#-a career option. & i'm afraid it won't go well. part of me wants to pursue art for a living bc i enjoy doing it but i'm so afraid of-

[paradoxiii]

Anyway on a lighter note, it never ceases to fascinate me when I show my art friends my latest character designs & they praise my apparent fashion sense. I look at other artists with much more diverse designs & I feel like a hack.

So being praised for it, I have to resist the urge to put myself down like I used to do with my art in general. Y'know the whole "I know it's pretty shitty but I tried I guess" thing that you see most new artists spouting. I've been drawing for too long do still do that. I'm too old for that shit lol

I like my character designs, I think I'm decent at it, it just feels weird when other people seem impressed by the designs. I think pretty lowly of my tastes, so while it's good enough for me (after all, I draw for myself, I draw just to make myself happy, because it feels good to do), it's fascinating to think that it could be good enough for other people.

I obviously still have a long ways to go on working on my self confidence & self worth lol

[serendipitybutterfly]

...a month late... A birthday year ahead reading for Kim Taehyung... Featuring a startling revelation?! ... Sir Taehyung???

Sometimes you do a reading and something arises that you didn't even ask for and never expected... But we'll get to that.

In terms of advice for this year for Tae, with the reversed ace of cups and reversed 4 of earth (pentacles) coming as significators of this reading, there's a real message of needing to unblock and release certain energies, situations, attitudes... Imagine a clod of earth blocking a water pipe and the pressure is building up behind it. Eventually something has to give, and it should be that clod of earth... Not the pipe.

Reversals for me generally indicate blockages in areas of a person's life. With an ace of cups in reverse and a four of pentacles in reverse, I'm feeling a blockage in emotional connection or at least in being able to express one's emotions with ease... Which maybe leads to compensating with shows of material wealth... Over spending... Overgenerosity... This is interesting because I think Tae seems to express his feelings and affection for his friends and family pretty well... At least from what we see... But these cards are indicating to me that he struggles a lot with this actually and that he tends to bottle things up until he explodes (like my blocked pipe analogy) or tries to express feelings through ostentatious gifts or compensates for not expressing his emotions healthily by overspending... Essentially the advice is to unblock these energies... To learn earn to release and express his emotions in a healthy way.

Going into the more specific advice cards for the year ahead, we're starting off on an extremely positive note with The Star and the reversed 3 of water (cups). I see with this that there's real potential this year for Tae to fulfill a dream or desire. Something he wants for himself. A personal goal or project that he works on alone. With the 6 of wands and King of Earth (pentacles) we can see that pursuing this will bring him a lot of praise and success as well as greater wealth and stability. This could be anything from a solo music project, to another acting job... I'm not sure exactly what it is other than it's a real wish he has and wants to do it for himself. The advice here is simple; go for it, it will be successful.

At the centre of this reading we have the reversed Sun and the 2 of water (cups). Even reversed, the Sun is still such a positive card... It's just the energy is blocked, delayed... What I'm getting from this is that there is actually a love connection manifesting for Tae in the future which will bring him a lot of happiness... But for now he's going to need to be patient because the timing isn't right. It's coming... Just not quite yet... Though not in the too distant future... Maybe even next year?... It depends on what happens between then and now of course... But i do see happiness in a relationship ... It's just the energy is blocked so it won't manifest for a bit. If he can learn to open himself up and express his emotions this will help bring any desires he has for love into fruition...

For now though he has to work on himself. With the High Priestess and Strength here I'm seeing, and feeling, a powerful development of spirituality... Honestly it was visceral. I think it's highly likely that this year Tae may begin to explore and develop his spirituality more seriously... Certainly there's some deepening and strengthening of spiritual beliefs going on here. His faith in his intuition, in the advice coming from his spiritual guides, will become stronger. As he listens to his guides and gets confirmation over and over his faith is continuously going to deepen, as is his wisdom and understanding of the world.

The last two tarot cards of advice for the year ahead are the 2 of wands and reversed 7 of water (cups). What I see here is the advice to not be afraid to consider his options and step outside the box. He has so many talents and so many opportunities to use his skills and gifts... He's being advised to look at them all... Give them all some thought... And not feel like he has to stick to one certain thing or path when he has so many roads he can walk before him.

Now, for the oracle cards, I got first Winter Solstice: Reflection. Honestly this card made me start humming Singularity, which was interesting (the lyrics make so much sense in this case) ... I feel again a sense of needing to release something. In this case, I get the message of needing to reflect on the past, on all things that have happened, good and bad, lessons learnt and how much he's grown up and matured... And release that which is holding him back from moving forward. The negative emotions and fears which keep him bottling up his feelings and being so wary of opening up to others... This is an interesting one of course because Tae is in a position where there is a legit rational argument for why he should be guarded and wary of new people... But at the same time, you can be sensible without locking your heart away entirely and living with a lot of fear and worry about your connections with others isn't healthy... There has to be balance. Basically... I think this card is telling him to reflect on himself and realise how far he's come and how much stronger and wiser he is now... He can trust himself and his intuition.

