#AND IF I THINK A8T IT AND IF I TRY TO 'GET IT RIGHT' THEN IM LIKE NO THATS WRONG NO THATS WRONG NO TH

[cornflowercanine]

i dont understand the jade 'meta' thats just 'oh shes mistreated 8y The Narr8ive and is like, aware of this, and is deli8er8ly lonely and angry 8c of this, and is S33333cretly SUPER fucking angry at her friends 8c shes Aware of the Gr8er Narr8ive around How Others Treat Her and 8lah8lah8lah8lah' jade doesnt know a8t her narr8ive, at least not unless its the version of her that talks to alt callie who tells her 'youre lonely 8c youre a space player', if that even counts, 8ut as for pre-retcon her or her up until june n davesprite die on the ship, i think she's just like. [rose we dont have fuckin "arcs" we just are human 8eings] i think may8e her yelling at jadesprite could 8e Reflective of her narr8ive or what the fuck ever 8ut its.... shes not calcul8ed 'oh my grandpa is dead 8c The Narr8ive!!' 'oh my friends dont give me more space to do stuff 8c Narr8ive!!!' 'oh im lagging 8ehind in s8ur8 8c NARR8IVE!!!!!!' she just.... does stuff and sometimes things in her life are reflective of patterns in her life up til that point and sometimes into the future (not like she knows though), like, yknow, a person does??? i could go on 8ut godddddd if you want a char thats aware of ~The Narr8ive~ and is punished 8y it and fighting against it and failing vriska fucking serket is right there!!!! ms 'oh this is just my luck'!!!! reread homestuck instead of trying to make New Interesting "Meta" 8ased off of "meta" 8y other hs fans who only read half the comic 6 years ago and their entire conceptualiz8ion of the story and characters is memories of memories of memories of hcs and fanart of memories of One Scr33nshot of Two Sentences In A Chatlog of memories of memories of homestuck. itll 8e more exciting than reinventing epilogue "jade SECRETLY h8s all her friends and is a 8itter disgusting person!!!" shit 8c ur tired of the 50000th 'jade is happy and ok with stuff 8ut like, in a shallow way' jade fanart uve s33n i prooooooomise

[cornflowercanine]

ok w8 i wanna talk a8t cattails more. hands down the easiest way to get money if ur saving up for smth (ex. 8lue tortoiseshell fur dye 125 mews and then shiny trinket 170 mews and then nursery room 300 mews.......) is to go to the 8each and get every seashell and fish you s33 until ur inventory is full and then go 8ack home and sell it all, optim,al if ur in the forest colony 8ut it still works if ur in mystic colony you just have to have the teleport 8ack home skill unless you really like sl33ping at 1 am every night for some inane reason prey also sells for a lot so catching prey/her8s on your way to said 8each each and then filling up the rest of ur inventory with sea fish and shells is a pretty solid way to get money, also, 8UGS. selling half ur inventory full of lady8ugs is still like 10 mews which is like as much as 2 good prey and it takes less effort than prey and it will add up quick if ur in mountain domain uhhhhhh. ur gonna have to go to canyon mine and fill ur inventory with rock de8ris/iron ore/whatever and then go 8ack and sell it all. yes it will sell for 1/2 mews each 8ut its like the same as the 8ug route except it works year-round. pro tips stock the fuck up on prey 8eforehand k33p it in ur den (itemlimit off in options) take however much u want and then mine until your food runs out and you have enough hunger left to walk all the way 8ack home. unless you like using the teleport home a8ility as much as i do. if its winter you p much just have to sell prey/snake lillies if avalia8le and may8e whatever your friends give you sorry king you can stash up on shit to sell prior to winter/get an her8 garden extension of expensive her8s and sell those in winter when they grow

[cornflowercanine]

INHUMANLY tired of apho8es talking a8t how harmful aspec la8els are to les8ians like aspec les8ians dont exist

[cornflowercanine]

i think my f8al flaw artistically is that, unless i put IMMENSE mental effort and attention into it, i CANNOT do a sketch and lineart, i can count on one hand how many times ive drawn actual lineart in the past year. i either go ‘okay sketch time!’ and finetune it and finetune it and finetune it and oops theres no more sketch guess its done now OR i go STR8 to lineart. i know the 8asic shapes 8itch why would i n33d to put thought into it

[cornflowercanine]

today was apeshit (good and 8ad)

>managed to wake up at 7:30 am aGAIN despite me 8eing fully capa8le of sl33ping in + that wasn't a full eight hours, i just Couldnt k33p laying there trying to sl33p lol >

