’t. Not with how things were. 

Far away from peering eyes and gossiping lips, you were his. You knew that. He made sure you knew. It was hard to not remember when every time you two would meet, your skin would have evidence of your time together. His lips would kiss and brandish your skin with marks that would take days to fade and if they did, he’d make sure  to kiss and nip at you again. 

In the privacy of his apartment, he was yours in the way every woman dreamed a man could be. Dressed in his shirts that smelled like him, you’d wander the rooms, going through his collection of books and sometimes making the two of you meals. He freely doted on you and flirted, took care of you and was a different person with you. On the other hand, Zeke could watch you forever but he had never confessed that out loud. Watching you go about his home as if you lived there too, as if you and him were in a world where nothing constrained him, had glimpses of  a future cross his mind. Zeke reminded himself that they were nothing but fantasies. An impossible dream. 

You were his and he was yours, and yet at the table, or in public, you didn’t know what you two were supposed to be. 

“I’m going to call it a night.” You yawned, slowly getting up feeling your lover's hand slip down your back. His touch was gone briefly and you already missed it. What an idiotic, lovesick fool he’s made you. “We should do this again sometime.” 

“Definitely.” Reiner smiled your way and you returned it, unaware of how his expression softened to quiet adoration but a pair of steel grey eyes knew that look too well. 

“I’ll walk the lady home.” Zeke casually announced, not raising any alarms in anyone’s heads. Meanwhile, your heart skipped when he had said that. 

“Sure you won’t stay? You haven’t even sat down to drink?” Galliard asked, hoping he could take over the duty of walking you home. 

“Just saw you all from the window and decided to drop by. Can’t drink tonight, I have a meeting with the top brass tomorrow morning.” Zeke declined courteously, the younger warriors nodding in acknowledgement.

“There’s always next time.” Pieck chirped, not thinking much of how the blond helped you with your coat. Everyone knew how Zeke took care of you. It’s always been like that ever since you all were young. 

“Next round is on me.” He placed a couple of bills on the table, Porco cheering at the treat as you waved at them and excused yourself for the night, Zeke following you three steps behind.

The streets were empty at this hour, dim yellow lights lit the road with white blankets of fallen snow on the ground and that same white was sprinkled on the rooftops. You could feel his gaze on your back and smell the thick scent of tobacco from the cigarette between his lips. You wished he was closer but you didn’t ask for too much with all the unanswered questions of your relationship with him.

“Where’s your scarf?” He asked.

“Oh, I must’ve—,” 

He draped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you close, the intimacy and the sudden closeness catching you off guard. “You’re going to catch a cold if you keep forgetting.” 

“Mhm.” You nodded. That was all you could manage from your shock and fluster. He didn’t pull away after passing four street lamps, he continued to walk by your side as if he should be and as if this was an everyday occurrence, but to you it was so much more. You wished your heart could stop beating so fast so you could really cherish the moment.

“Yours or mine?” He asked when the two of you reached the cross section, his arm still pulling you close to his side, his warmth keeping you from shivering from the cold. 

“I thought you had a meeting with the top brass tomorrow…I don’t want to keep you up.” 

“Mhm, but you will.” He responded with a playful sing song voice all you could was shake your head and softly laugh. 

Your place wasn’t much compared to what he has as Marley’s Wonder Boy and War Chief, and yet when you least expected it he’d drop by, saying he was just passing and then you let him in for coffee or tea which always led to you and him tangled in the sheets. The same goes for his place, except there it felt more like home to you. Somewhere completely safe and guarded. 

“Yours.” You answered, leaning your head against him and he gently squeezed you tightly as a response before turning left, to the direction of his home. 

In the dim hallway, the keys rattled against each other as he unlocked the door, his half embrace around you gone for the time being. You rocked yourself on the balls and heels of your feet watching with butterflies in your tummy as he opened the door. Like a gentleman, he held it open and gestured for you to head in first. 

You shook your head, smiled, and stepped in. You looked around the apartment, very minimalist as always but homey in its own way. You removed your coat and folded it neatly to hang on the armchair. Plain white curtains, sand coloured sofa with matching cushions, a coffee table with books stacked on its surface as well as several folded newspapers from the days before and a crystal ashtray that had been your gift to him. 

The door clicked shut  and locked behind you, you exhaled feeling the comfort of his home wash over you. You turned to him. 

“Should I make coffee for the both—

You didn’t finish your offer as his lips on yours stopped you from doing so. His hands held your waist and pulled you against him. 

“No coffee, just you.” He managed to say in between kisses, his hands sliding down to the curve of your ass and even lower, a signal you knew all too well. You did as he asked, bouncing once so he could support you in wrapping your legs around his waist.  “Good girl.” He hummed with praise, before clashing his lips against yours again, easily carrying you to the direction of his bedroom. 

God, you loved hearing every praise that poured from those lips of his. 

Clothes came off quickly and were discarded along the way. His hands roamed the expanse of your body, caressing every curve and every spot that he had memorised would make you shiver in the sweet way you do. He knew your body and soul, and you’d be lying to yourself if you said you didn’t love him. It was hard not to, especially when you’re lying on your back, breathless from hot kisses and heavy petting, on the edge of anticipation, caged beneath his frame with his handsome face hovering inches away from yours. He’d always, even in the heat of every passionate moment, have a little pause as if just to look at you, to savour the moment. It never failed to make you blush. To be subject to his intense gaze laced with desire and something that you could not read. 

Why did it have to be Zeke Yeager? 

Little did you know, in his head, every time he gazed upon your flushed and glistening face, he wondered about how you could’ve been with Galliard or Reiner, any other man you wanted. The thought of anyone else looking upon you and touching you like this made his chest sizzle with green jealousy. He wanted you to be his and in this moment, when you’re lying beneath him, plush lips parted and waiting for more, he’s reminded that you were his. 

Zeke hissed softly, torn from his epiphany when he felt the softness of your fingers wrap around his length, gliding up and down gently. You lined his cock to your entrance, the man before you amused by your impatience. He could feel the dampness leaking from you on his hot tip and it took everything in him to not grab your hips and fuck you then and there. 

“Z-Zeke…” you whine, pouting up at him. “P-please?” 

“How badly do you need me?” He asked, sliding his length beneath your folds, a breathy moan leaving you as it brushed against your clit. 

“B-bad.” You managed to say, your hands resting on his back. “Please.” Your lips trembled with want, Zeke unable to maintain his composure. “I want you. Need to feel you.” You began to rock your hips against his length, trying to get some sort of relief from the searing ache he had caused. God, he loved it when you were like this. 

Obliging to your cute sweet begging, he entered you painfully and deliciously slow. The heat of your walls wrapped snugly around him, fluttering and tightening at the intrusion, making him groan softly against your forehead while you moaned at the sensation of being finally filled. Each and every time, the beginning was a spreading warmth of euphoria.

Zeke’s teeth gritted against each other and he swore as he bottomed out, remaining still to just feel you. His pelvis pressed against yours, soft moans fell from your lips at the sensation of him inside of you as if all your secret trysts hadn’t made you used to him. How were you able to make him feel like this? So desperate, hot and bothered, and insatiable for your touch and attention. A rough hand gripped your hip, while the other steadied him to prevent him from crushing you with his frame. 

