#* / stuck in my head; can't get you out of it ( l. patterson x sunsetsphantom )

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@sunsetsphantom​ /  ‘ i just want to tell you it takes everything in me not to call you ’ - luke & claudia / red (taylor’s version) meme. 

    “ i guess i should appreciate the fact that you don’t, ” she replies, her voice soft. she won’t tell him that she sits up most nights wondering if he will call, or even show up at her window because that’s not something anyone is supposed to do after a breakup. she’s not supposed to listen to their songs, or go through her camera roll that’s filled with pictures of them, both sweet and goofy. she isn’t supposed to think of him every time she wanders past their old spots, or wear his old, sleeveless band shirts to bed. claudia seems to be doing everything that she shouldn’t, and part of her feels ashamed for it. “ you have a lot more self-control than i do, ” she admits freely. if she hadn’t changed his contact name to something else, something to remind her that she shouldn’t call him, claudia’s almost certain she would be calling every night.  

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@sunsetsphantom​ / “ i can still see it all– all of you, all of me, intertwined. ” - luke & claudia / lover meme.

      “ luke... ” she sighs. what is she supposed to say to that? claudia’s never been one to lie, and she certainly can’t bring herself to do it now. she shifts closer to him, leans in just enough to rest her forehead against his, “ this isn’t moving on, ” she whispers, nose nudging against his, “ i can’t let you go if you keep saying things like this... ”  if there’s one thing that claudia will never be sure of, it’s how she and luke keep ending up here. they’re supposed to be letting go of each other and learning how to live their lives without one another. it’s what they both wanted, what they decided would be best. 

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@sunsetsphantom​ / a kiss to convince the other to stay - claudia + luke / another kiss prompt.

               SHE CAN SEE IT ON HIS FACE; he’s about to sigh loudly and tell her that he should probably head home, but... it’s friday night, her parents are away for the weekend, and she really doesn’t want him to go. claudia looks at him with a knowing smile, eyes filled with a deep fondness and admiration for the boy in front of her. she reaches out, hand finding its place on his cheek, his skin soft and warm against her own. to her, it's a privilege to be in love with luke, to get to sit with him like this and admire every detail like the work of art he is. she could stare at him for hours if he’d let her. 

                  eventually, she draws him in until their lips meet, her kiss tender and loving, a kind of devotion spilling into it that her words could never accomplish. it’s deeply intimate, a display of how willing she is to let him have every last piece of her. it’s her way of letting him know that she feels safe, trusts him enough to leave her heart in his hands and know that he’ll take care of it. underneath it all, it’s claudia telling him that she’s ready. she has both hands on his neck now, fingers toying with the ends of his hair. she can feel her heart racing, lips barely leaving luke’s as she rests her forehead against his, “ stay with me tonight, ” she tells him, voice no louder than a gentle whisper. forget curfews and expectations, and the world outside, claudia has everything she needs right here in her arms. 

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@sunsetsphantom​ / ‘ you're really cute, you know. ’ - luke & claudia / reassurance starters.

      “ oh my god... ” she giggles, her cheeks aching from how much she’s been smiling. when it comes to luke, claudia can’t seem to stop. he’s charming and funny, always entertaining her in class even though it gets them both into trouble. she used to worry that her crush would always be one-sided. maybe she wasn’t his type, or maybe he was just being nice to her because they sat near each other in a couple of classes. her friends like to make fun of her for it; of course she’d fall for effervescent musician, the one with a smile so warm and inviting that she couldn’t help but like him. she tucks her hair behind her ear, cheeks flushed from his compliment, “ you’re pretty cute yourself, patterson, ” claudia looks at him, a slight twinkle in her eye, “ you got a girlfriend? ” she jokes, sending a playful wink his way. 

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sunsetsphantom​:

luke almost lets out a scoff at her saying he has more self control than she does because really, his self control is shit. she’s constantly on his mind and he always seems to find a way to bring her up in almost every conversation he has. he’s constantly checking his phone for a missed call or missed text from her. he’s only just recently changed the background on his phone from being a picture of her. she occupies every space of his mind, he can’t let her go even if she tried. “yeah, i wouldn’t necessarily say that.” he replies with a shrug, if he’s being truthful he might as well be. “i’m not kidding when i say it takes everything in me not to call, i’ve almost just said ‘fuck it’ and done it … loads of times.” almost every night.

     there are plenty of times, usually in the peak of the midnight hours, when claudia starts to wonder if maybe they should just give up. clearly being apart isn’t working; he wants to call her, she wants to call him... it’s more of a mess than she thought it’d be if they’d stayed together through the rise of sunset curve. it’s more than frustrating at this point. she always thought that it’d get easier with time, that she wouldn’t feel the same pull in her heart every time she sees him but just as he’s always been ( even in the brighter times of their relationship ), luke is someone she can’t find the strength to let go of. claudia tries to blink back the tears in her eyes, but a stray one manages to slip down her cheek. she doesn’t bother wiping it away. there’s no point in hiding her feelings anymore, not when he probably feels the same way. “ maybe this was a mistake, ” she says softly. she doesn’t look at him, she can’t. “ i thought maybe it’d be easier on both of us. all i want is for you to be happy, i don’t want to be someone that holds you back but i can’t even take the picture off my nightstand... ” it’s of the two of them; claudia sitting in front of luke with his guitar in her lap. she still remembers the day it was taken, he’d been trying to teach her how to play and it was the first time she realised that she was head over heels in love with him. maybe that’s why she can’t put it away, because she’s still in love with him. “ i miss you, luke. ”