>going 8ack and forth from mind-num8ing dread a8out Have To Pay 500 Dollars Rent None Of Us Have 8y Tomorrow Or We'll Get Kicked Out, to having my head spin from laughing with my friends >sis told me last night our mom would pay us 8ut i didn't think that might go through hence going 8ack and forth from im gonna die to It's fine actually i n33d to turn my 8rain off for a minute from all this :8lush: >sis finally wakes up at. 1 pm. tells me, mum8ling, that our mom can't pay us. n33dless to say i f33l 8ad, thankfully all the hoes (my friends) s33m to have disappeared for an hour so i dont kersplode a8out it to anyone >press sis a8t it more, mom could pay us on monday, "....actually i think this goes to the 15th it doesnt have a d8 on it :)" "8ut it's a 3 day notice that we got on the 11th isn't that the 14th" "..." >literally one day short. sis says our mom doesn't have the money now, 8ut our older 8ro does, so she tries to middle man 8etw33n us to get it over >sister's fiance asks her mom to help too >tensely it's ended on okay we've Pro8a8ly got it, sis leaves for work (AT 3 PM HER WORK STARTS AT 10 AM SHE HAD A 2-HOUR SHIFT I'M GONNA FUCKING), kinda just have to w8 til sis's fiance's mom replies/our mom steps up, nothing else to do, thusly: >Creamed Honey Discussion Hour has 8egun. my life is promptly ruined 8y

8ROWNING'S FLAVORED CREAMED HONEY THAT S33MS TO 8E 8RIGHT FUCKING PINK AND RED IN FLAVORS I FUCKING LOVE *AND* I COULD PRO8A8LY 8E TAKEN TO THEIR PHYSICAL GIFT SHOP SOMETIME. HOW CAN I COPE KNOWING I DONT HAVE THIS IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW /lighthearted >spend 30 minutes looking at madoka magica side comic things to try and find a 8onus where homura is explaining madoka to the rest of the quintet and Godoka, Invisi8le, is going ahhh!! homura youre idolizing me way too much!! I STILL COULDNT FIND IT 8TW IM FUCKING -PUNCHES WALL- >8ut i DO unlock pure autistic special interest joy over these comics. you know the homestuck panel format where a char is like *-* looking up at thought 8u88les of the thing they like, its in jades intro and i think m33nah does it too? i did that. >GET INFORMED RENT IS PAID. WITH OUR MOM AND MY SISTER'S FIANCE'S MOM. OPEN ANNOUNCEMENT AS "WHO WANTS TO FUCKING KISS ME WITH TONGUE". THANK GOD THANK FUCKING GOD >ask my friend "hey im not sure if im d8ing this person or not should i ask? zhe called us watching a movie a few days ago a d8 and when i jokingly say 'haha that was so funny wanna d8 a8out it' zhe says yes". ze says "didnt you literally ask hir if zhe's your gf and zhe said yes". "i might actually just 8e fucking stupid" >ask hir >i have a gf now :partying_face: >

>coo and chirp at moirail and wish himer goodnight and hang out until it's time to sl33p, looking at images of homucifer and konan akatsuki >here now, 12:40 am, i shouldve 833n in 8ed 40 minutes ago, 8ut tomorrow is my day off so it's ok wow

[cornflowercanine]

talking a8t the chat program(?) revolt

so far i like revolt for the

colors hehohohoho custom themes yipp3333

GIF PFPS AND SERVER PROFILES AND SO ON WITHOUT HAVING TO PAY FOR THEM!!!!!! YES

THE TEXTTTTTT you can have color text you can have 8igtext you can have smalltext YOU CAN HAVE FONTS APPARENTALLY 8UT I DID THIS 8Y ACCIDENT AND WE DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT LOL 8UT YOU CAN DO IT !

it's not discord !

also you can have server 8anners without paying

there's a like, notes section? for yourself? it's just you? in like dms area??? which is really fucking cool

dont really like it for/itd 8e nice if it had

my a8solute 8iggest gripe with it rn is it's hellish to 8ackread ANYTHING. if you scroll up and w8 for older messages to load it like, stays at the top even when the new messages are loaded? so you'll get suddenly shot up WAY WAY WAY earlier than you intended???? same thing if you were looking at older messages and try to load new ones too, this singlehandedly makes it near unusa8le for me and is the reason i'm not Trying to use it unless discord's down

ACTUAL SOUND NOTIFS PLEASE? WORKING NOTIFIC8IONS AT FUCKING ALL PLEASE????