“You gotta let me know if I can move, sweetheart.” There was a hint of tease in his voice but he needed your green light as always. The last thing he wanted was to hurt you. Your arms tugged him close, allowing you that comfort. He listened as you took a shaky breath, your hips wiggling to have a feel. A moan left you as you did, giving him the answer he needed. “I swear,” he muttered, his hands assisting your legs to wrap around his waist. “You’re gonna be the death of me.” He wished that could be true. 

Your heart skipped a beat at his words but that sweetness was overtaken with hot passionate need, when he rolled his hips, cock smoothly sliding between your walls. Your back arched into him, breasts pressing against his chest as you moaned and shuddered at the sensation. God, you needed more. 

“Good girl.” He kissed your cheek, thrusting and began to set a steady pace, all restraint leaving him with the way you tightened around him with the praise as his name fell so sweetly over and over from your lips.  

Shared soft moans and the sound of skin slapping against skin filled the room. The city outside was silent and the heat of your bodies fought off the cold bite of the winter breeze. Your nails sunk themselves in the skin of his back, the throbbing pleasure within your walls toe curling good. Zeke rather adored the marks your cute little claws would leave, he would always glance at them in the mirror post-sex when he has a chance before his regeneration makes it fade. 

If you had any sort of shame within you, you’d be embarrassed at how you panted and moaned for him. Your desire for him was painfully obvious. His hips rhythmically colliding against yours emitted obscene wet squelching, your cunt greedily welcoming his thick length as you felt every inch of him against your plush walls.

“You’re only this wet for me aren’t you?” He teased, his hand on your hip assisting your left leg to hook around his hips, allowing him to angle himself in the way that you liked that all you could do to respond to him was whine. “That’s it. Good girl.” The praise fell so enticingly smooth from his lips, his pace steady but fast. 

Pleasure bloomed through you, the tightening feeling in your core cooling tighter and tighter, close to snapping. The heat, his skin, his voice, everything. You wanted it. You wanted to be his forever. You wantonly begged for more, your nails carving crescent dents into his back as he rolled his hips over and over with burning lust. This was the closest you’ll ever be with him. The closest he’s going to allow you to be with him. 

“Fuck, I’m close.” Zeke grunted, hips not faltering from its pace and hands gripping your hips tighter. The blond chased his high, slamming his pelvis against yours, driving his cock into your plush pulsating walls and watching how you stared up at him with those lustful heavy lidded eyes. “You’re close too huh?” The sound of his voice made your walls tighten around him, Zeke groaning at the feeling. “Tell me what you want, sweetheart.” 

“You. Want you…make me come please.” You whined, brought closer to the edge when you felt one his hands leave your hip to splay itself over your lower belly, palm pressing against your skin and his thumb against your clit. You moaned out his name, your hips bucking at the added stimulation.

You didn’t have to tell Zeke twice. You were so good. So obedient. So sweet. So cute even like this, moaning and whining with pleasure, your breasts bouncing with every thrust and  the lips of your pussy split by his cock, walls hugging him so snugly. He can never get tired of this, of you. 

Zeke’s pace stuttered. Your walls squeezed him tighter and tighter, so close to your climax. Your voice was getting higher and louder too. His name fell from your lips like chants from a devoted worshipper begging their God to grant them their wishes. It boosted his ego as if it wasn’t already big enough, and he continued to rub circles on your clit, watching your lips part in a silent scream, your eyes shutting as you succumbed to your climax. 

No. He wanted you to look at him. 

The hand that remained on your hip, wrapped around your throat, your eyes fluttering open. Your brows furrowed as you huffed and panted, you looked up at him as if to ask what he was doing. His darkened unwavering gaze told you exactly what he wanted and your shoulders dropped, relaxing as the piling build up of your orgasm doubled. Zeke gently squeezed your pretty neck, surprised to feel your walls tighten around him. Did you like that? “C’mon, just keep looking at me, sweetheart. Let me see you.”

Your head was spinning from pleasure, your thoughts being nothing but how good his hot length moved inside of you and how you were tingling intensely with pleasure. The circular pattern when he massaged your clit quickened and the next thrust he gave kissed your g-spot so suddenly, the tightening coil within you snapped. 

Zeke groaned at the wetness that coated his cock as your walls spasmed around him, sucking him in he could only shallowly thrust, your legs wrapped tightly around him. He was so close, so damn close and  there it was. That drunken lustful look that haunted his dreams and appeared in every impure fantasy. His fingers left your throat, opting to cradle your face as he managed a couple more thrusts before completely forgetting himself, already lost the moment his skin kissed yours. 

You sucked in a deep breath, never breaking from his gaze and watching his eyes shut in bliss. His blond hair glistened in the dim room, strands stuck to his forehead gleaming with perspiration and his soft lips were parted ever so slightly, his face just completely relaxed and rapturous. You were so caught up in your own haze that you didn’t fully register the unfamiliar warmth that bloomed in your insides. 

Zeke doesn’t separate his hips from yours, he instead wrapped his arms around you, wanting to pepper your chest with kisses before nestling his forehead into the curve of your neck, still in his high. You wrap your own arms around him, your hand caressing the back of his head, running your fingers through his golden locks, just relishing this closeness. Your heart was in your throat, torn from saying the three words you don’t dare to say but would die to hear from him. 

The two of you stayed like that for awhile, your body already felt the fatigue catch up. As you slowly drifted to sleep, you could still feel Zeke lazily kiss along your neck. You fell asleep easily, remembering the sensation of his lips on each eyelid and him softly saying that he’ll take care of you before you fully passed out. 

Only then did Zeke slowly untangle himself from you, pausing when he realised his cock was still buried inside of you. “Fuck.” He cursed under his breath, pushing his hair back as he scolded himself for his mistake. It was careless of him. He couldn’t believe he lost  control like that.   Not letting himself lose composure and not wanting to wake you, not with how peacefully you slept, he slowly pulled out. His mind was blank as he stared bewildered at a sight that should’ve felt like a sharp slap  in the face, instead he felt hot to his core. Between your puffy lips, milky white leaked from your hole and unto the bed. He should be ashamed of himself… not like this. Gently with his thumb, he split your folds apart just watching as whatever of his seed overflowed from your full womb. God, why was that thought driving him mad? He could feel himself getting hard again at the sight. He had always, always, pulled out…finished on your skin, either your back, your ass, your tits, your stomach, your face. Never inside. It was against his creed. But fuck, he wanted to do it again. 

“Mhm…” you hummed in your sleep, shifting a little, fingers sleepily feeling the bed for the duvet. 

Zeke was snapped out of his trance, his eyes moved to your face, seeing you still in peace. The post sex glow lit your features and he’s reminded to go grab a towel and clean you up. Knelt again before you, he softly swiped the cloth along your inner thighs, his eyes drifting to your pussy stained with his cum. He should clean that up first.  

He didn’t know if he should apologise. He probably should. What he did was beyond careless. It was irresponsible. It’s against everything he fought for…and yet, that image of a happy family flashed his mind again. You, him and a babe in this apartment. He hasn’t got long so he shouldn’t even think about it. He should never think about it. 

