#4) i don't defend myself at all in social situations and days later i realize that what someone told me wasnt nice | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

toughknit · 2 months ago

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ever since i started taking antidepressants (in june) i started noticing how hard it is for me to understand social norms/cues and that 1) it's been the cause of my social anxiety ever since i was little 2) i've been thinking people live in absolutes (like me) this entire time 3) i have such a hard time handling contradictions, i feel like it's an error

#4) i don't defend myself at all in social situations and days later i realize that what someone told me wasnt nice #5) but not long ago i realized that it's actually more genuine of me to act instinctively and believe things are literal rather than #beating myself up for not noticing & defending myself 'properly'. it's literally only about how we use language...#bonus) although it makes me realize that so many people are actually saying things defensively or saying backhanded compliments #post scriptum) im also kinda paranoid and i keep forgetting i have ptsd though #post post scriptum) i also have to learn how to trust my own fucking judgement help #diary

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