y does doing colortext make long messages go off da scr33n waaaw aaaaa waaaa

it could afford to have more customiz8ion imo may8e im weird 8ut ohhhh let me have like. custom 8gs for servers that whatever your revolt color is for that section gets overlaid on it

let me have color text ALL the time you slug. yes i can just paste the thing and then do <- arrow key like 2 times to get to the little text entry 8ox 8UT I DONT WANNAAAAAAA PASTE IT EFURRY TIM333333 i think it'd 8e neat as a like, part of server profile customiz8ion and Regular Profile customiz8ion like. this makes sense to May8e Thr33 people following me 8ut trollian's autoquirker. like that

pinned messages or something like them

can i actually s33 emojis instead of only s33ing them when typing please. also custom emoji are still fun as fuck i like those

roles. i want to 8e colors

i think it's trying to 8e like Discord 2 a little too hard??? certainly not like i could make a 8etter program a8solutely not lol it's just like... you can put this or that thing in a different place. you can call this thing smth else. just have a diff layout!!! not really that it's current layout is 8AD, just, the appeal of "it's JUST like discord!!" kinda wears off once youve had it for more than like. a day. I KNOW THIS IS WEIRD TO COMPLAIN A8T AFTER GOING 'HEY HERES 50 DISCORD THINGS THEY SHOULD ADD' 8UT LIKE UGH EITHER DO SMTH DIFFERENT OR ACTUALLY IMIT8 DISCORD PROPURRLY rn it just doesnt have anything Like these either way so it f33ls pretty 8are8ones

i know this is a lot of things 8ut i like revolt and it a8solutely has purrtential i think and i'd 8e cool w using it as a side thing once they fix the fucking janky ass scrolling issues!! right now though im just :mariosit:

[cornflowercanine]

i think... prolly not The 8iggest Issue 8ut an EXTREMELY common one i s33 in how issues are handled on here and adjacent discoursey places is that ppl treat .....perceived harm and not-harm(??????) as like, a point system. like they treat things that hurt or can hurt as this unconditional, unchanging, and that everything does the same Level of hurt 8c ppl arent s33ing it on like... a scale of what was said/done, the context it happened, how it hurt or didnt hurt the ppl involved, etc etc etc, theyre s33ing it as like some sort of one-and-done ohp it just sucks now, and that select things can only Take Away from it "8ecoming 8ad" suddenly (put under a cut cause i have a lot to say a8t this to convey what i mean)

like, for example if i had a specific rel8ionship with a friend where they say shit to me that SOUNDS mean o8jectively and would get put firmly in the Is 8ad Now section, 8ut no actual harm is 8eing done 8ecause they arent doing it for the sake of 8eing mean theyre doing it for the sake of pointing out when im doing smth shitty or purely unhelpful etc, and i specifically am comforta8le with it 8ecause i honest to god trust and know that they do sincerely care a8t me and are pointing out where im doing worse to help me out and 8ECAUSE they care a8out me and want to s33 me grow and using Harsh Language helps get it across to me and 8c we have esta8lished 8oundaries where they know what i am and am not comforta8le 8eing called or compared to or whatever, and that im comforta8le esta8lishing new 8oundaries or telling them to 8ack off even when the convo is a little tense, etc etc etc etc or on the flip side, also for example, if i never let others get a word in and would imply them to 8e stupid or joking or [insert other negative things here] whenever they said smth i disagr33d with or didnt like or what have you, and deli8er8ly make my friends/partners f33l like they cant have a say in our rel8ionships or what i or even they do or say 8c Theyre Stupid And Must 8e Joking, Right, and make fun of or discourage them talking a8t things they like or are excited a8t etc, and will even 8e outright mean and insensitive in priv8 sometimes, All Of These Things They Like And Do And Say 8eing Nonharmful, 8ut no8ody ever thinks im shitty 8c Outwardly im just So Nice And Sw33t and i never OUTRIGHT say anything mean to my friends right and SUUUUURE i mightve 8ullied someone unrelentingly in school when i was 14 8ut i don8 money to anti-8ullying charities every now and again Now so it's all made up for!! right!! right!!!!!!?!??!!!?!?!!!!! im not really sure how else to explain it, 8ut it reminds me a lot of 'thinking of oppression as a pokemon type effectiveness chart' shit; "every single mem8er of this group unconditionally has power and privilege over this group in every situ8ion and context always 8c this and this reason, 8UT W8 Sometimes mem8ers of the privileged group do/are this thing that unconditionally 8rings them 8ack down/closer to the level of the ppl they oppress so-" etc, just on a smaller scale that ppl apply to nearly everything ofc im not saying ive never done this, i think i do it more than i realize and more than id wanna admit, 8ut im trying to p33l away from it as much as i can and now that ive noticed it and have like, words for it, GOD do i s33 it in a lot of things on here