“Zeke…” you murmured his name, eyes still shut, your hand heavily sliding itself on his side of the bed, brows furrowing ever so slightly at the emptiness. 

“I’m here, sweetheart.” He answered softly, resuming to clean up the mess he made. 

“Come…sleep…” 

“I’ll have a smoke first.” He gently dabbed the towel on your sensitive core, successfully having fought the curious urge to shove his cum back into your cunt with his fingers. What were you doing to him? 

“Okay…” your voice grew softer, turning to your side. Zeke covered your naked body with the duvet so that he's not tempted…

Out in the balcony with his trousers hanging low on his hips,  he inhaled deeply the fumes of the cigarette, finding comfort in the small little stick. What was he doing? He turned his thoughts over and over like pages in a book in search of pieces that would fit together to give him a solid conclusion.

In that ten minute smoke session he knew one thing for sure.

He was screwed.

[tonycries]

Rank aot characters from smash to dash GO GO GO (with reasoning bc ur saur funny)

YES PUH-LEASEEEE so from I'd-leave-my-husband-for-them to they-stay-a-sidepiece:

EREN - GIRL I WOULD TAKE HIM IN HIS HOBO FIT, I WOULD TAKE HIM IN HIS CABIN FIT, I WOULD TAKE HIM IN HIS TITAN FIT- anything and everything. I love this man so much that even typing out his mf NAME makes me giggle and blush like Tony get it TOGETHER 😩 Did I tell y'all that I actually watched the entirety of AOT SOLELY because the newly-released S4 trailer had that one mirror scene with long-haired Eren...when I tell you I would F-

Armin - idk man I just really wanna make him cry 😔 it's this toxic part of me that wants to p*g the pretty boy I mean WHATTTT WHO SAID THAT 💀

Levi - hehehe spinspin but also watching that Kenny and Levi chase scene was some sort of awakening for 15-year-old-me.../gen.

Mikasa - y'all have NO idea how many dudebros I fought for calling her ugly in Season 4 😭 Bridges were burnt, alliances were made, and throughout it all Mikasa always FTW 😭

Jean - I'd show y'all why they REALLY call him horseface 😈 Honestly I wasn't even into him like THAT but it's wonderous what a good AO3 fic can do to you 😈

Hange - don't even talk to me about Hange because I WILL live up to my username...

The others (yes, even Erwin and Reiner) - ERWIN AND REINER GIRLIES I'M SAUR SORRY...I JUST DON'T SEE IT. LIKE AT ALL. Maybe they're too refined for my tastes because I like 'em with a lil' more ruin-my-life vibes, ykwim? And others like Connie and Sasha I'd smash but platonically 🤔

Floch - again another one I want to make cry but with more vengence.

Zeke - he looks like he doesn't wash his beard.

[sweetsummercourier]

Hii,

Can you talk about what inspired you to create your AOT characters and why you picked Eren and Reiner for their partners? Do they have any pet peeves when it comes to their partners?

Have a great day!

Hello! I got so excited for my first ask I made little character banners for my ocs ^^ please note: I have updated Saoirse's surname

Saoirse was my very first OC in the AOT fandom when I watched it at 13 years old. Granted, I wanted to watch Claymore on Netflix, but it wasn't on Netflix and AOT was recommended as a close second so I watched it and well I just fell in love.

Now, if you asked 13 year old me about Saoirse, you would've gotten the most Mary Sue, most power broken OC ever because well, 13 year old me was in no way shape or form good at making characters.

I know in the beginning I was inspired by the Titan Shifters to make an OC, as others were doing the same. However now that I'm older and have had the time to breathe new life in Saoirse, I can say my inspiration for her was to simply make her better.

Why Eren - 13 year old me loved the angry crackhead a lot. As a youngster, all I cared about was the MC and I was hooked lol. But as an adult and having rewatched the series, that love for Eren is still there, but now that I have the power of critical thinking, I see him in a different light that I can appreciate. I'm very excited to explore their dynamic now.

Pet Peeves - Saoirse doesn't necessarily have pet peeves with him, but early on she was definitely annoyed by some things he did when they were younger. She was definitely irritated as all hell by his speeches of freedom, defeating all the titans, so on so forth. It was a sort of "okay we get it" after some time, and his loud volume for the longest time genuinely pissed her off.

Come S4, oh, what she wouldn't do to have him back...

Ghislaine is relatively new! I got Attack on Titan 2: Final Battle for the Switch like 2 years ago, and I originally played as Saoirse (as expected), but I wanted something new. So, Ghislaine was born!

At first I had no idea what to do with her, and only in the last few months did I actually start to craft her. One thing that definitely inspired me was I wanted someone who was the opposite of Saoirse. and I was inspired by the Christa/Historia thing as well.

Ghislaine is a warm and kind individual, but is equally cold, calculated, and ruthless - if not more so.

Why Reiner? - after rewatching and completing the series, I focused on the characters other than Eren, and again, gained a new appreciation for each and every character (again, critical thinking skills).

I came to deeply appreciate Reiner and his development, and I feel deeply in love with him. I think also as someone who struggles with mental illness, I was able to relate with him and find comfort in his character. I figured he would be the perfect match for Ghislaine, especially considering she is half-blooded too.

Little fun fact, Ghislaine and Reiner are a couple in all but name come season 4. Everyone knows it, but they're just not saying anything.

Pet Peeves - like Saoirse, none necessarily. If anything, the rapid deterioration of Reiner's mental and emotional state greatly concerns her. At first she sees it as a burden considering the gravity of their mission, but during the time skip into season 4, she completely changes her tune and becomes both like a caretaker and partner to him.

Thank you for the ask!! I hope I answered your questions ^^

[bluesylveon2]

AOT Season 4 The Final Chapters Thoughts:

Crunchyroll won't let me screenshot so I will write out my thoughts instead:

I like how this part of Season 4 is Armin-centric. The first part was dedicated to Eren and then the second part was dedicated to Mikasa

Yall I lowkey forgot Armin gets kidnapped by the okapi titan

The cgi continues to improve for aot. However, you can tell MAPPA's budget went to jjk because of the amount of fanservice they are giving 😂

The Survey Corps vs past titans shifters fight was so good!!! I liked watching it more than reading it because you could see what happens in the action. Also the scene with Pieck running toward the Warhammer titan was hilarious

I like the detail of the gray people and the colored baby. The baby represents the future and it being colored represents the hope of getting through the Rumbling. I like how everything became colored once the titans stopped moving.

Levi finally killing Zeke was satisfying. Now Zeke can be reborn as Toji in jjk because we know stuff is going down there too lol

Can I just say that I love the aruani scenes? Like Annie immediately asks where's Armin but tries to play it off and Mikasa was not buying it! Then there was the other part where Annie saves Armin and AHHHH I loved it!! Her dad better be impressed if Annie got with Armin cause he is so cool

Okay that hallucigenia thing needed to go. We don't even know where it went after Eren died. We assume it died with him because everyone turned back to normal. Also, I guess every titan had a piece of hallucigenia in them, specifically in their spine that connects their CNS and their PNS. It turning others into titans was it's way to "multiply" and keep it alive

The eremika kiss was not as creepy as I remember in the manga. The lighting helped it a lot. I remember reading that part and questioning what was Isayama thinking when he wrote that

I like to think of Eren as Lelouch from Code Geass, except Lelouch lived to see the effects of what he did. Eren had no choice but to die after wiping out 80% of humanity.

