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[intihardenemeleri]

bugün bir yalnızlığa düştüm yine. başımı ellerimin arasına aldım, sessizce ağlamaya başladım. önümde yarıya gelmiş bir konyak şişesi beni iç, diye fısıldıyordu. beni iç. sonra yalvarmaya başladı; ne olur, dedi. ne olur, haydi iç beni. bir bardak doldurdum, tepeme diktim. şişe rahatladı, sustu. hani ellerimiz birbirine değince nasıl oluyorduk? işte öyle oldum. hani bakışlarımız buluştuğu zaman, bir başka türlü atması vardı yüreklerimizin, onu hatırladım. sonra bir tren hareket etti. sabahtı. karşı karşıyaydık. konuşuyorduk. ben sevmek diyordum durmadan. gözlerim gözlerine soruyordu. seviyor musun? diye. hep evet diyordu gözlerin, ellerin, dudakların hep evet diyordu. oysa ki bir çok hayır diyen insanlar vardı çevremizde. örneğin; bir çocuk hayır diyordu, bir kadın, bir adam, bir başkası hayır diyordu. hayırlar arasında ezilmeye mahkûmdu evetlerimiz. tren ilerliyordu. gözlerin gözlerime soruyordu ne olacak diye. sigara üstüne sigara yakıyordum, kadeh kadeh içki içiyordum, fakat bilmiyordum ben de ne olacağını. bizi sürükleyen bir akıntıydı. durduramazdık onu, hükmedemezdik ona. bir anafora rastlayıp yok oluncaya kadar akıp gidecektik işte. peki anafor nerdeydi? uzak mıydı? belki çok yakındı kimbilir. biz onu göremeyecektik. o, gözlerimizi kör ettikten sonra saracaktı bizi buz gibi kollarıyla. tren ilerliyordu. pencereden deniz görünüyordu. denize akşam güneşi vurmuştu. renk renk kayıklar gördük kıyılarda. denize taş atan çocuklar gördük. uzakta bir balıkçı ağlarını topluyordu. ve tren ilerliyordu. kadere yaklaşıyorduk . bir alacakaranlık bastı zamanı. gözlerim gözlerindeydi. ellerini tuttum, titredin. acı acı bir düdük öttü. bir şeyler koptu içimizden. sonra tren durdu, indik, yollarımız ayrı ayrıydı.

şimdi, o gün verdiğin yalnızlığı yaşıyorum.

[vilence]

I've decided to go Multiship with Vi, because I just think she deserves at least 10 wives.

[lastscenecom]

自分の成功は胸の内に留めておきましょう 。人間の邪悪さはあなたが思っている以上にリアルです。ほとんどの人は幸せで��ありません。あなたの成功を大声で宣伝しても、彼らは気分が悪くなり、怒りが増すだけです。そして、あなたの人生をひっくり返すためにできることがあれば、彼らはそうするでしょう。ですから、気をつけてください。

人生について知っておくべき7つの非常に不快な真実 | ラヌ・ウィルソン | Medium

[tousa]

i just witness the lesbianism that is pulchra x burnice on my screen. i literally fan girled & got soooo HAPPY.

[sinaeter]

i don't know where i'm at in regards to tumblr again - i don't foresee myself really getting back on here any time soon. i've been preoccupied with a few things and i have no real desire to get on here anymore, aside from checking messages or following people back. so, i guess this is just a sort of hiatus notice. i don't know for how long, we will see.

take care. enjoy your summer :)

[combicry]

         ❛ ❛    THE NEAR ANGELIC NEPHILIM,    it is said they are  closer  to their immortal heritage. They deny instinctual traits of mortality of their pure blooded counterparts. Physical    &.    mental characteristics mirror that of their  Fathers,  rather than their Mothers.

         Dante, written since 2013    &.    from Ninja Theory's DmC: Devil May Cry  -  following the video game    &.    comic timelines. However, divergence lays in my portrayal in regards to the  Original 2001  -  2005 series.  Dante is a descendant of the original Sparda twins. More information can be found on various posts of my blog    ...    I hope you come to enjoy the content    &.   portrayal.