[cornflowercanine]

i think one of the most important things to remem8er when youre picking a name is please try to not 8e a perfectionist xD literally no name will ever fit anyone 100% perfectly, itll just 8e As Close As It Gets or 8etter Than The Last One(s), and names will just a8out never f33l Right and like they Fit and Descri8e you if you literally just got it lol smth i was worried a8t when i was going through names is i was like, is this name Me? if someone heard my name would they 8e a8le to get a vague grasp on what kind of person i was? and i mulled over this so so so much 8ut like, if it’s MY name, then it’s me no matter what lol. my name is Me and f33ls like Me and comes across as Me and ppl will get the memo that it is Me 8ecause... it’s my name!!! when i was going through my names i noted things that Snagged and felt Wrong and Off when ppl called me 8y them, and so i made a list of things that i wanted in a name; >one sharp/harsh sound 8ut the rest is soft, >n8urey, >neutral, and clove happened to 8e all of that! and i still wasnt satisfied with it and it still felt wrong when i was settling into it! 8ut 8c i filtered out everything that Snagged and Felt Wrong in names when ppl called me it i was never like, ‘this is someone elses name, this isnt me, this isnt right’, i got used to it after a few months to a8out a year and guess what!! im happy with it!! my name is clove and i like 8eing called clove and when ppl say clove im like Yes thats Me!!! just try to 8e patient and if all u can think a8t is how ur name(s) f33l Wrong and Incorrect and 8ad instead of what you DO like and what DOES f33l good, write down what you DONT like, and   process of elimin8ion XD

[cornflowercanine]

“road work ahead? uh yeah, i sure hope it does!”

speaker is saying “um yeah of course the road ahead is going to ‘work’ as in ‘function as a road to be driven on’ i sure HOPE it does, or else i won’t be able to drive on it!” but the joke is that that’s not what the road work ahead sign means, it means that the road is being worked on and we all know this. the joke is the speaker is misunderstanding the sign, thinking it is denoting that the road is going to “work” as in “it is going to be a road you can drive on, and isn’t going to, say, crumble into bits and create a sinkhole or some shit that would make you unable to drive” even though that doesn’t make sense. “why would there even need to be a sign here?!” the speaker is saying, “of COURSE the road is going to ‘work’! i sure HOPE it does, or i won’t be able to drive!”

you explained “not like other girls” perfectly. it’s about young girls thinking that they’re not like other girls because of the way women are portrayed in media, when in reality all real life women are unique and interesting, not shallow the way the media portrays them. i was a “not like other girls” girl in elementary school. i thought i was sooooo cool and special and different from other girls bc i liked hotwheels and didn’t like dresses n shit and i thought my interests were completely unique and different from other girls but as it turns out, all girls r unique and special! (and also turns out i’m not a girl that was definitely part of it lmfao)

ohhhhhh so the joke is like, 'haha yes the road will work -IMMENENT FALLING INTO ROAD-'?? that makes more sense As A Joke, 8ut man that is very rounda8out wording for that joke XD (not 8eing snarky at You im just annoyed at the fact the vine was soooooo commonly referenced and i had no goddamn clue what it meant for like, years :P)

yeah!! i like... i REALLY REALLY H8 WORDING IT LIKE THIS 8c 'harUMPH! I'VE never experienced this common thing which while common does make you look like a 8it of a shithead, so clearly you're all doing this DELI8ER8LY 8ecause you're JERKS!!', 8ut 8ack when ppl were talking a8t 'im not like other girls' a whole 8unch, when imagining irl girls saying it, it was lost on me 8ecause i was like "... where are the 'other girls'? what other girls? i've never s33n a '8londe, 20 pounds of makeup, 8oy-crazy vain etc etc' girl irl thatd 8e DESERVING of this dramatic repulsive 'other girls' title, AND they say it like there's LOTS of them, SO DO THESE PPL JUST HAVE ACCESS TO LIKE ALT UNIVERSE WOMEN THAT THEY JUST FUCKING H8?????" XDDD 8ut i definetely did still have stuff like that, in a like.... frustr8ed confused les8ian/autistic way? ive got all the 8its and pieces 8ut idk what to attri8ute to what, theres a pattern there i just dont know what it is etc :P it was There, it just wasnt in a way where 'im not like other girls ;)' was the conclusion i came to lol XD i was like 'grrr i h8 pretty popular girls 8ut i also h8 non-girly girls and i wanna 8e pretty and girly and i think girls going after men is stupid and shallow 8ut my wanting to 8e appealing is totally out of wanting MEN to like me, right?' I HAD A POINT HERE 8UT I COMPLETELY FORGOT IT. >__> 8ut was 'im not like other girls ;)' really a romantic thing/rounda8out flirt/only really said in a 'im trying to get a partner 8y appealing to them in this way' thing? or is that just cause i never saw examples of it in other scenarios XD