#. how did the phrase ''your f/o wouldn't be a transphobe'' snap me out of whatever bullshit i was in. that feels so dumb why did my brain

[angeltism]

sorry for all the talk abt dysphoria I don't usually notice it (repressing it bc "there's nothing I can do about it anyways so why even think about it") but today I've been doing a lot of thinking about how i view myself and holy FUCK is dysphoria stupid because I realized I somehow got myself to believe I was somehow faking being a girl, a boy AND genderqueer ?? like not all in one breath but I very much had the thought process of "everyone knows I'm a trans freak they don't see me as a girl they see me as some mentally ill weirdo", "I'm not a real boy and everyone knows I'm just a mentally ill girl" and "nobody will ever see me as genderqueer because I'm so inconsistent with my gender presentation and I can barely find any words to describe it so nobody will ever truly see me as i am"

sorry aqua brain then what the FUCK do you think people see you as. what. anyways fuck those voices in my head I am fully valid w my genderqueerness and if people are worth sticking around they'll respect me and see me as I am. ha