On that thought, there was one part where Armin was like "we can't have conflict if we destroy the outside world." Well, we already saw at the beginning of S4 that is not the case. There will always be conflict in the world. We even see it today. Sure, Eren could have killed everyone, but you still have conflict within Paradis. We saw it already with the Jaegerists. Eren helped his friends have a peaceful life but that would end eventually once they passed.

I sobbed at the part with everyone reuniting. It was sweet in the manga, it was sweet now

Historia's daughter is so cute!!!!

I like the ending even if it is slightly different from the manga. Of course you get the 104 + Pieck coming to Paradis (Jean looking great as always lol), Mikasa seeing birb Eren, Onyakopon and Yelena (finally) helping out, Levi with the kids, and Falco/Gabi planting a tree to signify new beginnings

Now...my only complaint about this episode was the credits. WHY DID THEY MAKE IT SMALL??? i WANTED TO KNOW WHO MIKASA MARRIED!!!! I liked the detail with the other kid tho. The boy sees the tree with a hole and walks in. I think this is Isayama's way of showing that titans can return and Eren would be the new Ymir. I'm not too certain, but it would suck for Eren because he would not be free. Maybe the kid could be the new Ymir? Who knows? My question would be how would titans survive modern day. Obviously they would evolve, but can they survive modern technology. We may not use swords much anymore but there is nuclear technology.

(Edit: it is possible Mikasa married Jean based on what we see in the anime/manga. I feel like that's not a good ending for either one of them because a) Mikasa's heart belongs to Eren. It's like Rose from the Titanic. Basically, Mikasa won't love Jean or whoever she married fully. b) Jean seems to be busy conducting the peace talks with the others. Idk if he would have time for Mikasa unless they were both cool with it. c) I think it's just not a good ending for either of them. I felt bad for Mikasa throughout the whole episode and that as her ending is...idk...I would feel even bad for her)

I know Isayama is done with the series but i have questions I want answered!!! 😭 Still, I got into this fandom back in 2013 and it has been a good 10 years. I met a lot of great people from the fandom who I still talk to today. Aot is my favorite anime and I plan on rewatching the anime or buy the manga in the future. Now it is time for me to go to the next fandom aka twst lol

[s4m-1s-l0st]

Currently binging AOT, here are my thoughts. (will come back after I've finished the whole thing) (currently on season 4, 1st part)

OBVIOUSLY SPOILERS UP UNTIL S 4 UNDER THE CUT

So, first if all, I find Erens character arc really interesting, as s4 tackles him as the villain. But, it is very difficult for me, The Viewer to accept it, because we might view his actions as somewhat justifiable because we've been following him since the fall of Shiganshina. Season 4 I also a very interesting commentary on propaganda and how it affects children who've been indoctrinated to it all their life (exempli gratias Gabi). And whether their actions are right, if there even is such thing as right and wrong in this scenario. Even Erens face clearly communicates that he's changed. Previously, we could see a burning passion in his eyes, as he had the goal to "Kill them all", referring to titans. But that was before he found out that the titans are of the Eldian race, who were turned against their will, and that they only eat people in hope that they might become human again (which is very fkn sad). But now, his face is just Stoic, apathetic even. He doesn't know what to do anymore, and his whole life turned out to be a lie. He now understands that the outside world has been viewing the people inside the walls just like he viewed the titans: Hellspawns.

Also I have a prediction on how it is going to end, as I was talking to one of my friends and they told me a bit about the ending, more specifically, that it's meant to feel quote unquote "unfinished" and how it s about the cycle continuing. Now, I think that it will end with Gabi turning Titan and eating Eren? And maybe Falco turning Titan and eating Armin? My reason for this theory is because the story and the way it's presented with all the scenes is clearly showing us that Gabi and Eren are mirror-images of eachother, each person had their own goals that are similar, but also polar-opposites. Falco and Armin aswell, since their only part of this because of their friend. Idk man, just a theory. A GAME THEO-

I have so much more, but I'm tired of typing and I want to continue watching, let me know your thoughts!

P. S I might return to this after I've finished the whole show.

P. P. S Ignore any mistakes in grammar, can't be bothered to proofread xD

[levisforgottentea]

Parents ;

an: it was late alright and i thought about Levi that most likely care about Eren. LEVI DAD HEADCANNON. OKAY. I BELIEVE IN IT SO YOU HAVE TO TOO. anyways we stan gay parents Levi. 

BUT ALSO IT’S KINDA OOC FOR LEVI? It came to me in a dream... or maybe i just cried and watched sad aot content after that s4 part 3 part 1 ep..... UGH

Words: 1500

Hurt, slight angst, fluff, arguments

Levi was furious. The plan to send Eren to Marley was ruined, all because the boy couldn't leave on time. He slammed his hands on Commander (name)'s desk, glaring up at the taller man.

"Just admit you care about the boy! For heaven's sake, you're a mess. Look at yourself!" (name) shouted, standing up to look down at Levi. Levi scoffed. "I don't care about that brat. He's useless if he can't even follow orders."

"Don't lie! I see the way you look at him. You care about Eren just as much as the rest of us!" Their argument echoed through the hallway.

Not even a minute later, Eren stumbled through the door, sobbing. Both Levi and (name)'s hearts broke at the sight of the boy in tears. Maybe (name) was right.

Maybe Levi did care more than he let on. But he would never admit that out loud. Levi sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Just give the poor boy a few more days. We'll figure something out." (name) smiled, knowing he had won this argument. "I knew you'd come around." Levi just scoffed again. Eren's sobs quieted into sniffles as (name) patted his back and whispered things to reassure him that he was alright.

The next few days were tense. Eren did his best to avoid Levi and (name), ashamed at causing trouble.

But Levi began to notice little things about the boy he hadn't before. The way Eren's eyes lit up when he talked about the outside world. How he always made sure his friends had enough to eat before taking anything for himself. The determined look on his face as he trained, pushing himself past his limits.

Maybe (name) was right. Maybe Levi did care for Eren, though he hated to admit it. He had practically raised the boy, after all. It was only natural that he'd grown attached.

When the day came for Eren to leave for Marley, Levi found himself hesitating. He wanted to call off the mission, to keep Eren close and safe. But he knew he couldn't. Eren had a duty to fulfill.

As Eren said his goodbyes, Levi pulled him into a stiff hug. "Be careful, brat," he muttered. Then, even quieter, "Come back home." Eren's eyes widened, but he smiled and hugged Levi tighter. "I will. Thank you, Captain Levi." Levi just sighed, ruffling Eren's hair.

He watched as the boy rode off into the distance, praying this wouldn't be the last time he saw those determined green eyes. Maybe he did care more than he wanted to admit, but Eren had become like family.

That night, Levi was unable to rest. His mind raced with anxious thoughts about Eren - was he unharmed? Would he come back home? Levi tossed and turned for what seemed like hours on end until the painful uncertainty became too much to bear.