Okay... And now this is the card that gave me chills in this reading... This deck is called 'Angels and Ancestors' and I thought it was a particularly good deck to use for Tae because... Idk if I've mentioned it before but, wow, he has such strong ancestral energy surrounding him. His family probably don't play with paying respect to the ancestors because there's really such a strong link there...

Anyway, for his advice for this year I got the Knight card which says 'Be brave and honest'. However, more than just a message of advice for the year I got two distinct impressions that literally gave me chills and goosebumps... First that one of the main ancestors or spirit guides that's looking out for Tae right now was a Knight... Or the Korean equivalent thereof... A noble warrior with a sworn sacred code of morality... And second, that Tae himself, in a past life, was a Knight... (?! When I tell you i was shook!)... Not only that, but, and I kid you not, I heard French in a man's voice (I don't even speak French!!!) saying something like "Mon coeur... Lion..."?... I couldn't understand or make it all out but I recognised those words so they stuck with me. As did the impression that they were part of some kind of personal motto or vow... My heart like a lion...? Honestly I was just stunned at that point... I wasn't expecting to be told anything like this and if there is one thing here I'd like to tell Tae most it's this... This was a lot and unexpected and also... Really quite personal... So I didn't want to pry into it or ask more... I can only say, in terms of advice, I feel like knowing this and coming into that noble warrior, brave, chivalrous energy would bring him a lot of strength and comfort.

Finally... After that surprise... The angel oracle card for his year ahead was Fiona. This card says: Now that you've asked the angels for help, be open to receiving divine guidance and assistance. You deserve heaven's help!

This definitely resonates with the message of his developing spiritual beliefs and opening up to his guides and i think he's definitely already on the right path in this regard. Once he's open to listening to his guides, his angels, his ancestors... They'll lead him to wherever he needs to go and protect him from harm.

The numerology of this reading comes to 11; a number in numerology which speaks to high vibrational spirituality and receiving guidance from angels and spirit guides. Once again I'm struck by the message that this is a year of spiritual exploration for Tae.

I think this has the potential to be an amazing year of success for Tae, both materially in terms of his career and spiritually as he develops his intuitive gifts and strengthens his connection to his guides. He has the power of his ancestors behind him... And they're strong. He's in good hands truly. Bless you Sir Taehyung!!! 💜 💜💜 ♞ ⚔ 🦁 ❤️

[theveil-and-thepath]

Hello! I would like to be a part of our personal readings for 2022 please! I say your post on my tumblr feed based on recent searches.

My question is that I would like to get a reading done on what career I should go into because I am stuck between engineering, computer science, or Law and I just really want some spiritual clarification on what I should pursue urgently, especially because I am starting to apply for colleges. So this post was really a blessing for me! ✨

Thank you so so much for doing this for free! Happy Valentine's Day btw!! 💞💞

Hi there! Thank you for sending your ask. I'm afraid it is now too late since you probably already chose something, I'm sorry for that, but I will check the energies nonetheless.

My intuition guides me to law, I feel that even if you chose something different, this desire (or the doubt) to pursue law won't die so fast in you. You may question 'should i have chosen law' for a while.

Why should you pursue:

engineering: two of cups, ace of swords, page of pentacles

computer science: two of cups, justice, empress

law: three of wands, king of pentacles, seven of swords

Well, I'd rank computer sciences over engineering, but you can also feel a desire to experience law (and oscilate between law an cs). Maybe you chose computer sciences but you can feel that you can have more life experience if you go for law, that it would allow you to explore different fields. The cards for all 3 options were positive, but you'd have the fastest and greatest growth in either computer sciences or law.

Engineering feels more 'flat' to me, but would also provide you with a good netword, friends and job opportunities.

Law can make you feel more stable financially, give extra opportinities to travel and develop some side hobbies while you study, but it will also be somewhat competitive and the environment won't be as pleasent as the one you can find while you do computer sciences. In fact, you may find that you still have a passion for tech and stem, and you can dislike the motivations of fellow law students and lawyers. You may not fit in so well or feel so comfortable. Consider how much of your motivation for taking law comes from yourself, and how much comes from everyone else, see what is passion and what is a mere 'logical good decision'. It is a good decision to take law, but I don't feel like you will feel it's you 'calling' as you can feel in computer sciences.

I do feel you'll take at least one course in law or related subjects in case you take compter sciences, and this is the option that ranks the highest for me. Its spread had mostly major arcana and having the empress is good both for your personal development as it is money wise. You should find your crowd here, a good group of people, and you won't question people's motives as you would do in law school.

Whatever you chose, will bring benefits to your future, the spirit side let it up to you, but it looks like that it will be related to computer sciences, the path looks more clear in cs.

I hope this reading helped you in some way!

Love,

Veil