#*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today
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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but#not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about.#that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends#that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even#considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF...#like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy)#but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car#crash or fix me soup when I'm sick.#like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad#and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship#right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go#if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through#the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!!#and I think this was why the loss of Her⢠friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after#she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think#anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore#but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst#Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that#this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me#WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!!#*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today#and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore!#In the Vents#GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS
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Almost Lover: Part 4 - Xavier Plympton Imagine
Part 1Â Part 2Â Part 3
Y/N was happily seated in between Xavier and Chet, as the group roasted marshmallows by the campfire. The nurse, Rita, had joined them a few minutes earlier, much to Y/Nâs annoyance. Rita soon brought up the night stalker, as Y/N watched Brooke grimace at the mere mention of his name. However, clearly she wasnât the only one who noticed. Xavier quickly stood up and walked over to Brooke, placing his arm behind her back as he leaned in closer to her.
âRita. I totally understand the tradition, and usually I'm cool with that, but our friend Brooke here had a for-real assault, and we're just not in the mood for a bullshit ghost storyâ Xavier explained, a protective tone in his voice.
Y/N practically bristled as she watched Brooke give him a grateful smile. If it wasnât bad enough that he still seemed to like Montana, now his attention was drifting towards the new girl.
âIt's not bullshit. And there was no ghost. I'll be honest with you. I've never been a nurse at a summer camp before. And you've never been counselors. So how did we get these jobs with no prior experience? That's because anybody that knows anything about Camp Redwood doesn't want to be in Camp Redwoodâ Rita announced, as Y/N gave her a dubious look.
âThen how come your here, Rita? If itâs so dangerous?â Y/N accused.
âI like a little dangerâ Rita shrugged, as Y/N brushed off the comment, turning her attention back to Xavier.
Xavier seemed to notice she was staring at him, as he straightened up a little, a somewhat guilty look on his face. Y/N was barely listening to Ritaâs ghost story about some weirdo named âMr Jinglesâ, as she gave Xavier a confused look, which he shrugged to in response.
âAm I boring you two?â Rita questioned, noticing neither of them had been paying attention.
âI was listening. He was a freak who liked to cut peoples ears offâ Y/N shrugged.
âYouâre wrong. There was a lot more to him than thatâ A voice told her, as they all turned to see Margaret had snuck up on them.
âDonât take it personally, Margaret. When these two are around each other, they donât really pay attention to anything elseâ Montana teased, as Y/N had to restrain herself from stepping over the fire and strangling Montana.
âDuly notedâ Margaret mumbled, as she walked over to Y/N and raised an eyebrow.
âIf you want to hear what really happened then I should at least get a seatâ Margaret went on, placing a hand on her hip.
Y/N rolled her eyes, as she reluctantly stood up from where she was seated on the log. She could see that there were nowhere else to sit, so she marched over to Xavier and got ready to kneel on the muddy ground.
âIf youâre going to tell a story, tell it right...â Margaret began, whilst Y/N stopped listening when she felt a warm arm wrap itself around her waist.
She looked down and realised it belonged to Xavier, as a blush began to rise on her face.
âYou can sit with meâ Xavier mummured, not looking at her, as he was trying to listen to Margaretâs story.
âThereâs no roomâ Y/N pointed out, as Xavier pulled her onto his lap.
She sat on his thigh, as he kept his arm still wrapped around her waist. By now, Y/N could tell her blush had grown, not to mention her heart rate had sped up. She tried her best to listen to Margaretâs story and ignore her current position, when Xavier began to unconsciously stroke her hip with his thumb. Y/N bit her lip, as she wondered whether Xavier really didnât know what he was doing. She was brought of her trance as she saw Margaret stand up, as Y/N guessed she had finished her story. From what Y/Nâs preoccupied mind could gather, Mr Jingles had killed everyone but Margaret, who had gone on to be the star witness and send him to jail. Y/N was beginning to question this, when she felt Xavier rest his chin on her shoulder.
âSheâs kind of spooky, huh?â Xavier teased, his cool breath on her neck.
âUh...Iâm...Iâm going to check on the hiker...â Y/N stuttered, as she quickly stood up.
âIâll come with you. I want to make sure heâs alrightâ Brooke informed her, standing up.
âIâll come tooâ Xavier announced.
âYou really donât need to. Weâll be fineâ Brooke stated, as Y/N crossed her arms and looked away.
âItâs no problem. Iâve got to keep an eye on my best girlâ Xavier teased, making Y/N rolled her eyes.
âIâll just leave you two to it thenâ Y/N mummured as she began walking away.
Brooke shook her head fondly, as she saw Xavier watching her go with puppy dog eyes. The pair were so clearly pining for each other, but neither seemed to realise it.
