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📱our 4 main babies

brace urself bestie xo.

alexandria + sienna,

unsent: sometimes i feel like, maybe it’s me yakno 

unsent: maybe i’m the problem. i have to be the problem right? first my brother and sister just yakno, forget about me and now i feel like you guys will be next.

unsent: am i overthinking again?

unsent: i dont know what to do anymore

unsent: i’m scared to be alone again. i cant go through that again.

sent: hey remember that time you said you would bake me a pan of cookies? can you come over and do that? thx. <3

alexandria + leonard,

unsent: i had a guy from work over. his name’s micah and he’s great. he’s nice and thinks i have pretty eyes and a nice smile. we work on the same floor and i think that he’s great. he lets me rant about things that i like. it’s nice.

unsent: but then it started storming. and i was okay at first but then the power went out and everything went to shit. so, i sent him home. which was stupid of me but i did. 

unsent: because he wasn’t you. it’s not you hugging me and telling me that it’s just thunder and it’ll pass. and it sucks. i wanted it to be you. i still want it to be you. i loved you, or still love you. maybe i hate you. i don’t know anymore.

unsent: it’s actually pathetic how much i love you. i look for you in every room. i still have the pictures we took on our last date before we broke up as laptop’s wallpaper and i hate it. i hate pretending like this is okay.

unsent: i know you don’t love me anymore and it’s selfish of me to try to keep pretending that you do. i wish you did. 

sent: hey! sorry i missed your calls. something came up, hope everything’s okay. 

roman + leonard,

unsent: i’m trying to wrap my head around the fact that sienna actually loves me.

unsent: i didn’t think guys like us deserved love. it’s probably because kimberly’s crystals shit. maybe she did a seance. omg do you think my niece did a seance? she did, didn’t she? actually don’t answer that. 

unsent: but it feels great. i love her. like i really, really love her. and it’s terrifying. like, having someone hold your entire heart in your hands? scary shit man. 

unsent: you know, maybe kimberly can do a seance for u too. that way the four of us can go to couples night and take advantage of the discount at the karaoke bar downtown. jesus leo get your shit together we’re missing out on good deals.

unsent: if me of all people on this fucking shit hole of a planet gets a shot at happiness so do you.

sent: not to be that guy but, a little birdie told me you literally eat like a college student so. swing by tonight so i have an excuse to open up my grill. 

roman + sienna,

unsent: do you ever feel like you’re not enough for someone? 

unsent: i feel like you deserve so much more than i can offer. you deserve a trip to italy. or hawaii. dubai, cancun. and i can barely afford a trip a few towns over.

unsent: should i have like gone to college? continue with baseball? maybe then i could give you the things you deserve. or maybe then i could have been someone you could be proud of.

unsent: i know i can come to you about anything but.. i don’t know why i feel like this but i do. it’s hard to pretend that i don’t feel like this all the time. it’s a feeling that’s hard to shake.

unsent: i really wish i could just tell you everything. everything that happened before i met you and why it’s hard for me to be open to begin with. i hate lying to you. i hate pretending i’m okay because i’m not.

sent: hey, kimberly misses you. so do i. can you pass by? we’re making pasta.