He dragged himself up the stairs to (name)'s office, tears flowing down his cheeks. He pounded on the door, gasping for air as panic and anguish overwhelmed him.

(name) opened the door and Levi collapsed into his arms, sobbing uncontrollably. His cries echoed through the halls as (name) held him close, gently stroking his hair and whispering soothing words of comfort.

"I'm scared.." Levi choked out between sobs. (name) lifted Levi's chin, wiping the tears from his eyes with his thumb.

"Eren will come back to us. He always does."

(Name) placed a kiss on Levi's forehead, holding him as Levi's heartbreaking sobs turned to small whimpers and the tears had run dry. Levi clung to (name) as if his life depended on it, terrified that if he were to let go the unusual feelings might engulf him completely.

"You will be alright, my love. Eren will return home to us. He has a place here." (name) rested his forehead against Levi's, their breaths mingling together.

Levi took a shuddering breath, steadying himself. (name) was right. (Name) was always right. Eren always returned.

Levi gazed up at (name), eyes red but with determination flickering in their depths. "Thank you," he whispered. (name) simply smiled, pulling Levi close again. They would endure this hardship together, as they always had.

Eren had come back from Marley, without anyone knowing. it was just past midnight and he quietly snuck up the stairs to the top floor of the building to go to (name)'s office.

There he stood, faceing the golden plate 'commander (name)' it stood. He knocked gently on the door. He didn't even think (name) heard it. He felt himself hold back sobs, biting his lip almost to the point of bleeding. Oh how he missed you two and the others.

The door opened and revealed his commander, rubbing his eyes and clearing his throat. (name) realized who stood before him and he quickly wrapped two secure arms around him, Eren finally let the sobs he held out. He cried for what seemed like hours into his shirt, in reality it was just about 2 minutes.

(Name) pulled away and sat the both down on the couch, putting reassuring hand on his shoulder, Levi came bursting through the door as he heard commotion from (name)'s office.

Levi got his words caught in his throat at the sight of the boy he missed so dearly. Not enough with that but he was dirty too, mud and blood most likely his own, had stained his clothing.

"Come on, let's get you cleaned up. You look like hell." Eren laughed, the sound light and airy. "Still as nice as ever, Captain."

Levi rolled his eyes, though the fondness in his gaze betrayed him. He guided Eren to the bathroom, wetting a washcloth to wipe the blood and grime from his skin.

Eren winced as Levi dabbed at a cut on his cheek, hissing in pain. (name) leaned against the doorframe while crossing his arms.

"I'll have to properly bandage that." He rummaged through the cabinets, finding a roll of bandages and something to sanitize the wound with.

Eren watched Levi work, a soft smile on his face. "I'm fine, really."

"You're injured. And if you don't clean it you're gonna get an infection..." Levi carefully cleaned Eren's cuts and scrapes before wrapping the bandage around his head. "There. Is that alright?" Eren nodded, gently touching the bandage. "Thank you, captain."

Levi cleared his throat awkwardly. "You're welcome. Now let's get you to bed."

Name followed silently, watching his usually cold and mean boyfriend silently take care of eren. Together they sat on the edge of his bed.

Eren felt tears well in his eyes and (name) put the covers tight around him and gently wiped away a slipping tear, shushing him as he tried to speak. Levi sat in silence looking at the boy.

"I just wanted to say... Thank you for kind of being my parents, You have always protected me and helped me. I didn't realize how grateful i were before i left for marley. Sorry for being such a dumbass and always causing trouble all the time..." Eren coughed as his throat had run dry.

"Don't say sorry" Levi blankly said. (name) got up "I'll go get some water Eren".

"Get some rest," Levi ordered, though his tone was softer than usual. Levi followed (name) tightly. While the two were walking down the hallway they met Hanji.

"Hey so. I heard Eren? Is he back? already?" Erwin came from behing Hanji.

"Eren's back?" he blinked in confusion and surprise. (Name) broke into the conversation before thay could say anything else.

"He is but don't tell anyone, he needs rest and a few days to get used to HQ again." (Name) huffed as he hurried off to get that promised water for Eren.

Levi and (name) quietly returned to the room with a cup of water for him.

"Here you go Eren" (name) whispered as he placed the cup on his nightstand, he leaned down and kissed his forehead softly before turning off the lights and just as he was about to close the door, Eren whispered "Thank you.. dad." as he dozed off into a good nights sleep.

Eren slept peacefully that night. No titans or nightmares. He was home, and he was safe. Levi and (name) were there to care for him, just as they always had been. He smiled as he slept, comforted by the knowledge that he was loved.

-Meanwhile-

(Name) looked at Levi amused. "Wow didn't know you could ever be this soft with titanboy. I'm surprised you finally admitted that you care about him"

"Shut up before i roundkick your asshole up your nose" Levi spat back at (name) as he drank his tea.

"Aye aye captain" (name) got back to his paperwork with a smile on his face, feeling like he found what hes been looking for his entire life.

"Thank you..dad." Eren's words warmed (name)'s heart and he couldn't stop repeating them in his head.

[a-iya]

Hii! (ﾉ･∀･)ﾉ

I've been itching to ask you this question for a while now lmaoo. SO

What are your favorite My Hero Academia openings/endings?? 🙈

Asking what your favorite anime songs are seems too difficult, so for now I'll just stick to MHA :')

Have a nice day! ♡

Aww hiii!! <3 Not gonna lie, it's not something I ever really thought about so I had to look all the songs up and listen to them again LMAO. Funny enough, I'm not super into the music style of anime themes because my ears grew up being trained on American pop music, and the melodies/general flow of a lot of anime soundtracks don't quite match the ones I like/I'm used to hearing. When I watch an anime, I'll listen any new opening/ending song once and if I don't like it, I just skip over it whenever it comes on (happens more often than not) 🙂‍↔️

It's quite rare that I enjoy >80% of an anime theme and I'm actually really picky about the ones I save into my library. Thus, I don't have that many (my weeb playlist is only 2 hours long! I know a lot of people who have at least 10 hours of anime shit in their playlists lol). A lot of the songs in my playlist are actually not openings or endings, but random soundtracks within the shows (e.g. character themes like in Demon Slayer, or MHA has a lot of random repeated songs for different kinds of scenes. And how could I forget AOT [Hiroyuki Sawano the goat]). Yeah so no OP/EDs in my library normally (for MHA at least), BUT sometimes I'll add some of the instrumentals of the songs, (i.e. no voices) because I felt like the singing ruined a good composition lmao jjk S2 OP 1 and S2 ED 2 idk I think I'm in the minority when I say that for music, sound is more important to me than lyrics

Anyway sorry for the backstory that you entirely did not ask for. Without further ado, my top picks (musically, because I will watch some openings/endings solely for the vibes, not because I like the song lmao):

OPENINGS

Merry-Go-Round (S5 OP 2): the only opening I have saved in my library. I mostly try to ignore the cringe English but I enjoy this song the most out of all the other ones (I have a few other Man With A Mission songs as well)! The part in the actual theme in the show where All Might's bright aura fades into Endeavor's dark one is such a chilling contrast ugh.,.,,. I ate that shit up

Star Marker (S4 OP 2): I didn't save this one but it's so happy I love!! And the focus on my fav girl Jiro <3 you can't listen to this song and not be in a good mood tbh