         The Nephilim were on the earth in those days     &.   also afterward, when the sons of God went in to the daughters of humans, who bore children to them. These were the heroes that were of old, warriors of renown.    ❜ ❜

                                                   © babsrph.

[zoukis]

hella is a lesbian btw.

[oeidn]

I wanna write so dang bad, but my writing juices have been ZERO .... for WEEKS...!! I got NOTHING in my head....

[widowshill]

[vilence]

    ☆ BASED WITHIN FORTICHE'S ARCANE UNIVERSE,    developed    &.    built since    2014    ...    Equipped with influences from;  psychological horror, sci-fi, folklore    &.    slashers.

                                ☆      i.  [ ᵐᵃᶦⁿˢ ]   ii.  [ ᵍᵘᶦᵈᵉ ]   iii.  [ ˢᵗᵃᵗˢ ]

    ☆ Brawling with;          Cupcait, Officrnolen, Jinxe, Ekkod, Onegil.

[guujie]

I want to be here but I will not lie that I only want to write lesbianism and then Miko messing with her guy friends.

[chuellas]

The gap between Chuuya and my other favs is so glaring it’s truly embarrassing.

[sinaeter]

I miss being here in Acheron, im just always busy & tired now. Plus, Acheron is a heavy character to write, so my energy levels & inspiration aren't always there even though my want continues to nag at me. But, I hope everyone's doing okay & happy pride month. 🏳️‍🌈🌈

[lolol2324566]

KPopDisillusionment

So I just want to say this. Y'all literally are so clueless so colorist so racist and y'all go about your day like it's nothing hella rude, hella ignorant and nobody thinks to themselves like who. Maybe this isn't a good way to think or feel? I'm just so sick and tired of seeing stupid clueless stands of people in each group. I'm just so tired of K-pop at this point. I'm tired of the people in K-pop and I'm tired of the fans and K-pop. Every this everything is n't good. It's not good anymore. I don't dance. I don't sing. I don't have a good time with the music anymore. I just listen to my old groups and their old songs or if they make new songs here and there, but to be in the K-pop community is so stupid cuz you have to literally be in a community for people are disregarding other people's ethnicity, skin tone, etcAnd this has to be said too. Why are you guys so blind to hear good music? I'm just so saddened to see nowadays that nobody actually cares about the f****** production that's going into the songs. It's going into the dances. Nobody cares about that. All YOU care about is oh my God is my fave a visual visdualing, or when someone doesn't have a certain look so they don't get enough fan support in a group where they're super talented and they can sing their ass off. But since they don't look a certain way, nobody cares about them. I'm just so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of BTS. I'm so tired of black pink. I'm so tired of new jeans. I'm so tired of the new groups that are out. I'm tired of seeing news about them all the time. Nobody cares about anybody else bro. Why the f*** do I care about new jeans? Why the f*** do I care about BTS? They didn't help me. They didn't make me feel inspired. Stop trying to push these people on to me in society but all you guys are as followers. Every single one of you guys that is a K-pop fan is a follower. You guys are followers. You guys don't lead with nothing. You guys just follow what the next person ,I've been into K-pop since middle school but I never really got into it until 2015 but after that it was cool getting into it and having a good time and liking everything. But once it hit 2021 that's when it was over. It was over K-pop was over. I just feel like it's lacking so much. And sitting here and looking and being an observer of everything and the situations that I'm seeing. And I'm looking at people's comments and I'm I'm looking at what people say on the day-to-day basis and it's like are you guys serious? Do y'all listen to yourselves? Do you really think that your favorite person and your favorite group is going to really sit down and look at your s*** and be like wow, they're so right? No they're not going to say that. And no, they're not going to be like that. Just tired but it doesn't matter because y'all will stay asleep and not woke about itI said this 5 months ago in in so it said sorry the post was removed by the by reddit's filters. So I got removed because I was telling the truth and y'all didn't want to see it. See 5 months ago I made a rant and nobody wanted to listen