Y/N burst into a fit of giggles as she watched Montana all but drool over the new arrival. Trevor had clearly captured her interest...or at least a certain part of him had. Whereas Brooke seemed uncomfortable as he stretched in front of her, his crotch more or less in her face. Not for the first time, Y/N couldnât help but question if Brooke was even interested in men.
âYouâre a legendâ Montana informed Trevor, a dreamy look on her face.
âThanksâ Trevor replied, with a small smirk.
âYouâre welcomeâ Montana said, in a breathy tone.
âOkay, down girlâ Y/N giggled, as she nudged Montana.
âItâs cool. Iâm used to fansâ Trevor grinned.
âYou better be careful on your way out...Iâm not sure your head is going to fit through the doorâ Y/N retorted.
âAh...but which head?â Trevor joked, as Y/N laughed.
âYou got me thereâ She giggled.
âCute...heâs mine, Y/Nâ Montana whispered, but was still loud enough for everyone to hear.
âDonât worry, sheâs not my type, babyâ Trevor winked at Monatana.
âRude!â Y/N exclaimed.
âHey, youâre a good looking girl, kid. But your still...well, a kidâ Trevor pointed out.
âMontanaâs only four years older than meâ Y/N scoffed.
âAnd you know what that means...four years more experienceâ Montana smirked at Trevor.
Later that night, Y/N was sitting on the floor, her back against the bed Xavier was lounging on, while they watched the beginning of the Olympics.
âI heard the male athletes outnumber the females five to one. That's some tough competitionâ Brooke teased Chet, who had a devestated look on his face.
âWhat the fuck would you know about it?â Chet retorted, in an angry tone.
âWoah!â Xavier exclaimed, as he pushed himself upright.
âDude, shut up already. Youâre being a dickâ Ray told him, as Chet scrunched up the can he had been drinking from.
âFuck You!â Chet yelled, as he threw the metal can at Ray, who held up his hand to protect himself.
âChet, what the hell?â Xavier gaped.
âYou need to calm down right nowâ Y/N told him, pushing herself up.
âShit...â Ray trailed off, as he saw his hand was now bleeding.
âMy bad...I...I didnât mean to-â Chet began, approaching Ray with a concerned look on his face.
âBack off!â Ray shouted.
âIâm sorry, manâ Chet sighed.
âDamn roid rageâ Ray mummured, as Chet shook his head and stormed out of the room.
âChet, wait up!â Y/N exclaimed, following close behind him.
âY/N, just leave him. Itâs not worth itâ Xavier insisted, as Chet left the cabin.
âHeâs our friend, Xâ Y/N retorted, as she rushed outside.
âChet, itâs okay-â Y/N began, but he cut her off.
âNo, itâs not! Rayâs right, look at me! Iâve ruined my life and for what? I have no career, no girlfriend, no future...â Chet trailed off, almost sounding like he was going to cry.
âHey, itâs not all bad. At least youâve still got your absâ Y/N suggested, as Chet chuckled.
âYeah, they are pretty radâ Chet nodded.
âJust come back inside, okay? Apologise to Ray, and just...chillâ Y/N told him.
âYeah...thanks, Y/Nâ Chet smiled at her, as he pulled her into a hug.
âUh, Chet? Youâre kind of crushing meâ Y/N giggled, ushering to his arms wrapped around her tightly.
âOh, sorryâ Chet laughed, as he pulled away slightly.
Just then the cabin door opened, revealing an annoyed looking Xavier, who frowned as he saw how close the pair were standing.
âAm I interrupting something?â Xavier questioned, gritting his teeth.
âNo. Uh, is Ray still in there?â Chet asked.
âHeâs gone get bandagesâ Xavier replied, with an angry tone.
âIâm gonnaâ go after himâ Chet announced, as Y/N nodded, watching as he went back inside the cabin.
âSeriously, Y/N? Chet?â Xavier accused, as he shut the cabin door so the others couldnât hear their conversation.
âNothing happened. Jesus, what is with you lately? One second your avoiding me and the next your breathing down my neck? Are you that pissed that Iâm leaving?â Y/N retorted.
âMaybe...maybe I am. Your my best friend...I donât want to lose you, okay?â Xavier sighed.
âJust because weâre not going to be living in the same state doesnât mean we wonât still be best friends, X. Iâll be home all the timeâ Y/N explained.
âThatâs not why Iâm worried about losing youâ Xavier admitted.
âWhat do you mean?â Y/N frowned.
âI care about you...a lot. More than I should-â Xavier began but was cut off by Y/N.
âDid you hear that?â Y/N gulped, as she looked out into the forest.
âHear what?â Xavier inquired, following her gaze.
âI thought I heard...nevermind. Letâs go back insideâ Y/N mumbled, as she opened the cabin door, with a frown.
Was Margaretâs story just getting to her or did she just hear keys jingling?
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