Polaris (S4 OP 1): not saved, but I would actually watch through this theme sometimes (not skip!) when watching S4. I like most of it except the end though oops

Odd Future (S3 OP 1): also not saved, but I don't dislike it and I could see myself listening to it without actively wanting the song to be over lmao. somehow the autotune works

Curtain Call (S7 OP 2): the most recent one. not good enough to be saved in my library but I don't hate it like I hated most of S6's and the first part of S7's OP/EDs lmao

ENDINGS

Dakara, Hitori ja Nai (S2 ED 1): I think the translation of this is something like "you're not alone" or something, which 🥺. Anyway, the most sonically pleasing song in the entire MHA production okay I don't make the rules. The harmonies are beautiful!! And the fact that this ending was focused on the girlie pops I was like yes yes yessss queens all around slayyyy

Rokutousei (S7 ED 2): translation - "6" something..,., the most recent one!! I was so surprised when I first listened, I was suspicious of how much I was liking it and I was low key waiting for a part of the song where the melody doesn't go the way I expect and I end up hating it (S5 ED 2) but it never happened. I never skip this one when watching the show. It's a beautiful song in the way that it's like slightly melancholic but also hopeful at the same time? Even without understanding the lyrics those are the vibes I get when I listen (and see the visuals, maybe that's where I'm getting this from lmao). It honestly puts me on the verge of tears sometimes. Especially the ending where they showed Shoto/Toya!! instead of the normal Deku/Shigaraki. Anyway I have the full song saved in my library and it was even on repeat a couple weeks ago! Ochaco on the album cover is so cute

Shout Baby (S4 ED 2): also super happy and catchy and bright. And everyone's bb pics!! 🥺 I would almost never skip this theme.

Uso ja Nai (S5 ED 2): translation - "not a lie"? honorable mention cause I enjoyed the first 30ish secs of the song with the piano before it falls off (basically just the first verse) and I love bb hawks

Sketch (S6 ED 1): again, also not saved, but I don't dislike it and I could see myself listening to it without actively wanting the song to be over lmao

Somewhat unrelated but in doing some of my research for this ask, I found out that Sayuri, the singer who did the ending of S4 (the one that was focused on Eri), passed away last month at 28 years old :( rip. Her song was the only one from S4 that didn't make it on this list cause I didn't love it, but she was so young. at least her legacy lives on through her music.

Thank you for this ask!! I had fun listening to all the themes again and it was interesting to actually think about some of these songs and what I like/didn't like about them. I probably have to save a few to my library as well. Do we have any favs in common? 🥺 Correct me if I'm wrong but I feel like I remember you being more of a punk-rock kinda girlie so I'm suspecting there might not be a lot of overlap lmao

[leyyvi]

Do you have a least favorite (or one you simply don’t like) character from aot?

this is hard bc after the finale theres not a character i necessarily dont like anymore lol. i guess my least faves were zeke (he will never be redeemed to me he killed my wife's husband okay :/// also ill never forgive what he did to miche!!!) i didn't like armin much either on my first watch but then over time he's grown on me especially after the finale :( his mental breakdown in the finale was just...so raw and real and related so much oh man.

and honestly i never liked eren too much (he just yells a lot in s1-3 LOL and my faves are all the quiet stoic types so) but then s4 happened and well listen. he was hot ok. im not immune to s4 manbun eren :/ (also he was loud but s1-3 eren is very cute he's precious i'm so very conflicted with him)

also didn't like reiner because of his interactions with historia it just felt offputting/bordering on creepy and weird sometimes and i never found it funny lol and i dont think we got enough time with porco for me care about him much.

DESPITE THAT i wouldnt say i hate any of them?? they have qualities i like and dont like that's it really. oh i guess i hate floch but i feel like that's a given LOOL

[centuricnis]

                         𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕚𝕔𝕟𝕚𝕤

    independent, highly selective, low energy, dual rp blog. featuring! 𝕝𝕖𝕧𝕚 𝕒𝕔𝕜𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕒𝕟 & 𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕟 𝕛𝕒𝕖𝕘𝕖𝕣 nsfw themes present. mun is 21+.

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1. Basics

Hi! My name is Tiff! 25+! My pronouns are she/they. I’ve been rping on Tumblr since 2012! I have a full time job && a small business, so my activity may be spotty at best. I come and go as I please because roleplaying to me is only a hobby! This blog will probably be super low energy and low activity, as I also have my main multimuse which is where I'll probably be if I'm not here. Minors will be blocked. Any personal blogs without rp sideblogs will be blocked.

If I follow you and you do not follow me back within a week, I will unfollow for my own comfort. This doesn't mean that if you follow me in the future that I won't refollow. I absolutely will! I just never want to overstep anyone's mutuals boundaries. (:

PSA

The source material has plenty of heavy adult themes. These are likely to show up whilst writing, but I will do my best not to write anything especially explicit. Please prioritize your mental health when it comes to these themes, as I assume you're at least familiar with those that are present within the manga/anime.

If you have problems with AoT/SnK's themes and/or it's creator please take it somewhere else. I love the anime as it is, standalone. That does not mean I believe in things present in media or things believed by the creator.

If that bothers you, this isn't the blog for you. Any harassment will be met with the block button (:

small extra psa: i'm not that comfortable writing with blogs that only rp with real people face claims. i personally prefer animated/cartoon/3d style face claims. this is just a personal preference!

2. Writing Specifics!

This blog will focus more on the SnK fandom and rpc, but I'm very open to crossovers. My writing lengths vary from short, to paras, to sometimes novellas. There's never a requirement to match my length. Any icons used will be 100x100 and most likely made by me. I've only watched the anime, and am currently reading the manga, so if there are any nuances missed because of that, I apologize in advance (: Because Tumblr hates its userbase, I'll be writing strictly with Beta Editor and xKit Rewritten's Trim Reblogs.

3. Etiquette!

Basic etiquette is expected for writing with me. Meaning, please don't godmod! I will never write your muse for you, I'd appreciate the same respect.

As always mun =/= muse. Levi has murdered people. Please do not romanticize things that even he has felt guilt for. If you know the ending of AoT, you know what Eren did. If you have issues with my muses, this is not the blog for you.

As for drama or callouts, please don't drag me into things that have nothing to do with me. Do not police me in who I can or cannot speak to. I'm an adult, I can make my own decisions. If there's an issue with a person and you're concerned for my wellbeing, please address it with me in DMs.

4. Shipping!

I am a very proud multi ship whore. All ships are separate AUs unless otherwise plotted.

For Levi, I view him more as demisexual and even demiromantic. This just means it'll take some time for him to be open to a relationship. That being said, my bias comfort Levi ship is (S4 Eren) Ereri/Riren. I am open to shipping him with Erwin or Hange, but it would take plotting and speaking with my rp partner ooc.

For Eren, I'm much more open to other ships. I obviously still ship Ereri, but I'm also open to shipping him with Armin, Jean, Reiner, & Mikasa. Although, I do lean more with Mikasa and Eren being siblings, I do see the potential for their romantic ship.

NSFW on this blog will be canon typical violence, gore, and of a sexual nature. If you do not want to view those things, please blacklist "suggestive cw" and "nsfw cw".

[faededaway]

Mutuals, if I stop posting suddenly, [this is going to sound grim as fuck]

Assume I'm dead.

I still don't wanna disclose where I'm from but, I may or may not get shot tomorrow. Maybe it'll happen in the near future. Of course, if it doesn't happen, you'll know.

There's so much I want to do though. And it's such silly stuff. I wanna play Death Standing. I wanna play Animal Crossing. I want to live long enough to finish One Piece. I want to watch my friends get married. I want to eat pies. I don't wanna die yet... Anyway.

It's weird because I always thought I'd welcome death. But I guess I'm also human. I don't want to 'die like this'. Not now. I just reached AOT s4 part 3! I've got only a little bit left....

Fuck. Anyway, if they do shoot me, I hope it's through the head so I die as fast as possible.

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

Tag nine people you want to get to know better

cw: mentions of substance use

tagged by @levisbrat25!! I would LOVE to chat even more :3

three ships: y'all know i don't do ships lol. but if i HAD TO CHOOSE... - Captain Swan for sure (a certain arc made me cry a;ldjfk) - TamaHaru from OHSHC (has the manga-convergent version of the anime come out yet???) - OH and probably AtsuLucy from bsd??? (idk i don't feel as strongly about this one compared to the previous two idk i dont rly get as much dopamine from ships other than self ships af;sdklfj)

first ever ship: oh god uh...delena i think?? that was around the time that i really got into fandom-related stuff. i think i dipped a toe in some naruto-related ships when i was 12 but i dont think i rly understood what ships were back then LMAO

last song/album: idk i've been only listening to AOT soundtrack soooo...I have been OBSESSED with reluctant heroes tho! still trying to work out learning that piano cover :'D

last movie: i really dont remember o.o maybe top gun maverick because my sister wanted to watch it but i was stoned outta my mind so i dont remember much LMAO

currently reading: ADHD means i'm reading a bunch of books at once....lemme list a few i guess - the Illidan novel from WoW - also the Arthas novel from WoW lol - Chronicles series from WoW - Grimoire of the Shadowlands from WoW (i now realize i read a lot of WoW content LMAO) - one of the books from the Witcher series, forgot the name - some book about positive psychology and prosocial behavior, forgot the name

currently watching: look, i can only have one fixation at a time, so OFC it's AOT. but if i had to choose, maybe rewatch supernatural? idk s4 is *chef's kiss*

currently consuming: a matcha tea latte! surprise to no one akdlfs;kj

currently craving: there's rice pudding in the fridge that i'm trying not to eat for the sake of my blood sugar but i really really want it a;lkdfsj

tagging people that i want to know better i guess? is this how this tag game works idk im tired

#: @roseofdarknessblog @wyvernslovecake @sixpennydame @luvjiro @nosleepjustlevi @bruhm0mentum @happybird16 @leviismybby @notgoodforlife

idk feel free to ignore my social anxiety makes me shy and a;lsdjf;laksdf

[cheriecoke]

teehee just dropping in to say hii ৻( •̀ ᗜ •́ ৻) cause OMMGG i didn't know you watched aot as well and im ngl the switch up from armin haters to armin lovers when s4 came out was so funny 😭 the amount of "og" armin lovers suddenly popped out of nowhere claiming to have loved him since the start and the fights in tiktok comments abt being an actual armin lover or not made it into some slideshows 💀

also ur so right abt why ppl love armin cause all he did was get a haircut 😔💔 i can see why tho since, why wouldn't you want a smart shy boy

HI RUNI !!! HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY <333

omg right ?? it is crazy to me how many people love armin tbh. like i swear everyone i ask says armin is their fave??? i get if you like him bc he's sweet and shy and smart (well, ig i get it, that's not really my type), but if you like him for his looks... NO! but i've been a levi girl since the moment he appeared, so i'm always so flabbergasted that he isn't everyone's favorite 😔 ig i must remember not everyone can have good taste like me </3 LMAO.

no for real though it's crazyyyy how many people switched it up for characters in s4 </3 LIKE REINER !!!! i suffered through him looking like ... that in s1 and now all of you love him RAHHH

ok but tiktok is soooo hilarious sometimes. like the other day my sister and i were talking about how everyone was simping over jean's chin when s4 came out SHDFHSDHF

[salvatoreren]

I finally watched AOT's last episode and frankly, I am not okay, I have been sobbing a river oh my fucking god.

Anyways, it was really good, as expected of MAPPA anyway, I was pretty much crying the whole episode actually.

I have complaints, mostly because of the not included anime, little things like not having the flashbacks of Armin of reading a book in the rain, the squirrels etc. etc. I would have love to see them in the market and the way to the boy who sought freedom, goodbye was not implemented, I WAS WAITING FOR THAT COME ON

The anime only scenes were good too, like Levi giving food to the refugees, falco and gabi, i wish we saw their outfits tho, they slayed with that one.

the way they played 13 no fuyu, im killing myself, ive been listening to that shit since 2022 which mind you was when i was active once more in aot, the fucking flashbacks my god, that was so tragic RAHHH

i also saw aot's op, EREN WITH A BOW? EREN WITH A BOW!!! MIND YOU I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE HUNGER GAMES SO IMMEDIATELY IM LIKE YES YES IT'S GIVING KATNISS EVERDEEN, WITH WHAT HIM BEING HUMANITY'S HOPE, ESP WITH THE FIRE COMING OUT OF IT FORMING A BIRD

THE SAME BIRD WE SAW ON S4 ENDING 1, oh my god, the opening was really cool omg, it perfectly showcased eren's journey, what he went through, despite being absent in the final chapters, it still showed Eren was still the protagonist...Which isayama did not understand when he made 139

Yes, I am bitter still with the ending, no, I am not hearing anyone out and no, I am not going to pour my disappointments with it STILL, here because yeah.

It's such a shame that's the last and final time we'll ever see it, devastating tragedy omg.

ARMIN AND EREN'S FINAL INTERACTION, IM GLAD THEY MADE THEM HOLD HANDS, THANK YOU MAPPA, PLS THE WAY THEY'LL BE TOGETHER FOREVER AND WILL BE WAITING FOR EACH OTHER IN HELL, GAGGED, IM DEAD, MY ROMAN EMPIRE FOR REAL

Now that's out of the way.

It's been a long and fun ride, regardless, the final season has been going for what three years, i've been with this series for three years, it was fun really it was, this series took such a simplistic and cliched approach then twisted into something more complex and truly gutwrenching. 2020 was nothing without AOT, in my opinion, watching AOT broadened my media consumption, yanked me into the anime world and i already have so many fandoms i'm in.

2020 was a hard time too, i couldn't have done it without this bloody series, god, i remember aboarding the train hype, everything was everywhere, fics, art, videos, memes etc. All those I read influenced my writing style, all those theories made me think more critically, those memes and videos of it made me laugh. It's funny how a series like this one comforted me so much.

I remember being so traumatized by the first episode i'm like who the fuck would ever like this series with this much blood and that night i immediately searched for eren fics because i was like who is this boy i like him, i fucking dreamt of the beast titan, all those nights racing with my sister who could finish the series first, i literally woke up at 4 just to watch it before she could.

Fucking terrified which of my favorite characters were going to die next, literally sobbing over armin's death, god and the mindfuck with Marley and Eldians and Subjects of Ymir in the fray oh my god.

Can I just say, I wouldn't be who I was without AOT? Even with my cynical behavior, it's all because of it.

2021 who i never fail to reiterate and think fondly is good because of AOT as well, I figured wow, the final season is coming back, I should rewatch it again and so the hyperfixation began, i was sick too, almost dying too actually, dengue is dangerous and it was just a fond memory because i was watching aot and i acted like i never had watch these scenes in my life and despite feeling like dying i felt okay.

I was so batshit crazy when part 2 came out, that was the one that was actually peak AOT don't lie, I was literally screaming like i was giving birth OVER AN OPENING AND AN ENDING, i'll never forget any of it.

When I cried watching the whole episode, it really just occurred to me that this is really the end for AOT, i was only ever able to go through it because I have the anime and it what really kept the whole fandom alive, the anime's honestly the reason why it had this many fans as you can see.

And again the way it's heartwrenching for it to just be a simple series and then it's full blown war, jean and reiner holding out to each other, remembering how they used to be close and comrades then betrayals and war happened and it's all ruined.

The devastating realization of seeing the last few panels animated, watching the end flash through the screen, realizing there was nothing out of this now, no more next episodes, no more hype, it's gone and it's so devastating because how happy it made you, the way you'll never see these characters again, only in rewatches or art. But it's not the same.

I admit I don't feel as hyperfixated over it now, after getting burnt out of it last year, even good things go badly sadly and i was just here for eren now, but doesn't change the fact this series has nurtured my quarantine, i grew up with this series even if it was only recent, who changed the trajectory of my life and had me find my paths.

I'll never forget these characters who made my life, who brought life to the story, even if they were just moved by the plot now, i'll always have a soft spot for AOT, i will always love it, regardless how much i hate it, there will always be fondness within it.

It's kind of weird, really to see Levi who has done so much to the fandom just by existing and being drawn and animated now cease to exist? I suppose, looking at him feels weird like imagine comparing 2014 levi to 2023 levi now omg, that's where you really begin to realize how much time has passed and how much AOT has evolved AGAIN JKSDHJ

well, i'm still on eren's side, still hate what happened to him but i'll always love him, he is such an important character to me, i don't think i truly ever loved someone like him despite representing the total opposite of me, he just had that charm i suppose, his views are so hauntingly beautiful, idealistic, him representing hope, despite what he did, in the end he did what he could for himself and for his people IN MY HUMBLE ONION

eren yeager i'll always love you

i'm kinda scared what would happen to this fandom now, will it die now? Will it live? I doubt, I haven't even finished my eren fic and lol, either way i hope someone will still enjoy AOT, i hope still there will be new watchers.

This is long but this is just how I really feelt about AOT which I wholeheartedly do love and cherish with all the memories and the pain it gave.

Thank you Isayama for this world, for these characters, for these mindblowing revelations about war, life and freedom, for the heartaches and the joy.

Thank you WIT for raising AOT and truly breathing life to it, for garnering fans for it to be more appreciated.

Thank you MAPPA for continuing WIT's legacy, you are not the same but still delievered, thank you for carrying the final season and the fandom on your back, may you sleep well and have your deserved pay.

Thank you for the voice actors who breathed those memorable lines to be used in edits.

Thank you Linked Horizon for coming back, aot was iconic because of your openings.

Thank you AOT for everything.

[technoachillleez]

thank u to @3y3-see-you for tagging me i love to talk about myself hehe

Last Song I Listened To: End of Beginning by Djo (saw it in a carmy edit on twitter)

Currently Reading: kind of a doozy bc i am always reading twelve books at a time so: finally finishing up my TMI reread so almost done with City of Heavenly Fire, also trying to finish a asoiaf reread so on A Dance With Dragons also reading Paradise Lost (yes started bc of tmi and continued bc its also referenced in The Secret History which was the last book i finished). I also started this book North Korea Another Country by Bruce Cumings but idk if i'll finish it

Currently Watching: i just finished season 3 of Attack on Titan! takin a little breather before s4 because boy are those last eps a doozy. also in the middle of watching Dragon Ball but haven't watched in a bit since it's only sub

Latest Obsessions: okay i'm gonna do post-succession obsessions most to least recent: The Mortal Instruments (considering reading lady midnight next for the first time bc i rlly do just Like these characters even if her writing leaves some to be desired), AOT (fucking.... fucking captain levi..... someone someone out there please talk to me about captain levi and commander ervin i need it i need it no one in my life watches this shit except my brother pls), DBZ (they added Kai to hulu which was great for me and my brother who'd been wanting to watch it until we realized that its actually kind of boring and then we started watching DB which we hadn't seen before and surprisingly is good if only bc their goals r simpler and more grounded), GOT (never gonna be free from this one, it has its peaks and troughs but always there)

tagging: @blood-thats-deep-and-blue @bingusmybelove @2805200326 @princelabia and anyone else who wants to do it consider urself tagged !! <3

[inkedinfusions]

Thanks for answering!! And you're definitely right, when making that ask I was thinking of you know first impressions and how easy it is to think something is just inherently wrong with eren, it's just that when I go on,like Pinterest or YouTube comments I see a lot of people commenting on eren's behavior and how creepy and deranged he seemed,and the way his friends react saying he's changed,it is later known that all he's doing is for his friends and the people he cares for despite how he seems before the reveal and how he treated armin and Mikasa because in the end it was all for their sake and he did to it too also solve the issue that paradis would just get attacked again even if left for a couple years (don't relay on my memory I basically speed runned the anime)

Now ALL OF THIS ABOVE understandable,perhaps may need to watch some vids to understand the more complex themes(I think I need to watch a lot of videos because of how complex everything seems and these days I'm mostly running on 3 hours of sleep so take everything from the beginning of my asks to now with a grain of salt because I only speed watched aot the other like a month ago with school so the events and themes sort melted in my head,and I'm mostly focusing on the things you can make fun of,the haha aspect of things)

Now what stayed in my mind,from the first time I watched to watching again on YouTube is how kid Eren saved Mikasa,his utter detachment and lack of guilt and how tricked the guy at the door and convinced Mikasa to kill the other(I'm not saying he was wrong, considering if Mikasa didn't he'd die and Mikasa would be taken somewhere else to get sold off or just get killed) and later when talking with grisha,he straight up tells him that they weren't human and they only wore human skin

That whole scene had my jaw dropped and I remember thinking something like 'that is not normal kid behavior, ESPECIALLY considering his mom and dad, literally how did you turn out like this????'

Obviously his character is more complex than that but holy heck that scene stayed in my mind during s4 and kinda influenced a tiny bit of how I saw him and also made me wonder because why was he like that??? Where did you learn that??? He's a literal one of a kind

(obviously because he's the protagonist but still,I want to know how he as a character got the idea and motive when so many others didn't even bat it an eye)

Oh yeah, there was something wrong with Eren the moment he was born. Like????? hello??? ten and already committing second degree murder okay diva NOT EVEN TEN HE WAS LIKE NINE idk dude hes built different ig